It had been months since the truth had come out and over that time i had managed to reform bonds with my sister, or sisters, get married, move into the trailer and watch the construction workers begin building what we though of as our dream home.

The way it is lookng now, it already is looking now has me dreaming about the family that Derek and I will have to fil it. Admitting that scares me, but not as much as the small swell that is now forming .

I was yet to tell Derek, but i was ready tonow, and am now waiting for him to come home.

Derek had truly been more that a dream for me, and i couldnt wait to tell him that he was going to be a dad. I had freaked out at first, which would explain why i had waited until now to tell him. The 3 month mark.

I move across the trailer to sit down at the kitchen table where 2 photos sit. The first being a snap shot one of Dereks sisters took before they left. Derek and I had been cuddled up close, my head on his chest, smiles on both of our faces.

The other photo, a much more recent one, was a reminder of all that my husband had done for my family. There stood Arizona wrapped in Callies arms, Lexie wrapped p in Mark and myself in Dereks. Richard stood with us, a big grin on his face. We all looked so happy standing in front of the holiday house that Derek had hired for us for the weekend. Our neighbour had only been too happy to take the photo. Adele hadnt been there that weekend. She had tried to piece things back together with Richard but it seemed that there was just far too much to forgive.

Smiling softly, i run my hand over the picture as i think of the picture that i had saved for Derek, the one that im going to give him now.

I hear his landrover rumble up the track, adn move to open the front door to see him clamber out of it and slamming the door closed.

He looks up and i see a tired smile spread acrosss his face. "You feeling better?" he asks as he greets me with a iss which i fight myself not to deepen.

"Dinner is ready." I tell him as i pull away from him and take his hand, leading him into the trailer.

"You cooked?" he asks looking surprised and i giggle and shake my head.

"I reheated." i say honestly. "Ari cooked."

He leans in and kisses me again and i feel his hand brush over my stomach pausing for a moment before caressing it softly as if he knew.

"Der" I murmur as i pull away almost breathless, looking into his eyes i see them filled with love.

"Here" i add as i slip the photo into his hands and he takes the framed sonogram.

"A picture?" he asks as he looks at the frame in wonderment.

"You knew?" i ask as i look at him surprised.

"Of course." he says smuggly as he gives me a kiss. "but i was waiting for you."

I could see that he knew i had freaked out as he moved to place the frames picture with the other two photos. "Our family" I say as i slide a plate of lasagna in front of him with some salad.

"We love you." i say as i sit across from him, my hand grasping his.

"I love you both too." he sighs and i look to all 3 pictures and think of how far i've already come and how far left we have to go