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"Pain is inevitable. Suffering is optional."

I can't say I totally moved on.

Cause even if I say I am, I'm sure I'm lying to myself.

I would like to stay a secret, like walking in the dark, if no one knows you, no one cares and no one breaks you heart.

After the trip, I became too invisible.

I don't talk much, I don't eat much.

I'm became the type of girl who doesn't get much sunlight.

I'm too tired of crying.

I'm too tired of trying to understand why he did that.

I'm just too tired.

I wonder when I can rest and calm myself.

I tried to avoid those thoughts. Those thoughts that if I remember, it would hammer my heart into thin sheets.

But the truth won't just leave me.

It would continue to remind me of the whole thing.

"Ahhhhhh........" I sighed. I lay in my bed, doing nothing all day.

Tomorrow, school starts again. And I don't wanna see his face.

The handsome face of a man who severely broke my pure heart into pieces.

I wanted him to realize that he made the biggest mistake of his life.

And I want him to feel the pain I've felt.

I'm being selfish, I know.

But I can't let him live his life as if nothing had happened. Nothing has changed.

My phone rang.

I uninterestedly picked up my phone and said, "Yeah?"

"Won't you say hello first?"

That was Hotaru. I smiled.

"Hello."

"Hi."

I laughed a little. Hotaru's being silly. That's rare.

"I'm glad you sound okay," She said.

Is she worried?

"Why? What do you think I'll do? Hang myself in the ceiling?" I asked. Of course that was meant as a joke.

"No. I thought you'll use a razor and end your life."

I laughed. Of course I won't do that. I'm not the suicidal type.

"Well, I might consider doing it.." I joked.

"Then Good Luck."

I know that Hotaru was not serious about saying those things. And I felt lucky.

This is what you call a 'true friendship'.

"Seriously, why did you call?" Since the day Hotaru and Ruka decided to date, she rarely call on my phone. So I was surprised when she actually called. Of course, that is, if I knew she's the one who called.

"Because I'm seriously worried about you, Mikan."

"Worried in what way?" I asked. I'm curious of what she is talking about.

"Mikan, don't do something you might regret later." Hotaru warned me.

Is she saying that she knew I planned something? It's not decided yet.

"You know what, Hotaru? Even if I do something drastic, and as you say that I might regret doing it later, I think I won't be hurt anymore. I've been hurt deeply. There's no way I'll be hurt again." I explained. I hope she get it.

"That's what you think and say. I knew you still love him."

"NO." I clearly said. Since the confrontation, I told myself I'll stop loving him. I won't act like a dog wailing it's tail following her master just to seek love and comfort.

"Yeah, you don't."

I know Hotaru won't believe me anyway. She knew better than me.

How silly.

"But Hotaru, thanks. I'm flattered by the thought of you, worrying about me. I'm really grateful for having you."

I took a deep breathe.

She was just there on the other line, listening to her other half.

"But whatever my decision is, it's the path I've chosen. And whatever might happen to me, it's because I'm the cause. And even if I might regret it later, I won't be blaming myself. Cause It's the path I chose. And I should take full responsibility out of it."

Then there was a short silence.

"Hm. Just as I thought. You're really so stubborn, Mikan."

I smiled at the thought.

"So you're saying, to you, it's over?"

I deeply breathe in again.

"Someone should sue Disney for planting the ideas in the little kid's heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after."

"Is that an answer?" Obviously, she didn't get what I mean.

"No. But I can't answer that now."

"I know. But Mikan, I believe in you so I think you'll be alright by yourself."

"I will."

"And if you have any more problems, care to tell me, okay?"

"Yes, oka-san."

"Baka."

I can hear her laughter. It sound so good in my ears.

"I'll hang up. Ruka might call any time in a minute."

"I envy the two of you."

"Don't. There's someone out there who worth you more than you worth yourself."

I sighed. "Yeah, I hope it's true."

"It will. And one more thing."

"What."

"I think you've matured enough. Bye."

Then she hanged up the phone.

I hold my phone so tight.

How I wish I was unscathed like before.

But life goes on after all.

Then I slept that night with a one, heaving sigh.

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The Next Morning

I walked my way to school, just like my usual routine.

I walked with my mind totally floating.

"Did I change?" I was wondering if I changed. Cause even if I did, I don't think it'll badly affect me.

I reached the school. I headed towards my locker. I changed my shoes into school shoes, then I headed towards the room.

"Ne, ne, did you know? Class 2-A has a new student!"

"Really? I heard he's famous. And he look so good too!"

"KYAA~! There'll be three hotties now!"

Then the girls giggled, liking the idea.

"New student in my class?" So there'll be a new student now. And it's a guy.

I know they were talking about Natsume, Ruka and the new guy.

My eyebrows met my eyes when I suddenly thought of Natsume.

The guy I loved who broke my heart.

I sighed.

Life is too unfair.

As I walk and even when I entered the room, the girls continued to talk about the new student.

Then I saw Natsume. He was dazing out in the window again.

My heart skipped a bit again.

"No! No! Mikan!" I continued to warn myself. I won't be fooled anymore.

I placed my bag in my seat, then I became silent. I just listened to my surroundings.

"The new student is quite popular. Gaining world comments even though we haven't seen him."

"KYAA~! I saw the new student! He's so cute! He looks like Natsume-sama!"

"KYAA~! I think I'll let Haruna-neechan have Natsume-sama. I'll have the new guy myself!"

"NO! He'll be mine!"

"HAHA.. Poor girls. You'll be hurt." I wanted to warn them not to fall in love. I don't want them to get hurt.

One female is enough. Or not?

The girls continued to praise the new student.

Then the bell rang.

Each of us went back to our own seats, then Narumi came in.

"Okay class, look! We have a new student! And he's soooooo handsome!" Our teacher said with dreamy eyes, and giggled like a girl.

All of us sweat dropped.

"Just what kind of teacher is this? A maniac?" His funny.

The girls began to giggle. They're affected, apparently.

"Okay here he comes..." Narumi said.

Then a familiar young man stepped into our room.

"Ohayou, minna-san." Then he gave out a smile. A smile that could sink thousands of ships.

"He looks very familiar. Just when I thought I saw him?" I think for a while.

"EH?!!!!" Then, I finally remembered.

Guess who he is. =)