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Then I held my breath and pulled on the handle and with a quiet click the safe door opened. I was about to squeal. This was so exciting. I looked inside the safe and almost screamed when I realized that it was- empty. No note- nothing. I closed the safe and got down from the chair. I put the picture back on its right place...
"Are you looking for this? You didn't need as much time as I thought you would." A cold voice behind me said. I put my hands on my mouth to avoid a loud scream. I was caught but the worst part was- he knows.
BPOV:
"Heart, we will forget him
Heart, we will forget him,
You and I, tonight!
You must forget the warmth he gave,
I will forget the light.
That was it you were after? Not bad... you should have written that in your letter instead of 'I'm sorry I am heartless'." Edward muttered. I turned around and gave him a shocked look.
"Edward." I whispered.
"What?" He spit.
"What are you doing here?" I asked.
"I came after you, Isabella. I love you you know. That's what people do." He muttered. My eyes filed up with tears. I couldn't help it- I could do anything against it. I started crying and ran up to him and jumped in his arms. Edward seemed shocked by my reaction and didn't wrap his arms around me but I didn't care. I just cried.
"I am so glad you're here. I missed you so much today." I cried. Finally I felt his arms around me and his head hidden in my hair.
"God woman, you are killing me." He mumbled. I held him close and just cried. "I can't even be mad at you."
"I am sorry Edward. I am sorry that I am so mean and so stubborn and that I just ran off and that I hurt you every single second." I whispered. He was quiet but I wasn't hurt because I hadn't kept my hopes up and I didn't think he would say that it was alright.
"Come home with me." He mumbled. I cried even more.
"I can't Edward. I need to finish this... and I can't just go in the middle of the night." I said and he sighed. He let go of me and sat down in the office chair. "Fine. Let's finish this then."He mumbled and opened the book.
"I guess this is all about this one page that is missing?" He asked and I nodded. I got out the photograph of the letter I had taken with me and held my breath.
"Here we go." I mumbled and put the photo next to the page.
"Wow." Edward gasped and I smiled- satisfied that it fit perfectly.
"OK. What does it say now:
Dear Henry
It's a girl! We'll have a daughter!
You don't need to do anything
I know that you and I will never be together but having your daughter... I am so happy!
I am not going to black mail you or anything- don't worry about it.
I am just so happy Henry, you wouldn't believe it... so happy!
But I'll keep my mouth shut.
So really- don't worry.
With all the love I can bring up- and you know hon I love you so very much!
Always
Yours... always yours, Lena.
Wow."
"More then wow. Do you know what this means?" Edward whispered and I nodded. "When was this?" He asked.
"2000." I answered.
"He had an affair... this is huge Bella." He whispered and I swallowed.
"I know. He really loved her... that's so sad."
"You need to stop this- now." He mumbled.
"No. Are you crazy! I can't." I whispered. Edward rolled his eyes.
"Fine. But then at least tell me where the murders were." He demanded
"Boston." I said.
"There you go. He can't do that. He can't go to Boston each time." Edward said. I shrugged. Those people had private jets everything was possible. Edward groaned and I got out my camera. I took a picture of the missing page and then put the book and everything else back.
"How did you get in here anyway?" I asked when I walked back to him.
"Oh I took the back door." He shrugged. I frowned.
"When I was little I used to play with J... with Jack a lot." He said and immediately hid his frown. I nodded.
"So no one knows you're here?" I asked. He shook his head and I sighed.
"Let's go up to my room." I whispered and pulled him with me. We sneaked up to my room and when I had finally closed the door and realized that I was safe I let out a loud sigh. Edward sat down on the small bed. It was only a twin size bed.
"I am going to sleep on the couch." Edward mumbled and I swallowed. If everything wouldn't be so weird between us there wouldn't have been this conversation for sure... on the other hand- we wouldn't be here in the first place.
"No, no... there is enough space for two people." I said and gave him a short smile. He seemed to think about that- which was really hurtful but then nodded.
"Fine." He said and took his jeans off. I blushed. When did we do IT for the last time? I put the t-shirt on which I had stolen from Edward's closet before I left. Edward raised an eyebrow when he saw me in it.
"I thought it would help me to miss you less." I whispered and he gave me a smile. We lay down in the small bed and lying next to Edward had never been this awkward. NEVER. Not even when he had pulled me in his bed this one time I sneaked over in his room in the middle of the night because I wanted to figure out who Emily was. No. This was a new kind of awkward. We lay back to back and it hurt... everything hurt right now. I couldn't sleep like this so I took my right arm and searched for his left one. When I'd found it I took mine in his and squeezed it.
"Good night." I whispered. He didn't answer.
EPOV:
It took Bella only half an hour to fall asleep. I lay there and all I wanted to do was sleep. I really needed some sleep right now. I had driven the whole day and I was exhausted. But I couldn't. Not like this. Not now. Not here. I groaned and stared out of the window. Bella was still holding my hand and I couldn't deny that it felt good. But I was still mad and now I got mad at myself because I liked her hand in mine... Before I realized it it was already 10 am and someone knocked at the door. I panicked. How was I going to explain that I was here? I let go of Bella's hand and hid behind the bed.
BPOV:
"Miss Swan?" A voice asked. I woke up immediately.
"Yes?" I asked and sat up. I looked to my right and realized that Edward was gone- was it all just a dream.
"You may want to get ready for breakfast." The maid said and I nodded. Than she was gone and I smelled the pillow Edward had lay on and smiled- no doubt. He had been here. Right then he got up- he'd been next to the bed on the floor. I frowned at him.
"What did you do down there?" I asked with a light smile.
"I hid- she shouldn't see me you know." He mumbled. He looked even more tired then yesterday. I reached out to touch the light blue spots under his eyes but he pulled away.
"Let's get ready." He mumbled and got up. I sighed in frustration and got up. I changed into something and then gave him a questioning look.
"So what are you going to do?" I asked. He opened the window and I gave him a shocked look.
"We're on the second floor Edward." I said and he shrugged.
"I know how to get out of here... I did it a lot when I was little." He explained and then was gone. I closed the window and decided that it was not time to worry- yet.
I brushed my teeth and made my hair. Then I finally went downstairs into the dining room. Where I saw Edward sitting already. I had to hide my smile.
"Look who just came in." Henry said in a good mood. Now I smiled.
"Edward." I said and tried to act surprised. I went up to him and gave him a chased kiss on the lips- we hadn't done kissing in a while either. I sat down next to him and the maid gave me some tea. Henry smiled. So now we're only waiting for...
"Hey dad." Jack smiled then was more then surprised when he saw us both sitting here. I laughed.
"Hey Jack." I said and smiled at him. He laughed too and sat down.
"Bella! Edward! What are you guys doing here?" He asked.
"I came over yesterday and your dad and I did a sight seeing tour. Edward came just now." I smiled. He nodded.
"You could have told me than we could have come together." He smiled and I shrugged my shoulders.
"I didn't know you were going." I said.
"Oh Jack is coming home almost every weekend. He arrived yesterday, too. But later then you did." Henry said happy. I smiled.
"That's very nice of you."
Then we finally ate. I didn't eat a lot even though there was a lot to chose from. Edward next to me made my stomach ache. As soon as breakfast was over Edward and I decided to leave. I got my stuff and smiled when Henry and Jack waited with Edward at the bottom of the stairs.
"It was so nice to finally get to know you. I had so much fun yesterday! We should really do that more often." Henry said and Jack smiled.
"Yeah... but next time you tell me and Edward so that we all can go." Jack smiled and I laughed.
"Thank you Henry. It really was a lot of fun." I said and then we all shook hands and Edward and I were gone.
I sighed when I was outside and then I saw Edward's Porsche.
"You drove down here?" I asked. Edward nodded.
"That was Stan's only rule. If I hadn't he wouldn't have told me where you were. So... I had no choice." He explained. I frowned.
"You could have taken the plane anyway." I said. He shrugged.
"Yeah but... well he said I should give you a head start and well... I think he was right." He mumbled and I smiled.
"Thank you." I said and took the passenger seat.
We were just on the interstate when Edward started yawning and didn't stop. I gave him a suspicious look.
"Did you sleep at all last night?" I asked. He shrugged and gave me a short look.
"Define sleep." He mumbled. I groaned and slapped him.
"There... go to that rest stop." I ordered.
"Forget it. I won't sleep now." He mumbled.
"I don't care. I am going to drive." I said.
"No." He said.
"Yes."
"No."
"Edward."
"Bella."
"Turn right to that rest stop- know." I ordered. He hesitated but then sighed and turned right. We changed places quickly and then I continued driving. I turned the radio off and drove at a slower pace then he did.
"Sleep well." I mumbled. He sighed and then took his coat to use it as a pillow. I smiled and continued driving until it got dark.
RPOV:
"Where are you going?"
"I'm taking a shower." I said and heard Emmett get up.
"I'm going to join you." He said and I shook my head.
"Emmett- that's not fair it's 1 pm." I begged.
"Exactly my point." He mumbled and kissed my shoulder. I closed my eyes and enjoyed his kisses. We had had sex the whole night through- this was even a record for us.
"Emmett." I said and shook my head. "I need to regain my strength before we do it again- so... I would say we are going to leave this perfect cabin today." I said and he gave me a shocked look.
"Leave? Like doing something else then having sex?" He asked and I nodded.
"I want to go ski." I said and vanished into the bathroom.
"I thought you wanted to regain your strength." He called through the closed door.
"Every kind of sport is relaxation if one compares it with having sex with you." I mumbled and got into the shower.
It felt go to be in the shower alone for a change. I smiled. Who would have thought that I would get this addicted to something so... well naked. I mean it takes so much to trust a person and just BE there naked. I thought of last night and smiled while putting on some comfortable underwear for a change. I was just taking a bra out of the drawer when I hesitated.
"Fuck." I cursed under my breath. "Fuck, fuck, fuck." And all of a sudden Bella's words echoed in my head- loud and clear: It's really weird you know? You don't really notice when you don't get your period until something suddenly reminds you, that you're a woman and you should be hating it every three weeks.
"Fuck, fuck, fuck." I cursed louder. I walked up and down. I needed a pregnancy test... NOW.
CHEYPOV:
"See you later hon." He mumbled and gave me a kiss on the cheek.
"Where are you going?" I asked confused.
"Oh just down to the lab... I am back in a couple of hours." He said and smiled.
"Is this about the case?" I asked and he shook his head.
"No. But I am almost half way through my college time and I REALLY need to study for my exams." He explained and I smiled.
"Sure hon." I said and gave him a kiss. He smiled at me and then gave me another kiss.
"Did I ever tell you how beautiful you are?" He whispered and suddenly my head felt dizzy. I smiled.
"Yes... too often for my liking." I whispered.
"So did I tell you that I love you lately?" He whispered and I giggled.
"Not enough for my liking." I whispered back and he gave me another kiss.
"I love you." He whispered and gave me another kiss. "I love you." And a kiss. "I love you." He finished and I smiled.
"See you in a couple hours." I smiled and he nodded. Than he was gone and I shook my head while loving. He was such an amazing boyfriend and I felt bad for thinking that he and Bella would have something going on. Right then someone knocked at the door and I laughed even louder.
"What did you forget hon?" I laughed and opened the door just to find out that there was no one- but an envelope with my name on it. I took it and then closed the door again. I opened it quickly. There was just one photo in it. I frowned. It was a picture of Bella and Stan in the club. Bella was leaning against the wall and Stan was leaning INTO HER! What was he doing???? He had his forehead against hers. WHAT?!? And there hands... there hands were together.... joined... together. I felt even more dizzy and flipped the photo for a note. And there was something:
So you still think there's nothing going on?
That was all... all there was... no name... nothing. I shuddered.
RPOV:
I need a pregnancy test. I need a pregnancy test. I need a pregnancy test...
"Look at that mountain Rose!" Emmett got really excited already- we were in the ski-lift and all I could think of was--- I NEED A PREGNANCY TEST!
"Yeah... PR---- etty... pretty." I mumbled. He gave me a confused look but then we came to the end of the lift and I jumped off immediately.
"Who's the last one down there is a sissy." I called.
"Rose?" Emmett asked confused but I was gone. I needed to get rid of him- now. I went another way that would bring me right into the next small village and as soon as I was down the mountain I got rid of my skier and ran the last mile to the pharmacy. It was an advantage that I had been here almost every winter since I turned 3. I knew this snow paradise like my house. So I entered and bought something I thought I'd never buy. As soon as I was outside with the test in my hand I ran to the next toilet and read through the description. I took a deep breath and after I did what was required I put it back in the box and hid it in the inside of my coat. I got out and decided to look for my skis- and Emmett.
I was just on my skis again when Emmett came up to me.
"Where have you been?" He asked. I shrugged.
"I needed to go pee." I mumbled. He gave me a suspicious look.
"Up for another round?" I asked and he smiled.
"Sure." He said and we walked up to the lift once more. Emmett talked the whole time and I just couldn't concentrate. Every few seconds I looked at my watch- this were the longest 10 minutes of my life. When we sat down in the life I felt more then sick. I really had the feeling I needed to throw up. I rolled my eyes- that didn't mean anything.
I thought through the last 8 weeks. Fortunately I hadn't drunk any alcohol or took any kind of medicine. That was good in case I was pr- God! I am 23! That's never old enough... it'll never be. I looked down. 20 feet beneath us all those people were skiing without a care in the world... and I?
"What the fuck?" I heard Emmett curse all of a sudden. I followed his look to my lap and saw that the pregnancy test was lying there.
"Shit." I mumbled. He gave me a shocked look and then took it in his hand. I was in complete shock- in a couple seconds he would know. I took the pregnancy test out of his hands and threw it as far away as I could and then Emmett. Emmett let out a shocked scream and then he was gone and I sat there alone.
"Rose!" He yelled after me but I just covered my ears. I didn't want to hear any of it. As soon as I reached the top I got back down as quickly as I could and went home. I showered and took a seat in front of the fire. Oh my god. I was so confused. And now I didn't even know if I was pregnant or not and I pushed my boyfriend out of the lift and... The tears rolled down my cheek.
I also took the car... how would he come home? But then again it didn't matter at all. It was because of that stupid jerk that I was probably pregnant. And I hated him for that!
BPOV:
I sighed. It was the middle of December- the days were shorter. Edward had slept about four and a half hours now. I smiled and turned the radio on- but just really quiet so that he wouldn't wake up. I smiled. This was kind of cool- driving on the street- next to me my sleeping Edward and the radio on playing cool songs. It was raining like crazy but never the less- right then I felt perfect. I reached my arm out to Edward and stroked his back and then went through his hair. This was nice.
Then the song changed- and so did my mood.
"I can't undo what I have done.
I can't unsay what I have said.
Can't take it back, It's little late... Now.
I didn't mean to hurt you.. baby...
In any way."
I froze right there and felt the tears in my eyes. That was like someone stabbed my heart- just like that!
"All I wanna do is walk away,
'Cause I don't wanna lie to you.
Something in your eye says "Please, Don't go…".
But I just wanna walk away..
'Cause if I stay I'm gonna end up hurting you..
and I don't wanna break your heart, baby.. "
I cried out and then held my breath so that I wouldn't wake Edward up with my sudden outburst of doubts.
"It doesn't matter what I'll say,
It doesn't matter what I'll do..
Can't make it right, even though I want, to
I'm not gonna say that were okay..
I don't wanna lie.
I should have told you long ago, What was going on.. " (Walk away- Aloho from Hell)
That was when I pulled my hand away like his back was burning. At least I tried to- but then his hand wrapped around my wrist and pulled me back.
"No." I begged but he didn't listen. "Please let me go." I begged. He let go of my hand and I started crying even more.
"Go to that rest stop there- now." He ordered and I did what he told me. I stopped the car and felt desperate for air. I got out immediately even though it rained like crazy and cried. He gout out too and came over to me. He took my hand back in his and stroked it. I wanted to pull away- I didn't deserve it- but he didn't let me.
"Edward." I begged. He just shook his head and started to kiss my wrist. That did it. I pulled away and turned my back to him.
"Why are you able to touch me like you really love me when you think I won't notice and run away as soon as I am aware of it?" He asked in a hard voice.
"Because... because I don't deserve this." I got out between all the crying and shaking because of the cold raindrops. But he didn't listen.
"You stroking me like that was the most amazing feeling I had for months. It was like you actually meant it you know. There was so much in it that told me that this was real." He explained and I shook my head even though I knew what he meant.
"Edward." I begged but he didn't listen.
"So we have some problems right now! What the heck! Everyone does! Does this mean that we can't love each other? That we can't kiss the way we feel?" He asked and I turned around to him and shook my head.
"Please stop." I begged.
"Why?" He asked desperately- he looked like he was in pain, too.
"Because I don't deserve this." I got out and he rolled his eyes. Edward made a step into my direction and groaned. Then he grabbed my arms and looked into my eyes.
"Fuck you deserve this as much as I do." He said in a dark voice and then kissed me passionately while pulling me as close as possible. I couldn't stop crying even though these tears were tears of joy. I wrapped my arms around him and pressed myself closer.
"Thank you." I mumbled. Over and over again- I was so thankful for his way to forgive me the feeling of being loved. "Thank you." I whispered against his lips for the thousands time. He pulled away and suddenly he looked a lot more like the old Edward. Some of the fire was back in his eyes and I smiled when I saw it. He wiped the rain and tears from my cheeks. And kissed either eye carefully.
"I love you Isabella." He whispered and I smiled at him.
"I love you, too, Edward... so very much." I mumbled into his chest and could have exploded. This was happiness- standing in the hardest rain on a dirty rest stop and having the feeling that you have never been happier in your life.
Hey guys!
I just wanted to thank for all those reviews- again! You're just AMAZING!
And then I also wanted to say that I hope you guys learn to love Bella again because those of you who just plain hate her just don't understand her really well. She's in a really bad sitiuation- women are getting killed out there and she knows that she can find that murderer. Don't you understand that this is important to her? I am not mad or anything... I just wanted to tell you guys! OF COURSE is she lying to Edward all the time which is not right but I think she's so confused... it's just too much this whole murder case- it's just not what she signed up for you know?
So. Before I get any more confused reviews: EDWARD FOUND HER!!! HE IS THE ONE THAT CAUGHT HER! HE SOUNDED DANGEROUS BECAUSE YOU THOUGHT IT WAS SOMEONE DANGEROUS!
Love you guys,
Laura