I know it has been far too long, but I got a new job and have been on training for two weeks. By the time I got home I was too tired to write anything. I had this written about three days before I started my training but I was undecided over something towards the end.
To make up for the atrocious amount of time between the last chapter and this I will be putting another chapter up tomorrow morning, and hopefully I will manage to get the whole story finished within two weeks. I have most of the final four chapters written I just have to cut and paste the correct parts in order because they are a bit all over the place atm.
Thanks to everyone who took the time to review the last chapter, and thanks to everyone for your patience XD
EPOV
I raced home to find Lauren sat outside waiting in her car; I jumped from my Volvo and stormed over to her. I grabbed her hand, told her to be quiet and dragged her through the house and up to my room. We had been there for about half an hour and I was slowly working up to actually having sex with her; currently she was on her knees on my floor as I sat on my bed, head thrown back as I thought about Bella.
"Edward?" I heard a voice which sounded suspiciously like Bella ask, at first I thought that maybe I was imagining it after all I had been thinking about her, and then she spoke again and a calm anger laced her voice. "You really are just a fucking low down, dirty player aren't you?" She shouted at me, pure venom oozing out of every pore of her body, a fact I could tell that without even looking at her. I turned my head slightly and met her furious gaze; I pushed Lauren away from me and made a move to stand. I was sure I saw tears fill Bella's eyes but before I could be completely positive she blinked and the moisture disappeared.
"Bella..." I called out as she turned on her heel and left. I fought with myself over what I should do, should I follow or should I not. The decision was taken out of my hands when she returned with Alice and Emmett in tow; I gulped when I saw the pure fury on both of their faces. I zipped up my jeans as Lauren stood and just stared down our company, it was impressive to be sure but I knew this would all end badly.
"You see Alice he can't change. You win!" Bella all but shouted before she walked away. Before I could make a move to follow her Alice spoke.
"You are a fucking bastard you know that right?" That said she ran to her friend, at least I assumed that's where she went.
"Emmett, please move I want to talk to her." I begged as I walked towards my brother who refused to move from my doorway, remaining immovable in front of me.
"I'm not going anywhere little brother. You, bitch face get the fuck out of my house. You have five minutes." He said his voice filled with loathing as he pointed at Lauren.
"Edward invited me here, I am not leaving." She said disdainfully, stepping towards me and placing her hand on my shoulder.
"Yes you are sweetheart and right now unless you want me to toss you out on your ass this second!" He shouted, I suppose it was a good thing my parents were out. I glanced at Lauren and nodded, at which point she huffed but left the house.
"Now you, you complete dick head! Do you not realise what you have done? Bella likes...liked you more than she was willing to admit, but you just had to fuck it up didn't you?" He shouted as he stalked towards me, I stepped away from him with every step he took closer until I hit the edge of my bed. His eyes flashed as he got closer to me and I braced for the punch I suspected was coming.
"Wait a minute, what did Bella mean by 'you win'?" I asked Emmett as Bella's final words came back to me, my brother stopped in his tracks as I spoke.
"Nothing," he said before turning and walking out of my room. "Just know that if Bella drops Alice and Rose now you will die. Alice can't survive without Bella, I don't pretend to understand their relationship but it's truer and purer than anything I have ever seen. And Rosie well they have spent a lot of time together recently and although she won't admit it she genuinely likes Bella." With that he dropped his head and walked away, I heard him move downstairs and out the door before he came back in and headed towards Alice's room, with all his shouting I realised I hadn't heard Alice come back in. If I listened carefully I could hear quiet sobs coming from her room, which were quickly joined by Emmett's voice speaking too low for me to hear any actual words.
I flopped down on my bed defeated, what had I done? And what was with Bella's comment? I had the feeling I was missing a large chunk of information about something but I was too wrapped up in the fact that I had been caught with Lauren to contemplate it further. I knew now I had made a huge mistake and that I needed to talk to Bella in order to fix it, I just hoped that tomorrow at school she would let me explain.
Alice didn't get a ride with me today, which to be honest I had expected, neither her nor Emmett had spoken to me all day. Hell even Jasper had been a little off with me, Rosalie had slapped me and Lauren had been fawning all over me. The one person I had yet to see was Bella, she hadn't arrived with Alice this morning so I was hoping to see her in biology this afternoon. First though I had to survive lunch and at the minute I wasn't sure I would be able to, luckily for me Tanya came to my rescue.
"Hey Edward, how's things?" She asked a smirk full force on her otherwise beautiful face.
"You know don't you?" I shot back at her as I walked through the doors to the lunch room; I saw her smile and nod out of the corner of my eye as she walked alongside me. I sighed as I looked at the table where Bella usually sat, I couldn't see her anywhere but I could see everyone else present and glaring at me.
"Why did you do it?" Tanya asked as she grabbed a salad and a bottle of water.
"I don't know," I answered as I grabbed something to eat. We remained silent until we had paid for our food, I stopped and tried to find somewhere to sit away from the others; before I could find a seat though Tanya grabbed a hold of my arm and started dragging me outside.
"Sit down and listen to me!" Tanya commanded as she swung me onto one of the bench seats. I swallowed as I felt something akin to fear rise up inside me; a furious Tanya was way scarier than a furious Emmett that's for sure.
"Tan, are you going to speak?" I questioned quietly as she paced in front of me.
"Why did you do it?" She repeated her question from earlier; I just shrugged as I broke off a piece of the pizza I had bought. I put it in my mouth but it was like chewing cardboard so I quickly gave up and threw it to one side. "Don't give me that I don't know crap Edward. I know you better than anyone so I can tell you outright why you went running to Lauren." Tanya said suddenly stopping in front of me. I looked up to meet her eyes and saw the fire burning within them as she looked down at me.
"Why's that then Tan, because I would really like to know." I responded sarcastically as I crossed my arms over my chest.
"Because you like Bella you idiot and I don't mean in the way you liked me. I am talking about the way I like you. You really like Bella and you got scared so you fucked it up." Tanya explained as if she was talking to a five year old.
"Whatever Tanya, believe what you want. Hasn't anyone ever thought that maybe I am just a player and no girl will ever change that?" I questioned as I stood to walk away, I didn't need this shit it was bad enough my family hated me and Jasper wasn't really talking to me. I didn't need Tanya pointing out the obvious as well. That just adds insult to injury.
"I'm not going to push you to accept the truth Edward; you need to do that on your own but you do need to talk to Bella."
"I know I do but she isn't around."
"Would you turn up to school if it was you?" Tanya asked smiling as she sat down at the bench I had just stood up from.
"I suppose not," I mumbled as I sat back down defeated.
"So you know where she lives, go talk to her. On a happier note I am going to my graduation ball with Tyler." Tanya said and I could hear the smile in her voice.
"That's good Tan, do you like him?" I asked as I turned to look at her a smile playing across my lips.
"He's not you to be sure, but he's nice. I think that maybe I could like him but then again I may meet someone at college. I'm all for keeping my options open at the minute."
"I'm happy for you Tanya. I'm sorry I couldn't be what you wanted me to be, I do love you though."
"I know you do and I love you too, in a way. Look can I say one more thing before I leave the Bella subject alone?"
"Sure," I answered worried about where Tanya was going to steer the conversation.
"You may not be able to be what I wanted you to be, I have accepted that you never liked me the way I liked you. But you have a real chance to be someone different for Bella, I have seen how you look at her and how she looks at you, I'm not going to tell you how you feel only you know that but please don't deny how much you like her. At least not to me." Tanya said softly as she placed a hand on my knee and squeezed.
"I do like her Tan, but I think I may have blown it." I placed my hand over Tanya's and returned the squeeze as I answered her unasked question.
"Well what are you still doing in school then, go and see if you can fix it." She said giving me a shove with her shoulder indicating that I should leave now.
"Thanks Tanya, for everything. If it works I owe you big time." As I stood I leaned over and gave Tanya a quick, chaste, friendly kiss on the lips before running towards the parking lot and my car. I raced all the way to Bella's house trying to think about what I could say to her to try and fix what I had royally fucked up.
BPOV
I spent all night pacing and cursing Edward Cullen to every circle of hell, if you were to ask me what had made me make the decision to go around to his house last night I wouldn't be able to tell you because I honestly can't remember. All I remember is the burning embarrassment at seeing him with Lauren; after all I genuinely thought he had changed. Combined with the anger and hatred which had risen to the surface and well now, I found it hard to remember a time in the past two weeks where I had actually liked him. I had collapsed onto my bed at four in the morning, Charlie had come in at half seven to make sure I was getting up but I told him I wasn't feeling so hot and he let me have the day off. I had spent the whole day wondering if Edward was wrapped up in Lauren and if Alice was feeling bad.
Alice and Rosalie were my real issues at the minute, Alice was my best friend but I had said some horrible things to her last night when she followed me outside. I knew she hadn't taken offence but I had never wanted to hurt her, she had tried phoning me numerous times through the day as had Emmett and Rosalie but I had ignored all of the calls, messages and texts. I couldn't face anyone at the minute I felt stupid for believing that someone could change their essential nature, and I now knew that Edward was a player by nature. Nothing I said or did would ever change that; I just couldn't understand why it hurt me so much. I had liked him but not enough where seeing him with Lauren should have hurt me to the point that I wanted to rip Lauren's head off of her sluttly, little shoulders.
Sighing I shifted on the couch trying to clear the thoughts clouding my brain, it would not be good for me to kill Lauren and Edward, even if I was sure I could get away with it. I was flicking aimlessly through the channels on the television when I heard a knock at the door; I stood and moved to answer the door.
"Why are you here?" I asked my guest, he just smiled at me as he leant against my porch railing with his arms crossed over his chest.
I hope you don't hate that I have left it there, but you only have to wait a day and then you will find out who Bella's guest is.
Away from Bet on Love, I have a new story in the pipeline but it won't be uploaded until all of my current Twilight stories are finished, so I am concentrating on Bet on Love at the minute then I will finish my other story so if anyone is reading that one please bear with me, I haven't forgotten it I promise.
