Remus' Diary

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11th November 1974

Amara contacted me again today. We've been in contact for over a mouth now and we've been sneaking off to see each other. She's fantastic! She has a fresh perspective of werewolves. When I'm with her I don't feel different, I feel like I belong with her. We like the same music and she loves books as much as I do.

When the letter arrived, I recognised her owl and tore it open. It said that she wanted to meet me again tomorrow. The others had a frosty expressions on they're faces. They still haven't warmed to Amara but they will…

…Hopefully

"Is that another letter from Amara?" James asked.

"Yes" I smiled.

Lily and Maria were sitting a few places down from me and they both gave me a stony look. Maria still hasn't gotten over our break up; she keeps giving me daggers in class. Snape approached our bench to talk to Lily.

"Lily, can I talk to you?" Snape asked nervously.

She still looked angry with him.

"Whatever you have to say, you can say it here" Lily responded coldly.

James shifted his interest to the Lily drama.

"I am truly sorry for what happened on the train" Snape apologised, "It kills me that you're angry at me. Can we please just put this behind us and be friends?"

Lily looked at him for a few seconds. I wonder what happened between them. Lily gave him a stiff nod and Snape broke in a grin.

"I'll see you later then" he beamed.

Lily didn't seem very thrilled by that prospect but nodded anyway. A few minutes later, Lily and Maria got up and made their way to class.

"Poor Lily" James tutted.

"Poor Lily?" Peter repeated, confused.

"You saw her face" James explained, "She doesn't want to be friends with Snivellus but she feels duty bound too"

"And this is our business because…" Sirius retorted.

"Maybe she needs someone to help" James puffed up.

And by someone he means him.

"Help" Sirius wondered.

"With her Snivellus problem" James clarified.

Sirius just chuckled under his breath.

"And how will the noble knight save the princess from the dragon?" Sirius asked sarcastically.

Before James could answer Professor McGonagall came up to us.

"To your lessons boys, unless you want another detention" she hurried us.

I looked around and realised the hall was empty save for us. So we got up and gathered our books for potions. We only just made it in time, Slughorn told us to hurry up. So we sat on our table and took out our books and quills. Lily was sitting at the front with her friends and Snape was at the back trying to catch Lily's eye. I pitied him sometimes.

The lesson was pretty dry and Peter kept asking for my help.

"What does this mean?" Peter whispered during a test.

Slughorn had said no talking so I ignored him.

"What does this mean?" Peter repeated, "Remus, can you help me?"

"Ask Sirius" I whispered back irritably before getting back to my work.

Peter turned to Sirius and asked the same thing.

"What does this mean?" he whispered.

"Ask James" he grunted back.

Before Peter could open his mouth, James snapped.

"Don't you even think about it"

Peter got back to his own work. I noticed he skipped that question. After Slughorn dismissed us Snape ran up to Lily and pulled her aside.

"See what I mean" James nodded to them while we were packing up our stuff, "He's hounding her"

"I'm sure Lily can take care of herself" Sirius assured him.

James just looked at them for a few moments.

"What do you think they're saying?" James probed.

"I really don't care" Sirius said.

When we were ready we had to walk past Snape and Lily. I think I heard Snape say:

"Are you sure you forgive me?"

But I could be mistaken.

We had to go to our next lesson without Lily but Snape was in our divination class. The teacher was late so James decided to have a little 'fun' with him.

"Oi, Snivellus" James taunted, "Problems with the missies?"

Sirius came beside him, intimidating Snape. Peter had a big, stupid grin on his face and I just pretended to look at my timetable.

"Bugger off Potter!" Snape retorted.

"Or what" Sirius chuckled.

Snape brought out his wand but James said:

"Expelliarmus" James spelled as Snape wand flew out of his hand.

The others students began laughing as James dangled him upside down. It was hard to concentrate on my timetable when this was going on.

"Let me go!" Snape yelled.

"Let's see if we can turn his skin orange" Sirius suggested.

But before they could try the teacher finally came. Snape was dropped painfully to the floor before the teacher could see. Everyone pretended nothing had happened as we filed into the room. When we sat down, James and Sirius shared victory looks. Everyone was giving them approving looks and winks.

At lunch James was nattering on about Lily and Snape.

"Lily's too good for Snape. I don't understand why she's even friends with him. When I'm going out with her-"

"I like the confidence of your 'when" Sirius sniggered.

Peter and me, laughed at James' expense.

"You may all laugh now but one day she shall be Mrs Potter" James smiled.

"Yes and on that day the moon shall turn to cheese and the sea will turn into pumpkin juice" Sirius retorted.

I laughed so hard and even James chuckled a bit.

"But-"James began before Sirius interrupted him.

"Why don't you just ask her out?" Sirius advised, "You've been going on and on about it. Just explain how you feel and just do it"

"But she hates me" James pointed out.

"It's worth trying" I backed Sirius up.

At this moment Lily and Snape had come back into hall looking friendly and then spilt up to eat lunch. James looked so nervous; he looked once again to us.

"You can do it" I encouraged.

"Go get her" Sirius winked.

James walked nervously up to Lily.

"She's gonna say no" Sirius predicted.

"Oh, yeah" I agreed.

James sat down next to Lily and talked to her. Lily frowned and looked deeply surprised. Then it was her turn to speak and James looked really upset. He then re-joined us looking like he'd just been slapped.

"I take it she said no" Sirius sighed.

"It's her loss" I snorted.

"Yeah" Peter nodded.

James looked like he was about to cry.

"Do you want to bunk next lesson mate?" Sirius suggested.

James just nodded so we got up and headed for the Owlery. When we got there James just broke down and cried. Sirius and I squatted next him, trying to comfort him. Peter just sat down in front of us.

"Come on mate" Sirius said softly.

"There's always next time" I reminded him.

"She-she said" James sobbed, "That she'd rather date a troll"

Sirius and I shared a knowing look.

"You really love her, don't you?" I gasped.

James nodded and continued to sob.

"What do you to do?" I asked.

"Let's prank Snivellus" Peter suggested.

I shot him a burning glare. James stopped sobbing and looked up at us.

"Ok" he shrugged.

"May I offer some advice" I said.

"Sure"

"If you keep pranking Lily's best friend, she's never going to go out with you" I pointed out.

"But Snivellus isn't her best friend" James snorted, "She doesn't even like him"

I give up…

I'm looking forward to seeing Amara tomorrow!

12th November 1974

They got a tip off that Veronica was dead. They announced it at breakfast this morning. Dumbledore asked the hall to be silent as he had an important announcement. Moody was standing next to him looking important.

"It is my sad duty to inform you, that Veronica Bluewater has indeed been murdered. They still haven't found the body though"

The whole school gasped and began gossiping among themselves. James looked horrified at what he'd just been told.

"The investigation into her murder is ongoing" he explained, "If any of you know anything that could help then don't be afraid to tell a member of staff or Moody here"

Moody gave James a dirty look before sitting down with the others.

"She's dead!" James gasped in disbelief.

"Might be dead" Sirius corrected him.

"Do you think that man suspects you?" Peter asked.

"I think he does" James gulped.

James was nervous all day and I can't blame him. It was obvious that Moody suspected him.

I'm off to see Amara so I'll write tomorrow.

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