Loki Odinson

I have had the same nightmare for two days. I always woke up, sitting and shouting, sweating and my hands shaking. I had not been so scared for a long time.

I recognized the scene. I was standing in the side of our training area. The Warrior of Three were there. So was Sif. Thor was standing next to me. And we were focused on Kathryn.

She was having this fight. The exact same thing…

Sif hit her back with the sword. I stirred about the pain that she felt. I wanted to stop this thing but I was not able to move. My feet were opalized. My muscles didn't move even I wanted.

She fought back. Hit ten times harder than Sif did. Kathryn, the daughter of Freya, took three men down. But the woman, Sif, continued to dare her.

Then she was going to use her magic.

''No!'' I shouted.

She had used them before she heard me. Now, the all warriors were down. She was just standing there.

Thor asked her. And she turned.

Golden eyes, shaking hands, skin pales as sheets…

''Help me,'' she said frustratedly and scaredly. We just looked at her.

Then she turned blue. her eyes were red. She had the exact same lines that I had on my skin in one form of mine. Frost Giant.

''Help me!'' She shouted once more.

That was the moment when I always woke up. I didn't know why it was so horrible to me, but my mind didn't let me sleep. I wasn't cool with the thought of…

I got up and snapped my fingers. I had my riding suit on before leaving my room.

The sun was rising. My horse, Windrunner, took long steps towards my favorite place. That was a place where I was able to think alone. Just to figure things out. I had been spending time since I was a little boy.

I stopped my horse.

After a while, I was sitting next to the waterfall. I felt water in the air. I loved this place. It made me remember things like my mother. She had always been my savior. My guide.

'One day, you must bring her here. The woman who admires you and you feel the same way.'

'Mom, I don't wanna have a princess next to me! I wanna be wild and free!'

'My boy, no-one is going to survive alone.'

'Thor is!'

I was a troublesome kid. Mother had always loved me even I had bad days. I closed my eyes and let the memories flow again.

Another memory was when I was a teen. I was tired of talks about marriage. My father wanted me to wed some lady from another realm. I was not going to do it!

'You don't need a princess. Not even a royal one.' Mother had told to me.

'But why you told me to get a princess? I don't even want to marry anyone!'

'I didn't mean it like that. The woman you'll love someday shall be your princess. And one day you'll marry her, she shall be your queen.'

And then mother had taken her crystal necklace off her neck. She handed it to me. I took it to my palm. She squeezed my hand to fist. Her smile was kind.

'Give this to her. It was made in the deep down here, under the ground we are walking on. It has the power of Goddesses. It had been mine and Odin's mother before me. Her mother's before your grandmother. The queens shall possess the power of ancients. It has wisdom in it, rightness, the key to an open heart.'

I had opened my fist, 'But I will never be the king of Asgard, so you should give this to Thor.'

'But you were born to have your own queen, my son.'

I didn't know why I cried silently now. It had been long since I had cried.

I had been carrying this necklace since she came here.

I had fallen in love with her. She was already a queen to me.

Kathryn Stark made me feel like a man, like a king. The only man in the world.

And nobody knew. I hadn't told to Thor. Not even to her.

I knew she didn't want to be here. She wanted to go home. She had been thinking it for so long, dreamed about returning to home. I just waited a day she'd ask to leave.

That day would be my life's saddest one, but the happiest to her. The day she'll leave this realm, I will give this to her.

I returned back to the castle. I had some business to deal with Sif.

She had been accusing me about Kathryn. Well, I was part of it, but it wasn't all my fault. She had been saying bad things about her. So bad I had to go and finish this thing.

And I had told about that to Thor yesterday. I needed to make things clear to Sif because she had just forgotten her place in this realm. She was not higher than Kathryn. Dear God, she was a royal one and Sif acted like a fool.

I just walked into her room. She was brushing her dark hair.

''What a pleasant surprise, Loki.''

''It is my prince now,'' I said angrily to her as I closed the door. She looked at me from her mirror and put the brush down. Slowly, she turned around on her chair.

''Beg your pardon, my prince. What brings you here?''

I walked to her dining table and sat down. I put my hands on the table and looked at her furiously, ''You know exactly what brings me here.''

She stood up and walked towards me. She did not sit down, just leaned against the table, ''Have you changed your mind, my prince?'' That sentence made me feel disguised. I didn't show it, but dear God, she was not a woman to me.

And we had done a great mistake once. I was drunk, so was she. She had made me do it. After that night, she had been tormented me by thoughts like having more sex or anything like it. I didn't like her. She had never been more than a warmate to me.

''No, I haven't. I just came to talk about that training day.''

She rolled her eyes, ''Kathryn.''

''Indeed,'' I answered, ''You have no right to-''

''Are you stupid or what?! She has no power in here! She has no throne! She is no queen around here! She is just a woman with royal blood in her veins. I am not a Vanir. Hogun is. So I do not need to follow any words she says to-''

''I wasn't talking about that!'' I stood up and got more furious already, ''You should show some respect on our guest! She may not be a queen yet-''

''She never will! She has no courage to claim the throne from the King! She is not made for a throne, you know it!''

I felt like I was turning into the frost giant. I was already a foot longer than a second ago, ''Like you know what are you talking about.''

She took a more seductive position on the table. I turned my head away. What she didn't understand from my words?

''Sif, I have told you many times that I do not like you.''

''You lie. That is what you do for your nature.''

''Everyone knows how to lie.''

She took a crip from my jaw and made me look at her. I didn't want to, but dear lord; I had promised to me to be a better man since my mother's death.

''I know you want me. I see it from your eyes. You took responsibility of-''

I smashed all of her stuff away from her table. Dear Lord, I didn't want her!

She just looked at me shocked. ''You are so sloppy! Are you going to gather them up?!'' She just looked at me. I started at her. If only look could kill, she would be dead by now.

''How it is my responsibility?! Ha? You freaking made me drank the whole thing up! You made me do it!'' It was the truth. She made me do it.

''I didn't have a blade on your throat!'' Oh well, of course, she'd say that.

''But next to something else certainly!''

This time she took her blade and hit it on the table. I smiled. Did she really think that would make me scared?

She snapped, ''This is just fucking her up! Kate isn't it?!'' I was shocked. Was she jealous? I had not even considered of fucking Kathryn! She was like a friend to me. Or...

''I do not canoodle with her! Neither with you.'' I answered with a strong voice. She just looked at me like not believing a word I'd say. I heard someone's thoughts from the hall... What was their relationship after all? Did Sif really think we fucked each other? Yes, Loki was hella attractive, but- It was Katheryn. Oh, not now.

Sif walked from the other side of the table next to me and put her hand on my chest. I took it off with one move.

''You just wish you'd fuck with me, like on that night-'' She started, she wished, I didn't.

''Like I had said you times before, I am not a guy with relationship obsession. I am all fine, all alone.'' It was half-truth…

She took a plate from the floor and threw it against her main door. I sighed. Stupid woman.

''I know you miss me.'' Her voice was soft again. I turned back to my human form. But I still was angry like a lion.

''Dear Lord, Sif. You need to stop this madness. We both know we weren't clear. It was an enormous mistake.'' I was walking away from her but she pulled me back to my place.

Had they have drunk sex?! I couldn't but smile. That was something that should not be taken lightly- still I was smiling. I was biting my lower lip because I just had thought Loki naked and drunk.

Kathryn! You weren't helping me at all. Just in one moment's weakness, Sif pressed me against her table. NO, no, no, no! Not NOW!

I knew exactly who knocked a door. Sif told her to come in.

I didn't dare to look at her. I knew what she thought about this, and that was not proper. Fuck, I had screwed this up!

After a moment I looked at her. She was worried, a bit amused about this. She shared one look with Sif before speaking.

''I was looking for Loki to ask do we have practices today?'' Her voice calmed my furious soul down.

''Of course, we could-'' I was going to say yes, but Sif stopped me.

''Are you blind? Please, could you excuse us? We have a moment in here.'' I was not believing this! She had just-! I am going to kill this woman in front of me.

''You unworthy-!'' I said to Sif as I pushed her away from me.

''Well, my greatest apologies, Lady Sif and Prince of Asgard.''

Kathryn's face broke me. Her eyes were empty now. Her look made me feel sadder. I just wanted to take her to my arms and tell her everything were alright. No! This was not how this was supposed to go.

The door closed.

I turned my head to look at Sif.

''She doesn't know about your Frost Giant side, does she?''

I looked at her for a moment.

And then walked out the door.