38.

Tara was told she would have to be on complete bedrest the rest of her pregnancy unless something changed in her health. She then had to apply for an extended leave of absence. She lay there in her bed just wondering how her life turned to shit so fast.

Jax knew that what he did was wrong knowing that Tara was his wife. He just didn't feel married and it pissed him off that he couldn't remember. So he decided to have fun with the adventure. But when he found out that Tara was the one who killed his mom he felt pain in his heart. He didn't know if it was for his mom or Tara. All he knew was that Tara had killed his mom. He wanted to hate the beautiful woman they said was his wife but when he saw her it made his heart flip around. So he pushed her away. He didn't know that she was there to see him and the nurse, but he would have probably still done it. He knew he was wrong in thinking that she deserved it since he had said she should not come there anymore. He lay there and all of a sudden he saw something and he realized it must be flashbacks of his past. It was concerning Clay. He wondered if he was getting his memories back. He didn't say anything to anyone because he didn't know. He did though sneak up to Tara's room. He felt the need to check in on her. He watched as she lay sleeping. He had to admit she was one beautiful woman. He was getting ready to go back to his room when he heard a voice behind him.

"So what are you doing here?" Opie asked still angry at his brother.

"No the question is why are you here? It seems like you are all about protecting the woman you say is my wife. Are you fucking her? Is that baby yours?" Jax asked angry about getting caught checking on Tara.

Opie was trying his best to reign his anger in. He knew that his friend and brother wouldn't normally act like this. He just turned around and walked away.

The next day they were releasing Jax finally. Lisa and Lyla were visiting Tara and letting her know. Tara was relieved he was going home. "I heard that if you keep doing what you are told you may get to go home too." Lisa said.

"Yeah, hopefully. I miss Abel so much." Tara said softly.

"Yeah, well he misses his momma." Lyla said.

Jax was getting dressed and waiting for his brothers to come. The doctor walked into Tara's room smiling.

"Well lady you have done good. We are releasing you but you have to stay off your feet when you go home. Only bathroom breaks and dinner breaks can you be up and around. You have to keep that blood pressure down. Here you go, here's your release papers. Tara smiled and got up to get dressed. She was happy for the moment.

The three of them were walking to the elevator and got on. Tara still looked pale but with a smile. The elevator doors opened and there stood Jax, Happy and Chibs. No one said anything and the three of them got on. If anyone looked they would think they were all leaving together. Tara found it really hard not to look at her husband. Jax couldn't stop looking at Tara then he glanced over at Lisa and Lyla and they had looks on their faces that made him glance away. The elevator doors opened and Tara let out a sigh. She finally looked over at Jax as he was walking away. "I'm glad you are okay." she said softly. He stopped and turned to her. He nodded his head, "you too" and then walked away.

Tara walked into their home and Abel came running. She was surprised because it seemed as if he had just started walking. "Momma." Abel cried as he ran to her. She squatted down to him because she was told not to pick anything up heavy. She took his hand and they walked over to the couch. He crawled up in her lap and Tara finally felt good having him in her arms. Lisa walked over to talk to Nita and pick up Angelica. "They were okay Nita?" she asked. "Yeah, they were angels." Nita said smiling.

"You keep thinking that woman." Tara said smiling.

"I'm glad you are home little momma. I'll be back later to help you and Abel with dinner."

"Thank you." Tara said kissing the old woman on her cheek.

"Well I hate to run but I have to get home and feed this little one." Lisa said.

"Thanks for being there." Tara said.

"Anytime." Lisa said hugging her before she left.

"How about you? Do you have to go take care of your man?" Tara asked flinching a little when she said that.

"No, they are having a welcome home party for Jax at the clubhouse."

"Oh yeah, they would." Tara said looking away.

"They will watch out for him Sugar. Don't you worry."

They sat down and talked about the impending pregnancies and anything else but the guys and then Lyla had to leave.

"Nita will be back in about an hour. Are you going to be okay?"

"Yeah, I think Abel and I are going to have a nap." Tara said yawning.

"Sounds like a plan. We love you girl. Take it easy okay?"

"I will and I love you guys too." she said.

Lyla left and Tara and Abel lay down on the couch and went to sleep.

Jax walked in the clubhouse with Chibs and Happy. Smiling to all the brothers he was thankful to be out of the hospital. He got a lot of pats on the back and a lot of hugs. Then he walked over to the bar to get a beer and he saw Opie sitting there.

"Hey brother." he said.

"Hey, I'm glad you're out." Opie said.

"Look, I'm sorry for what I said."

"It's okay. Just so you know Lyla and I are very happy and we too have a baby on the way."

"Wow, that's great Ope." Jax replied.

"Yeah." he finally smiled at his bestfriend. Then looking up his smile turned to a frown. Jax didn't know why until he felt fingertips caressing his neck. He turned.

"Hey darling, not now okay? I'm talking here." Jax said, realizing for some reason he didn't want this girl.

"Wow." Opie said.

"What?"

"I've just never saw you turn down pussy before except when you were with Tara."

"I don't know what it is with Tara, but I don't feel like pussy right now. I'm drinking with my bestfriend. Is that okay?"

"Yeah, man that's okay."Opie said wondering what was going on.

Jax drank a few beers with Opie and they shot some pool. He saw how the croweaters kept eyeballing him and he was starting to feel uncomfortable. He tried to shake the feeling off but he decided to just crash. He walked away to his dorm room. Happy and Opie watched him go. They saw as another one of the girls pressed upon him and Jax turn her away. Happy and Opie just stared in awe.

"What do you think?" Happy asked.

"I don't know."

Jax lay down on his bed and thought about the memory that flashed at him during the elevator ride. He was making love to Tara. He remembered feeling so happy at that moment. He tried to remember more but his head was starting to hurt. He rolled over and went to sleep.