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That Sunday morning
Jade's POV
This morning I felt Gaby gently breaking away from my hold and getting in the shower, I couldn't resist. I want to experience everything with her again, start recovering what we've lost.
I had therapy today but Monique called to inform me that my mother cancelled the session, she was taking the kids to Disneyland which made me happy for some reason, I think she listened to me yesterday and she is making an effort.
Anyway, I got the morning off and I knew Gaby, Cat and Andre had plans, so I decided to go to Tori's house to clarify my feelings about what happened between us.
As I park right in front of her house, I see a blond guy picking up Trina, this must be the new boyfriend she has been telling the whole school about.
I get out of my car and approach the house. I'm about to ring the bell when Tori opens the door and stops at once surprised to see me right outside.
"Jade" - She breathes out.
"Hey Tori" - I manage to say, "Can we talk… about yesterday?"
"I have to run some errands" - She closes the door and leaves passing right by me but stops a few steps ahead and turns, "Who am I kidding, I was going to the park, I needed some air… want to come?" - She looks at me with those please come eyes and I meet her nodding.
We walk to the park that is not far away. Is a sunny day and Tori is wearing very short jean shorts with a purple tank top and black converse, she looks so cute.
"What are you doing here anyway? I thought you had therapy and you were going to talk to your mother about Matt"
"I did, yesterday, I went to her apartment after leaving your place" - This feels strange. We are having a meaningless conversation like nothing happened and avoiding the real issue, us! "Not that I actually got inside, she came out and we talked in my car. She cancelled the session today so…"
"So you came here to check on me? Apologize? Break up? What?" - We approach the shadow of a big tree and sit down in opposite directions to be able to see each other.
"Yesterday was a mistake, we let ourselves fall into temptation and we went too far, but… I shouldn't have left like I did" - I start playing with some wild flowers around me.
"I shouldn't have said I love you, it was too soon" - She tucks a few strings of her hair behind her ear. The wind keeps blowing them off.
"Tori, I like you so very much, but this isn't love for me… at least not yet. I can't play my girlfriend anymore and I know this hurts you, but I don't want to lose her"
"You love her" - I can feel the pain in her voice.
"I do… I'm sorry"
"Then we should stop this right now. But not like the last time, we have to stop it all" - Tori decides and she gets really serious.
"We can still be friends Tori, no need to be so radical"
"Really? Because last time we had this conversation it took us 48 hours to have sex… as just friends" - She finger quotes, "I'm sorry Jade but we can continue this game, I won't be your backup lover, you may not love me but I love you and this is killing me"
"So, you rather not have me in your life at all?"
"If I can't have all of you, then I want none of you. This stops now; I'm not this kind of girl, the liar, the cheater, the bad friend… I'm done" - I can see Tori is so disgusted with herself and our behavior, she gets up quickly and is ready to go.
"What then? We are done? We no longer talk to each other?" "What does this mean?" - I stand up and face her taking her by the arm, not allowing her to run away.
"It means we go back to before we were friends, but this time we both ignore each other, I wont come looking for your friendship, we stop!" - Tori breaks loose from my hold.
"So, not even friends?"
"I'm sorry Jade but I can't…" - Tori hesitates, she is not ready to give up yet, "Give me time to be friends again. I need some space to get over you" - She grimaces with his lips, taking one last look at me, "Goodbye Jade… see you around"
I see her walking away. I guess this is for the best. I have to put all my energy into fixing my relationship.
I stay at the park wandering around the path and taking in the fresh air. I notice is a little late and start walking back to my car when get a phone call from Ty.
"Hey you, what's up?" - I answer his call immediately.
"Hey rugrat, I wanted to make sure you were coming home for dinner. I have a good friend coming over, I want you to meet him"
"Sure, I'm on my way now for lunch"
"OK good, see you in a few then"
Ty is always bringing his friends home, he takes pride in introducing Cat and me as his sisters, it feels like a real family the one I never had, I love them and I really like having him as a big brother.
Just like every single day for the past week, I get home and see Cat and Andre making out on the living room.
"Hey Kitty Cat, hey Andre" - I walk inside and crash on the sofa next to them; it's fun to interrupt. I mean, come on! Cat has her room if they wanted privacy they could have it.
"Where is Gaby?"
"She went to bed, she was exhausted" - Andre informs me.
"Exhausted?"
"Yeah, she fell asleep during the entire movie, apparently she had a bad night and couldn't sleep" - Cat lets me know.
No, she didn't, I was the one that could only sleep a couple of hours and then dedicated the night to stare at her while she slept like a baby.
"I'm going to check up on her"
"Jade Baby, can you ask her to come down for lunch?" - Mom asks me from the kitchen.
"Sure"
I enter my girlfriend's room and I'm struck by the sweetest picture. I've always loved watching her sleep.
"Gaby?" - I whisper.
She can't hear me with her headphones on. I lean in and start kissing her shoulder to wake her up slowly, I don't want to scare her.
Wow, she really must be tired.
She doesn't wake up at all. I'll let her sleep she can eat later. I cover her up and I make my way downstairs again.
"Ty, who's coming for dinner tonight?" - I hear Cat talking, I make my way to Nina and Ty who have already arrived and give them a hello kiss.
"Oh, my best friend George, he lives in Palo Alto, he is coming for my birthday party next week" - Ty tells us and pulls me by the arm to sit next to him on the sofa.
George, where have I heard his name before?
I can't quite make a connection.
"Ty, make sure the pool house is ready and clean and that he has everything he needs, OK?"
"Yes Mom" - He lets out in an annoyed manner and shakes his head to me, Mom is a little obsessed with cleanliness.
"Did you invite Beck tonight?"
"Yes Dad, George wants to see the Scooby Gang again, too bad Ash is in San Diego, I hope that at least she comes for the party"
"I'll convince her if you want me to" - I'll make sure that she comes. I've missed her too much.
"When is George getting here" - Cat is curious, I think she might know who he is, she looks concerned and she is abstaining from looking at me. What the hell is wrong?
"In about an hour or two, he's cooking tonight so we are meeting on the Grocery Store and buying what he needs"
"Let me guess, he is cooking Gaby's favorite food" - Dad giggles.
"You know those two" - Ty continues and grins.
George, Gaby wh… Holy Fuck! That George? The one she lost her virginity to? That George!
I feel my expression changing drastically.
"You know Jade, I hope you don't get too jealous, George is a huge Gaby Fan" - Ty says making fun, looking at my, now very surprised, face.
"Well, he better keep himself behind the line if he doesn't want to lose his head" - I mumble. I don't like this at all.
"I'm just saying, maybe you should warn both of them" - Ty adds still giggling.
What does that mean? Who cares! He better behave.
The hours didn't take too long to pass by. George is actually a really good-looking guy, tall, big brown eyes, shiny brown hair and a smile that supposedly melts Gaby straight to heterosexuality! At least that what Ash messaged me 5 minutes ago… of course I hated him by default.
"Jade, pretty name" - He comes close to me, I give him a fake smile that lasts for two seconds and look away, "Ty told me you like to play the scary girl"
"Oh, Ty misinformed you, I don't play" - I don't like him, he better pick up on that.
"Gaby definitely has good taste in women, you are gorgeous" - He winks at me, what a little fuck!
"What do you want?" - I say to him in a despicable tone.
"I just wanted to get to know the girl My Gaby is dating, that's all" - If only I could swipe that stupid smirk off his face.
"She is MY girlfriend now!" - I make clear. Who the fuck does he think he is?
"Oh Jade, Gaby will always be MY girl… if you know what I mean" - He walks away triumphant. Asshole! I'm about thirty-seconds from taking my best pair of scissors and make an ornament out of him but I'm distracted by Beck and Tori walking in.
They greet everyone but when it comes down to me Tori stays with Cat at the dinner table, only Beck comes to say hello.
"Where is Gaby?" - Beck turns around looking for her.
"She is upstairs sleeping" - I mumble with a big frown on my face.
"What happened to you? You look like you are ready to kill someone" - He leans to the counter by my side.
"Is this stupid guy"
"Who, George? Hahaha, so, I guess you know about him and Gaby" - He laughs.
"I wouldn't find it that funny if I were you" - I warn him.
"Jade… if I were you I would start breathing in and out in a controlled, nice tempo and relax" - He motions with his hands, "because the minute Gaby sees him you will lose your head"
"What the hell does this guy have?" - I raise my voice to Beck. Control? Sure! I'm already at the verge of killing someone.
"Come here, sit, relax" - Beck takes me by the arm to the dinner table were Cat, Andre and Tori are talking and then embraces Tori putting his arm around her shoulders.
She doesn't even look at me, I guess the ignoring each other is on. Ugh, I hate this!
"There is My Girl" - I hear George exclaim as he runs towards Gaby and picks her up in the air.
And now I see what everyone was talking about, she has the most unimaginable smile on her face. I'm stunned, I don't think I've seen her this happy in weeks, certainly not since New Years.
Oh my God, this feels as if I was in a real eighties movie!
I wake up from my haze and get up in a jump to put an end this stupid show.
"Hmm uhmm" - I clear my throat to get their attention.
"My Girl tonight, little one… too bad for you" - He says and Gaby celebrates by turning to him with that big smirk.
I feel so fucking ridiculed by them; I feel cheated and pissed off!
I don't even pay attention to why, but he puts her down and walks away.
"Gaby, what the hell?" - I manage to say.
"Don't start Jade, I hate jealousy, so back off" - Excuse me, what? She walks away to say hello to the guys and leaves me here standing like an idiot. Unbelievable!
We are about to sit at the table to eat and I can seem to hide my anger. Tori passes by me and stops for a second.
"Not liking what it feels like being on the other side Jade?" - And just like that she continues her way to Beck.
Great! The night I've been dreaming off, Tori looking extremely happy with Beck and having a blast and Gaby throwing herself at this little bastard.
The worst thing is that Tori is quite right. I'm not entitled to play the hurt girlfriend over what Gaby's doing with this guy. Only yesterday I was having sex with Tori and I've kissed her many times before that. Even if Gaby kissed him right in front of me I wouldn't be able to complain without turning into a fucking hypocrite!
Everyone is enjoying the night laughing, telling crazy stories and I… I can't seem to figure out where the hell do I fit in all of this.
Gaby signals me to the garden, I guess she wants to talk. I'm confused because she has ignored me all night long.
"You are not having a good time?" - Gaby points out, like it wasn't obvious enough.
I barely shake my head giving her my answer while we start walking farther away.
"Why?"
"Watching my girlfriend flirting with the guy that took her virginity is not as fun as you would imagine" - I blurt out, how can I tell her she is hurting me, I've done worst and kept it from her.
"You know you have nothing to worry about, after all you and I are not the kind of people that cheat, right?" - Wow, in my face. I did, I cheated on you, I'm that girl.
"Yeah, you are right, we are not" - I can't admit it now, I need everything to be good again.
"OK, so you won't mind that I'll spend the night with him at the pool house and catch up" - Nice! She is spending the night with him, my dream come true… a deep pain runs through my whole body.
"I'm sure you have a lot to talk about" - I try to seem as calmed as I can, I don't want to give away my discomfort, it would only contradict my behavior with Tori and I was already feeling too guilty about that.
We get back in the house and everyone is already leaving. Mom and Dad give us their good nights and Cat immediately says goodbye and goes to her room; I'm not going to stay, if they were going to spend the night together, so be it, the sooner it's over, the better for me.
I lean in and give Gaby a kiss on her cheek, "I'll see you tomorrow, have fun" - That's all I could say, I feel defeated. I go upstairs to my room and get close to the window from where I could see the pool house right outside.
I wonder if Gaby would be able to do it, to cheat on me like I did on her. A part of me wishes she did, level the score, that way we can be even… and another other part of me is completely broken by the idea.
I didn't even fight for her down there; I just let her go. How can I demand from her what I couldn't give in the first place? I don't know… I have a hell week coming and the only thing I want right now is go to sleep.
Wednesday
We recently got home from School. Gaby is once again with that douchebag and I decide to spend my afternoon with Cat. It's been so long since we had some time alone.
"Kitty Cat, fess up! How is everything going with Andre? And I don't mean kissing and that lame stuff" - I joke to get a laugh out of her.
"Everything is good, but there are a couple of things that I'm starting to get nervous about" - She starts to worry me with the seriousness in her voice.
"What's going on? You are not pregnant, are you?"
"God Jade! No" - Cat responds a little offended, "It's about College, he got into Julliard and… well"
"Well what Cat?" - I try to shake the words out of her.
"So did I…"
"What? You applied to Julliard?" - My eyes open and I draw a huge smile on my face; I can't seem to understand what she is telling me, this is actually great news!
"Yes, but I don't know what to do. I would love to go, it's an incredible opportunity, but I'm also waiting for my main College for Fashion Design and that is what I really want to study" - She looks sad.
"I told Andre about Julliard and he got so excited, he started making plans for the both of us… and I don't know if I want that" - She doubts, "I don't know how to tell him without discouraging him"
"Cat, I'm sure Andre wants you to pursue your dream not to follow him around"
"He thinks I'll be wasting my talent if I go to Fashion School, he told me that I have a voice that is unique and I could be a great and recognized singer" - She puts her elbows on her knees and holds her head with her hands as she exhales.
"Let's cut the crap Cat, you have to tell him, you should talk to him and explain that this decision is only yours. You tell him what you want and that's it. He can't decide for you, be honest" - I complain, he has no right to tell her what to do.
"Speaking about honesty, can I ask you something, just bluntly ask you?" - Cat looks at me with some discontent.
"Sure Kitty Cat"
"Are you and Tori having a thing?" - Cat surprises me with this question. What? How? Tori must have told her, otherwise, how could she know?
"I don't know what you are talking about" - I disregard what she's implying.
"I know something happened between you, Tori and you have been acting strange since last week" - She points out to me.
"That doesn't prove anything Cat"
"OK fine, Tori told me about what happened on Saturday" - She affirms, but how, no, Tori never mention this the last time we spoke and why would she tell her.
"She told you? Tori told you about us?" - I ask.
"No, she didn't, you just did. What happened?" - Cat demands me to tell her. I can't believe I just fell for the oldest trick in the world.
"Nothing happened OK"
"She called looking for you about six times that afternoon, she sounded worried and desperate to talk to you" - Ugh, Cat is not going to stop insisting.
"You know how she is, nothing happened she is just being Vega" - I try to convince her that everything is OK, but Cat is not stupid she wont stop asking until I tell her.
"Why can't you trust me Jade? When did we stopped being best friends?" - Cat's upset, maybe I should confess.
"We didn't stop Cat but… you wont forgive me for this" - My expression changes, I lower my tone and get ready to open up to Cat.
"What did you do?" - She is angry now.
"We kissed a couple of times and… that happened on Saturday"
"Oh Jade! How could you?" - Her disappointment shows, a look of disgust pierce my eyes.
"It's just happened Cat, it's not like we planned it" - I try to tell her.
"Fine, but you should've broken up with Gaby before or tell her right after"
"I don't want to break up with her OK, I made a mistake Cat" - I admit, I wont give her up, no way, I was confused that's all.
"And what are you going to do now?" - Cat grunts frustrated.
"Tori and I are done, we are not even friends anymore" - Not by my choice, but anyway, "And I'm only hoping that Gaby and I can get back to normal after tomorrow"
"Oh, that's why Tori's been wallowing all week"
"How has she been?" - I ask her concerned.
"Bad! She is sad all the time, confused, torn… but she's been avoiding me. I guess she didn't want to tell me and put you up against the wall"
I sit there in silence thinking this through.
"Jade… Don't tell me you are thinking on keep lying to Gaby"
"I don't want to break up and I don't think she will forgive me for this" - How can I explain to Cat that I only want to forget, to move on and recuperate what Gaby and I lost this past weeks.
"But that is not your choice to make! Do you honestly believe that having this big secret is not going to destroy you in the end?" - She gestures expressing her displeasure.
"Oh and what do you propose, that I tell her and she breaks up with me?" - I start fighting with Cat. I should have never told her, I knew she wasn't going to understand.
"Oh, I'm not proposing Jade, you either tell her tonight or I will" - Cat warns me… she just threatened me. I can't believe this bundle of red hair would dare to corner me and force me to confess.
"Cat!"
"I'm sorry, you are my friend, but I'm not covering this up for you. Gaby has the right to know the truth, to decide how to feel, who to give her heart to. But she has to decide knowing the kind of person she is with" - Cat looks so disconcerted, so embarrassed, she is mad and with every reason.
I might not want to admit it, but being this selfish and immature girl, that doesn't confide in her own girlfriend is what's gotten us here.
"You are right, but please give me until tomorrow OK, I have to tell Tori, she has to decide whether to tell Beck about us or not" - I start to panic, Cat intimidated me into agreeing with her, she is not giving me any other choice.
"Tomorrow after the play… or I will" - She stands up and walks away.
Thursday
The anticipation for what is to come today is stressing me out. I couldn't even sleep yesterday after Cat's threat. We left for school running late thanks to me oversleeping and on top of that Gaby's car breaking down in the middle of the road. I run to the Theatre where all the actors are reunited to talk about final details for tonight.
After apologizing for being late I sit right next to Tori, my anxiety to the limit, I need to tell her about what happened with Cat and I want to do it fast or I'll be nervous all day and I can't afford that… not today.
"OK guys, everything is ready and settled" - Sikowitz says, "I'm very proud of you, I'm sure everything is going to be a success. Now, you can have the rest of the day off and relax until this afternoon, you deserve it"
All the people in the room start to disappear through the door and I stay behind waiting for Tori to finish talking to Beck, Cat and Andre.
"So guys, how about doing something relaxing today, we can go to Karaoke Dokie and eat something, sing a little bit" - Beck suggests to the group.
"That would be awesome" - Cat replies and Andre agrees.
But I need to talk to Tori first. We all head to the parking lot and I decide to steal Tori away.
"Beck can I speak to Tori for a minute"
"Sure, we'll wait for you outside"
I take Tori's wrist and lead her to the Janitor's Closet.
"Jade what's wrong with you, didn't you get the we will ignore each other part of our conversation the other day?"
"Tori, look… I know we are not talking, but I have to tell you something and you are not going to like it"
"What happened?" - She answers quickly, she notices my discomposure.
"Cat knows, and she is threaten to tell Gaby if I don't" - I explain as fast as I can, I don't want Beck wondering what we are doing here, "I'm talking to Gaby tonight after the play. I just wanted to give you the heads up, that way you can make up your mind in what to say to Beck, because I'm sure Gaby will tell him about us"
"Shit, I wanted an easy break up, not a soap opera" - She mumbles pacing around the little room.
"I know, but Cat is serious, I've never seen her like this" - It's true, Cat is mad and she will go through with what she said.
"OK, I'll explain it to him. I hope that in the long run he can forgive me and we can be friends. This just got so fucked up" - She passes her fingers over her hair, "How did Cat found out anyway?"
"She set me up, I ended up confessing, but I didn't believe she was going to give me a final notice"
"OK, lets be honest with them then. This is going to be a mess" - She looks at me defeated. I know the feeling.
"I know Tori, I'm sorry"
"It's OK, lets get back to the guys, they must be waiting for us"
That night
Everyone is here at the play and all of it is coming out great.
My last scene with Tori is done; the play is finally over. This was the last kiss between us and I didn't fake it, it was real, at least we have that souvenir from all of this.
"Can you two please call Beck and Gaby, they have to be here in the next two minutes to be presented to the public and all of you can get your final ovation" - Sikowitz urges us, he can't find them anywhere.
Where are they, I remember seeing them sitting among the audience.
"Baby, were are you? Sikowitz is going nuts, the play is over, get here right now!" - I tell her as soon as she picks up.
"We will be right there" - Gaby says indifferent and hangs up . That was a little cold.
Who knows where they went, well... we better get ready to walk back on stage.
Here they come and we make the final ovation to the public.
After the play is done we meet with our family and I also see my mother and Miranda approaching.
"That was an amazing play" - My mother says very proud, "You co-wrote it?"
"Yes, with Gaby, but the adaptation was mainly her and some other classmates" - Is nice to feel recognized by her.
"Well, it was remarkable work, congratulations to all of you" - She smiles at Gaby and me.
After sharing a moment with everyone outside school, we get ready to go home. The worst feeling starts creeping inside me.
Ash is staying at the house over the weekend, not only because of the play but also for Ty's birthday party on Saturday. Since my girlfriend's car is at the shop, I drive the three of us back home. Ash and Gaby make conversation all the way but I'm too nervous about the talk I'm about to have, more that I have been the whole month anticipating the play, to even cross a word with them.
Amazingly Ash and George get along very well and after dinner they stay in the living room talking.
I go to my room to change into something more comfortable and to have a little time alone. I don't know how am I supposed to do this? Should I wait until we go to bed? Maybe not, she might stay with them all night, and if I don't do this Cat will tell her.
I find myself looking outside my window and I feel Gaby wrapping her arms around my waist.
"Hey" - She whispers sweetly. I'm melting at her touch. I don't want this to be the last time she does this. I take a deep breath and decide this is the moment, wrong or right, this is it.
"Gab, we should talk" - I whisper.
"Oh" - She stiffens up and releases me stepping back, "So, it's happening… we are having the talk" - Gaby says and pulls away. What talk? I haven't even said a word yet… I really don't want to do this.
I turn around and try to get a hold of her but I contain myself, I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it if she is so close.
"I'm sorry… I just don't know how it happened and I… Gaby I'm…" - I tried to say it but just couldn't.
"It's Tori, I know" - Wait, she knows?… How?
"Gaby?" - I whisper again, she knows?
"I've known for some days now" - She sighed looking down.
I keep looking at her not knowing what to say. The silence is deafening. She knew and she didn't tell me, why didn't she confront me? Since when does she know? This feeling of uncertainty is overwhelming.
"What do you feel for her?" - She asks.
"Nothing Gaby, it was a mistake" - I say rapidly getting close to her, I want her back in my arms, I want to let her know I'm with her.
"No" - Gaby steps back.
"You can't ignore this Jade, I've seen how you look at her, how hard you have tried to stay away, to ignore her these past few days and you do a very good job, but it shows" - Gaby says looking straight at me, "You are hurting, you are doubting yourself and we shouldn't keep pretending everything is OK"
"Gaby, I don't hurt over her, I hurt over US, I love you, I don't want to lose you. You are my girl! My first love, my… " - I try to assure her but she interrupts me.
"I'm your FIRST but not your LAST, at least not right now. You lied to me, you cheated Jade and I'm sure you have feelings for Tori… You and I shouldn't be together anymore" - Gaby says being completely raw with me.
"Gaby, please Baby let's just… I don't want that… I was confused, I never should have said anything" - I break down and I notice I'm crying uncontrollably.
"Jade, I'm sorry but we can't" - Gaby says standing still.
"Why is this so easy for you?" - I can't believe Gaby is so cold right now, so distant while I'm a mess, tears running down my face.
"It's not! It hurts like something just exploded inside me, but this isn't about me, I'm not a part of what you need to figure out anymore" - Gaby replies.
"Don't say that" - I whimper reaching for Gaby again but she doesn't let me.
"What do you want me to say?" - She makes fists of her hands with anger and fights with herself in what to say next, "Beck is right… if I stay with you… I'm a fool"
"Baby… I love you, I'm sorry I made a mistake… please… I'm so sorry" - I start to get desperate, I'm losing her. I force myself to get close enough and grab her in a hug.
She pushes me away and puts the palm of her hand in front of my face.
"Stop! You slept with her and then came to me, you told me you loved me… God! You let me hold you… and all along you were lying to me" - She yells at me furiously, "You let her bruise you, you let her kiss you in the places I kiss you, touch you the way I touch you… Did you even think of me while you were with her Jade?" - I can't help but close my eyes shot, trying to keep the images from appearing in my mind.
"I felt dirty that morning in the shower after I realized what you have done… you kissed me and hugged me like nothing had happened…" - Her voice breaks, I can't take looking at her so hurt… by me, "because I'm worth nothing to you… your words were empty. You had so much time to tell me, but I guess you were not sorry enough to be honest with me"
"I tried to tell you but I couldn't… I didn't want this to happen" - I explain bawling my eyes out.
"Then you shouldn't have done it" - She cries with her hands in her face, "I've spent all week convincing myself it was nothing, even accepting what happened and thinking I could forgive you… because I love you so much but…" - Gaby takes a deep, deep breath and…
"We are done" - I could barely hear her.
"What? No, Gaby… come on, we can fix this, I promise you… please" - I beg with all I have but she rushes out the door. I try to grab her but she dodges me and walks out.
I'm about to run after her but George gets in front of me blocking the door.
"Let her be!"
"Get out of my way you Fuck!" - I push him but he is too strong.
"Jade stop… let her be, let her calm down, you are only going to make it worse" - He actually sounds concerned, "Give her the night, talk to her tomorrow, OK?"
"I don't want to lose her"
"I know… come here" - He embraces me, I don't know why I'm letting him… I guess right now all I need is someone to hold me.
No one's POV
Gaby runs downstairs and meets Ash by the staircase.
"I need your car keys" - She says drying her tears with the sleeve of her pullover.
"Where are you going?" - Ash asks concerned, Gaby likes to hide but this time she wont let her go by herself.
"Out, keys"
"No… I'll take you, tell me where" - She imposes herself. Everyone heard the fight and Gaby's parents asked her not to let her go out alone.
"Beck's… and a liquor store"
"Fine, let's go"
Both girls get inside the car and drive off. They stop to buy two Tequila bottles and continue their way to Beck's house. All the way Gaby continues crying and Ash leaves her alone. She knows her too well and she needs space, she is only there to accompany her. Besides they will surely talk at Beck's RV.
Ashley parks and Gaby immediately get's out of the car and knocks on his friend's door.
"Jerk, open up"
Ash gets out slowly, by the time she gets to the door Beck is already greeting Gaby with a bottle of his own.
"I'm guessing you also decided to break up tonight" - He says with a big grin on his face.
This situation is very uncomfortable for the one member of the gang who wasn't having a break up at the moment.
"Ash! Come in! Welcome to the noisy RV" - Beck yells remembering the other day's conversation.
She shakes her head and gets inside. By now Gaby has one of the bottles open and is serving herself a drink in an empty cup of coffee.
"Why don't you drink straight from the bottle dude!" - Ash says sarcastically.
"Didn't thought of that" - Gaby grabs the bottle and starts drinking directly from it like it was water.
"I was only joking, what the hell is wrong with you!" - She takes the bottle away from the broken hearted girl.
"hahahahahahaha" - Beck laughs pointing at her.
"How drunk are you?" - She turns to Beck and takes his bottle away from him.
"OK, these are the rules! I pour the drinks tonight and you two will do as I say!" - She starts as both of them stay quiet looking at her, "You want to get drunk? Fine, but you wont end up intoxicated in the hospital"
"Yes, Ma'am!" - Beck sits on the edge of his bed right next to Gaby.
"Drinks, drinks, drinks, drinks" - Both of them start demanding hitting their hands on their legs.
Ash serves small quantities on the cups; trying to limit her friends need to destroy themselves.
"So what did Tori tell you?" - Gaby asks drinking her poison all the way down.
"Another one please" - She points to Ash.
"Take it easy Gaby"
"Well, she confessed that they got drunk on one of the rehearsals on her house and kissed and then she fucked your girlfriend on Saturday" - Beck drinks at once letting it burn him, feeling a short relieve from his pain and continues, "I guess your assumptions were more than correct"
"You guys knew they were cheating?" - Ash asks in total shock. She couldn't believe that her friends knew and didn't do anything about it. She serves herself a shot.
"Oh, oh wait… wait this is the best part" - Beck gets up and hold his hands out, "She told me, hmm hmm hmm" - He clears his throat and starts talking in the best imitation of Tori mixed with a canary's voice he could make, "Beck, you have to understand, I haven't felt anything for you in over a month, I was just waiting for the play to be over to break up with you"
"What the fuck?" - Ash says and drinks up another small shot.
"Over a month?" - Gaby exclaims, "Holy shit" - And she continues drinking.
All three of them start laughing, all of the sudden the conversation turn into an amusing way to mock their exes.
"How did you found out they were cheating?"
"Oh she dared to take a shower with me the day after" - Gaby plugs the mp3 player into the speakers and looks for some music.
"OK, I'm lost… did Tori wrote with lipstick an 'I slept with your girlfriend' on Jade's back or something?"
"She might as well have" - Beck laughs and tries to explain to Ash the complexities of sleeping with Jade, "She has this thing and she bruises very, very easily"
"You know it took me weeks to perfect the art of pressing just enough not to leave her looking like a freaking piñata after the party" - Gaby blurts sounding more and more drunk.
"hahahahaha, good one… a piñata" - Beck laughs, he is already drunk, he had finished half a bottle of vodka by himself before the girls arrived.
Ash looks at her friends and decides not to drink anymore. The night seems very short they are drinking way to fast and with all the emotional baggage it wont take long for them to become sandbags she will have to take care of.
"What did she say to you? Bartender! Quick… another drink!" - Beck demands to Ash who is getting a little tired of being their dispenser, but well she set the rules and she complies.
"Well, that she made a mistake and that she was sorry… and didn't want to tell me because she didn't want to break up with me… or I think that she didn't want me to break up with her" - Gaby looks up trying to remember the exact words, "Who cares… because… you know, if you kiss someone one time and you regret it, you simply don't do it again" - She asks for another drink with her finger pointing the cup, "but… they slept together after that…" - Gaby starts having trouble with organizing her ideas, "once… once is mistake but twice is a decision" - She drinks again all the way down, "See, she… decided to hurt me"
"Not only you beautiful… Jade was supposed to be my best friend you know…" - Beck says pointing his index finger a little to hard on his chest, "…and she fucked my girlfriend, Jade fucked my girlfriend!… Cheers!" - He lifts his cup to Gaby and Ash but before drinking he realizes: "Dude! I watched them kiss and kiss and kiss at rehearsals… and I'm sure that once I saw them crossing tongues… but I played dumb… 'cause I enjoyed it" - She turns to Gaby and giggles.
"Jerk, you never told me this… does that mean I had Tori's saliva on my mouth" - Gaby says with a grossed out face and pointing her tongue out, "Let's kill those germs with more alcohol!" - She screams out and Beck follows!
"Yeah! Lets kill those Tori germs!… More alcohol, more alcohol Bartender" - Beck laughs with Gaby. They resemble a couple of preschoolers asking for pudding.
"Enough! This is the last one, you guys are beyond drunk and it's not even been an hour!" - Ash takes the bottles and hides them in a drawer. Her friends complain to her and get up to fight her for the drinks. Of course they are so dizzy they can't even stay standing for long and they crush on the bed hitting each other.
"You two look like a couple of bad clowns, you know you both deserve better than those two" - She accommodates them in bed so the three of them could fit better and keep talking. "Let them have each other, you two can find hotter girls to be with"
The three friends stare at the celling laying in bed together just like when they where kids and the stared at the sky while camping during summer days at the cabins.
"Are you kidding me?" - Gaby interrupts sitting up, "Jade is the most gorgeous girl on this earth, no offense Ash… her eyes alone are worth my kingdom" - Gaby starts gesturing everything she says, clear sign she has lost her battle with sobriety.
"You'd give your kingdom for a bag of weed" - Ash clarifies.
"True, but I would give my bag of weed for those eyes!" - Gaby still jokes at the situation, Beck to the contrary has gone quiet.
"At least she loved you… Tori and I were a joke… besides I got cheated twice, once by my girlfriend and another by my best friend…you… you guys were epic" - He finally says more serious, the booze started to have a darker effect on him.
"Epic Beck? Really? Day one I met her she promised to torture me, to hurt me… I should've listen" - Gaby starts crying, "She made me fall in love with her and she played her part very well…"
"Oh come on you guys, stop this is not good for you" - She is seeing her best friends broken and she didn't know what to say, the sadness in the room starts to pull out every insecurity they have, all the jokes and laughter of before are now replaced with regret and pain.
"I wish I never met her… I could deal with the bullies at our old school, but at HA I had to meet the cruelest one of all" - She cleans her face and goes for the bottles Ash hid.
"No… Gaby, no! No more, you've had enough" - Ash stands quickly to stop her and takes the bottle away from her hands placing it over the table.
"Ash you don't know OK!" - Gaby screams, "You don't know how this feels, I can hardly breathe, my chest irradiates pain every time I remember her voice saying I love you… I don't want to feel anymore… I don't want to hurt… not anymore… I…" - Ash embraces her friend and starts rocking her, she is not going to let them fall apart, let them do more damage to their souls, Gaby sobs and howls in her friends shoulder holding her grip hard, the pressure of their bodies is somewhat comforting. All Beck wanted, on the other hand, was lying on top of that table, he got up and taking advantage of his friends moment he grabs the bottle and starts drinking away until it was empty, at least 3 complete shots at once.
"Where is the other bottle?" - He says confused, his eyes wobbling out of his control, Ash manages to leave Gaby and grab Beck who no longer could stand on his own.
"OK, the night is over. Gaby you go home, I'll call you a cab" - Ash drops her friend in bed and starts to take off his shoes and jacket to make him more comfortable.
"You can take me home!" - Gaby complains, "I don't want to be there alone"
"No, I can't, I have to take care of Shaggy, he is too drunk and I can't take care of the both of you like this" - Ash dials the Cab Company and gives them directions, "Gaby get ready, the cab will be here in 5 minutes"
"You are not fun!" - She says putting her pullover hoodie on.
"You want fun? Tomorrow I will show you two what fun really is… now promise me you will get home and go straight to BED!" - Ash takes Gaby by her arms and warns her, "If I find out you drank some more, or got high, or smoked, or went to the rooftop, I swear to you, you'll finally know what real pain is"
"OK, OK… I promise" - She sticks her tongue out to her friend, "I'm not that drunk you know"
"Sure babe, that mature gesture just proved it, now go home and straight to bed, I'll be there in the morning with this bag of potatoes" - She says pointing to their drunk friend.
"I love you Ash!"
"I love you too, now go, get out you dork" - Ash helps her friend into the Cab giving him the necessary recommendations and pays him in advance. After watching her drive away she goes back inside to take care of Beck.
Back at the Evans home Gaby manages to get out of the Cab and climb the stairs up to her room. She takes a slow and careful walk up to her bed and crashes on top taking out her shoes with her own feet.
"Where were you?" - A voice exclaims from the other side of the bed.
"What are you doing here Jade?" - Gaby says getting into the covers of her bed with her cloths on.
"Are you drunk?" - Jade notices the smell of alcohol all over her ex.
"Yep!" - Gaby replies in a playful but dismissive tone, "Now, get out I want to sleep"
"I'm not going anywhere, we should talk, we have to fix this" - Jade responds desperately, she is not known for her patience.
"Go Jade, we have nothing to talk about" - Gaby has trouble keeping awake. The Cab ride only made her dizzier.
"We have to talk, I need to talk to you!" - Jade insists with worry, she doubts is the best moment to talk, but her anxiety was building up and she couldn't wait for tomorrow.
"OK, let's talk" - Gaby starts, "See, I need you to tell me when because I've spent all night trying to figure it out but I can't pin point the exact moment"
"When what?" - The blue eyed girl looks at her puzzled.
"When did you decide that the best way to bully me… was to make fall so deeply in love with you… and then… break me in a million pieces" - The hurt girl mumbles out with a sad frown, her eyes closed, tears crawling from her eyes, "Did you at least enjoyed it"
"Gaby, I love you"
"Oh, and that's the other one, I mean, honestly if after graduating… you don't get the lead role in a big movie and win an Oscar... I will personally make some banners and protest because… you… you are the best actress ever…" - Her voice starts to break down as she continues to express her feelings to Jade, "See… I believed you… every time you said I love you... every time" - Gaby starts sobbing and whispers, so drunk she only feels the pain in her chest mixing with her dizziness.
"Gaby…"
"No, here... Give me you hand, I'll probe it to you…" - Gaby clumsily looks for Jade's hand under the covers and presses it on her chest as hard as she could, like she was trying to fill a hole inside her, "Feel this Jade, do you feel it?"
Jade only looks at her not knowing what to say. She couldn't understand.
"This is my broken heart" - Gaby whimpers and breathes heavy, "But it's no longer yours to worry about"
She lets go of Jade's hand, pushing it away. The dark haired girl was stunned, not knowing how to react, the love of her life was a bundle of sadness and pain that she caused and she couldn't fix it.
"Now…" - Gaby points Jade's nose with her index finger and taps it slowly, "get your cute butt off my bed… and get the fuck out of my room" - Gaby picks her dizzy body up enough to turn her back to jade and fall fast asleep.
Jade wasn't expecting that, the conviction of her ex's words, she was demanding her to leave. She no longer had a right to occupy a place in her bed and probably not even in her life. She was hit at that moment with the awful memory of the day her father sent her to the hospital, an inner void that consumed her… she had lost it all, and this time there wasn't a Gaby waiting to protect her on the other side, she had managed to destroy that as well.
A/N Dear Guest, I understand that you believe that the flow of the story breaks when I change a POV, but honestly, I like the kind of stories that allow me to look at a certain situation from all sides. When I choose to do so I always move the story along with that character, in this case it was a main character that yeah, is not Jade, nor Tori, but in this story is still a main character (Gaby).
Anyway, I say this because I do take into account your likes and dislikes and I appreciate very much your comments, in fact I am editing parts of the story from the beginning to give it more unity.
This story is not being developed in terms of structure or what will happen in each chapter anymore, all of that has already been decided. There will be 50 chapters in total and I really hope you like the ending, I do. Thanks for reading, and see you again over the weekend.