Chapter 38
"I can't believe that today is the day," Arizona smiles, holding Callie's hand as they walk into the doctor's office.
"I know. I can't believe it either. Are you ok?"
"More than ok. I have my wife that I love more than anything beside me. We have an amazing little boy. And... we are getting ready to add to our family. I am more than fine," Arizona says, as Callie is holding the door open for her.
While sitting in the waiting room waiting, Callie turns to Arizona. "So, I was thinking… and I kind of did something."
Turning to look at Callie, Arizona raises her eyebrows asking, "What did you do?"
"Well, I was going to surprise you but now I think maybe it might not be a good idea. I mean, it was at the time I thought of it, but now, maybe it wasn't."
"Just tell me," Arizona says, chuckling at Callie's nervousness.
"Um, so I kind of booked a vacation. Without talking to you first."
"Ok. Well, maybe we should have talked about it, but why would it be a mistake?"
"Well, I booked a week at the beach. And I know you weren't crazy about Zac swimming so I went ahead and enrolled him in swim classes. He starts next week."
"Calliope, I can't believe it," Arizona says smiling. "Why would that be a bad thing? I think it's super sweet you booked it, but also even sweeter than you enrolled him in swim classes. But, why would it be a bad idea?"
"Not that it's a totally bad idea, but, I wasn't thinking... maybe you won't be feeling well. Maybe you won't feel like going and we will spend the time in the room or maybe you will push yourself to enjoy it but you won't really feel like it and then you will just be... miserable. I don't want you to be miserable. I want..."
Arizona leans over and kisses Callie. "You need to stop talking. Although I find it endearing, you are worrying over nothing. I think It sounds fantastic. Zac will love it. I mean, you saw how much he loved the water park."
"I know all that, but what if you don't feel up to it?"
"Well, if I don't feel up to it, then things are going exactly how we want them to," Arizona says, winking at Callie. "If that's the case, that means this will have worked. And I am totally fine puking a few times a day at the beach. Puking at home or at the beach? I totally pick the beach," she says, giving Callie another kiss.
"So, you aren't mad?"
"No. Not at all. When do we go?"
"Um, in about a month. I figure that will be right before classes start and Zac will have had a month of lessons and should be able to navigate the waters pretty well by then. Besides that, it's not like we will let him near the water without a life jacket and one of us anyway."
"True," Arizona says. "I can't wait."
"Torres?" The nurse calls out into the waiting room.
"Here we go..." Arizona smiles at Callie as they both stand up. "You ready?"
"More than ready," Callie smiles, taking Arizona's hand and heading to meet the nurse. Both women walk through the door with matching smiles on their face, hoping for the best and that they will soon be adding to their family.
A few weeks pass by, and Arizona is waiting for Zac to finish his swimming lessons when her phone chimes. She has been a nervous wreck today. Today is the day they can take a pregnancy test. Callie texting every few minutes is usually a sweet thing, but today, she isn't finding it quite so sweet. Just the opposite, actually.
Deciding she isn't going to respond to this text, because nothing has changed in the ten minutes since Callie texted last, she decides to turn her phone off and put it in her purse. She feels bad, this isn't something she would usually do, but she is going to start getting pretty snippy if she has to talk to her and answer the question, "how are you feeling?" even one more time.
She feels the same as she did this morning. The same as she did yesterday. And, the same as she did a week ago. She can't wait to get home and take the test. They aren't scheduled for the official blood test until tomorrow, but Callie wants her to take one tonight. And it's driving her nuts. She doesn't feel any different and she is sure that the test will be negative. She isn't looking forward to seeing a single line on the test this evening, as she is sure that's what they will find.
They finish with Zac's swim lessons and they head home. In just a few short weeks, Zac has mastered floating and they are working on his underwater swimming.
Arizona decides if they are going to get bad news, she wants to have some comfort food ready. So, they stop at the store and she stocks up on ice cream, chips, their favorite pop, and then rents one family movie for Zac and then a more adult movie for after Zac goes to bed.
Pulling into the driveway, Callie is sitting on the porch but stands as they get out of the car.
"Arizona, are you guys alright? I have been texting you and calling you for an hour! I was scared to death something happened!"
"Callie, I'm fine. We are fine. It's not necessary for you to text every ten minutes," Arizona says, getting Zac out of the car while he runs to Callie and she gets the bag of goodies out from the back of the car.
Looking stunned, Callie opens and closes her mouth several times before she finds her words. She picks up Zac and gives him a quick hug and kiss, then puts him down and sends him to go wash up for dinner.
"I guess I didn't realize it was a problem when I text you. You always tell me to text you."
Walking past Callie and into the house, Arizona heads into the kitchen. "It's not a problem when you text. It's a problem when you text every ten minutes."
Confused, Callie shakes her head. "So, you are saying you don't want to talk to me?"
"No. I don't. Not every ten minutes anyway," Arizona says, shaking her head.
Taken aback, Callie just watches as Arizona takes everything out of the bag and puts it away, not even stopping to look at Callie. "Ok. Well, I um, I... I guess I will make sure I don't text you so much again. I'll, uh... I'll leave you alone," Callie says, hurriedly walking out of the kitchen, clearly holding back a sob.
"Shit." Arizona closes the cabinet and realizes she took her frustration out on Callie. Closing the freezer door, she heads into the living room to find Callie. She isn't there so she heads upstairs. What she finds breaks her heart.
Callie is laying on their bed with tears streaming down her face, with Zac handing her a tissue.
If she didn't already feel bad, she feels even worse now. "Momma is crying. I gave her a tissue," Zac says, patting Callie's arm.
"I see that. Did you wash your hands?"
"Yep. Wanna smell?"
Arizona smiles, shaking her head. "No, thank you. I believe you. But, what you can do is to go play in your room for a few minutes. It looked like dinner was almost done. I'll come and get you in a few minutes."
"Ok. Love you momma and mommy," Zac says, not giving Callie or Arizona time to reply, running out.
As soon as he is out of the room, Callie rolls over, facing away from the door. Arizona sighs, knowing she messed up and walks over to sit on the bed.
"Calliope..." Arizona starts, but stops, seeing Callie start to cry.
"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have turned my phone off."
Callie doesn't say anything. She just continues to cry, still not turning to face Arizona. Arizona knows she has a lot of making up to do.
"I know I messed up and I'm sorry you were worried. I didn't think about that. I was just... nervous. I was getting anxious, worried about the test results because I just know it is going to be negative. I know how I felt with Zac and this isn't the same. I already felt different with him. Sore boobs and just... different. I don't feel anything like that, so I know it's going to be negative. And I know that you are going to be disappointed and I don't want to disappoint you."
Callie still doesn't turn around and Arizona lays down beside her and wraps her arm around Callie and rubbing her arms. "I'm so sorry. I was nervous and when you texted making sure I was ok, I just... I felt terrible, because I felt fine. Too fine. And I feel like I'm letting you down. So, I turned my phone off. So that I didn't have to keep telling you I was fine. Because if I'm fine, that means there is no baby."
Callie turns around, with red splotchy eyes and looks at Arizona as she has big tears now welling up in her eyes.
"I was worried something happened to you two," Callie says.
"I'm sorry," Arizona says. "I shouldn't have turned my phone off and I shouldn't have snapped at you. I should have just talked to you about it last night instead of keeping it in."
"Arizona, no. I'm sorry. I just... I guess I have been worried about you and excited and nervous. All at the same time. I just, I couldn't be with you today and texting you just made me feel better. I'm sorry you felt like I was putting pressure on you."
Callie reaches over and wipes Arizona's tears, reaching around her to the bedside table for a kleenex. "Here... don't cry," Callie says, handing Arizona the tissue. "We know that it doesn't always work on the first try. We got lucky the first time with the twins. How many times did it take to work with Zac?"
"Just one," Arizona sniffles. "It worked the first time."
"Well, we can't get that lucky every time honey. If it is negative, you aren't letting me down. We will just try again."
"I know. I just feel like I am."
"Well, I wish you would have talked to me. Honey, I don't want you to feel pressured. I really shouldn't have texted so much today. I didn't do it to make you feel pressured. I'm sorry."
"No, don't apologize. Really. How about we go get Zac and then go have some dinner. It really smelled amazing."
"Ok. But Arizona, it will be fine. Either way, it will be fine."
"I know."
The two went and grabbed Zac and had a nice dinner. Callie had picked one of Arizona's favorites. After dinner, they decided to go for a walk around the lake and then they watched the movie Arizona had rented for Zac. Afterwards, they took Zac upstairs and read him a story. He was asleep before they finished the story.
"Well," Callie says, pulling Arizona into their room to get jammies on, before watching the second movie and having ice cream. "Do you wanna just skip the test tonight and wait on the test tomorrow?"
"Yeah. I think so. I don't think I can handle getting two negatives. Is that ok?"
"More than ok. It's whatever you want," Callie says, leaning in to give Arizona a kiss. Callie walks into the bathroom and changes and then tells Arizona she will go get their ice cream and then get the movie ready.
"I'll be right down," Arizona says, walking into the bathroom. While she is changing, she looks on the shelf and sees the pregnancy test. She shakes her head, finishes getting dressed and walks out of the bathroom. She makes it to the hallway door and turns around, heading back into the bathroom. She closes and locks the door and then reaches for the pregnancy test.
Downstairs, Callie has put the movie in and is putting ice cream in the bowls and adding a little Hershey syrup to the top. She walks back into the living room carrying the bowls, sits them on the table, and then reaches for the blanket to pull it off the back of the couch.
Watching the ice cream start to melt, she picks hers up and starts to eat. Arizona walks in a few minutes later and sits down beside her. "Hey, your ice cream is melting."
"Yeah, I see that. That's ok. I don't need it now."
"What? Why? You wanted it a few minutes ago."
"Well, yeah. Because I was upset and wanted comfort food."
"I know. So, you better eat it before it melts," Callie says, confused.
Arizona reaches over and grabs the bowl from Callie and sits it on the table beside her bowl.
"Hey, I want mine," Callie says, reaching for her bowl.
"No..." Arizona says, grabbing Callie's hand. You don't need comfort food either.
"What?"
"Well, you don't need it. You don't need comfort food because there isn't anything to be upset over," Arizona says, reaching into her pocket and holding up a white stick for Callie to see. "There is a reason to celebrate though," Arizona says with a wide smile. "We're having a baby!"
"Arizona! I can't believe it!"
Throwing the blanket off of her, she reaches over and pulls Arizona onto her lap, causing Arizona to throw her head back, laughing. "Calliope!" Arizona squeals.
"I love you so much!" Callie says, pulling Arizona in for a kiss. After a few minutes, Callie pulls back. "I didn't think you were going to take it tonight? What changed your mind?"
"I wasn't. But then, I saw the test on the shelf, and I just... needed to take it. And I am so glad I did!"
"Arizona, I can't believe it. I mean, we were almost sure it was going to be negative. I can't tell you how much I love you."
"I love you too. So much. I'm really having your baby and I couldn't be happier," Arizona says, nibbling on Callie's lips.
"Oh, me either! I love you so much," Callie sighs, pulling Arizona into a passionate kiss.
It starts to become heated as Callie's hands are now in Arizona's hair and Arizona is starting to take off Callie's shirt. "I need more," Arizona says.
"Come here..." Callie says, pushing Arizona up, walking upstairs. Leaving the tv on and the ice cream bowls on the coffee table, she Callie has just the thing for Arizona.
"Where are we going?"
"You'll see..." Callie says, pulling her into their bedroom. "Sit here..." Callie says, pushing Arizona onto the bed. "Wait right there."
"Ok..." Arizona says, giggling at Callie's antics.
Callie disappears into the closet and closes the door. When she comes back out, Arizona is floored. Standing in nothing but a pair of red high heels, Callie gets a smug look on her face as she watches Arizona watch her.
"Calliope... I can't believe... When... When did you um, when did you, uh, buy, those?"
"Well, I bought them last week. I know we have had a busy couple of weeks and hadn't had a chance to get them, so I thought I would surprise you. Do you like them?"
"Calliope," Arizona says, walking over to her, running her finger down Callie's arm. "I. Love. Them." She drops her hand and walks around Callie, leaving Callie to wonder what she is doing.
"Are you sure? Maybe I shouldn't have got them."
"Oh, no, you should have. I just can't believe they have been in the closet for a whole week. You were holding out on me, Calliope..." Arizona says from behind Callie, leaning in to run her tongue along the edge of Callie's ear.
All of a sudden, Arizona pushes Callie over onto the bed as she begins to take her own clothes off. She walks over to lock the door, and then climbs on the bed. "I think it's time to feel those heels on the top of my back, wrapped around my neck. What do you think, Calliope?" Arizona smirks as she scoots down the bed and watches Callie squirm.
"Um... yep. Yeah, that sounds..." She doesn't get to finish her thought as her words are replaced with a gasp as Arizona begins to make Callie come undone.