Thanks for bearing with me I know I've kinda destroyed the Kate and Caroline fluffiness but it all works into where I want to take this Story. Here's another update so enjoy... Sorry was a little rushed so hopefully spelling etc isn't too awful :) look forward to reading your comments.
Caroline sat uncomfortably at the kitchen table, she wasn't sure what was going on all she knew was today had been one of the worst she could remember, and now to top it all off it was 4 o'clock and she hadn't seen Kate all day. Shed been told Kate had just left work no explanation and Caroline couldn't help but think something awful had happened, as Kate would never normally have left without speaking to her or very least phoned.
Caroline buried her head in her hands, the pressures of all the upset were pushing her close to breaking point how could everything go so terribly wrong in the space of a few weeks. They hadn't managed to enjoy much drama free time before everything had gone wrong! And now she needed to tell Kate about Gavin, and cause Kate more pain it had meant nothing, she hadn't wanted it but she hadn't stopped it straight away either she couldn't shake the guilty feeling.
Kate sat in the drive she knew she had to face Caroline, but she felt sick she was scared she wouldn't have the words or the strength. What if this was the last time she ever walked into see Caroline. What if she was about to end it or worse confessed their whole time together had been a lie. Had she just stayed with her to support her after Michael and this not what she wanted anymore. Even worse what if shed got it wrong what if Caroline hadn't done.. And she had just ruined everything...She couldn't think it. Would Caroline do that to me?, Her heart beat faster she loved Caroline and Caroline loved her would she really have been seeing Gavin?
she sighed loudly at the sheer mess of the whole situation the thought of it caused a tear to trail down her face, well she had just slept with Greg so was she really any better. She loved Caroline and yet she had betrayed her, it had been in anger but now she couldn't shake the feeling of distrust and betrayal, how could she face Caroline.
Caroline paced the kitchen as Lawrence walked in opening the fridge "leave it" Caroline snapped, he watched her before slowly deciding now was probably not the time to challenge his mother. "Why's Kate sitting in the car outside?" Caroline looked up "is she?" Lawrence nodded "why is she?" the desperation clear in her voice. He shrugged "I don't know", Caroline stood up and headed for the door as she approached the front door she heard the key in the lock and in front of her stood a disheveled looking Kate. "Kate" Caroline rushed towards her pulling her into her arms she felt Kate melt at her touch and then stiffen as she pulled back. "Kate what's happened, where have you been? I was worried sick", Kate diverted her gaze it was too painful to look into those beautiful blue eyes "we need to talk Caroline".
Caroline noted the coldness the distance the swollen puffy eyes of her lover, "Kate what's happened" "is Lawerence home?", "he's upstairs Kate what's going on I've been trying to get hold of you Gavin came to see me today".
"I know" her voice icy, Caroline shifted forward a little but Kate backed away "don't Caroline" "what!" Caroline shook herself why was Kate being like this, it was so unlike her she didn't understand.
"What that he came to see me" Kate nodded silently "he has bad news I've been suspended" she had expected Kate to consol her tell her everything was going to be ok, take her in her arms and make her feel safe, but nothing. "Kate did you not here me, I've been suspended because of Michael". Kate bit her lip the words were coming she couldn't stop them "shame your boyfriend couldn't help you out of that situation".
she watched Caroline eyes widen in confusion "I saw you Caroline, I saw you". Kate's words echoed in her ears "what did you see?" She could here her heart beating as if it would jump from her chest, her eyes blurry her arm outstretched and then rejected. "Kate!" Her soft concerned, even sad tone broke the silent stare between them "you kissing him". She saw the tears in her eyes, the hurt the mistrust "Kate I didn't..."
Kate face reddened "DONT LIE TO ME CAROLINE" her voice loud so angry and cold "I saw you"..she searched her eyes she sensed Caroline uneasiness maybe her guilt. Caroline searched her eyes and searched for the explanation..but that hadn't been what had happened ..not really. "Kate it's not what you think" Kate eyebrows raised her body tightened in defense she felt sick "don't deny it" her voice no more than a whisper.
"I do deny it, it wasn't like that" Caroline voice a desperate plea "how was it not like that Caroline I saw you" Kate sat down on the sofa stinking her head Low. "Caroline how could you do that, to me!" Caroline moved to sit with her she moved her hand to clasp Kate's, feeling her try to snatch it away.
Caroline shifted on her seat, she felt Kate try to move, she wouldn't face her, it was if her touch caused physical pain to her. "Caroline I know what I saw and well I assume it's over between us, so let's not make it anymore painful". She moved to get up, Caroline held her "Kate please", her grip tightened "it was him", Kate snatched her hand away and tried to stand. She couldn't listen to this "KATE" she couldn't help but feel the desperation in her voice.
"I love you Kate, I wouldn't" Kate didn't move, "how can you" Caroline's hand tensed tighter on her wrist, as Kate tried to escape. "Caroline let go" she growled angrily at her she saw Caroline's eyes harden, as she threw her body on top of Kate straddling her lap.
"Kate listen" she turned her face away, "Caroline get the hell off me" she shouted her body arching to escape her hold. Caroline moved her hands to free Kate feeling her body relax a little as she clasped her face. "I love you, you've got this all wrong". She felt Kate's eyes bore into hers, the connection so deep, the pain so evident.
Caroline had never been very good at explaining how she felt she tilted Kate's head and lowered her face a little, taking Kate lips. She felt her attempt to move away her arms pushing Caroline back, but Caroline kissed her harder stroking her neck and felt Kate's resolve weaken. She felt Kate kiss her back with force, be it anger or what Caroline carried on her lips locking with Kate's. She felt Kate soften at her touch as their tongues connected hands roaming eyes shut tightly.
Caroline needed to make Kate listen, needed to make her understand, to show her she loved her more than anything. Her hands caressing her skin feeling Kate gasp as her hands travelled south down her torso reaching for the hem of her top.
Kate squeezed her eyes shut trying to push the thoughts of Caroline doing this with him, him touching her, kissing her, holding her making her cry out in pleasure. She moaned as Caroline's hand reached her bare stomach moving higher to stroke her nipple, She moved to the hem of Caroline's skirt Instinctively.
The images of Greg doing the same to her this afternoon , she felt the sick feeling return trying to erase his face from her memory, trying to force the memory of him touching her being on top of her to the deepest recesses of him mind.
"open you eyes" Caroline whispered her comply instant as she watched those blue eyes sink into her "I love you Kate", Caroline's hand pulled at her nipple her concentration strong, her body refused to move. "He kissed me, I don't want him I want you". She kissed Kate's neck feeling her shiver at the touch "I didn't want it, I was upset" another kiss as her hand cupped her breast "he took advantage". Her lips sort Kate's "it's always you, forever" the tears streaming down their faces the salty taste connected with their lips as their mouths intertwined.
"It was just a kiss, I want you. I love you please Kate" the sobbing racked Kate's body her eyes sore her head heavy her face flushed. They stopped still holding each other's gaze she watched Caroline's face the love so clear, her words so honest she believed her!
"Caroline I believe you" her body shivered, the tears more abundant her sobs relentless "Kate if you believe me, we're ok. It's ok I don't blame you for jumping to conclusions, I love you we can work this all out, I'm yours I'm here I'm not letting you go".
"Caro..Caroline I have to tell you something, I've done something awful" Caroline moved to embrace her holding her tight "it's ok Kate, whatever it is, we can sort it together. It's ok Kate I love you more than anything, all I need is you!" The relief flooded over Caroline's body as Kate fully embraced her, she saw the hardness in her eyes dissipate as she held her so close. Everything was going to be ok, whatever Kate had done it couldn't be that bad, they'd work through it the most important thing was they were together.
"you can tell me anything sweetheart, tell me Kate".