A/n: I only own Ellie; all other characters that you recognize are property of Marvel.

A/n2: So I wasn't going to post this week because this weekend has been crazy busy but, today is Bucky Barnes birthday… I couldn't go without posting on his birthday. So here is Thinking Outloud. Enjoy and again, please read and review so I know what you think! Thank you to the new followers: animexchick, ginaknght, tuckerjnp1, scfibeth96, Damons-Slytherin-Princess, and LadyLily18. When I thought of this story during a car ride to Niagara Falls, I never thought it would be 38 chapters in with more coming and 121 people would be following it. It is also creeping up on 90 reviews, so I thank you all from the bottom of my heart that you are enjoying my take on the MCU. I guess you could call this story part of Earth- 35543.

I'm thinking 'bout how people fall in love in mysterious ways
Maybe it's all part of a plan
I'll just keep on making the same mistakes
Hoping that you'll understand

~ Thinking Outloud by Ed Sheeran

*~*~* May 10th, 2017- Wakanda *~*~*

"I am only really 30, and Bucky is only really 34 but the baby was actually conceived in the 1987" Ellie told him.

"Wait… what?" Tony asked.

"Your Dad and Peggy sent me on a mission to try to infiltrate the Red Room. Bucky was one of their trainers" Ellie told him.

"But he put you back under shortly after that mission" Tony said.

"Because Hydra took Bucky, I was already having memory issues. I thought I dreamt the whole thing up. Your Dad put me back under, at my orders, pregnant" Ellie told him, "Of course I was so early at that time, we wouldn't have known anyways"

T'Challa walked into the living quarters, "Hello everyone"

"You do know that all this" Tony said pointing towards everyone, "Is all breaking the accords right?"

"Tony don't be an asshole" Natasha told him.

"I now understand that the accords were not the way to go. It was a way for one man to have primary control over the people he feared" T'Challa told him shaking his head, "Wakanda has already notified the UN that they would like to be removed. Did you know that 75 of the countries that have signed have since removed themselves as well?"

"Secretary Ross refuses to listen to me. I actually got in with Senator Nadeer but she can't do much" Tony told them.

"Let's have a seat" T'Challa said pointing to the couches.

Everyone walked over to the couches and chairs and sat. Ellie sat on Bucky's lap as he rested his hand on her belly. Natasha sat right at Steve's side.

"I think we need to make a plan" T'Challa told them looking across the room at everyone, "Not that Wakanda does not enjoy having you here but I think we need to make a stand"

"I agree" Tony said nodding, "I think Steve, Wanda, Sam, Bucky… all of them need to go to the UN and just turn themselves in… that way-"

"No" Ellie said looking at him, "They walk to the UN and they get locked up. Not happening"

"What do you think would be better?" Tony asked her, "What do you even know about the Accords? You were frozen at the time"

"Tony!" Pepper scolded.

"She was" Tony said.

"Yes, I actually read them. It states that any enhanced or super-power individuals must surrender their real legal names to the government and lose their secret identities. The government will then monitor said individuals and will facilitate their licensing of products and employment for which they use their said powers for. Each individual has to fulfill some requirements, not stated, or meet some criteria before they are allowed to use their abilities and gain legal authorization to use their abilities to help others" Ellie told him as she pointed to her head, "Photographic memory"

Tony stared at her, "What?"

"Did you even read it?" Pepper asked him.

"Ross said that if it wasn't done, it would be forced on us" Tony said shaking his head.

"Oh my god Tony, you never read it?!" Steve asked dismayed.

"Give me a break. I know it's wrong now but I don't know how to get it changed" Tony defended.

"We need to make a united front. Does Colonel Rhodes understand our views?" T'Challa asked.

Tony rolled his eyes, "Rhodey isn't active anymore anyways"

Steve frowned, "How is Rhodey?"

"I built him an exoskeleton and he is able to walk again. It works well with the War Machine armor but… they wanted him in the Middle East… he didn't agree, so now he is benched by Ross" Tony told him.

"This is what I was saying from the beginning. He didn't meet Ross' agenda so Ross benched him" Steve told him with a sigh.

"But how do we make this united front?" Natasha asked rubbing her hands together.

Tony sighed, "Press conference, telling everyone what the accords really are. How our country and other countries are no longer safer because we are apart. How you all had to go into hiding to avoid being put in a jail in the middle of the ocean without any trial"

"Don't forget about Bucky" Ellie interjected.

Bucky shook his head against her shoulder, "El-"

"No Bucky, you are innocent. I agree with Ellie. All of Clint's brainwashed crimes were forgiven. When Bucky was Bucky, he committed no crimes other than running for his life" Steve said.

"That is going to be a little harder" Tony admitted.

"Technically no, he has immunity but it's the court of public opinion" T'Challa said, "That will be the real issue. If we can win over the general public, we have more hope to sway the officials"

They all sat in silence for a moment.

"I have an idea" Ellie said looking at them, "I go public"

"No" Steve said adamantly.

Ellie looked at Steve, "Why not?"

"No one knows you even exist El" Steve told her.

"Exactly, it goes to illustrate that the government kept secrets. I worked for SSR, Shield and the CIA… but they kept me off the books. I worked for the British Intelligence, but they kept me off the books. The government hid me, by original request by you, then by me because I was a spy. I mean I'll eventually have to go public anyways… I am sure there is some record of me somewhere because I pay taxes and have all that money" Ellie said looking at Pepper.

"Once she takes ownership of the trust, she will have her name out there again" Pepper told them.

"I don't like it" Steve said crossing his arms over his chest.

"Steve, you can't protect me forever. I can do it myself now. Hydra is a small threat and so are others but… I made a lot of enemies on my own back then too. Not that many of them are still alive but still" Ellie told him.

Steve looked at Bucky, "What do you think Buck?"

Bucky sighed playing with her rings, "I don't like it but Ellie is an adult Steve. She isn't the kid we need to watch after anymore"

"Look, we will let Tony do things his way… see how far he gets. Then if that doesn't work, we can go public" Steve told her as he looked at Tony.

Ellie shook her head, "Pepper where are these papers I am supposed to sign?"

"Right over here" Pepper said as she got up and walked over to her bag.

Ellie sat at the dining room table as Steve started telling Tony about what they had been doing in the Middle East.

"Hey Nat, can you come in here?" Pepper asked, "You still have your notary license"

"Sure" Natasha said as she walked over to them.

"Okay Ellie, this is just the transfer of ownership" Pepper told her, "Sign here… initial here… same here… and here…. Then two pages… here…. Initial here. One last one… this is the transfer of ownership from the bank account from me to you"

Ellie signed it all then Natasha went and signed off as the notary.

"Alright, just give me your fingerprint here" Pepper told her holding up a digital pad.

Ellie put her thumb on the spot.

"Okay, the account will be in your name in the next week, if you want to transfer it to another account from there, which is up to you" Pepper told her, "Now is there a bar around here? I want some drinks. Oh sorry Ellie"

"Nope, that sounds fun. I can always get something else. I think there is actually one in town" Ellie told them as she got up and walked over to the couch, "Boys us girls are going out for a bit"

Steve looked at them, "Where?"

"Don't worry your little head Steve, we will be fine" Ellie told him as she leaned down and kissed Bucky then whispered just loud enough in his ear, "At the bar"

Bucky nodded.

"Come on girls" Ellie said.

"So Ellie, what was it like growing up with Steve and Bucky?" Pepper asked.

"Honestly we met when I was 11, Steve was 12 and Bucky was 13. Steve was being picked on again by one of the local bullies on trick or treat night. Well actually, he stole my bag of candy but Steve being Steve tried to defend me. I was already almost taller than he was and Peter Murphy was much taller, so when Peter punched him he was flat on the ground. Then my knight in… normal clothes came to our rescue" Ellie told her.

"Bucky?"

Ellie nodded, "I was dressed as an angel and Bucky told him that he shouldn't take candy from an angel. He helped me up and the rest is history. He pulled Steve out of more fights than I probably even know of. He was always at Steve's side…well actually… until Steve got tall enough, he was always at my side and Steve was trying to catch up" She told them as she took a drink of her tea.

"So you met at 11, when did you fall for him?" Pepper asked.

Ellie bit her lip, "I wasn't a sudden thing… at least for me. For Bucky it was"

"He told me that story you know" Natasha told her sipping her drink.

Ellie looked at her, "Really?"

"That it was your 18th birthday. You wore makeup for the first time and had your hair done, that you knocked him off his feet and he literally got sick" Natasha told her.

"He thought it was food poisoning" Ellie said with a laugh, "Mom knew though. For me it was a slow burn…it wasn't until after my mom died. There were little things throughout the years that made me just adore him but…it really hit me when I came home from college at… 21"

"Alcohol involved?" Pepper asked.

"We didn't have money for that. I barely put together enough money for college even with my scholarship. I sent a lot of money to help her with Steve. You guys don't realize how lucky we are to even have Steve here with us. He should have died… at least 5 times" Ellie told them picking at the label on her water bottle, "If he was around it, he got it… he had so many pills he had to take just to live. We didn't have medicines back then like we do now so it was basically just take it and pray it works. I went to an all girl college and one of my doom mates was into cosmetics and hair. She was one of the first Avon people I think. She taught me how to pin my curls, use powder, rouge and lipstick. We went to the dance halls and they tried setting me up with guys but… I never was interested in them at all. I thought something was wrong with me. I mean we did grow up in Brooklyn. Brooklyn had a huge gay community it's just no one advertised it but I never felt that way about other women. Then I got the telegram from Steve that Mom came down with TB. Ironically that night before I came home to the telegram, the date that my friend Maria had set me up with… I called him Bucky… while kissing him"

Natasha laughed, "Really?"

"Yeah, then I saw the telegram and went home. Mom lived three more weeks. By our side the entire time Mom was in the ward was Bucky" Ellie said with a sad smile, "In fact… we hadn't even dated but Mom gave him her ring to give to me. Mom knew and I didn't. Hell Bucky knew"

"So what do you think the defining moment was?" Pepper asked.

"Actually… it was one of two things that happened the same night. I think the problem for me wasn't that I didn't have feelings for him but I thought there was no way he returned them but I took a shower to rinse off the travel crap off me after coming home and I was used to going to an all girl's school. We just walked around in towels. Well I forgot to take my clothes in the bathroom with me. I came out of the bathroom, in only a towel and ran into Bucky in the hallway"

Natasha laughed so hard she nearly choked on her drink, "Oh my god did he bust a nut right there? He'd liked you for 4 years and suddenly you are wet and nearly naked in front of him"

"Well he grabbed onto me and I nearly lost my towel… all he could do was stare at my chest" Ellie told them with a grin, "His eyes though… made me realize maybe there was something there"

"What else happened, you said that was one of two" Pepper said.

"Bucky and Steve took me dancing. That was a standard date thing in our time. Bucky was an amazing dancer" Ellie said with a fond smile.

"What about Steve?" Natasha asked.

Ellie laughed, "Steve dance? Never. He was a wallflower. I think I saw him dance once… in fact that night, because he was drunk and a woman asked him to make her date jealous"

"Steve wasn't a dancer?" Natasha asked surprised.

"Steve is a bit romantic. He and Peggy were supposed to go on their first date by themselves but he put the plane down and they never were able to. He always said he was waiting on the right partner" Ellie told her, "So I don't think he's danced with anyone before. But that night we were dancing and Bucky asked me to dance a slow song this time. It was one of my favorites by the Tommy Dorsey Orchestra… their lead singer became really popular, Frank Sinatra. Bucky pulled me close and sang "This Love of Mine" to me as we danced. So I threw caution to the wind and kissed him"

"You made the first move?" Pepper asked amazed.

Ellie nodded, "I couldn't believe he was even kissing me back. Then I freaked out and ran away. He pulled Steve out of a fight with the boyfriend of the girl he had been dancing with. From there we realized we were both idiots. But from that point on, Pearl Harbor happened the next December, and they didn't know it but I was involved with the SSR. Bucky called me right before Christmas to say that Steve wanted to enlist. I was in Alabama, I think, at the time so I hopped on a train and headed back home early. I knew with his asthma and high blood pressure that they wouldn't actually enlist him but… there was a chance"

"What all did Steve have? He told me he had a ton of health issues" Natasha said.

"Well… asthma, high blood pressure, sugar sensitive, heart troubles, color blindness, deaf in his left ear, he had scarlet fever and rheumatic fever, pneumonia more times than I could count. Mom always showered at Bucky's house before coming home because she worked in the TB ward, we were always afraid he'd get that" Ellie told her, "It took me two days to get back home but he had already tried and got his first 4F. I think he tried 5 times total. Bucky got his draft letter right after Christmas though"

"Wait Bucky was drafted?" Pepper asked.

Ellie nodded, "Steve hated it. Bucky didn't want to go and he did. They realized that day… there was a little more to my job than I let on though. Steve wanted Bucky to train us. Bucky was the boxing champion of our school. I couldn't help it, I told him not to pull his punches and I put his ass on the floor. By that time, I was a black belt. Bucky took me out on a date that night, which Steve helped him come up with. We went to a movie then dancing. He proposed to me that night"

"Steve really is a romantic isn't he?" Pepper said rosy cheeked resting her cheek on her hand.

"I wish Steve could find someone who loved him for him… not as Captain America you know because they are really two different people. Captain America is an act. Something he had to be to survive. Steve is the kind hearted, wears his heart on his sleeve guy that would do anything for anyone" Ellie said glancing at Natasha.

"How long were you engaged for?" Pepper asked.

"We got married the next May, in fact our 74th anniversary is coming up on the 25th" Ellie told them with a smile, "From there, Bucky was shipped off in June, the night before Bucky shipped off, Steve tried to enlist and Erskine was the doctor, but I didn't know it. He liked Steve and wanted him for Project Rebirth. I was sent to Wisconsin by Colonel Phillips to try to find the candidate for Project Rebirth there. By the end of June, Steve was already Captain America. Bucky was captured in September, Steve rescued him in November and we were all back together in Italy"

"Wait you were in Italy?" Pepper asked, "I can't believe they kept you a secret that well"

Ellie nodded, "SSR was re-tasked after Steve became Captain America. While he was out performing, we were trying to find the Hydra bases. Of course I was pretty out of it from September until November. I was hit by one of Hydra's weapons and it almost killed me but Bucky and Steve didn't know about it. All three of us… well seven of us if you count me, Peggy and the Commandoes… we worked together to bring down Hydra for the next year and a half. Bucky was… gone by May 1st, I went back home after Steve told me and Steve was gone a week later. Then I lost the baby almost a week after that. Worst two weeks of my life" Ellie said with a sigh as she took a drink.

"So when did you get your powers?" Pepper asked.

Ellie shook her head, "I…lost it. After I lost all my boys, I had Peggy train me and I started working for MI5 through England. In 49, Howard and Reinstein made a discovery about the super serum and I had powers by September. I was awake for three days into 1950 before I was put into Cryo for the first time" Ellie told them, "I kinda blew up the New Years Ball and hurt people so I told Howard he had to do something. It was only supposed to be for a couple years. Ended up being for 37 years"

"And that's when you lived with Tony and Howard right?" Pepper asked.

Ellie nodded, "Tony was such an annoying little kid" She told her with a small smile.

"He's still an annoying adult, let's be honest" Natasha told them as they all laughed.

"You weren't awake very long right?" Pepper asked.

"No, they woke me up in March and I ran into Bucky in August. I was back under in September. Then I just woke up again" Ellie told them, "But it worked out in the end… we are all back together and having a baby. After I lost the first one… I never thought I would be happy again. Now I am. Enough about me, what about you Natasha"

"Nothing really to tell… I was given to an orphanage by my mom when I was young. Trained in the Red Room, that is where Bucky trained me, they brainwashed me and I did missions for them until Clint was sent to… terminate me and decided to take me under his wing instead. Then I got in with Shield and we met" Natasha said to Pepper, "Then the whole Avengers thing happened and yeah, that's my life now"

"Why did you decide to stick with the Avengers? You were fine just doing it on your own for the longest time" Pepper wondered.

"Actually… Steve" Natasha admitted.

"Steve?" Ellie asked surprised.

"When he came out of the ice… the poor guy was so lost. He literally told me that being Captain America was a blessing and a curse. He had nothing left. No one left" Natasha told them, "I tried doing my own thing but I ended in DC with Steve on the Strike team. It's been just us since then"

"Why didn't you side with Steve on the Accords?" Pepper asked, "After I found out what happened, I couldn't believe you went with Tony"

"Because I thought it would keep us all together by signing it… but then he didn't sign. I had to help him. Steve doesn't do anything for himself and for him to stick by Bucky… I knew there had to be a reason behind it because I believe in Steve" Natasha said looking at her.

Pepper looked at her, "Why were you and Bruce even together? Why not you and Steve?"

Natasha looked at her wide-eyed, "I…I honestly don't know"

A/n3: So after seeing Captain Marvel (which was amazing), Carol's story will not affect this story at all. But OMG the end credit scene… is it time for Endgame yet? Go see it if you have not yet. Side note, Sebastian's new movie I'm Not Here was good as well. Sebastian was amazing in it. Not enough of him though but I'm bias. Now onto the reviews:

Guest: Shuri is the little sister of a superhero… I thought Ellie would be close to her because of that level of commonality. They understand what it is like for each other to love someone who risks their life for others.

Crystal-Wold-Guardian-967: Thanks for the review!

MommaWolf18: I could see Bucky being way protective of a daughter as well but you'll have to wait and see!

Tuckerjnp1: Thank you for the review. I am glad that you are enjoying it so far. Steve is so serious but I want to show his less serious side and Ellie and Bucky are in my head what keeps Steve grounded and real. So I am glad that translates out to you readers. Thank you for reviewing!

Here is next week's preview:

"He probably doesn't even remember but today is mine and Bucky's anniversary. I wasn't expecting balloons or anything over the top but… it would have been nice to wake up next to him" Ellie said sadly trying not cry thanks to her hormones.

"Give him a break; he is a 100 year old brainwashed ex-assassin. He can forget a thing or two" Sam said pouring the batter onto the skillet.