Chapter 35
Title: Love & Softball
Author: BrennaAimee
Pairing: Santana/Brittany
Rating: PG 13
Summary: Santana transfers to a new high school from one where she is a softball star. Can she prove she belongs on this new team and impress the captain in more ways than she knows.
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A/N: I'm so tired OMG all I can say is: Boo, I hope we acted an ass for u enough last night and happy muhhh fuccin birthday! Everyone else Thanks so much for the amount of reviews I got and alerts and favorites. Yall are amazing! Much love to each and every one of yall.
|The Next Morning|
Santana's P.O.V
I heard my phone alarm go off and I slithered my arm out from under the blanket to turn it off. I rolled over and realized there was another person in my bed. Then it all came crashing back to me. Brittany driving away and not coming back, watching her car turn the corner and disappear, collapsing up against my car, trying to put the key into the ignition and shaking too badly to make it happen, someone knocking on my car window wearing work-out clothes, going home with them, and then them driving me to my house, and staying with me all night. I stared at the person lying next to me, and her eyes fluttered open. My eyes started to water and tears slowly fell down my cheeks. She reached up and wiped away my tears.
"Jamie" I said before my tears turned into fitful sobs. She pulled me closer and let me cry on her shoulder.
"Shhh . . . It's ok San . . . It's ok. Just let it all go." She coo'd to me.
"It's not going to be ok Jamie, she is gone, she just left me."
"Santana, a blind person could see that she loves you. Did you two break up? No, you said you were doing that long distance thing. I never thought it would work, but I see the way she looks at you and the way you light up when you say her name. That is love."
"What if she finds someone else?" I cried into her shoulder.
"She won't, come on sweetie, we have school." She said sitting me up and getting out of bed. She was wearing one of my tees and shorts. I looked down and saw that I was wearing a different tee shirt than yesterday and a pair of pj pants. The last thing I really remembered was collapsing on the bed when we got home.
"Jamie, when did I change clothes . . . and get under cover?"
"I made you change last night at like eleven and you went back to sleep right after, so I pulled cover over us. You were shaking. I wasn't sure if you were cold or from crying so much."
I looked down at the cover and started picking at it. "Thank you" I finally looked up at her and said.
"Anytime, I'm always going to be here for you when you need me. I know we don't know each other that well, and well I spent most the time hitting on you, but it was obvious to me from the start you two had something real and all I could honestly hope for was your friendship. I just want you to know that I'm going to be here through whatever ok?"
"Ok" I finally say with-out choking. She turns around and gets her clothes and starts to change. "Jamie . . . I can't do this." I said as she pulled her shirt down.
"Can't do what?" She asked confused.
"I can't go to school. I can't face that right now."
"Ok, stay here." She said as she finished putting on her clothes. "I'll make it look like you are leaving with me and I'll go with Raquel that way your parents don't get mad. Text me later and let me know if you need me or anything." She gave me a hug and placed a kiss on my forehead, grabbed my bag, and ran out the door. I laid down and rolled over to face my bedside table. I looked at my phone and then I saw the picture frame a little further back. It was a picture of Brittany being silly that I took on the softball field while we practicing. She was giving me a glare while acting like she was about to swing the bat at me. I missed her already, everything about her. Her morning texts . . . wait . . . I didn't get one this morning? I picked my phone up and saw that it was on alarm only. I slid my finger across the code and I saw the little message icon on the screen. I went to my inbox and saw 4 texts from Puck and one text from Brittany at around 2 am this morning.
'Santana baby, We just got mostly everything settled and I came into my new room 2 lay down. Nothing is the same here. It's weird 2 call this my room. I miss u so much. Ur teddy bear is in my car in the passenger seat. Ur necklace is around my neck. I'm never taking it off. The picture is on my nightstand, but all this does is makes me miss u even more. Santana, I don't know how we r going 2 get thru this. I love u so much just remember that ok? Never let that thought go. No matter what happens I love u then, I love u now, and I will love u always. Email me later. - BP&SL'
I read her text and I lost it again. My heart hurt, literally. Every beat it felt like it was going to jump out of my chest. It was getting harder to breathe. I was lying on my side and it hurts so bad my body just contracted into a ball, as tight as I could hold on. I balled my fists up and squoze. This was one of the worst things that had ever happened to me. I thought moving here was bad, but that was nothing compared to this. She may still be mine, but right now it feels like I had lost her. I didn't want to cry. I thought I had cried all I could, but this pain was too much for me to take. I felt a lump in my throat burning me, but that was nothing compared to the hurt I felt. I held my breath to try to will it to go away, but it hit me like a car, hard and fast, and the only thing I could do now was to let these violent sobs wreck through my body as I tossed and turned wanting relief from this hell and these tears.
|Brittany's P.O.V|
"Baby girl wake up." I heard my dad say as he shook me. I was curled up into a ball under the cover because this was how I went to sleep. After I texted Santana, I turned the sound on my phone off, and curled up in a ball and cried. It was the only thing I could do. I looked around and everything that I saw reminded me of her. Even my new room reminded me of her because the first thing I asked myself when they said this was my room is 'would Santana like it?' I missed her so much already and it was one night. Putting up with this for months on end was going to be hell for me. I pulled the covers tighter around me and tried to sink further into the bed as the tears welled up in my eyes.
"Brittany, come on honey, you have to go register at school today." I shook my head no, but that didn't do any good because he couldn't see me. I knew I was reverting to the antics of a two year old, but I didn't know what to do. I didn't want to go to this school. I knew I didn't have a choice but to leave, and really I wanted my family together again, but I missed my school, I missed my friends, and I missed my Santana. I wonder if she texted me back this morning. I uncovered my head and reached for my phone. I pressed the unlock button and saw 3 missed texts, but none were from Santana.
"Are you ok?" My dad gently asked as he put his hand on my bent knee.
"No . . . not really." I said as I let tears stream down my face.
"I know you miss her, but everything will work out, you will see. It's just the rest of this year, and if you two are meant to be together you will be. Just breathe, I know it hurts right now, but what doesn't kill you in the end will make you stronger, you know that."
"I know Dad, but right now, this . . . hurts." I said as I leaned into his chest and cried. He hugged me and offered me some comfort. I finally quit crying and he pulled me back with his hands on my shoulders and looked into my eyes.
"You will be ok, us Pierces are survivors. We are a strong brand of people." He offered me a smile and placed a kiss to the top of my head. "Get dressed so you can go make a few friends before you start school tomorrow."
|Later that Night|
I grabbed my laptop, turned it on, and curled up in the bed. They finally put wireless internet in the house an hour ago when they were supposed to this morning. When my laptop turned on the familiar background made me smile. Mine and Santana's hands intertwined. Her black nail polish on both of our fingers, because I let her paint mine the night before. I opened my email and right at the top of the list was Santana's email.
'Hey Baby,
I finished setting up your facebook last night you can check it and tell me if you like it. I know this move is going to be hard on us, it already has been really though. The worst part is I feel like I'm losing my girlfriend and my best friend. Now what am I going to do if my father and I ever have one of our heated 'discussions'. All the drama I have had in my life since we have been together you are the person I turned to, not Raquel, Puck, or Quinn, it was you. I just want you to know that I love you with all my heart. You make me feel like no one else ever has. When you look at me my heart melts, when you hug me I never want you to let go, and when you say you love me it feels like its forever. It feels like this is it, this is my forever. You are all I could want in a girlfriend. You make me feel special, like all my flaws disappear. You tell me that I am perfect, and I know no one is perfect, but the way you say it makes it seem like you mean it. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me. Since we been together you have always been the thing that keeps me going, you make me smile when I don't want to, and you make me want to get out of bed in the morning. When I am upset you make it all go away just by looking at me the way you do, or holding me the way you do. This time we have spent together has been the best in my life, and no I'm not exaggerating. My parents told me it may just be puppy love, but that can't be because this is too strong. I think they are just telling me that to make me feel better. The bond we share is special and it has never been about sex or anything physical (although we don't have a problem with that ;) haha) Baby, do me a favor? Promise me no matter what, you won't stop e-mailing me. I need you in my life, and I know you plan to come back to me, but things happen and if this distance makes you that unhappy then I will do whatever it takes to make you happy and if that is let it go I will, I will do it all for you. This email was just to let you know how deeply I feel for you and I think you will understand because we have always had that special way of understanding each other. I love you. xoxo -Santana'
I sat back after reading that, teared up, and let out a good cry. She was right we always had that special way of understanding each other. When everyone thought she was a bitch, I knew better. Whenever someone called me stupid she understood my past with it and understood why it hurt so much. She stood up for me. This girl had my heart on a string. I knew she was hurting because I was too. If she was hurting half as bad as I was I didn't want her to have to feel this. I went to check the facebook she put up for me and entered a few details, then went to write her back.
'Santana,
The facebook is perfect and that picture you set up as my display pic is cute! Thank you. Your email made me cry, I miss you already. Everywhere I look I think of you. Everything I see reminds me of you. You are my best friend as well and it is going to be hard to not be able to run to my best friend. From the first day I met you, Santana, I loved you. I was broke down from Joanne, but you fixed it. No matter how hard she tried and no matter what we had had, you over shined her. I thought I had been in love before you, but no one compared to what I feel now. It is killing me that I have to live up here, life is empty with-out you by my side, and I know it has only been a day, but still. I'm sorry that I have to be here. I feel alone, and it kills me that you feel the same way. I will never stop emailing you, but if it takes me a while, don't get mad the next few weeks are going to be really busy, but I'm going to try at least every few nights. What I said on the porch? I meant it. If you find someone there that you like, don't let me hold you back. That would make me feel horrible. I love you with all my heart. -Brittany.'
I finished my email still crying and pressed the send button. I shut down my laptop and went downstairs to eat with mom and dad. Afterward I headed back upstairs and tried to get some rest for my first day tomorrow.
|A Week Later|
I got out the shower and went to check my phone. The captain of the softball team here got my number so we could practice together. Their coach really didn't do anything, so the girls fended for themselves and, well, captain's pick was who made the team. So when they called a meeting for everyone that wanted to try out I did everything I could to make sure that I had a very good chance to get on the team. I grabbed my phone and saw a text from Santana. I went to check it as I wrapped the towel around me and turned around to grab my lotion on the back of the toilet. Next thing I knew . . .
"FUCK!" I yelled as I looked down to see my phone sitting in the bottom of the toilet bowl. "You have to be kidding me!" Luckily it was clean water so I pulled it out and took the battery out of it as fast as I could and tried to dry it off. I let it sit for as long as it took me to put my clothes on, dry my hair and brush my teeth. I carried it with me out to my room as I went to put my things away. I tried to check my phone and it still wouldn't turn on. I went into the living room to my mom and dad.
"Hey sweetie" My mom said from her position beside dad.
"I need a new phone." I said in a rush.
"Whoa, slow down, what happened?"
"I dropped my phone in water and it won't turn on. I can't talk to Santana now, and the softball captain will probably call me and I won't be able to play because she will think I am ignoring her and . . . I just need a new phone."
"Well baby girl, our contracts are up in about a week anyways. Instead of upgrading we are thinking about just getting a new service provider. So, we will get new ones next week." Dad offered.
"But Dad, I can't talk to Santana, you know that we are barely ever home for me to get on the internet, what am I going to do now?"
"Calm down Brittany, you will work it out."
I rolled my eyes and sulked back up to my room. I didn't know what I was going to do since I wouldn't be able to talk to Santana every day. This was going to kill me. I opened up my laptop and checked the facebook Santana set up. I had a bunch of new friends request and a few little things Santana wrote and put on my wall. I accepted all my requests and wrote an 'I love you' on her wall and logged off. I went to check my email and found an email from Santana. I read it and wrote her back.
'Hey Baby,
If you are trying to text me I'm sorry my phone got water damaged and Mom and Dad are talking about not getting me a new one for another week, so I won't be able to talk to you every day :'( I don't know what I'm going to do. I miss you so much already and now I'm losing our daily contact. I'm so sorry. I love you, and I miss you. I wish I was in your arms again. I'm looking into the softball team here, but it's not going to be the same because there is no you :( I'm going to get ready for bed. I'll talk to you later.
Love, Brittany.'
I finished my email with tears in my eyes. This was crazy I missed her so much. I should had been able to go a little while without her shouldn't I? I mean I shouldn't be so dependent on her. I got ready for bed and curled up in a ball and cried myself to sleep as usual, and entered my nightmare filled dreams. Nightmares of leaving her and the image of her being broken by her car fill my mind. Another night of restless sleep for me.
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