Never Let Me Fall

(Season 4)

It was early morning. Stefan, Damon and I were in Elena's room. Elena was sleeping in her bed. She's been going in and out on her sleeps. We soon learned the true story, how Elena and Matt went off Wickory Bridge and Stefan could only save one. He wanted to save Elena, but Elena told him to save Matt instead. In the end Matt was saved and Elena died. With vampire blood in her system.

She soon woke up. Stefan sat near her bed, Damon was in the opposite direction near a wall, and I leaned against the wall slightly, but wasn't too far from Stefan. "Stefan?" Elena started. She was confused. "Hey. I'm right here. You've been going in and out in for hours." Stefan told her. "Wh... what happened?" She asked. "You were in an accident." Stefan told her calmly. "Oh my God! Matt is he..." She started. "Alive?...ask Stefan the hero." Damon interrupted. He was pissed off right now.

"He's fine." Stefan informed her. "Thank you. I thought that I – how did you...?" Elena started to ask. "Save you? He didn't." Damon interrupted again.

I was trying so hard not to punch Damon right now. He wasn't making any of this easier, he's only making it harder than it already is!

"When Jeremy brought you to the hospital before all this happened, your injuries were worse than anyone knew." Stefan started. "Dr. Fell made a choice. She used Damon's blood to heal you, since it was the only supply of fresh vampire blood she had left, that Alaric didn't throw out." I continued. "And when Rebekah ran Matt's truck off the road, you had vampire blood in your system." Damon finished.

Realization kicking in at 5...

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2... "Oh my God. Does- does that mean I am- am I dead?" Elena asked with panic in her voice.

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We didn't say anything. I nodded slightly, but it wasn't quite noticeable. "No, no, no, no! That wasn't suppose to happen!" Elena stated. Well uh...Duh! "Maybe it doesn't have to. I talked to Bonnie, she said she's stronger than ever, there might be something she can do to help you." Stefan told her. I scoffed in my head.

Dammit Stefan...stop lying to yourself already! You know she's gonna end up like the rest of you, and with our luck, she'd probably lose control and be a female version of the Ripper!

"No, the only thing that's going to help you is for you to feed and complete the transition." Damon told her. "We have all day before she has to feed, Damon. That's a day of exhaust in every possible way out of this." Stefan told him. He seemed well kept together for this. Unlike Damon.

"There's no way out of it. We all know the drill. You feed or you die. There's no door number three." Damon told Elena. I sighed. "I'm sorry, Stefan...but Damon has a point. There's no such thing as a cure for vampirism. There never has and never will. I'm sorry Elena, but it's your choice. You can either live forever or die today. Let me know. I'll catch you later." I said before leaving the room. "Wait...please don't go. I.. I can't do this alone." Elena pleaded.

She had hope and fear and tears in her eyes at the same time. I gave her a sad smile and sat next to her on the edge of her bedside seat. Stefan and Damon soon later left to go talk in the kitchen, while I stayed with Elena in her room.

"So...um how are you feeling?" I asked her. I wanted to start a conversation with her. "I don't know exactly what I'm feeling now." Elena told me. Such a bummer! At least her not knowing what she feels, hasn't changed! "I mean vampire wise, not emotion. Do you feel different or the same?" I corrected myself. "Um...I don't know. I feel like myself, but I'm not. Everything seems so different to me. Even...even the airs different." Elena told me. "I don't understand?" I confessed. "Well, for example you, you look different to me. I mean yeah, you look like you, like you always do, but you seem to have a purer color in your skin, eyes, hair, everything. And the air seem so much thinner and clear. I can hear so clearly. I can hear whats going on downstairs too. I can um I can hear your heart beating every second. And it's creeping me out." She told me. I smiled at her sadly and said,

"Sorry, but I don't know how to make it stop without dying in the process!" referring to my heart. We shared a humorless laugh for a moment.

This is NOT how I planned to start my day out! It's the exact opposite!

"I'm gonna go change." Elena told me before getting up to change her clothes. Elena stood in front of the mirror and checked herself for any fangs sprouting out. Jeremy soon came in and hugged Elena. I felt bad for Jeremy. All he wanted was to protect his sister from this, but couldn't save her from becoming a vampire in transition. I stayed upstairs in the bedroom as Elena went downstairs. After a while Elena came back upstairs.

"Hey." I said as she entered. I was going through her jewelry box. "I thought you left?" Elena said. "My best friend is going in transition...did you really think I would just leave?" I asked her, not really searching for an answer. I looked up for the jewelry box, to look at her. She was staring at something. I turned my head back and left and right. What on earth was she looking at?!

"Elena?...Elena are you alright!?" I asked in alarm. She didn't reply. Now I was starting to worry. After a moment, she snapped out of it. She came next to me to grab an old family photo of her parents, when they were still alive. "I'm fine, I was just thinking...it's nothing major." She said. I could tell from her eyes, she seemed uneased. From that I knew she was lying, but I didn't pressure her or anything. She has enough to deal with already.

I sighed as I looked at the photo. I really did like Elena's parents, they were just like my parents. When they died, it reminded me of the time my parents died as well. I immediately comforted Elena during her entire mourning stage. It was when she met Stefan that she didn't need me anymore. She had stopped mourning.

Elena and I soon heard something going on downstairs. Elena went to check it out. I followed seconds later. "Stefan?" Elena started "Is everything all...right?" I finished. We stopped dead end on our tracks as we saw men pointing there weapons on Stefan. "Don't move." Stefan told us. We didn't.

We were at Pastor Young's house. Apparently Elena used to babysit his daughter, April Young long ago. And yes Pastor Young was responsible for now kidnapping Stefan. Elena and I were sitting at a small table across from each other, while Pastor Young was cooking. Elena was biting her nails, while I twisted a strain of my hair.

Talk about bad old habits.

"You still wanna be a writer? I remember how you'd read your short stories to my daughter when you'd babysit. She still loves writing because of you." Pastor Young told Elena. "Why did you bring us here?" Elena asked him. "My deputies can watch out for us here. No vampires have been invited in. Look, Elena, I know it sounds crazy, but years ago it was your parents who were advocating having an emergency plan like this. I never thought we'd actually have to use it." Pastor Young told her. After a while, Elena started to panic a bit. She still was in transition.

"Elena? Elena, are you okay?" He asked her. "Where's Stefan?" I asked him firmly, trying to change the subject, and to figure out where they took him. "Where he can't hurt you." He answered. "Stefan would never hurt me. Or Elena. Or anyone." I told him. Okay maybe I'm stretching the truth a little bit TOO far!

"You have no idea what you're talking about." Elena added. "Well, I know that wherever you two go, Salvatore vampires seem to follow. You hungry?" He said. "No." Elena and I both said at the exact same time. After a moment Elena started acting out. She couldn't handle her surroundings and the steak, that Pastor Young had placed in front of her only made things worse. She couldn't handle it, so she did the one thing she could only do. She ran off. I ran after her.

In the end, we all went down.

I opened my eyes only to see myself tied to the side next to Stefan in a cage. Rebekah was in another cage across from us. Elena was in a cage right next to us. "What the hell happened!?" I asked. "They thought you two where vampires and stuck you in here with the rest of us." Rebekah told me. The smell of vervain was weakening them.

"Oh, my God, Stefan you look horrible...are you okay?" I exclaimed. "Yeah, I know." He said. "Stefan...I didn't feed." Elena said. Stefan and I froze. I couldn't believe my best friend was gonna die like this!

"Ahh, I see what's going on here. You died with vampire blood in your system and you didn't feed and now you're locked up in here without a single drop of human blood. This is a problem." Rebekah said, more to herself then to anyone. "Shut up, Rebekah!" I said to her.

After a while I started to wonder what life would have been like if I was the one on that bridge. Elena didn't deserve to die. At least not like this.

Hours had past

Bonnie tried to save Elena, some how, but failed. Stefan got shot twice by a deputy, which was horrifying to watch. As for Elena...she was running out of time. I was so deep in thought I accidentally tuned everything out, when I tuned it back on I heard Elena say through the wall, "Did you know why I was even on that bridge? I was coming back for you, Stefan. I had to choose and I chose you. Because I love you. No matter what happens, it's the best choice I ever made. God. It sucks that I can't see you right now." "I'm smiling." Stefan informed her. "Me too." Elena said.

Tears started forming in my eyes, and I'm pretty sure even Rebekah felt the same way.

Rebekah soon came up with a plan to help Elena feed. She lured a deputy in and when he wasn't paying attention, she vamped out scaring the guy back. When he stumbled back in fear, Stefan grabbed him by the head and repeatedly banged him against the steel bars until he was bleeding and died. The man fell on the floor and his blood slowly but surely started to move towards Elena's cage, so she could have a few drops of blood. But it was taking forever. Soon it stopped.

"NO!" I shouted out. It couldn't just stop like that...it just couldn't. A thought or idea soon came to me. "Stefan, I want you to bite my wrist open." I told him. He looked at me puzzeled. "What...why?" He asked. "Just do it Stefan, please...for me. You said you had control so do it!" I told him. Stefan hesitated a bit, but came close to me and bite my wrist as told. I started to squeeze my hand through the bars and near to Elena. It took a minute and a lot of bones to break, but got it.

"Elena! Hey Elena! I want you to drink from my wrist. It's the only thing left for you to feed from." I told her. "No, no I can't." She said weakly. "But Elena..." I started. "I said no! I don't want to hurt you." She told me. "But if you don't feed you'll die. And besides Elena, you won't hurt me. I trust you enough to feed from me, if I knew you'd hurt me I'd let you die...but I'm not. So feed Elena. Feed!" I told her. "But..." She coughed out. "Do you want to live Elena or not!?" I said to her. Elena hesitated for a mere moment, then she bit from my wrist. It stung a bit, but it didn't hurt.

After everything I've been through in this supernatural dilemma and drama, I was starting to get use to being bitten.

After we all got free, it was just me and Stefan left. We were outside the barn. My left arm was broken, from what I tried to attempt earlier. All the bones were broken badly and was dislocated in my entire arm. I started to use all the power and strength in my right hand to pop the bones in my left hand in place.

It was fucking painful! But it NEEDED to be done. I was sitting on the ground outside trying to do this. "Come...on...come on!" I told myself, trying to MAN UP ALREADY! I broke a bone structure in place. "Yoaw! oww!" I yelled to myself quietly.

You try doing this to your arm! It's the worse feeling in the world! To me it feels almost as painful as giving birth! At least to me it is...

"Here let me do..." Stefan told me. "I got it...don't worry." I told him, as I was trying to fix my shoulder next. It was the hardest one of all. "Let me do it alright...before you hurt yourself." He told me. He came behind me and laid me in between his legs. My back was very close to his chest and his hands were on both my left arm and my stomach. "You need to pop my arm in place, Stefan. I can't do it. I'm not strong enough...but you are. Since I'm half werewolf...my bones will be fine, and since I'm half vampire I'll heal quickly. The only down side part is I'm still half human,...so...I'll feel a LOT of pain." I told him. He nodded behind me.

"Alright, but first I need you to forget the pain." He told me. What the fuck was he talking about?! I shook my head a bit and closed my eyes. "I want you to think of a calm and peaceful place. A place where you are healthy, strong, confident, safe, and happy. Find your happy place." He whispered into my ear. I nodded and thought it through.

I was on Wickory Bridge. I was walking across the bridge and once I got off it, I ran to the forest. I was deep into the forest. I was wearing a beautiful white almost yellow or golden summery sundress. My hair was flowing out in the open and I had no makeup on. I looked naturally beautiful. I kept walking through the forest. I stopped when I saw a picnic basket on a picnic blanket and all. I smiled a bit. A pair of arms grabbed me from behind. I shrieked in joy, knowing who those soft and safe arms belong to. I turned around to face him. It was Stefan.

"I'm in a forest and I'm having a picnic...you're there." I told him. "Really?" He asked me slowly. "Yes." I said calmly. "What else do you see?" Stefan asked me.

"Oh my...Stefan this picnic is beautiful!" I told him. We were on the picnic blanket having a nice and peaceful lunch together. "Thank you, Ana...I did it for you. I'd knew you'd love it!" He told me. We smiled at each other. I loved having these moments with Stefan...and I still do.

"We're having fun together. You're smiling and so am I." I told him, still with my eyes close. "What else is in there?" Stefan asked me in a quiet and calm whisper.

"To us!" Stefan told me as he raised his glass full of champagne. "To us!" I told him in a smile. We clicked together and started to drink the champagne. I noticed that some of the champagne foam or so was on his upper lip. "Stefan..." I started out. "What is it?" He asked me. "Don't worry...I'll get it." I told him. I leaned in towards him. We ended up kissing. Well, at least the champagne foam was off his lip... right? He placed me softly down on the picnic blanket. My head fell softly and gently on a pillow. He kept kissing me still. After a while, I couldn't take it anymore. I started to unbutton his shirt

"We're drinking champagne together." I told him, not even bring up the so called sex I was having him in my dream "What else is there?" He asked me again.

After the sex, I was resting against Stefan's chest under the second picnic blanket, that he had bought. "I had fun with you today." Stefan told me. "Mh?" I mumbled, as if I didn't know THAT! "I love you, Ana." He told me, passionately. "I love you, too, Stefan." I told him, the same way he did earlier. "I'm so glad we can be together...forever." I added. "Yeah. I almost forgot what it was like to be human again." He told me. "I'm so glad you took the cure. Now we can die together as we wish." I told him, with a smile. He kissed my forehead. I giggled.

"We're happy together. You're human in here. You took a cure. We're free and happy together." I told him sleepily, not even aware of what I was saying and who I was saying it to. "Picture this in your head." He whispered gently. "We're on the Wickory Bridge. I'm wearing a tux. You're wearing a beautiful black night gown dress. It sparkles like the stars in the sky. It's a full moon. We're holding hands having a nice friendly conversation. Then, I lean next to you. And I whisper in your ear..." I nodded sleepily. I could picture it right now!

"You'll be fine...stay strong...it'll be over in a moment." He whispered softly in my ear. My eyes were still closed. I was confused. What did he mean by...wait a minute?...Before I could say anything, Stefan broke/popped my entire arm in place with his vampire speed and strength.

It was painful as hell!

Stefan quickly placed his hand over my mouth as he did this. I screamed/muffled loudly into his hand. My bones were breaking. After a LONG while...I started to heal without vampire blood in my system as I usually use. When it was all over I turned around to face Stefan. I soon started to cry in his chest, making muffled noises. From that moment on I realized that no matter what he does or says...I'll always trust him.

After a while I went home. I bandged up my wrist before I went to bed. I sighed as I laid down. I had learned that Elena was officially a vampire, Stefan and Elena are still in love, Tyler was alive, Bonnie's Grams was being tortured on the other side because of what Bonnie did with dark magic, Klaus was still fucking alive and around, and the council knew what we were. They also had files and reports on me stating I'm a witch, werewolf, vampire, but above all a Mantra. I didn't know what to do. Everything's changed now. I can't even imagine a way for us to get back to the way we used to be.

Elena's a vampire

Stefan obviously still has feelings for her

Tyler's alive, but for how long?

Jeremy has to deal with the whole 'my sister's a vampire' thing

Matt's still guilty over Elena's death

Damon is...still Damon (At least that hasn't changed!)

Rebekah and I are not really on friend terms at the moment

Klaus is still an obnoxious asshole! (as if he really developed in some way!?)

Caroline is okay for now

Melissa, I'm starting to notice how close she is with the council, hopefully she doesn't know anything

I, on the other hand, Had a crush on a vampire, who I also had slept with before, who was in love with my best friend, who is a vampire, who's brother is my ex boyfriend/companion, who's ex rival, who's also my cousin, who's a hybrid, who broke a sire bond, from an original hybrid ass, for his girlfriend, who's my close friend and my new vampire, that I mentioned earlier, friend's frienemy, and my witch friend's close/ best friend, who use to date, my vampire close friend's boyfriend and my ex boyfriend/ companion was sorta the reason why my vampire best friend died off Wickory Bridge, was now guilty for her death.

Now that I'm thinking this out right now, I noticed something. To other people they may think this is crazy, weird, insane and just not wroth it, but to me, I found it...

normal.

(Ana REALLY doesn't want to lose anymore people. She even sacrificed her left arm so Elena can finish her transition. I wouldn't want to be Ana right now!)