Chapter 36: Why?

When David got to an area that had service he saw he had a missed call from both Mia and Candice, he quickly checked his voicemail and heard the message Candice had left. He hung up and tried her number but it just rang and rang until it went to voicemail. He knew she was upset, that much he could figure out and it had to do with Mia and she wasn't going to answer his calls. Leaving her a quick message, "Was finishing something for Josef. On my way home to you now, I love you," he headed home as fast as he could.

As he walked in the door he saw her sitting at the bar sipping a drink, whiskey from the smell of it. He could tell she was upset, her emotions were all over the place but her posture stiffened as he walked towards her. His pocket started to vibrate but he quickly reached in and turned it off, this needed his full attention. She set her drink down and stood up turning to face him, "So glad you could fit me in tonight."

"Can baby you know you're the most important thing in my life. I'm sorry, I know sometimes I get busy with work…but I always have time for you."

She snorted crossing her arms over her chest and stepped by him as he tried to lean in to kiss her. "Please tell me what's wrong," David was trying to figure out why she was upset with him so he could defuse the situation.

"I want you to talk to me David."

"I do talk to you."

"Not about the things you talk to Mia about. What do you talk to her about while you're out dancing the night away complaining about how you have to come home early to your needy girlfriend."

David blinked, "What? I've never said…are you jealous? I'd never—"

"I know you wouldn't cheat on me David. I trust you. I don't trust her and you can't see it but she wants you. I can't blame her."

"Well I don't want her she's an old friend and that's it."

"That's not all."

David threw his hands up, "What do you want? You're the one who told me to talk to her, that you were okay with us being friends. You knew we had a past, you said it didn't bother you."

"That was before I knew she was a lingerie model that wanted you back. Before you started going to her with a bunch of secrets." Candice put her hands on her hips, "I've dealt with women like her before they do whatever it takes to get what they want and she wants you. At first I just ignored her, she may be a model but I know you. I know your heart and that you love me. But do you know how hard it is to ignore…to believe what we have is stronger when I find that you are confiding things to her you don't feel you can tell me."

Tears welled in her eyes and she blinked fast trying to get rid of them. She wasn't this girl she never had been, fighting over some guy. But this wasn't some guy it was David and she never thought of it as a fight, more a declaration to Mia that she had no chance. She wasn't supposed to be insecure she hated those girls.

David saw the vulnerability in her eyes, she always seemed so calm and collected, so strong only letting that down with him but he could see she was putting up the wall she used with everyone else. It broke his heart that he had done this to her. "Can, baby I—"

"I've never been good with relationships, they always fell apart maybe its just me. I've never been good with relying on someone else, I've always taken care of myself and most men can't handle that. I've never been needy that's for damn sure." She turned away from him as she sniffled despite her attempts not to. "Maybe—"

"Stop it, we are not falling apart do you hear me." He said strongly as he pulled her shoulder towards him turning her to face him.

"I don't care about Mia. She's just an old friend. We have nothing just a past and that's all. I'm so sorry she's made you feel this way—"

"That's just it David, she hasn't. Her I can handle it's you."

"I never did anything with her." He thought for a moment and corrected, "Once we danced briefly, she pulled me into while we were talking but I didn't even finish it I ducked out and told her I had better plans with the woman I love."

"Tell me about your past. Tell me everything not the little things you think I want to know or what you think will pacify me. I want to know the things that have you so upset some nights you can't sleep, the things you seem so unable…so unwilling to tell me that you so easily open up to Mia about."

David was speechless, "I'm the one you share things with. I share everything with you, if I'm upset I come to you because you're the one I love the one I want to share everything with. I don't need every detail of all your days but if you are upset about something I want to be there for you. I want to be the one you talk to. And if not me then…even Mick or anyone but her, anyone but the harpy bitch trying to steal you back."

David pulled her chin up to look at him meeting her eyes he said simply, "I'll never talk to or see her again. I had no idea you were this upset. If you had told me sooner I could have stopped this."

"She was a problem I could handle until I lost my footing. It was like going into the court room without even looking at the case, so unprepared. How do I stand up to her and feel solid when I find out you go to her with things that pull you from our bed."

David hugged her to him, "She's gone. No more."

Candice held him breathing in his scent calming her, "But David why wouldn't you tell me? Why do you find it so easy to tell her?"

David knew his answer would make or break them. She wanted to know why he went to another woman to trust instead of her. He was silent for a long time just holding her in his arms trying to think of the words to explain it when he finally spoke, "I guess because I don't care what she thinks of me."

"What?"

"I don't want to tell you all my…my sorted past, my mistakes. She knows some of it already because she was there and the rest well…I don't care if she thinks I'm weak or a coward she's just a girl from my past. You're the woman of my forever and I don't want you to see me like that."

Tears welled in her eyes once again, "David I can never see you as anything else than what I have in front of me. Everyone has a past not all of it pleasant but we take that and become what we are now." She kissed him softly, "How many times do I have to tell you that before you believe me? Besides you could never be weak or cowardly to me."

To Be Continued…

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