Yeah Ain't nobody gonna dance tonight Wanna party Alright do it again How does it feel to be outclassed Ain't nobody gonna take my life Party Alright do it again Oh oh oh Alright It's a party Alright Alright do it again
Everybody pay attention to me
I got the answer
I got the answer
We'll rock it to ya with a capital D/G/T
So get your hands up
So get your hands up
Ain't nobody gonna get the best of me
Saint Peter come and save my soul
I've come to show you how we rock and roll
Come and see what sinks and floats
Jumping up cause everybody knows
Get on the dance floor
You wanna dance yeah
Up on the catwalk
You do it alright
You got the answer
And all the good times
Will give you cancer
Or maybe kill ourselves but live again
With the lights off do it again
Cause it's always, always the same old trend
Blown away
So get your hands up
So get your hands up
Right after me you want to kick up you're dead (?)
So play a 5th note
Play a 5th note
Ain't nobody gonna get the best of me
Saint Peter come and save me now
Saint Peter gonna show you how
Everybody do the party theme
I am gonna
Show you what we've got
Get on the dance floor
You wanna dance now
Up on the catwalk
You do it alright
You got the answer
And all the good times
Will give you cancer
Or maybe kill ourselves but live again
With the lights off do it again
Oh my god, oh my god, it's the same old trend
Run away
Run away
Run away
Kill the party kill the party tonight
We'll kill the party kill the party tonight
Let's go!
Get on the dance floor
You wanna dance now
Up on the catwalk
You do it alright
I got the answer
You have a good time
Get it get it go
Get on the dance floor
You want to dance now
Up on the catwalk
When we kill ourselves but live again
With the lights off do it again
Come everybody get down (everybody get down)
Till the party breaks down (till the party breaks down)
Everybody get down (everybody get down)
Till the party breaks down
Till the party breaks down tonight
Before getting to the Hospital Frank and I got ice cream. I dipped my finger into it a let Frank suck it off. He smiled sheepishly as her let his lips move from my finger to hand.
"Y'know I'd call you horny old fucktard...but I'm one too." I laughed. Frank took a massive scoop of his tiramisu ice cream and jammed it in his mouth. I burst out laughing when he starting jumping up and down complaing of brain freeze.
"Yeah...you're 18 year old, pretty and smart...you're definitely a old, horny, fucktard!" Frank laughed.
"I remember it distinctly being a horny, old, fucktard!" I smiled. Frank looked around at the deserted ice cream parlour then leaned forward and kissed me, his hand cupping my face. I pulled away and looked at my all star watch.
"Geez, we better get going!" I said quickly and I jumped up.
"You ready?" Frank asked, a twinkle in his eye.
"Readier than ever."
At the hospital
FRANK
The taste of tiramisu mixed with nerves don't go down well. I tapped my feet impatiently as we waited outside the DR's room. 'Elena gripped my hand tightly in her's. KI couldn't help but think back through all the shit we've been through together...from her killing herself, my marriage falling apart, me getting jealous, her getting held hostage...when I first met her...I remember the fact that I could stop staring at her...I just couldn't...she had enchanted me. I think that's when I fell for her...It just took me a while...through stubbornness and shit...My thoughts where interrupted by a nurse calling out. We followed her and went into the room.
"Take a seat." She nodded to 'Elena then to the large white chair.
"Sure..." 'Ellie smiled. I pulled out a chair and sat next to her, our hands gripped together. The nurse glanced at a clipboard as she pulled a chair out for herself.
"So...you're 18 years old...no severe allergies to medicine...suffer from Bipolar and is on a 3- course of lithium...okay...This all seems good..." She mumbled to herself.
"Let's see this baby!" She announced. 'Elena and I looked between each other nervously before the nurse ordered 'Elena to lift up the bottom of her top s she could put some jell on 'Elenas bump.
"It's cold..." 'Elliegiggled as the metal devise rubbed against her belly and we stared at the moniter. The nurses eyebrows where burrowed as she moved the machine around agitatedly. Something wasn't right...
"I'm going to go and get the DR to see if he'll come and find your baby..." She left and a few seconds later returning with an older looking, African American. He smiled sweetly at us...He had one of those charming faces...
"Okay...let's see if we can find your baby..." I glanced at 'Elena. Her eyes were vacant but her finger where tightly gripping mine...the edges of her mouth twitching DR stared up at the screen before putting the machine down...he sighed, shaking his head...Oh god...it was happening...I knew it. I gulped.
"I'm sorry...I really don't know how to tell you this bu..." 'Elena interrupted him.
"The babies dead isn't it..." She said...her voice bland and un demonstrative.
"Yes. I'm sorry. It looks like it's only just died. The bloating should go down in a couple of days and in a couple of months you can try again...I'm truly sorry." He walked out of the room leaving us alone. I expected 'Elena to burst into tears...but she didn't...she just sat there...staring it the monitor. I was sure I was going to cry...but I didn't...I couldn't. I needed to stay strong for 'Elena. However bad this was for me...it must be ten times worse for her.
"He's lying." She stated...
"What?" I asked astonished. She jumped up and started shaking the monitor.
"It's lying Frankie! It's lying! I swear to god it is! It's not dead! IT CAN'T BE!" She screamed. Not a single tear falling. I grabbed her wrist and subdued her...but she still struggled.
"You believe me Frankie, don't you?" She stared me straight in the eye. Oh god...it hurt so much. She was almost insane at this second. I swear.
"I'm sorry...I just...can't." I stuttered. Her mouth opened and her hands dropped. She just stared at me. Before jumping up. Grabbing her jacket and walking out of the room. I followed her...
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In the cab
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'Elena jsut sat and stared out of the window...I had just picked up the phone and explained to he grandparents why we weren't going to go over and see them...but go straight to Lyns house and go to bed. They were so sympathetic... but their comforts did little to help. I stared at 'Elena. She had now fallen asleep. The cab stopped outside Lyns house. I got out and paid the driver before picking up 'Ellie and carrying her to the house. I rang the doorbell. Lyn answered with a smile. I put my index finger over my mouth, indicating her to be quiet, She understood immediately and I went up and put 'Elena down on her bed, in her old room. I walked down stairs solemnly...
"So?" Lyn said excitedly. I looked up at her.
"The baby...Lindsey...the baby died..."I said, shaking my head as I fell onto the couch.
"No..."
"It did...Oh god... 'Ellies...shit; she's so torn up. She just kept shouting they the DR was lying...but I saw that screen...there was nothing on it..."
"I'm so sorry..."
"It doesn't matter if you are ror aren't...it's not gonna bring it back." I sighed. She nodded solemnly.
"You better go to bed. Bandit will be jumping all over you in the morning. She hasn't stop talking about seeing you guys again." She told me in her motherly ways.
"Yeah...I better..." When I walked upstairs, back into 'Elenas room...I couldn't help but take it all in again...I let a few tear escape...but I couldn't break down into flood of tears like my heart told me too...I just simply couldn't . I found myself going through 'Elenas stuff. I don't know how long I did...but I ended up going through photos, necklaces, trinkets...everything you could thing of until I ended up at the bottom of the deepest part of the last draw...It pulled out a dried blood covered razor...I look down at it...'Elena may have used this countless of time... I let my finger examine it...ouch...it cut myself on it...It only looked like a paper cut...but the blood drew out of it. I stared as a little trickled of blood journeyed down my finger...That's when it started. I brought the razor to the top of my arm...and slashed...I held my arm up and blood trickled down it and onto my clothes. So I slashed again. And again. And again. Until my arm was covered in blood...I was relived...calm...soothed. I was so light headed I could barely remember my name...never mind the tragedies of the day. I lay down on the bed 'Elena was on. I hugged into her and let myself fall asleep as I hugged her. I wasn't sure if I was going to get through this...but what ever happened...I was going to go through it with her.
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Welcome to this institution Cause I can't ever sleep at night the same Cause I close my eyes, What did I say? Back to the day, back into this day What did I say? I will take this ferris wheel Oh my darling Don't let me sleep tonight What did I say? I'm sleepwalking back into this...
One way to resolution
I'm put on this medication
Rolls down my throat
This medication enjoys, enjoys most every day
I see land
What did I say to put Sister to Sleep?
And fall awake and die
And I'm never goin' to bed
Back to another level, hotter then hell
Said that we're not savages until we do it
Again
And one last night I'll kiss your lips again
What did I say to put Sister to Sleep?
And fall awake and die
And I'm never goin' to sleep
And I'm sleepwalking back into this hell
For the first time
And get in your way tonight
Don't let me sleep tonight
Get in your way
What did I say to put Sister to sleep?
I'll never go to sleep
And I won't go back to bed
Hell!
Oh... God...
Waking up made me feel like I was a teenager again. With my heavy eyelids and sore arms...splitting headache and worried thoughts for the day. I looked down at my arms...they can scabs covering over the ribbons I had cut them into. I pulled down my sleeves so no one would see and woke up 'Elena. She was sleeping with her arms tightly around her stomach. As I prodded her whilst kissing her neck I felt her stretch. She turned around so our heads were touching...noses skimming each others... She looked sorely into my eyes.
"C'mon...let's go face hell." She moaned and got up. I stared at her...then followed her and got up too... During breakfast I went and called the guys...and told them the bad news...they all sounded really shocked...
"Gee...I'm so sorry, I just can't believe it..." They all ushered. I sighed and told them we were coming back earl and where catching a plane in a few hours. I walked back in to find 'Elena playing with Bandit. Lindsey carefully watched over her as she did so...We quickly got all our stuff together and made way for the airport...without talking much. The plan journey was boring and we ended up sleeping most of the way through...well, 'Ellie did... I sat straight, bolt right up and watched her...I just needed to know that she was all right... After the flight we got a cab back to MCRs current destination. As we entered the hotel room , you could see the sour looking guys staring at us... 'Elena saw them and dropped her bags...ran through the room and into the bathroom, slamming the door behind her....locking it too. I dropped my bags too...and slumped down...against the bathroom door. I put my head in my hands and started to cry. I cried for a while before any of the boys mustered the courage to say anything...it was Gee.
"I never thought this would happen..."
'ELENA
As I ran through the room into the bathroom and locked the door. I fell to the ground...feebly pulling myself up against the door. I felt myself break down at that moment...all the sorrow I had built up inside of me started to split me open. It was my fault. Jesse died because of me. So did adam. Granny. Joe. Mom. Dylan...my baby...Everything I got closed to died...it was a miracle Frank could still stand... I felt my self yelp through the tears... I pushed my head against the door...I could hear faint sounds from the other side of the door...Frank was crying...I hated that sound. I hated it more than anything. The one thing I would never curse anyone with...not even my worst enemy...I had inflicted on Frank; the...best thing that has ever happened to me...I jumped up and started the tap and filled up the bath full of icy cold water.
FRANK
I pulled myself up...the guys stared at me soberly. I knocked on the door...Unable to put any real strength into it.
"E...let me in!" I said timidly... I repeated myself again...slightly sterner this time...no reply. I pressed my ear up against the door. I could hear...muffled crying...gulping and the drips of tap...Worry suddenly hit me.
"LET ME FUCKING IN!" I scream banging against the door. Most of the guys had no idea what was happening...but Gee understood exactly. He jumped up quickly and hit the door with his shoulder as I had. I beat it with clamped fists...
"Open up! Please!" I screamed . The guys were on their feet now...I pressed my ear up against the door again...the only sound I could hear was the gushing of water. I need to get in there. I knew something was happening. I knew it...With the last remaining strength I had I flung myself against the door. Gee jump out of the way as it collapsed and I rushed into the bathroom. The floor was coveredin water...the bath had flooded. I ran over to the bath. 'Elena had submerged herself in it. Her eyes closed worry hit through me. I pulled her out of the water pressing her against me...
"Get me a fucking towel!" I screamed at Gee. He did as I said I wrapped her into a towel and started doing CPR to get the water out of her...her eyes flew open as she jolted up and coughed out god knows how much water. I pulled her into a hug against me.
"Don't you dare do that again..." I whimpered...
"Frank..." She cried.
"You hear me? NEVER!" I told her through my tears.
Hello spider monkeys! Thanks for reading this chapter! I'm updating as fast as I can so I hope it's A-okay. It's a little rushed...
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