Black Roses

Tragedy/ Romance/ Angst

Rated: K

Chapter 36: Tomoyo

Yes I know. Most of you don't even remember this story. But someone really special asked me to end it and well, even though this wont be the ending he would be looking forward to, its still there!

Disclaimer: I NO OWN CCS or else, Sakura would already have cute Syaoran babies!

-10 years later-

Those beautifully velvet hair swayed gently in the breeze and small, fragile hand came up to keep them from going into those shimmering eyes. She had a gentle and loving smile on her lips and her eyes were glistening with joy at the breathtaking vision in front of her.

"This is just so beautiful…" She spoke, her voice being the most soothing sound to my ears.

"Isn't it…?" I spoke back, rather smiling the pretty girl beside me instead of the scenic beauty in front of me.

The sky was wavy, small patches of blue at parts and most of it being cloudy. The sun was clouded and a slow shadow had been cast over the whole area. The very light, refreshing breeze blew past me as I hugged her tighter. I look down at her and smile a bit, getting the same thousand volt smile from her. Her eyes were closed with her wide smile and her short hair sway with the wind. I squeezed on her in compassion and then look again to the endless sea of green.

The grass was flowing in the same waves, being a bit longer than it was so many years back. I could hear the rustling of the leaves of the trees behind me. It soothed me, calmed me to know that she was still with me. Not exactly beside me, but surely around me.

"Would you like to eat now?" The girl beside me whined.

I smiled to her and nodded. I wasn't really hungry but just looking at the pleading face made me comply.

-Normal P.O.V.-

She opened the small picnic basket which lay beside her and started digging in, taking out small sandwiches and bowls of salad. Syaoran looked at her for a second before looking towards the grass again. The place where he lay had so many memories, so many realities which he had left behind him. He could still see, in the back of his mind, the sun setting on the two teenagers as they lie there in the grass whispering their love to each other. The slight smile which had been pasted on his face didn't go away. It did pain him, but it cheered him up more. He had no intention of letting such a wonderful memory let him down, rather chose to smile at it.

Then I looked back in front towards the horizon and closed my eyes while the sun left my eyes slightly blinded. 'I love you, Li Sakura…' I thought as I continued to take in the scent of the fresh summer grass. 'I still love you more than anything else…'

"What are you thinking about?" The girl beside me asked, looking at me with a silent expression.

"What else…?" I replied, my eyes still shut and a smile still peering on my lips.

"She still loves you. I know it. But so do I. So you'll have to make do with the love I have for you for now!" She grinned, jumping up slightly and hugging me by my neck.

I laughed heartily and hugged her back saying, "Well I suppose I'll have to really make do with this!"

What I got for that was a huge pout pouring onto the girl's face. I smiled and then said, "I love you too dearest Tomoyo-chan."

She started grinning again and sat back on her own again staring at the endless sea of grass in front of us. She had her mother's auburn hair, hair that shone in the sunlight as Sakura's did. She had my smile and lips. But strangely enough, had Tomoyo's eyes. That was one of the reasons why I decided to name her Tomoyo.

"Oh right. Sorry!" She jolted back to her previous task.

"Would you like chicken sandwiches or tuna?" The high toned voice asked.

Syaoran turned his head towards the girl and raised his eyebrow. The girl stared at him for a while before jumping up in a nod and extending out her left hand, the hand which held the chicken sandwich. He took the sandwich from her hand and started unwrapping the cling wrap on it. He always liked chicken and she knew it. She knew him too well, maybe just as much as Sakura did.

'She is just like you Sakura. In every respect…' Syaoran said in his mind as her looked up at the clear sky above him. 'I suppose now I know what it feels like to have pain in resemblance. Now I know how my mother felt… but I am seriously not going to act like her about it.'

"I wish kaa-san was here with us." Tomoyo said in her meek voice, smiling still at the thought of her mother.

"She is with us. Always." He replied.

In fact, she was so much like her mother that it was hard to differentiate between Sakura and Tomoyo sometimes. But Syaoran loved her for that fact, not avoided her. He loved her more than anything alive. He would bring her to the outskirts of Tomoeda just like he used to being Sakura and sit with her, talking about how her mother used to be.

"Did kaa-san like this place?" She asked kindly.

Her yellow sun dress wavered in the breeze and she held her free hand up again so that her hair didn't come on her face. Syaoran looked at her and thought for a second, his expression becoming solemn and thoughtful. Somehow he didn't have the answer to the question that his daughter asked.

"I don't know… but I hope she did." He said.

It was hard to find Syaoran chuckle or laugh after Sakura went away, but he would make an exception when he was alone with his daughter. Her wide eyes narrowed as she asked on, "Why did you and mother come here, tou-san?"

Syaoran heard this and automatically tensed up. His eyes shot open and his mind rushed, looking for some answer. What was he going to tell his daughter? He KNEW why they came here but Tomoyo was seriously not of age. She was 6, and Syaoran was well… a very conservative father as some can put. He turned his eyes to take a glance of his daughter. She was looking at him with her mouth open and an awaiting expression on her face. Syaoran closed his eyes sighed.

"… Because your mother loved the wind. That is why." He smiled, lying most of it.

She nodded her head, seeming to understand everything. Then turned back to eating her own sandwich.

'This was the very place where I used to bring Sakura and hold onto her in complete solitude. The open grass field along the road behind the trees. And now I bring my beautiful daughter here so that we can bask in Sakura's presence.'

-Flash back-

"Li-san, there has been a complication. You said that your wife lost her unborn child in a car accident before?" The doctor asked in a grave tone.

A fear-ridden Syaoran just nodded, worried too much for his wife.

"Well as I had already told you in the early stages of pregnancy, that damaged her enough to put her in danger if she carried on with this birth. This operation may not conclusively be successful."

Syaoran, for the first time, had no voice inside him to say anything. The doctor just left the doors of the surgery room swinging behind him and he went for Sakura's caesarian.

'Sakura, you'll be fine. You have to be…'

And in what seemed like years, the doctor finally came out of the operation theatre while a nurse behind him held a small blanket wrapped up in her arms.

"Li-san, you are a father." He said as the nurse handed the me the child. But Syaoran looked up in agony, waiting for some sort of news regarding his wife. "But… We couldn't save your wife. She had a hemorrhage and there was too much blood loss…"

Syaoran, losing track of the child in his arms, fell on his knees. The nurse hurriedly bent down to take the baby girl out of his arms and Syaoran just stayed there on the floor while his eyes became grey and tears welled up.

"No…"

-End of flashback-

'We had a child after four years of marriage and you gave your life giving birth to her. But Tomoyo is a miracle on her own. And I love you for leaving her with me because she takes care of me just like you did. She gives me a reason to live when I lost that when you died Sakura. But I will always love you. And that part of my heart is dead along side you. And it couldn't be in a better place right now…'

FINALLY! The end. No comments. I know. I'm sorry. But all stories can't have nice beautiful endings =P