Dianna
It was an hr. later that morning 2 a.m. and id just woken up. I don't remember going to sleep. I was in the bathroom. The dance had ended last night at 40 past midnight.
I didn't know if lia and the others had gone to sleep or not. I heard the tv on in the living room. I didn't remember what was on tv at this hr.
Sometime between thurs. and fri. I'd finally stopped bleeding. I felt a little better than I had but I was still shaky and weak. I think part of that was at my house I was always afraid. And at mandy's and Ashley's there were always things going on moreso at mandy's. My phone was still off. I was thirsty and looked down and saw I still had half a cup of liquor left. I think that's the last thing I remember doing before going to sleep was drinking. Annabelle and her friend sure had a lot of liquor. But it was nice they knew I drank so I didn't have to hide it. And that no one would be upset w/ me for it.
I wondered if we had any more weed. I picked up the drink and had more.
I heard someone in the living room.
"hey how's your ankle?" it was Annabelle.
"still sore," lia answered.
So she was who'd been watching tv.
"yeah it'll take awhile."
"yeah I know. Hey thanks for letting me stay."
"oh yeah. Of course. Is dianna awake do you know?"
"um I don't."
"oh."
I was cold and dizzy and wanted a blanket.
"hey dianna?" I heard Annabelle call.
"yeah I'm awake," I said.
"oh ok. Good cause I want a drink."
"um ok hold on."
"ok."
I slowly stood and left the bathroom holding my drink. Annabelle went in to get herself more whiskey. It occured to me that I could tell puck about what my dad had been doing. I went to get my phone to text him. I wondered where Annabelle's friend had gone.
"hey where'd your friend go?" I asked Annabelle.
Id arrived at my purse.
"smoke break," she told me.
"oh. Hey do we have any more weed?" I asked taking my phone out of my purse and turning it on.
"yeah I could use some too," lia said from the sofa.
"uh yeah I think so. I'll go check," Annabelle said going into her room.
"ok."
I texted puck then turned my phone off and put it back in my purse.
"so uh hi," I said looking at lia.
"hi," she said.
"I'm dianna," I said feeling weird introducing myself.
"yeah I know. We go to the same school."
"oh. Well I didn't know what else to say so."
"right."
"hey do you know where the blankets are?"
"um they should be in her room. Yeah I'm cold too."
And it wasn't even that cold in the house.
"yeah I know. Well not weighing a lot will do that to you."
"yeah. Everyone keeps telling me how small I am but they forget to factor in the loss," lia said.
The loss? I wondered.
At that moment Annabelle came out of her room.
"hey we got more weed. And yes I do have blankets in my room. And I'm, going out for a smoke break," she told us.
"ok."
She left.
"anything good on tv?" I asked.
"no not really. I just. didn't want to think," lia answered.
"oh. Yeah I know what that's like. Um. What loss?"
"um. A yr. ago my besst friend. Um sshe. Lefft."
"oh wow."
"yeah she was 18 and so am I."
So lia was a yrr. Older than I was. A senior.
"um. She, had an eating disorder that's how…."
"right," I said getting it.