Chapter 33: I Guess I Need You Baby
Author's Note: This chapter is going to be very long and filled with lots of drama. This chapter is definitely rated M for violence and language. If this isn't your "cup of tea" so to speak, you don't have to read it. I hope you don't hate me too much (this idea wasn't exactly planned….it just kind of came to me and I had to roll with it). So leave awesome reviews and the song is Everytime by Britney Spears. The lyrics will be in bold italics throughout here so pay attention.
Nathan's POV
"Nathan, don't walk away from me," Haley shouted.
"Why shouldn't I? It is pretty obvious that it's over between us. You want nothing to do with me and I guess that's fine with me. I'm done trying to save our marriage and I hope you have a nice life without me. I will still be there for Jamie, but you and I are through," I shouted back.
Haley looked at me and looked absolutely shocked. I was going to say more, but she stormed off.
Notice me
Take my hand
Why are we
Strangers when
Our love is strong
Why carry on without me?
"Haley," I shouted in the night sky. She just kept walking and I would have followed her, but some part of me did not want to. I went back inside the bar and Cecilia looked very pissed off.
"What the hell is your problem, Nathan? You ditched me for…..actually I don't even know who that was. Who was she, an ex-girlfriend?" Cecilia asked angrily.
"Well this is probably going to sound weird, but Haley is my wife. We are in marriage counseling right now and our therapist suggested that we date other people. Let's just say it is not going well at all. Every time we see each other with another person, we freak out. This is probably a sign that we still love each other. However, all we do is argue and it's getting old. We are most likely going to get a divorce soon. This is probably more than you wanted to hear and I'm sorry for dumping my problems on you," I admitted as I sat down and gulped back a shot of tequila.
"O.k. Nathan, I did not need your fucking life story. It is pretty obvious that you still love your wife and I refuse to be a third wheel anymore tonight. If it doesn't work out with your wife, give me a call. Good night and I will find my own ride home," Cecilia said before picking up her purse and walking out the door.
I sat at the bar for a long time and drowned my sorrows with alcohol. Haley's face haunted me and I couldn't get it out of my mind. I began to contemplate how this night started out well and ended so bad.
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
Flashback
Nathan's POV
Our therapist Jane suggested that we date other people. I wanted to laugh in her face because this idea sounded really horrible. I did not want to date other people. I just wanted my wife back and I wanted us to be a family again.
Lucas has been really great during this bad time in my life. He and I talk about everything and it is nice to have family around. I hated the fact that Haley is trying to ruin my relationship with Lucas. She claims that Lucas is involved in some shady shit and is just using me. I don't understand how Haley could think those horrible things. Lucas is a cool guy and a very talented basketball player. This is what a majority of our arguments been lately and it is driving me crazy.
Haley was all for us dating other people and eventually I came around to the idea as well.
There was this new girl that I worked with that flirted with me shamelessly. I decided to ask her out and she accepted excitingly. Her name is Cecilia and she is a college student at Berkeley. She has no idea that I'm married and that's what makes it better.
I found out that Haley is going out with a guy that I went to high school with. His name is Damien West and he was a jock to the core. He was very cocky and pretty self-involved. I hope Haley knew what she was getting herself into.
I took Cecilia to Olive Garden and the dinner was delicious. The conversation was enjoyable as well. It was nice not to be at someone's throat and arguing every second. Cecilia was easy to talk to and even though she was young, she seemed interested in me. I wasn't looking for something serious but I knew we could have fun together.
After dinner, we sat at the bar and had a couple drinks. Cecilia got up to go to the bathroom and for some strange reason I wish Haley was here. What I am doing is wrong and I shouldn't be doing this. Fate is an elegant cold-hearted whore because I saw Haley and Damien just walk in the door. It is just my fucking luck that my hot wife comes into the same damn place with the scumbag. She had a huge smile on her face and I could see the two of them laughing. It seemed like Haley moved on easily.
I make believe
That you are here
It's the only way
I see clear
What have I done
You seem to move on easy
Damien catches my eye and he grabs Haley's hand. They both come over to Cecilia and I and he extends his hand.
"Nathan Scott, how the hell are you? I haven't seen you since high school. What have you been up to?" he smiled and all I wanted to do was wipe it off his face.
"I've been pretty good. So Damien, I see you know my wife Haley," I gestured towards Haley and she gave me the evil eye.
"Whoa, Haley, you did not tell me you were married. No offense or anything but I don't get involved with married chicks. I can't afford for Nathan to beat the shit out of me. So I bid thee farewell and it was nice to meet you. Bye Nate, it was nice seeing you again too," he spoke before bolting out the door.
"Damn it, Nathan. What the hell is your problem? Jane suggested that we date other people and we have to follow through with it. You can't become jealous and scare my dates away," she said before slapping me across the face. After that, she started walking towards the door and Cecilia came out of the bathroom.
They bumped into each other and I could see the steam coming out of Haley's ears.
"Bitch, watch where you are walking," Haley yelled.
"Excuse me, why don't you watch where you are walking. Also I don't appreciate being called a bitch," Cecilia retorted back.
"How about I call you a man-stealer then? Since Nathan has a problem with me dating other people, I guess I should too. Stay away from him because he will only cause you pain and misery," Haley began to cry before running out of the restaurant.
"Cecilia, I'll be right back," I shouted before running out the door.
I ran after Haley and we began to argue again. It ended with me telling her our marriage is over and she stormed off.
End Flashback
Nathan's POV
After having 5 more shots of tequila, I called myself a cab because I was too drunk to drive. I asked the driver to take me back to my empty and lonely house.
I stumbled up the steps and I blinked a few times because I saw someone sitting on the porch.
"Hello Nathan, it's been too damn long," a woman spoke.
I started to sway and I would have fell, but the woman came over to me. Even though I was drunk out of my mind, I couldn't believe that it was Peyton.
"Peyton, what are you doing here?" I slurred.
"I am here claiming what is mine. You are mine Nathan and nothing is going to come between us again. I am so sorry for hurting you all those years ago. I love you and I want us to be together for real. I have so much to tell you, but right now I have to take care of you," she exclaimed as she led me into the house.
We both sat down on the couch and before I could comprehend what was going on, she planted her lips on mine.
I tried to push her away, but the alcohol infecting my brain cells was making it hard to concentrate.
The next thing I know, I see someone fly into the room and pull Peyton off of me.
"Peyton, what the fuck are you doing? This was not a part of the plan," I heard a voice say.
I almost fell off the couch because the voice belonged to Lucas, my brother.
I was so confused and lost by what was going on. All I wanted was the truth and I wanted Haley back.
"Can someone explain what is going on? My brain is kind of scrambled, but I still want an explanation," I asked.
"Nate, I'm sorry, but Peyton made me contact you and pretend to be your brother. We faked the DNA test and I feel so bad for lying to you. I only did it because I have some skeletons in my closet that I did not want the press to find out. Peyton knew what they were and threatened to tell if I didn't help her out. I know that is wrong and I apologize a million times over. I wrecked your marriage and I deserve to go to hell for it. Haley is a wonderful person and I really hope you guys can work this out. I swear Peyton showing up and kissing you was not part of the plan," Lucas explained looking so miserable.
"Oh Lucas, shut up. This was a part of the plan the whole time. I was just using you so I could get Nathan back. When you told Haley about Lucas, she didn't believe you, did she? Well that was all me. I switched your cell phone number with mine and when Haley called, it was my phone she was calling. You are mine Nathan Scott and that bitch Haley doesn't deserve you," Peyton began to laugh manically.
My head was spinning with all of this new information. I could not believe that Haley was right the whole damn time. No wonder she was the love of my life. Peyton and Lucas can definitely burn in hell for trying to ruin our marriage.
I stood up from the couch and I tried to swing at Lucas, but I tripped and fell onto the floor.
Peyton was still laughing hysterically and I wanted to hurt her so badly. I got up off the floor and ran after Peyton. She duck and ran out the door. I ran after her and chased her for like 3 blocks. I have no idea how I could keep up but I guess I was sobering up pretty quickly. Eventually, I tackled her and we both fell onto the sidewalk.
"I hate you Peyton. Why can't you just leave me and Haley alone? You left town and I moved on. Get over it and stop trying. I don't want you and you need to accept that," I yelled into her face.
"I will never accept it because I love you. I know you love me too. What the hell does Haley have that I don't?" she asked.
"Haley has my heart, Peyton. I love her with all of my heart and nothing will ever change that. Please leave me alone or I am going to the police and getting a restraining order. I am so done with this shit Peyton," I said as I got up and began to walk away.
"No Nathan, don't walk away from me. We are supposed to be together. Don't go back to Haley. She can't make you happy. I know you have Jamie to worry about, but he will get over this too. I can make him happy as well. I will be a better mother than Haley ever will," Peyton shouted.
I became enraged because nobody criticized Haley's mothering skills. Haley is a great mother and Jamie is a good kid because of her.
"Peyton, how dare you say that? Haley is a wonderful mother and Jamie would not benefit if we got divorced. I am done with this and I am so done with you. Stay away from me and stay away from my family. That includes Lucas as well. I never want to see him again either. I can't believe he agreed to help you. You two deserve each other, I guess," I retorted and stormed off.
I went back to my house and Lucas was still waiting for me in the living room.
"What the fuck are you still doing here? Get out of my house right now before I call the police," I shouted angrily at him.
"You have every right to be upset and I am very sorry. I don't know why I lied in the first place. At first, it was easy to do because I didn't know you personally. As we began to talk more, the lying became harder to do. I know this doesn't excuse anything and if you never want to see me, I completely understand. It was nice pretending to be your brother, but no more pretending. If you ever want to talk, you know my number. Please apologize to Haley and Jamie for me. I feel awful for lying to them as well. I should apologize to them in person, but I figured I would leave town now. Goodbye Nathan, it was nice to meet you and your family," he explained before walking out the door.
I slammed the door after he left and slumped onto the couch. I put my head in my hands and began to cry. My life was so messed up now and the only thing that could make me feel better is my Haley.
I decided to call her and see if she wanted to talk.
"Hey Hales, I know your pissed at me and I'm sorry for that. I was wondering if we could talk. I kind of had a bad night," I spoke after she answered the phone.
"Aw, did Cecilia not want you to come inside after you dropped her off? Sorry Nathan, but I have no sympathy for you. I am tired and I want to go to bed. Besides, you said we were through. Why would you be calling me?" she said.
"I am calling you because you were absolutely right about Lucas. He turned out to be a fraud and apparently he got mixed up with Peyton," I nervously told her.
"Oh my God, did you say Peyton? Are you fucking kidding me? I'm sorry that he lied to you all this time. How the hell did he get involved with Peyton anyway?" she asked.
"I don't really know and don't give a shit either. Peyton and Lucas showed up at my place 20 minutes ago. Lucas told me that he wasn't my brother. He only lied because Peyton was going to reveal some secrets about him to the press if he didn't do what she said," I explained.
"Damn, that sucks. I guess I could come over and we could talk about things. Please tell me Peyton is not there," she begged.
"I swear Peyton isn't here. I chased her out of the house and bitched her out. I hope she got the message and left town," I said.
"Good, I will be there in 10 minutes," she said before hanging up.
I must have been exhausted from chasing Peyton because I fell asleep on the couch waiting for Haley.
Everytime I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And everytime I see you in my dreams
I see your face, it's haunting me
I guess I need you baby
I woke up an hour later and I searched the entire house for Haley. I couldn't find her and I became really worried. I called her cell phone and the voice on the other line chilled me to the bone.
"If you want to see your precious Haley alive, come to the alleyway on Third Avenue. We are both waiting for you and dying to know which one you really want to be with," Peyton spoke before hanging up.
I grabbed my car keys and drove out of my driveway like a bat out of hell. I couldn't believe that Peyton was determined to ruin my fucking life. I swear if she hurts Haley, there will be hell to pay.
Haley's POV
After Nathan called, I grabbed my car keys and drove the 10 minutes to our house. Unfortunately, I didn't make it there because I almost ran someone over. Of course, that someone was Peyton Sawyer.
"Get in the backseat if you want to live bitch," she shouted pointing a gun at my face.
I quickly jumped into the backseat because I feared for my life. I hated Peyton for trying to ruin my marriage with Nathan, but her threatening me with a gun scared the shit out of me.
Peyton began to drive very crazily and I put my seatbelt on. Eventually, she stopped and dragged me out of the car. She tied the back of my hands and put duct tape over my mouth. I tried to scream for help before she put the duct tape on, but she punched me in the face. I could feel the blood pouring out of my mouth. I began to cry silently because I knew Nathan was waiting for me.
I heard my phone ringing, but I couldn't reach it. Peyton yanked it out of my purse and told whoever it was to meet us in the alleyway. Peyton sat down next to me and kept the gun pointed at my head.
"Any sudden movements Haley and I will blow your fucking brains out," she sneered at me.
After what felt like a lifetime, Nathan showed up and I was so glad to see him.
Nathan tried to take the gun away from Peyton and they began to wrestle on the ground.
"You and I are supposed to be together Nathan. This is all wrong and you know it. Just let me finish off Haley and we can finally be happy. Don't fight it, Nathan. I heard what you said to Haley earlier. You and she are through and so is your marriage. This is fate and after your divorce is final, we can move back to New York. You will love it there and so will Jamie. Actually, you don't have to divorce Haley. I can kill her right now and we can get married tomorrow. I want to be Mrs. Nathan Scott and I want to give you so many babies. We can be so happy and I love you very much. Isn't that enough, Nate? Please let that be enough," she shouted.
"Peyton put the gun down. You do not want to do this. Prison is not a glamorous place and I surely doubt you will survive. I don't want you Peyton and I never will. I told you that I love Haley and nothing will ever change that. You need help because this obsession over me is not healthy. Please put the gun down because you are better than this. You could never kill anyone because it is not in your nature to do so," Nathan spoke calmly to her.
Peyton was still pointing the gun and I could see the fear in her eyes. I knew her life was not an easy one and knowing she could never have Nathan was probably overwhelming.
"If I can't be happy, nobody can," her voice shaky with anger and fear.
Time seemed to stop as I broke the binding around my hands and pulled the tape off of my mouth.
Peyton put bullets into the gun and cocked it back. She pointed it right at me and I closed my eyes. I knew my life was about to end right now.
I felt someone push me out of the way and I fell onto the cold ground. I saw the bullets go into Nathan's chest and ribcage. His face was contorted in pain and he crumbled onto the ground.
There was so much blood and the gunshots still rang in my ears. I ran over to Nathan's almost lifeless body and held him so tightly. I began to hysterically cry and wondered how our lives came to this horrible place. I looked around for Peyton, but it seems that she disappeared into the night. I grabbed my cell phone and dialed 911. I begged them to come right away and for the police to find Peyton. I was not going to let this bitch get away with shooting my husband. I hung up the phone and just cradled Nathan in my arms.
"Nathan, stay with me. You are going to be alright. Please stay, please," I begged as the tears streamed down my face.
Nathan's face became really pale and the blood just poured out of the wound in his chest. The other bullet seemed to be lodged in his ribcage and I could tell his breathing was labored.
"Hales……..I…….love…….you," he whispered so softly that I had to lean near his mouth in order to hear him.
"Nathan, I love you too. Please stay with me. You are strong and brave. You can't leave me just yet. Jamie still needs you and so do I. My weakness caused you pain and I am so sorry. I love you and I guess I need you baby," I cried as my tears mixed in with the rain that began to fall down from the sky.
I may have made it rain
Please forgive me
My weakness caused you pain
And this song is my sorry
About five minutes later, I heard the sirens and an ambulance came speeding down the street. Two EMTs came out with a stretcher. They lifted Nathan onto it and loaded it back into the ambulance. I jumped into the ambulance and held Nathan's hand the whole way to the hospital.
Once we got to the hospital, they made me wait in the waiting room. I began to hysterically cry and I couldn't get Nathan's face as Peyton shot him out of my mind. I hope that face of his will soon fade away because it hurt to think about.
At night I pray
That soon your face
Will fade away
Dating other people was a bad idea and I will be totally lost without Nathan if he dies tonight. Every time I try to fly without him, I fall without my wings. Nathan is my wings and I guess I do need my baby.
And every time I try to fly
I fall without my wings
I feel so small
I guess I need you baby
And every time I see you in my dreams
I see your face, you're haunting me
I guess I need you baby