Today was pretty tame. I mean nothing out of the ordinary happened. Well there were some fan girls staring me down but I didn't care anymore. I guess once they started doing it and others followed, I sorta got used to it. It might just be me but their stares mean nothing to me. Sure they might be thinking bad things about me that I don't know about but they don't know the truth. Besides, I know how to handle jerks like them. I've had experience from when I was in high school so it's really no big deal.

Everyone was packing it up and we were all heading home. I actually didn't know that today was the last day for everyone but I guess it was just about time. I think I might need to get away from all this drama and just lock myself up in my room. I never intended for all of this to happen and I know that it wasn't really intentional but when I really look back and see past all the bad things that have happened, I can totally say that this tour was the best thing that could have ever happened to me. Now I'm not trying to be sadistic. I'm just trying to optimistic and realistic. I mean even the littlest moments were special. None of which were a waste of time.

I got to see the real nature of some people and I've learned to trust people who are worthy of my time. Now I know that my life on tour hasn't been the greatest and I'll probably never get over some of the things that happened but the best way to continue living is to move on knowing that all the fights, mistakes, bruises and scars that I've made would be things that I'd come to be grateful for in life.

If I really just sit down and think about it, I got what I've always wanted. I got a life – even if it was only for a short while – that held tons of surprises and challenges in store. I got a life that served as a milestone and a chance to become better than who I am now. I made my own memories that I'm sure I would never forget. I met friends who were once people I thought I'd never be able to meet but now, here I am hugging them goodbye and telling them I'd see them soon even though I don't know when the next time might be.

But as I found myself walking back to the bus, I felt a wave of sadness hit me face first where all I wanted to do was creep into Jack's arms and have him hold me until the wave sails away but that won't really happen now, will it?

"So what are you gonna do when you get back home?" Rian asked me as soon as I got on the bus.

"I don't really know for sure but college would probably be an option," I told him as I sat right next to him on the couch.

"Does that mean we'll be seeing less of you?" he asked.

"I don't really know anymore," I told him and watched as Zack made his way over beside me from the kitchen.

"What a tour, wouldn't you say?" he said and I just smirked.

"I don't like the ending though," I said.

Rian told us that he'd go use the bathroom and then maybe go get something to eat. I nodded and lean on Zack's shoulder since he pulled me a little closer to him.

"There'll always be more tours, you know," he played with my hair as he spoke.

"But I don't think I'd be willing to tag along anymore," I said, "Not after everything that happened in this one,"

"Oh come on, look at touring as something great and something worthwhile. I mean not everyone gets the chance to tour around the country with their favorite bands so you should just be thankful that you're one of the lucky ones," he smiled.

I just shrugged and remained frozen on his chest as the bus door closed. The engine started and the bus was about to move but Rian told the bus driver to wait a while since Flyzik was out still keeping all the merchandise.

"Um, Brit, can we uh, talk for a little while?" my head perked up at the sound of the voice I've been waiting all day to hear. I looked up to see Jack standing behind the couch looking down at me and Zack.

I smiled minimally before following him outside the bus.

"Look, what happened last night was totally out of line and I just wanted to say that I'm sorry for everything," Jack apologized sincerely. "It's just that sometimes, I get so overwhelmed with everything around me that at times I can't really see where everything is headed and it misleads me and guides me in the wrong direction," he rambled.

"Jack you're not supposed to be apologizing to me," I told him, "You've done that too much already. I think it's about time that I apologize to you for being too impatient with you," I was about to continue but he started to shake his head as if what I was telling him was completely irrelevant and wrong.

"If anyone is at fault here, it really is me," he told me taking one of my hands in his. "I was stupid and I was blinded by the lies and everything people threw in my way and it all led to losing you and I just don't want that happening again,"

"So what are you saying?" I asked sorta confused.

"All I'm saying is that I think we need to see if this will really work out or not because I might not be the right one for you. Maybe there really is someone out there who loves you more than I do and I think it's about time that I let you go and let you be," he said in all seriousness. This wasn't really happening, was it?

"Jack, there is no one else who could-"

"You don't know that yet and you never will if you don't try to browse your options. Now I know this will affect me in ways I won't be able to understand but if this will make you happy, then I think it would be best if I gave it to you first hand before our relationship gets blown even more way out of proportion. I love you, Brittany but I don't think the feeling is mutual and I don't want to force you to be with me if you don't feel the same way,"

"Jack what the hell are you talking about? I'm in love with you, Jack and there's no denying that," I told him as fresh tears poured out of my eyes and blurred my vision. He seemed like he wanted to cry to but he held it in.

"We'll be next door neighbors anyway so you won't have to worry about losing me," he talked as if he was leaving for good. Weren't we riding the same bus going home?

"Why are you talking like this?" I asked clearly confused.

"Well, I'm going to be AWOL for a couple of weeks and I just wanted to unleash you from my chain since I'll probably be gone for maybe more than a couple of weeks," he said in a quirky manner.

"Jack, you don't have to leave," I told him gripping his hand tighter. "We can get through this if we work hard enough,"

"But that's all we ever do, Brit," he said placing a hand on my cheek. "If we really loved each other, we wouldn't be finding ways to fix our relationship all the time, we'd actually be making more memories instead of fighting,"

"I don't want you to leave, Jack," I was really crying now but all he did was cup my face in his hands as he kissed me. Then he wrapped me in his arms and whispered two words that I would surely come to dread in the next few days.

"Goodbye Brittany," he said as he left.