Thank you Xx-Twitch-xX =D. I'll be having a lot to say later on.
DISCLAIMER: I don't own MR. Nor do I own any of the songs that will be mentioned.
He wasn't there. I even looked up at the trees surrounding the clearing. There was no sign of a teenager dressed in black. There was a note taped to the tree in the middle though. But it didn't have anything, just a small heart at the upper left corner.
All that was left to assume was that it was from Fang. And he was here before I was. I looped the strap of my bag on one arm and started climbing the tree. It was no big deal, since I had done it before. And if Fang came back, well, I wanted to surprise him, as weird as that sounded. I settled on one of the thicker branches and opened the box he left. The piece of paper was on top, so I took it out first.
Dear Max,
Sorry if the handwriting's a bit shaky. I'm writing this on a bus.
I found your note. And you know what? I love you too. Yeah, that's right. I am in love with Maximum Ride.
To be honest, I noticed you way before we actually met. At first, I didn't want to be the kind of guy that liked a girl only because she was pretty (you are, don't deny it). But then we became friends, maybe even more, and I found out how amazing you are. All the things you did kept on piling up on the list of reasons why I love you. Don't ask for the list; it's too long. But I hope what's in the box will be enough for now.
This isn't a prank, I swear. That rose I gave wasn't one, either. I love everything about you. Every single thing. If you asked me to point out all of it, then I would. Your smile, your eyes, your voice, your laugh, your kisses, your kindness, how you're so spontaneous and funny and welcoming and smart and helpful. How you still stuck with a guy like me, no matter how many times I acted like a doofus in front of you. And that's not yet even a quarter of the first part.
If I could, then I would've been waiting for you at the clearing. But I can't, because I'm leaving tomorrow morning, as much as I don't want to. I'm desperately hoping that you'll get to read this before I go. I promise that we'll be seeing each other again. There's no date or time yet, but I swear we will. And I hope you're just as eager for that moment as I am. Maybe then I can show you the actual list.
I love you.
-Fang
P.S. Don't worry. I swear I made all of them at least a month ago. Ask Tess =P.
It was the cheesiest note I ever read in my whole life. And probably my past lives. But it was from Fang, and at the moment, that was what pretty much mattered. And to know that he liked me since freshman year and that he really was the one who gave me the rose? Not to mention that he sort of ended his letter the way I made my note. It was very sweet.
But really, was he actually waiting for me that morning? I hung my bag on one of the branches and took out my laptop. While it started up, I took out the first CD. On it were the words "FRESHMAN YEAR". I looked through the other three and saw that each one corresponded to a year in high school.
Okay. Slightly creepy, but it was way better than him watching me sleep or following me on my way home, in the way only a stalker could.
A tiny slip of paper was inside. Overall the first disk had five tracks and each title was a date. They were all dates I knew too well, and if I wasn't mistaken, all of them had something to do with both of us. Like every track had something to do with an event. Maybe like a theme song or something. Still slightly creepy, but not the type that would cause panic.
Once I had inserted the CD and it was recognized, different track titles appeared. The first one was entitled Don't You, the one I assumed was by Darren Criss, which was on the very first day of school.
I had to admit, Fang's voice wasn't the best. Sure he could be a one- man orchestra if he wanted, but his voice was in no way like Bono's. I confessed to laughing a couple of times, but I swore it was not in a very insulting way. He considered the chorus as the most important part, and I could hear the words don't you want the way I feel for you? In my head over and over again.
Okay, that was a point clearly taken.
The next one was entitled Out of My League. I knew this song, since it was one of the many I sung during our lessons. But the date was on the Saturday he offered the aforementioned lessons to me. I'd say he was pretty shock to both see me and find out that I played a little guitar. The song's message was just as clear as the first one, though I still couldn't determine what the out of my league part was really about.
The third track was on the date of our first lesson, with the title Just the Girl. I remembered how I saw him fighting with Dylan over the nerd the guy was bullying. Pretty heroic of him, and it was fun to beat the pulp out of Dylan who had harassed me a few hours before that. I assumed it was what he was talking about with the line she's cold and she's cruel but she knows what she's doing.
I had no idea what the next track was about, actually. It was on the date we had the guitar lesson after I slightly offended Fang by asking about his private life (we were sort of strangers back then) and its title was Last October. The October part was the only thing I pretty much understood.
The last track, which had the title You and Me matched up with the date we performed in front of our music class. The part that really stood out was the chorus: it's you and me, and no other people, and I don't know why I can't take my eyes off of you. It was pretty much how I felt after we sang; it was like it was just the two of us.
Well, that was the end of freshman year. But it was the beginning of the realization that Fang really did like me as much as I like him.
The second CD, marked "SOPHOMORE YEAR", also had five tracks. I thought back to the second year in high school, when I was officially back to square one, and I had just unintentionally landed the female lead in Aladdin. There were the dance and astronomy lessons, and then the after party where he was wet and shirtless. That year was a bit crazy, if you asked me.
The first track, Heels Over Head, was on the day of try- outs for Aladdin. That wasn't exactly the first time he saw me that year. And my audition was nothing special. No standing ovations or even a hint of applause (I'd say that everyone was still shocked that I could sing, even if it was a bit), and even though no one knew yet, it was weird having him play background to his best friend and her future girlfriend whom he (the guy playing the background) likes.
The next one was a song I didn't recognize, What Does It Take. I had to do a bit of thinking for the date, but I was able to recall that it was that one time he told me "he had an irrational fear of beards" (I still refuse to believe it. We haven't had the opportunity to come across someone bearded to verify that. And I forgot to ask Iggy and Tess). Then we quoted a bunch of people, and I remembered that all of it was about love. On the downside, he completely forgot that he gave me his number about a year ago. But still, it was quite a romantic moment if I do say so myself.
But in no way was that one part any sign of redemption, though I'd be mistaken later on.
The One I'm Waiting For. It was familiar, and if I wasn't mistaken, it was sung by Relient K. Dated on the night of our little astronomy lesson. That was way back when I thought that one hug was the farthest I'd come to contact with him. Boy was I totally wrong.
The funny thing is, I'm pretty sure that was the only time we hugged. You could count in the one we shared yesterday, but it was a more of a sad hug. And the lyrics, particularly, I'm still waiting for you to be the one I'm waiting for made me wonder a bit. But it did make sense, since it was still probably one of those times he was still figuring out if I was shallow or something.
The fourth track, Honey and the Bee was supposed to correspond to Aladdin's opening night. To be completely honest, I have no idea what this was about. Maybe it had to do with the part where I was about to do A Whole New World and he was going to kiss me on the cheek but at the last second I unintentionally turned my head and it ended up being on my lips. Maybe I should ask what it meant.
For one thing, it was very stupid of me to not try and call him again when I got to the clearing and saw the tiny heart. But when I dialled his number, no one was still answering it. I put it on alarm every seven minutes so I would remember every time and went back to the last track, Deer In the Headlights, on the same night.
Once again, I had no idea what it was about. But I saw that beside the date in tiny handwriting was the time. It was a rough estimate of the after party. And with the words got the sense I was not her type by the black eye and bloody nose, it gave me the hint that it was about Dylan, when he showed up and tried to harass me again. Not to mention, the night of the wet and shirtless Fang. Even though the pool pushing was a bit over- the- top and cliché for a fighting technique, it was one of those moments I appreciated since it was also proof that he was into me. Also, there was another kiss the day after that, but it was intended for the cheek, and stayed on the cheek.
To summarize the first two years, I'd say Fang was confused. He did, after all, mention that he didn't want to be the kind of guy that liked a girl for her looks. But seeing as he thinks I'm nice and funny and all that, he must be either delusional or a real gentleman.
Please, please, please don't be delusional.
Looking back at Fang's song choice for the past two years, well, they weren't really that bad, though some I didn't understand. But that wasn't the reason I was a bit tempted not to insert the next CD. Junior year was when things got really crazy, and it made sophomore year a bit dull.
This time there were only four tracks. Two of them during the school year, and the other two during the summer.
For the first one, the date was very unforgettable. Hint: it involved the tree at the clearing, the two of us, and a rainy night. The first time he kissed me for real. Not to mention, the first time he also ruined the previous moment by being sorry, and also the first time I ruined it by not saying that I wasn't. The song was Secret Valentine by We The Kings, which I'm pretty sure was also because of some references to the fact that it was the night and dark and all that. And maybe because that it's a couple's song or something like that, too.
The second song was also on another unforgettable night. But then, all of the moments the songs corresponded to were unforgettable, so I could sort of see Fang's point there by choosing those dates, besides the fact that something involving the two of us would happen. This time, it was Six Feet Under the Stars, which somehow reminded me of a wild party. But now it referenced a party, the party where Fang and a dozen other people found out that I am not a good dancer, especially when my drink is spiked. And I'm pretty sure that's when Fang found out that I might like him too, since I kissed him. Maybe the "might" wouldn't have been there if I wasn't intoxicated or anything, but, oh well.
The next one was another unfamiliar, titled Your Melody. It was on the day the four of us went to the beach, and I was already "officially" dubbed as Iggy's "girlfriend". Going back to that part, back then I thought that maybe things were different with Fang now since there wasn't any awkwardness. And the part where we played soccer and Fang fell on top of me with his back facing me was further proof that since I'm with his bestfriend (and everyone knows it's "bros before hoes"), there would be no "action" between us.
Once again, I got that one wrong.
But hey, the first line with the part about the girl with the headphones was somewhat a reference to our road trip. Just remove the next line about the said girl singing to every song.
The last track, was the day after that, when we made a deal not to tell Iggy anything about the kiss. Still, did Iggy already know? Did he secretly see us when we were in the water or did he overhear our conversation? Or did Fang cave in? Besides that, I was also once again confused by the song choice, I Must Be Dreaming. Maybe it was the line and she watches the sun, but she's the only one I've got my eyes on. But I can never be so sure. I should ask him about that, too. And maybe I should add why other moments, like those involved with Cyrano de Bergerac were not included.
Back to the asking part, my alarm had rung twice, but no one still answered.
Senior year, surprisingly, had only three tracks. And all three only matched up with dates within the past month, which was when we made actual contact with each other. At first I was a bit curious on why he didn't add up the stuff that had happened a couple of weeks before school started and he had an accident, because that was playing over and over in my head. But then I also remembered that after that I let him down in a not so gentle way, and I understood why.
The first track was about the talk we had, when I was supposed to tell him that I was in love with him and do something spontaneous. Sadly, neither of the two was done. The song, She, was about words and talking and all that stuff. The thing that made me confused the most were the lines and I couldn't speak, I couldn't breathe to save my life, all of my chances swim like sinking ships, this time it's it I'll drown or make her mine. By confused, I didn't mean in the way that I didn't understood why he chose that song, but by what the song was saying. It sounded like he was supposed to say something, too.
What if we were both planning on telling each other how we felt that time, and it didn't happen for both of us?
What if he was supposed to tell me, but when I was going to tell him, I chickened out and told him I'd see him at school, which he interpreted as a "just friends" thing?
What if he didn't want to tell me once we found out that we'd both be moving?
Somehow, the song was screaming BINGO in my head.
The next one was an easy match. Chasing Cars by Snow Patrol, our last dance at Prom. I had to admit that the song had a little sentimental value to me too, and I may or may have not fallen asleep listening to the said tune on repeat until I knew the lyrics by heart. I wondered if Fang was still mustering up the courage to ask me to dance back then. I mean, if I were in his place, assuming that my theories were correct, I would've probably hidden all night. But he was pretty courageous, with him following me as I watched Dylan and for him to ask me to a dance even if we didn't say much to each other before that. When Prom was over and I was asking him to "sober up" with me, I was mainly thinking if I could get crazy and then blurt it out so it would be all over and we both could possibly be happy together. But no, my mind went into "mysterious mode" and I ended up saying stuff that might've lead him on. Even if I wasn't leading him on.
And that kiss? All of me was hoping that it wasn't going to be our last.
The very last track was just yesterday. But it also had the time, and it was very early, a few minutes after we went our separate ways home. I could also tell by the way the track sounded; it didn't sound as clear as the previous ones, like it was rushed. It was still beautiful, though, a cover of I Won't Give Up by Jason Mraz. Like maybe there was also that tiny ember in him hoping that there would be an "us", like the one I had.
When the song ended, I wanted to repeat the whole thing. But I had priorities and the first one was to call Fang. I once again redialed his number and prayed that he was finally awake.
Ring. Ring. Ring.
Finally, someone picked up.
"Hello?"
But it wasn't Fang.
"Tess?"
"Jeez, Max, do you what time it is?"
"Where's Fang?"
"I don't know. Yesterday he asked me to hold on to his phone, and I guess he forgot to get it."
I remembered how Fang told me to ask Tess about the CDs, as proof that he was no stalker and that all songs were recorded recently. "Hey, Tess, can we meet up at Auntie Marie's? In five minutes?"
"What? Why?"
"It's about Fang."
"I'll be there." She said, and then hung up.
"Well, Max, you look just as fresh as I am." Tess said as she sat down across me.
"Slept in yesterday's clothes?"
"Totally. So, what's it about?"
Without saying anything, I took out the box with the lid facing her so she could read the "For Max".
Her eyes went wide and she grinned. She really did know about this. "You have all three?"
"There are four in it."
She did a little squeal and started explaining. About a month ago, Tess and Iggy uncovered Fang's secret: he liked me. And so they started making plans, around the time Nudge, Ella, and Angel also started plotting. The CDs were one of the many measures they were willing to force Fang to do, but was cut when I found Fang's rose in my locker and thought it was a practical joke. She never even knew that he continued it, and thought that he threw it away.
"You do know that both of you have been like this for four years straight? That both of you liked each other but didn't know it?"
"Yeah. We've been pretty foolish, huh? And how did you know?"
"Well, it's sort of a cool story to tell. And the two of us teamed up a bit with Nudge, Angel and Ella. Especially during Prom."
"Oh. So, do you know where Fang is?"
"I don't, really. But I'm pretty sure he's-"
As if on cue, Fang's phone rang.
"Hello? Yes, it's with me. Really? Okay, I'll return it soon. Bye."
"Was that him?"
She shook her head. "It was his dad. Fang… he left early in the morning. He promised to go along with his cousin to check out where he'd be staying next year, so…"
I nodded. "Cool."
She smiled. "Don't worry. When I get my hands on him I'll force him to call you the next second."
NOTICE: Each song corresponds to a chapter. What happened in the aforementioned chapters was pretty much explained here. The format is song-artist-chapter#
Don't You-Darren Criss-Pretty much the theme song
Out of My League-Stephen Speaks-6
Just the Girl-The Click Five-7
Last October-Green River Ordinance-9
You and Me-Lifehouse-10
Heels Over Head-Boys Like Girls-13
What Does It Take-Dave Days-16
The One I'm Waiting For-Relient K-18
Honey And the Bee-Owl City-19
Deer In the Headlights-Owl City-20
Secret Valentine-We The Kings-23
Six Feet Under the Stars-All Time Low-25
Your Melody-Dave Days-27
I Must Be Dreaming-The Maine-28
She (For Liz)-Parachute-35
Chasing Cars-Snow Patrol-36
I Won't Give Up-Jason Mraz-37
If you feel that any song (or any part of the chapter) should be changed, tell me in your review and I'll see if I can fix it. (Sorry if this chapter was a bit… crazy. I was a bit out of my mind in the past week.)
So, yeah, one last chapter.
How do you think it's going to end?
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