okay so this is the last chapter of this story and once you finish it I have spilled my heart into the authors note at the bottom. please read it:)

Tobias and I spend the rest of the day in bed, talking for hours. I've thought about what my life would be like without him and it is horrifying. Everything that has happened to me this year, he has been there. I don't like needing and relying in someone this much, but I wouldn't want to live any differently.

"What are you thinking about? He asks me.

I turn and face him, clutching the bottom of his shirt in my hands. "How depressed I would be without you."

He furrows his brow, rubbing a thumb across my cheek. "But that's kind of a depressing thought, don't you think"

I smile, "but it doesn't matter because you are here, and I get to do this whenever I want." I bring my lips to his.

"My life would suck pretty badly too," he mumbles on my mouth. "I would still be dealing with Marcus every day."

I close my eyes, "I love you."

He pulls me closer and kisses the top of my head. I shiver when his hand trails from my cheek to my shoulder and down my sides. "I know." He whispers in my ear.

I bite my lip as my breath hitches. He gets on top of me and trails his lips over my ravens. Starting at the first one, he kisses it sensually, making me sigh. I feel him smile against my skin. His hands push my shirt up and I push it down, from habit, not from consciousness. His dark blue eyes meet mine, "I'm sorry."

I swear to myself. "No, don't. I was over this… whatever this stupid fear is..." He clenches his jaw. "And then the thing at the party brought it all back and it… it is pulling me away from the things that I want. I don't want it to control me anymore."

He soothes a hand through my hair, "What do you want?" he whispers, "me?"

"yes." My voice cracks.

He smiles. A boyish grin that brings me back to the first day of school. Back to when our relationship was simple and childish and full of rebellion. Back to when I didn't know if I loved him. I used to wish that we could go back to that. I wanted to be forever in the honeymoon phase. But moments like these, when he is here and strong and the only thing keeping me tied to this earth, I am more than happy at the life I have with him.

"Tris?" he says, sliding off of me.

"Yeah?"

"I love you." He whispers, sliding his nose along my jaw.

I laugh, "I know."

"Tris?" he says again.

I grin and touch my nose to his, "yes?"

He exhales and closes his eyes. "I will always love you."

I bite my lip, stopping the sob that would escape my mouth, "I know." And then I kiss him. Hard. Every ounce of longing and love I have for him escapes me as our lips collide. I don't know if we will last forever. I don't know if our relationship will last another day. But I do know this, not a day will go by where I will not love him.

I will always be in love with the boy with dark blue eyes.

Okay so guys, I know a lot of you are not happy about me ending this story and I completely understand. but hear me out: I feel like it would be unrealistic if anything else bad happens. and if no conflict occurs then the story is boring.

so here is all of the mushy sad stuff: this is my first fanfiction and I was totally amazed at how popular it got. I mean I look back and read the first few chapters and cringe to myself because they are so god awful. but I cannot express to you enough how much I love you guys. without you I would have stopped the story and probably never gotten into writing. I don't think you understand that this story made me love to write and I thank you guys every single day because I found my passion.

so again, thank you all for reviewing, faving, and following, because I would not be here without each and every one.

PS, i'm sobbing.

-riley