AUTHORS NOTE: I realize that this might not be everyone's cup of tea, but… Well, I'm not even gonna try to explain my reasons, as for me, it's perfectly clear. Just not possible to catch into words.

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I need it to hurt

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Wednesday, ten-thirty PM, Shikamaru's bedroom,

Shino moaned against the gag in his mouth – not that he minded the gag, it made everything even better. The reason the Aburame moaned was more physical as his lover spanked him across his ass.

Somehow, Shikamaru had understood what his boyfriend wanted – no needed right now, without so much as another word. Shino's whispered plea had been enough.

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Choji winced as Shikamaru's hand made contact with Shino's bare ass again, the mere thought of the pain it must've caused made the Akimichi shiver. He was leaning against the wall, out of view from his lovers, as he'd known before this even started that he would not be able to hide his discomfort at the way Shikamaru had promised to handle Shino.

He averted his eyes, swallowing.

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Shikamaru was aware of his boyfriend's discomfort, but, he'd also made a promise to his other boyfriend, and Choji had agreed to this as well. The Akimichi was free to leave the room at any time, although Shikamaru honestly did not believe he would.

Not only because of his parents' questioning looks, but more so because he wanted to be here. Maybe Choji was a little uneasy, but somehow the Nara knew that his lover wanted to see this, to know what exactly Shino had asked for. Even if it made him wince in sympathy.

His hand bore down on naked flesh again, his teeth sinking into his lover's shoulder. Shino whimpered, pulling at the ropes tying him down.

"Stay still," His voice was strict, though he could not bring himself to sound as harsh as he knew Shino would like right now.

The paler boy immediately stopped moving, only gasping when Shikamaru's hand connected to hot flesh again. By now, the once pale backside of the Aburame had turned red from all the times he'd slapped him before.

Shikamaru swallowed when he saw the damage he'd caused already. He realized Shino needed this, even understood why, to a degree, and he was more than willing to grant the Aburame his wish. Getting excited by the mere thought. But now, it seemed, he could go no further. Not now.

Biting down on his lover's shoulder again, his hand searched for the lube in the drawer of his nightstand, he'd made it clear before they started that he would not go without.
Shino had readily agreed, softly telling him that he would not want Shikamaru to step beyond his own boundaries.

Still, the Nara hesitated a moment before opening the cap. He wasn't entirely sure if he still thought this necessary, and the boy writhing under him had already made it clear he wanted this to hurt as much as possible. But no. Shikamaru couldn't. Not that. Slapping Shino, biting him, tying him down and gagging him, that much, he didn't really have a problem with.

Entering him without first relaxing his entrance, that much he could do, too. But he needed the lube as much for his psychical comfort as he needed it for his psychological comfort.
Suddenly, for a brief moment, he couldn't stand the thought of hurting Shino any more.

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Choji swallowed hard as Shikamaru reached for the lube. He really could not understand why Shino would willingly undergo this treatment, nor could he figure out why Shikamaru seemed to have no problem in going along with it.

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Shino could feel Shikamaru push against his entrance, without a word, the other pushed in. He gasped, wincing in pain, but at the same time, he felt better because of it. Cleansed.

The pain was necessary, for him at least.

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As he pushed in, Shikamaru moaned. His lover's tight opening seemed to swallow him whole, and for a moment, all else was forgotten.

Not thinking about comfort or discomfort, about pain or the internal numbness that had called it forth, he simply pushed in. Without a second thought, without caring about the body below him.
Not wanting to wait another second, already knowing he had his lover's permission, he pulled back out again until only his head remained inside the Aburame, roughly pushing back in.

He could hear Shino bite back a scream, letting out a soft whimper instead, and again he pulled back, pushing back in even harder this time. His pace quickened, his force increased and Shikamaru felt as if this had been what he was missing. This was what he'd wanted to do, and every time he'd felt that urge, he'd opted to sit back and watch his boyfriends make out or fuck. Afraid to hurt them.

But he wasn't afraid anymore, Shino was quivering under him, biting back moan after moan, loving this as much as he was. For now, Choji was forgotten as Shikamaru pounded into Shino.
Releasing all his pent up emotions in one, simple action.

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Choji quietly watched as Shikamaru pounded into Shino, harder, much harder than he could ever even imagine doing himself. That time in the forest was extremely soft compared to this, and yet, that had been at the far limit of the Akimichi's comfort zone.

There were tears in his eyes as he looked on, the pain his boyfriend must be enduring right now too much to even comprehend for the gentle boy. Clenching his hands to fists and biting his lip, he remained silent. Even though, in his head, he was screaming. Begging them to stop this. To stop hurting each other. Didn't they care about each other anymore? Didn't they love each other anymore?
He winced in sympathy as Shino whimpered, swallowing hard.

What is wrong with them? Why are they doing this? Shikamaru… You're hurting him, please, please stop this! Please… This isn't right, this isn't normal, you shouldn't hurt each other. Please…

As Shikamaru pulled out, Choji swallowed hard. Trying to push back the tears that were about to fall down his cheeks. Because, any minute now, Shikamaru would look at him. He didn't want his boyfriend to see the emotions spread so openly across his face. The horror, the shame and the pain that the situation he had just witnessed had called forth.

But Shikamaru didn't look at him, instead leaning over Shino once more. Both of them were panting, something Choji was secretly thankful for as the sound drowned out his own ragged breaths. He was all but crying, but his boyfriends couldn't know that. He'd said he was okay with this, after all. But he had gotten so much more than what he'd bargained for…

Shikamaru whispered something in Shino's ear, and the paler boy nodded, replying in the same, soft whisper. Choji didn't care. He didn't want to know what they were talking about. Didn't want to know anything else about this.

As Shikamaru started to untie his lover, Choji averted his gaze, not wanting to see the rope burns that were undoubtedly there. Swallowing again, he kept his eyes fixed at his own feet.

"Buttercup, are you alright?" Shino's voice was throaty, but his tone soft. Making it almost impossible not to cry.

He could only nod, not trusting his voice to speak. It would be awful if either of his boyfriends noticed the tears that were once again welling up in his eyes.

"Pumpkin," Shikamaru walked over to him, resting a hand on his shoulder, "Please talk to me…"

He swallowed again, "I'm fine, Shikamaru," He spoke as soft as he could, hoping the tears wouldn't be audible, "I just… I need some water, is all," Turning on his heels, he left the room.

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Wednesday, eleven-forty-five PM, Nara residence,

It's wrong what they just did. Wrong. They shouldn't be hurting each other. Why would Shino ask for something like that? Why would Shikamaru do something like that? Why? I don't understand. They should never ever hurt each other. Never. You don't hurt the people you love. Why can't they understand that? Why don't they see that this is bad?

"Choji? Is something wrong?"

A quick hand wiped at his teary eyes before he lifted his gaze up to Shikaku's chest. Looking the man in the eyes would be giving everything away right now. And Choji felt too ashamed of what his boyfriends had just done. Of how wrong that was.

"No, nothing's wrong, Shikaku. I'm just thirsty is all…" He walked away, heading for the kitchen.

But the older man followed him, "Choji… If something is bothering you…"

"No! Nothing's bothering me!" He whispered furiously, hoping that the man would just leave him alone. He needed to work through this, and there was no way, no freaking way, he could ever tell Shikaku what had just gone on in his son's bedroom.

Grabbing a glass, he filled it with water. Tipping it back before filling the glass up again.
Please just go away now, please just go… I can't tell you what's wrong, because it's very, very wrong and I know that you would get angry. It's so wrong… I don't think you could ever understand, Shikaku. Please just leave me alone, now. Please. I need to work this out myself, I need to find a way to deal with this… Leave me alone, Shikaku…

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Shikaku sighed silently. He'd heard the tell-tale sounds coming from his son's bedroom, had realized what was going on.
So Choji watched that, huh? That's not good… Obviously the kid doesn't understand, obviously he can't deal with this… I wonder if it was Shikamaru or Shino… Which one of you needed the pain, my boys? And do you understand where that came from?
Either way, you should never again do that with Choji in the room… You should grasp that by now. If you still don't… I'd hate to do it, but I will remove him from the situation myself if this ever happens again. You two've hurt the boy, and this may even be beyond repair.
We're shinobi, we live a hard life. This is a coping method, I realize that just fine, but I will never allow you to force Choji to go through it twice…

"Well, I'm off to bed, good night Choji."

He didn't wait for a reply, but simply left.

Choji sighed as the man left the kitchen.

Okay… Shikaku is gone… Now what? I don't want to go back there, I don't want to face them after what they just did… But I love them, doesn't that count for something? Yes, it does. Just not for me having to face them after… It's wrong, I know it is… I'll just… Stay here for a while…

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Wednesday, twelve-fifty AM, Nara kitchen,

What – Choji blinked, I must've fallen asleep here… Wait, why am I here? Oh… Right…

He swallowed, wiping away the tears that had streaked his face. Sitting up, he wondered if maybe the other two had fallen asleep already, he really didn't want to have to face them right now. But he was tired as well, and sleeping at the kitchen table was a very bad idea. Forget a good night's rest, tomorrow morning, Yoshino would find him here and get all worked up about it.

No, I'll just have to go back… Hope they're asleep.

Still, he dragged his feet, opening the door ever so slightly to peek inside first. The room was dark, the two bodies on the bed didn't move. They were asleep, so Choji silently walked in. Laying down next to Shino, he winced once more when he noticed the bite marks on the pale skin.

I don't want to think about it anymore… Let's just try to get some sleep…