Here comes what many of you might have been looking forward since the beginning… the talk about the letter!

And thanks to all of you for sticking with me and my story so far!

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I don't own anything. Just the part of the story-idea or better to say, anything unrecognizable is mine ;)

Tommy's POV:

He still couldn't believe what she just had told him.

By now he was a loss at words and didn't know what to say.

Hell, even if he would know what to say he wouldn't be able to pronounce his thoughts.

But he knew he should say something to her. Tell her something, just anything!

When he looked at her, he could see the pain in her eyes.

But, hadn't he felt pain, too? So why was it at him to ease her pain?

Deep inside him he knew the answer, but he wouldn't admit it.

"Kim," he finally began but stopped again. What was he supposed to say?

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Flashback:

Jason and the others had just left as Kim had agreed, that they needed to talk, or better to say that she had to tell him about the letter.

The letter that had caused him so much pain.

The letter that he still couldn't believe had been written by her.

The words had sounded so foreign, so unreal.

But he knew they were all her words, because it was her letter.

He didn't want to hear any simple excuses. On the other side he wanted to know what had been the cause for her words.

Well, he knew that he should give her the chance to explain.

Though he feared, nothing would make him ever forgive her.

Never.

….

Somehow since she had saved him from the arena, he hadn't wanted to talk about the letter.

He had wanted to forget it, though he knew on the inside he would never understand her intentions and somehow wanted to know why she had

ended their relationship that way.

"Before I explain I would appreciate it, if you would let me tell the whole story before asking any questions. And the other thing I want you to know is

that I am so sorry about everything." Kim finally began.

Tommy remained silent and Kim began to continue after taking a deep breath.

"At that time I was really good and was surely not far away from getting a medal. So my coach told me to concentrate on my training and nothing else.

And with nothing else he meant nothing else. I only trained, slept and ate! That's what my days were looking like from that point on."

"Ok, but what…" Tommy interrupted her but remembered what she had asked him to do and stopped in his sentence to let her continue.

"My coach knew about my friends and most of all about you. I didn't see sense in denying you or the others. And you know I only had time to write

short letters. When I got home from training I was always completely exhausted and all I could think about was getting some sleep. But I wrote to you

guys, as you all meant so much to me."

Kim paused and Tommy could see how hard it was for her to tell him all those things.

But he didn't understand so far, as she hadn't told him something unknown or difficult.

He knew how dedicated one's life had to be if you wanted to make a real career.

"Well, knowing that, my coach told me to stop writing, keep distance to the others and even break up with you. He had decided that it kept me from

concentrating harder on my training. I didn't like that and didn't want to do it. But he persuaded me in the end… It was one of his conditions, as he

threatened he would stop training me. So I wrote a letter, telling you, that I wouldn't contact you and the others for a while. But he didn't succeed

completely, as I didn't break up with you. Though I didn't exactly tell him I hadn't broken up."

"But that's what you did!" Tommy told her at once. "You wrote me that you had met another guy!"

"No I didn't!" Kim exclaimed, "why would you think that? I always loved you!"

"Because those were your words! Believe it… I have read the letter so often, that I know the words by heart." Tommy told her and his voice sounded

cold, hurt and kind of broken.

"But I didn't write that! I told you in the letter, that I would stop writing for a while as I needed to concentrate hard. I even wrote that I would

understand it, if you didn't want to wait for me and maybe even be with another woman. Because I would always wait for you!" Kim explained and her

eyes began to water.

...

How could she ask him to believe those words? Tommy wondered, but remained silent. It hurt too much after all this time.

Now, by talking about it he felt the whole pain again and it made it hard for him to stay silent.

But that had been, what she had asked him for, hadn't she?

Though as she had paused for a few seconds by now, it was his turn to answer he thought:

"Kim, that isn't true. I read the letter again and again! You had written nothing about what you just told me!"

"If you have read it so often, why don't you remember it?" Kim asked and her voice sounded shaken and tears began to roll down her cheeks.

"How could I?" Tommy asked unbelievingly. Did she expect him to believe her lies?

He got up and walked to his bedroom.

As he returned he laid down the letter, that Kim had sent him.

The paper looked like it had been read very often and the pages were of a light yellow color by now.

"Here, see it for yourself", Tommy told her as he had decided that it would be the best to confront her with the truth and what she really had written.

"You kept it after all this time?" Kim whispered as she took the first page to read.

"I don't know why, but I couldn't throw it away. So I kept it." Tommy answered and though it didn't get less painful to see her read the letter, he still

wondered why he had always kept it.

He watched Kim's face while reading through the lines and couldn't help but realize that pain shimmered in her eyes and she seemed to get a strange

look on her face.

"Now it all makes sense," she just whispered as she had finished the letter and Tommy wondered what she meant by that.

"What do you mean?" he asked wondering.

"It makes sense why you never called after the competitions were over." She replied and had a sad look in her eyes.

"Why should I have called you? You just read for yourself – you broke up with me!" Tommy answered and couldn't believe that Kim still didn't seem to

accept what she had really written to him.

"No, no," she mumbled and Tommy could see that she was thinking hard.

After a few moments she took a deep breath and began explaining:

"Part of the letter is true Tommy," she began and as he wanted to say something she shook her head.

"Please, let me tell you before you interrupt me." As he nodded she continued.

"Like I said, part of it is true. I wrote the letter and I wrote everything except a part of the first page. You see, a lot of the words are mine, but instead

of the lines were I broke up with you I had written, that I would understand it if you couldn't wait for me, wait for the time when the competitions were

over.

I wrote that I would understand if you met another woman and forgot about us and be with her instead. But I also wrote that if you waited you should

call me when the competitions were over. I was afraid to write I would call you in case you were with another woman as it would have been humiliating

to get to know that you had moved on. So as you didn't call, I imagined you had another one and I didn't have the courage to really find out and then

after the accident… Everything was just so painful."

After that it was just quiet in the room.

Tommy didn't know what to say and what to believe.

If that was the truth, then why were there different words?

"If that is true, why are there other words standing?" he wanted to know.

"If you look correctly, you see that it isn't exactly my handwriting. The first page was written by another person. He must have practiced so that his

handwriting was nearly the same like mine. But if you compare the pages, the rest is really my handwriting."

Flashback end

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What was he supposed to say? As he compared everything written, he saw that there might have been another one writing part of the letter.

But why would someone do that?

"Kim, maybe you're right, as the handwriting is really a bit different. But why would someone do that?" Tommy finally asked her.

"I have a guess: My ex-coach. He went to the post office to send the letter for me. And now I understand his strange words a few days later.

He asked me if I didn't feel better after breaking up with you. I was confused but decided not to tell him, that I had written something else.

I thought he should believe it if he wanted as he couldn't understand that I didn't want to break up with you anyways.

And then he smirked and added that I would see it would be better that way and that I shouldn't wait for a call from you." Kim ended her explanation

before adding:

"You see, I always wondered a bit as I hadn't told him about waiting for a call from you after the competition. But I just thought he mentioned it as he

guessed that I would wait for you to call me. He was the opinion I broke up with you and isn't it a normal reaction, that the boy might call his

exgirlfriend and try to persuade her otherwise, right?"

Her explanations made sense for him, but it was just too much to take in for now. He needed time to think about it.

"Kim, I know now, why you hadn't called, but I just… I need to think about it. You understand?" Tommy asked her.

"I understand," Kim nodded and tears were still forming in her eyes.

"You shouldn't drive in your condition. Maybe you should teleport to your room?" Tommy suggested.

He didn't want to let her drive, but he also needed some time alone and with Kim in the room next to him it wouldn't be possible.

"Yeah, would be better," Kim nodded. But before teleporting she just asked him one more thing:

"But this time… you are calling me right?"

"Yes, I will." Tommy answered and Kim disappeared a second later in a stream of light.

Well, now we know more about the background of the letter... will Tommy call her?