BRING ME TO LIFE

by Jensi

Aislin moved to Shreveport to begin a new life with one man, but would it be enough for her to stay? Would she find more than she expected? Eric N and an OC.

38. In My Arms

I do not own any True Blood characters. We cool? Let's do this…

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When the clouds will rage

And storms will race in but you will be safe in my arms

Rains will pour down

Waves will crash all around

But you will be safe in my arms

It was not all that long of a wait, but it seemed like one to Aislin as she listened to the murmurs of Jill and the nurses and tried to make sense of it. Matt's hand clutched hers tighter as the moments passed, and she looked at him and pushed against is hand with her own. "Sorry." Matt told her, and she looked into his eyes and saw the worry there. She realized that this meant everything to him, and she smiled as she realized that Logan would have a supportive family all around him. She wished that Eric was there witnessing this, so deeply that she could feel her head begin to hurt, and she brushed that away. It was morning and it could not be helped. She focused again and felt the pain of her worry, and waited for Jill to tell them something. Anything. "You'll be thanking me for this one, Aislin." Jill's voice called out, and Matt and Aislin shared a curious glance. "This little baby boy of yours is seven pounds! Had you had him full term, you might have had a twelve pound baby."

"What?" Aislin asked softly, remembering the things she had seen about preemies being tiny and ending up in the ICU for weeks on end. She thought about all of the blood she had had in the last few days and frowned as Matt stood up and looked over the cloth draped above her.

"He's gorgeous, Ais." Matt's voice was full of emotion, and when he looked at her, she could see the tears in his eyes. "He looks great."

Jill walked over with Logan loosely wrapped in a blanket and Aislin gazed at him. He had dark hair that covered his small head, and he was beautiful. Aislin leaned over to kiss his head and Matt followed suit before Jill took him to another corner of the room. Matt followed with his Iphone in hand, and Jill assured Aislin that she was sewing her up and that she could return to her room in a little while. Aislin took a deep breath and closed her eyes for a moment, thanking every God that she could for this moment. She could not believe that Logan was so big, and had a chance at being healthy. Matt came back over and kissed her hair gently. "They're taking him to the ICU to check and make sure things are good, but he looks great. Good job, Mama."

"You made him too." Aislin replied, and he looked at her for a long moment. His eyes held the regret that they were not together anymore, and that he wished they were. He wanted to be complete parents. She said nothing, just took his hand and squeezed it gently. Matt went to check on Logan as she was wheeled to the room, and Ally was pacing back and forth. "Hello, Auntie."

"He's here? Where?" Ally asked, her eyes filling with tears as she looked around.

"He went to the ICU, but Ally….he is seven pounds." Aislin told her, making sure the attendant left the room. "He is two months early and he is seven pounds."

"Eric?" Ally whispered, and Aislin nodded. "What does he look like?"

"He has a lot of dark hair, but I didn't see him for long." Aislin said apologetically, and Ally pouted. "Matt took pictures and once he is done stalking them down there, he'll be back." Ally giggled and sat down.

"How do you feel?"

"Numb right now. I am sure I will be in some pain later when this wears off." Aislin said, remaining fairly still as she sat in bed.

"I am sure your vampire can help you out there." Ally teased her, and they both turned as the door opened. Matt walked in, and they smiled at him.

"Check out our gorgeous son." Matt said proudly, showing Ally his phone. She gushed and cried a little as she scanned the photos and then paused on the last one. She handed the phone to Aislin and she took a peek at it, seeing his eyes open a little bit. They were blue, and cerulean blue at that. Logan had Eric's blue eyes, and Matt and Aislin did not have that eye color. Aislin made a silent note of it and looked through the rest, and tears slid down her cheeks. "He will be in here with you soon. He is in really good shape. What did you feed him, Aislin?"

"Just all of the food I ate endlessly." Aislin replied casually, meeting Ally's eyes for a long moment. "He does not need to stay in the ICU?"

"They said probably not. Maybe he can sleep in here with you." Matt told her, and she smiled. She really wanted to start nursing and bonding with her new son. "Maybe I can stay in here tonight." he looked around and saw that the room had a nice couch, and Aislin tried to keep her expression neutral. She was hoping to see Eric for awhile that night so he could meet Logan alone. "If I make it too long anyway. I flew here and then drove right over."

"That makes two of us. I am emotionally drained." Aislin agreed, and he sat down and chatted with the sisters. Aislin ate some lunch and a couple of nurses brought in some flowers afterwards, piled up in their arms.

"These have been coming in since your arrival. I didn't realize you were part of a band." The blond nurse smiled at Aislin as she set her pile down on the table next to her. "Guess someone mentioned you were in the hospital."

"Hannah." Matt and Aislin said together, and laughed. The other nurse set hers down on the table on the other side of the room, and Ally wandered over to peek through the stuffed animals and flowers, picking out a few to put on the other side table. Matt went for some coffee and she looked at Ally closely.

"How are things with Pam?"

"Good. We talked last night and I told her where I am at. She says she does not want me to leave." Ally said, and Aislin raised one eyebrow.

"That is impressive for Pam."

"She is buying a car for me too. I guess I will need a new one now." Ally said, and Aislin frowned. "She wants a Tahoe for me like yours. Seems they both hate Ravs now."

"Fuck! I totaled your car!" Aislin cried out, and sighed. "My old sweet car."

"You did not total anything. You nearly died thanks to drunk driver asshole who totaled my car." Ally pointed out angrily, and Aislin took her hand.

"I am here and your nephew is healthy. That is what matters." Aislin assured her sister, and Ally hugged her. Her phone rang and she answered it, and Aislin told her parents that their grandson was there and healthy. They told her that they could not come right away because The girl's aunt had passed away and they needed to tend to that. Aislin expressed regret but was secretly relieved. she could go home that way with Logan and not have to hide out in a fake house, and Ally felt the same way. They all talked a bit later and Matt returned with a big bouquet of pink roses from the band. He pulled a box from under his arm and handed it to her after he gushed about the roses, and she looked at him.

"I picked it out awhile ago." Matt told her, and she smiled at him. She opened the small box to find a necklace from a well known jewelry store, and peeked at it as tears slipped into her eyes again. It was a platinum locket that had a few small diamonds and the word 'Mommy' on the front, and it sparkled in the light of the sun that shone through the window. She slid it out of the box and around her neck, and held out her arms to give him a hug.

"Thank you. It is beautiful." Aislin told him, and he stroked her hair as she frowned. It was gross now and she needed a shower. They said she could take one before she had the c section, but there had never been an opportunity. Now she figured there really wouldn't, being stuck in bed and all. Matt and Ally stayed with her all day, and both went home that evening. Matt was beyond exhausted and Ally needed to get the car back to Pam. She was working at the bar that night. Aislin tried to relax in the bed, but the growing need for her son began to eat away at her. She heard the door and a nurse wheeled him in, bundled up inside of a big blanket and nestled into their plastic cage. Aislin smiled and the nurse grinned at her.

"He is all yours, Mommy. He is doing great." It was the blond nurse from earlier, and Aislin smiled in her direction as she peered at Logan. "I know you are probably in some pain, so I will put him really close." She left them alone after making sure that Aislin was doing fine, and then Aislin carefully got out of bed and took him into her arms. It hurt a lot to move, but she needed to be with him. She pulled the blanket back a little bit, just to be able to see him. Aislin looked at his tiny feet as she caressed them, and then held his tiny hands with her fingers. He grabbed her with one, and she stared at him in amazement. He was so strong, and he opened his eyes and tried to find her.

"Hi, baby. I'm right here for you." Aislin whispered, and stared at the blue eyes with tears in her eyes. "You look like him with those eyes, angel." She pulled him closer to her and kissed his cheeks delicately, talking to him and cradling him gently. She remembered when she knew she had lost her first baby and how devastating it had been, but here and now it faded away even more than it had with the time that had passed. She would always love that baby and miss it, but Logan filled her with a completeness that she had never known. She heard the door and looked up to see a tired Jill grinning at her.

"Look at the two of you." Jill said, walking in and sitting down. "All alone?"

"Matt flew in and came straight here. He was exhausted." Aislin replied, and Jill nodded. "Eric might stop by."

"I am so glad he came out so well, but it is not something I see too often at a seven month delivery. He is quite a bit bigger than he should be, and so developed. I don't know if it is the vampire blood that did it, but at least he is normal. No extra digits of anything to worry about, and so content. I am relieved, though admittedly curious and wanting to understand it all." She stood up and peered into Logan's face. "He is just beautiful. He knows you well." Jill looked at her. "Have you tried breast feeding him yet?"

"I haven't. I have just been talking to him." Aislin replied, and Jill urged her to. Aislin lowered her gown and held him the way Jill instructed her, and watched as he latched on tightly. He sucked eagerly, and Jill said that it might take some time for her milk to come in, but there was a substance that would do him good even now. She urged her to nurse as often as she wanted to for the week that she was there, and soon left them alone. Aislin watched him as he fell asleep nestled against her breast, and smiled happily.

"That is the most beautiful sight I have ever seen." Eric said from the window, and she glanced up with wide eyes. He was holding a bouquet of red roses that was bigger than any in the room and another small box in the same hand. "I felt his arrival this morning. I felt your fear and then your joy, lover." Eric stepped forward and she took in the slicked back hair and warm blue eyes that flickered over his sleeping son eagerly, and he handed her the box and set the roses beside her after removing some of the other stuff, and sat down and looked into her face. She managed to open the box with Logan in her arms and saw a ring with a blue center stone and diamonds surrounding it, and she smiled. "It is his birthstone. I thought it would remind you of him, of us."

"It's beautiful, Eric." Aislin said, and slid it onto her right hand. She smiled at Eric, kissing him warmly as he leaned forward. "I love you." She glanced down at the baby and pulled the blanket around him closer. "Want to hold him?"

"I have been wanting that for quite some time now." Eric agreed, and she handed Logan to him. He held him uncertainly at first, but then Logan seemed to settle in his arms and turned his face towards the vampire. "He is a gorgeous baby, lover. I see you in him."

"He has your eyes." Aislin said softly, and Eric looked at her. "They are such a pretty blue. He was really big for a preemie as well. Seven pounds. He should be in the ICU right now and not here, but he is healthy." Her eyes focused on Eric's and he met the gaze after looking back down at Logan.

"Was it my blood?"

"Jill can't say for sure, but there is a chance. Thank you, Eric. Thank you for making him strong enough to survive."

"How are you faring, Ailing? Are you in pain?" Eric asked her, stroking Logan's hair gently as he spoke. He already looked natural, and she stared for a long moment.

"Yeah, a little. They won't give me anything too strong, since I am nursing." Ailing replied, and pulled her gown up to cover herself as he raised an eyebrow.

"I liked that view." Eric chided her, and she rolled her eyes at him. "When will you be released?"

"In about a week. I am thrilled. Oh, but I am kind of thrilled that my parents visit is delayed, and hopefully I can go there with him at a later time. My aunt died and they need to tend to that. " Aislin told him, and he nodded as he looked at the baby again with warm eyes.

"I can help you with your pain, but are you worried about Logan?" Eric asked, and she shrugged.

"Jill is going to be involved of every step of this. She is too curious not to. I want to not hurt and be better for him." Aislin said, and she felt his slight hesitation in his mind before tearing open his wrist and sliding his arm over to her. She sucked eagerly, and he had to pull away as he looked at her with a glint in his eye.

"Greedy." Eric teased her, and she smiled at him as she watched him kiss Logan's head gently.

"I…ummmmm. This happened before we expected, and I won't be able to have sex for a few weeks, Eric. I planned on making it worthwhile for you before the cease and desist order, but now….." Aislin could not help but wonder if there would be another dancer to worry about, and she felt his eyes on her.

"Stop that right now." Eric ordered her, as she looked up at his stern face. "I do not want anyone but you, Aislin. We have a son now, and I don't want you to ever feel the need to take him away from me."

"But you have sex every day. You feed every day. I can relieve you, but not in that way." Aislin spoke slowly, and he tilted his head at her as he stared at her with amused eyes.

"I can still feed from you, lover. I am sure we can find some creative ways to remedy the situation as well. I am not going to seek anybody else. Not now." Aislin blushed as he spoke, and he placed his hand over hers and squeezed it. "Enjoy this moment. Enjoy this time. I want you to focus on Logan and be happy about him, not worried about what simply will not happen. I love you. You and Logan are what I exist for now, lover."

"We are?" Aislin asked, and he nodded as Logan started to fuss in his arms. He spoke to him and Logan calmed down and went back to sleep, and he stayed with her through the night, watching his family as they slept later. He slipped out at dawn, and Logan cried out as he left, and Aislin opened her eyes wearily. The baby was in his crib, and she stood up easily and picked him up. Aislin smiled widely and silently thanked Eric for his blood, and settled back into bed to feed him. He suckled gently and she stroked his hair and watched him, remembering Eric holding him.

That day was busy, with the band dropping by to see Aislin and the baby. They brought lots of gifts and Hannah cried when she saw Logan. They all held him and Matt joined them in the room as they all chatted and laughed, and she used a new blanket when she nursed him again to cover herself. Matt watched her with warm eyes as he sat by the bed, and she smiled at him. Logan went to sleep in her arms, and Matt took him from her to place him back in the crib. Aislin let him, aware that she needed to play off being in more pain than she actually has. Everyone headed home that afternoon, and Matt sat beside the bed and watched as her eyes drooped sleepily. Logan was in the crib and sleeping, and she blinked at him with a small smile. "Aislin, I want to talk….but you are so tired."

"It's OK. What's up?" Aislin asked softly, and opened her eyes. His eyes were focused on her new ring, and they darted to the red roses afterwards. She sensed something bad coming, and she stared into his eyes.

"I see that he was here. He saw Logan?" Matt asked, his voice turning cold.

"Of course. He is the guy I am dating." Aislin replied, and he stared at her with a smirk on his face,

"No, he is the vampire you are dating. The bloodsucking vampire that could kill our son at any moment." Matt replied, and she suddenly felt wide awake. "Are you certain that he won't? Do you trust him with Logan's life?"

"Yes. Yes, I do. " Aislin's voice was rising, and she fought to calm herself as her eyes darted to her son.

"Did he have anything to do with your being here in the hospital?" Matt asked her, and she stared at him with surprise. "Is he the reason Logan is here now?"

"I got hit by a fucking drunk driver, Matt. Are you insane? You were told that. Eric would have killed him had he not died at the scene. You should be thankful we are alive right now, instead of throwing around accusations."

"I have no choice but to sit back and watch you live you life the way that you choose, but I will protect my son." Matt told her, and tears jumped into her eyes. "I will do whatever it takes."

Something changed in the room and Aislin glanced up to see Eric at the door. His eyes were an icy blue as he stared at Matt's back, and she shrank back as Matt saw her eyes.

"Do not threaten her that way, human." Eric's voice was low and threatening, and Matt turned around. "She loves him and would never put him in harm's way. Don't you understand that?"

"I see what you are. I know what you can do." Matt tried to stand up to defend himself, but Eric was across the room in an instant with his hand locked around Matt's throat as he pressed him into the wall. "I am taking her to court for custody. You are not fucking raising my son."

"Wrong, human. He will be living with me, and you will accept that." Eric's eyes held Matt's, and Aislin watched in horror as Matt seemed to go suddenly still. "You will be happy seeing him the times that you do, and accept whatever she chooses to do. You will forget this conversation and go home, only to return tomorrow happy to see him. Now go the fuck home and leave her alone for now." Eric dropped his hand and they watched as Matt kissed Logan's head and smiled a goodbye to Aislin as he walked out of the room. "I should have just fucking glamoured him right out of Logan's life." Eric hissed, and she finally breathed.

"Shit, Eric. Will he really forget all of that?" Aislin asked, and Eric nodded as he sat down by her. Her took her wrist gently and bit down, drinking hungrily as she watched him. "He knows he is a father still? He will be back tomorrow like you said."

"He was very under." Eric assured her, and she watched as his tongue caressed the wound. "I should have done that months ago, to be honest.." He looked over at Logan, who had slept through everything. "How is he?"

"Amazing. He has been so hungry and happy all day. The band came by to see him, and we had a great time." Aislin told him, and he smiled and took her hand in his. He kissed it gently, and she stared into his now warming eyes.

"I am glad, lover." He stared at her and she saw something flash through his eyes. "I want you back home, Aislin. I want you in my bed again."

"I cannot wait for that day." Aislin agreed, and he leaned forward to kiss her. "I will sleep so much better and he will be in his home."

They talked for awhile and kissed longer, until Logan woke up and started to fuss. Eric took him out of his crib and Aislin fed him, and Eric watched in fascination as he locked onto her nipple eagerly. He stroked his hair and the baby tried to reach for his hand as he ate hungrily, and then settled into her arms. Eric leaned down to kiss him, and got a good look at his eyes. "They are my eyes." Eric said in wonder, and Aislin looked at him.

"I love that." Aislin said softly, and he took Logan's tiny hand with his own massive one. The baby wrapped his hand around one finger, and she saw happiness in his face. The moment was changed by the ringing of a cell phone and Eric's eyes darkened. He took it out and glared at it, answering it in a low voice. He switched to another language, and Aislin looked at her son as she listened to his urgent tone. He quickly hung up, and gave her an apologetic glance.

"I am very sorry, lover. I am needed at the bar." Eric told her, and she sighed and nodded. "Will you be okay?"

"We'll sleep." Aislin replied, feeling disappointed but knowing that he had to go. "is everything OK?"

"Vampire business." Eric answered her vaguely, and she nodded slowly. He leaned forward and kissed Logan's head, squeezing his finger gently before kissing Aislin. "I love you both. " He seemed to disappear and she relaxed against the pillows and told her son all about his vampire daddy and how important he was as she snuggled him in the light of the television. Logan settled in her arms and drifted off to sleep and she got up and settled him in the crib before closing her own eyes. She knew that Eric would always be a vampire sheriff and always have his duties, but she did feel alone at that moment. She took one more look at her sleeping son and smiled, knowing that she wasn't.

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Reviews please. This was HARD to write. Though I have a child, it was NOTHING like this those first days and I struggled a lot trying to convey her feelings. So tell me how you like it? Pretty please?

Oh and I am at 100 reviews. I know that isn't much but I am still happy about that.