Jude stopped at the nurse's station as they walked back. Tommy leaned against the wall as the nurse flipped through Jude's chart and then slowly pulled the catheter out of her arm. Then she pressed a band-aid over it and Jude walked back over to Tommy. Tommy pushed open the door and they walked inside to the dark room. Odd shadows were cast from the furniture as a slight orange glow came through the window from the street lamps outside. Jude slowly lowered herself down on the bed again.
"I'm so tired" Jude whispered looking down transfixed on the tiles.
"Get some sleep" Tommy whispered and kissed her softly on the head and walked over to the chair. Jude didn't move she just sat there looking down at the floor.
After a moment she looked up at the wall and clasped her hands in front of her "Tommy" Jude said not looking at him.
"Yeah?" he asked leaning his heavy head against his good arm.
"I…I…" Jude paused and looked down at the floor "I…was…going to…"
"Mhh?" asked Tommy his eye lids becoming heavier and heavier.
"I wasn't going to tell you" she whispered. Tommy looked up at her back. She was slouched over and shaking. Hot tears slid down her face but Tommy couldn't see.
"Why?" Tommy asked.
"Because…because I was going to…have…an…oh god" she whispered and her hand moved up to cover her mouth. The tears came harder.
"What…Jude…what were you going to do" asked Tommy panicked.
"I…was going to have an…abortion" Jude whispered and started to sob silently into her hands.
Tommy just stared at Jude dumbstruck. It was like being slapped in the face with ten thousand pounds of bricks. The girl he loved was going to kill the thing that was the most outward sign of their love…and she wasn't even going to tell him?
"Why" he choked out. His mouth felt drier than sandpaper.
"Because" Jude whispered whipping her eyes "you were gone Tommy!" she sobbed "The day I found…you and I weren't even together" she whispered.
Tommy stared at her "Jude" he got up and walked around the bed to be eye level with her. "Oh, god if I had known I would have never left…I…I would have been there with you."
"Yeah" Jude whispered looking him in they eyes for the first time "if you had known."