10 Things Padma Patil is Ashamed of
1. One of her earliest memories was from the age of three, when her sister had come into contact with a wasps' nest during a picnic. Though she'd been worried for Parvati (who'd sustained quite a large amount of stings to the face) part of her had felt a little pleased that at least for that afternoon, people would be able to tell them apart.
2. When they'd boarded the train that would take them to their first year away from home, she'd purposely tried to loose her anxious sister in the crowd, wanting to have the chance to experience something on her own.
3. She'd encouraged her parent's favoritism of her over her sister because she feared her glory days were numbered. Sooner or later her mum and dad would discover they would only need to worry about one dowry, not two. And than it would be all about Parvati.
4. At the Yule Ball Ron had been a terrible date. When he hadn't been glaring at the floor he'd been stealing glances at Hermione. Padma had known this because she'd been as well.
5. After difficult tests she'd liked to ask people how they'd done just so she could brag about her own high marks.
6. The only reason she'd joined the D.A. was because she'd wanted to impress Hermione.
7. She'd missed Dumbledore's funeral rather than cross her parents, who'd insisted they leave at once and not wait around for anything, not even the Headmaster's funeral.
8. Just thinking about telling her family that she 'didn't like boys' had scared her more than the prospect of dueling experienced Death Eaters. She'd had less anxiety about being killed than she'd had about being rejected.
9. Her favorite year of school had been her last year, when the Death Eater's took over and students were being brainwashed instead of taught, because that was the year that she and Parvati had stopped being strangers and had started being sisters again.
10. She'd lost her virginity in a frenzied state after her sister's wedding reception at four in the morning with a muggle from the groom's side (who she didn't even know the name of) because she'd wanted to believe maybe, just maybe, one day she could become the woman she was supposed to be. Because if she didn't there would never be a wedding or a party for her, filled with happy people celebrating how great love was.
When she let that man have sex with her her mind had been intoxicated by jealously and anger that such an act which could be so pleasurable for her sister was not for her.
And no amount of logic could save her from that.
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A/N: Hey my lovely readers and reviewers, just leaving this note to let you know there is a poll on my profile page that has to do with this story. I have one free spot on my list for a Slytherin and I can't decide if I want to do Marcus Flint or Blaise Zibini, so I'm letting you decide for me. Just vote on my profile page at your convenience. I'll keep the poll up until June 1st.
Anyway thanks for reading. I hope you liked Padma's list...