March 22

Bellbs123: Haven't talked in forever, yet again. Not sure if that is/was your intention or not. However, I am still here if you want to talk. Ok?

Edboy92: What? I've been waiting for you to reply to my email I sent like a week ago and I got a job. I got a call today and was told I was hired and I start April 2nd. I'm so excited about it.

Bellbs123: Good for you! I'm happy for you. I wrote you a HEY a while ago and never got a reply. I figured you were ignoring me for whatever reason.

So what else is going on in your world?

Edboy92: Thanks and I never got it and if you want I can call you on my dad's phone for a little while but I don't have your number anymore. :(

Bellbs123: ok, my number is…

Edboy92: I'm about to call, give me a sec.

We talk for a bit, I cried a little bit too, full of emotions and he told me he missed talking to me on the phone, it was nice I have to agree, to have someone ( a guy) wanting to talk to me, FOR ME. No sexual favors, not be used, just because.

He apologized again about not talking to me for soo long that he was in a dark place back then. (I guess I get that somewhat, some people like to deal with things on their own than with others.

I asked what was to stop him from doing that again, closing himself off and I told him he could always talk to someone if he was feeling down and get the support he needs/needed.

He says he has changed. He has faith now, he didn't back then.

I would say this is complete bullshit normally, but he did sound a lot better than when we last talked back in November. He almost sounded like his old self again.

I told him he probably didn't want to hear about Emmett but he said that it was fine and he didn't want to sound like a dick for not hearing what I wanted/was going to say about Emmett. (Because basically I did my own personal man bashing saying how guys only want pussy and they suck. I'm sure he loved me dissing his kind. lol)

I told him about Emmett. I probably shouldn't have, I don't know what goes against the girl code to tell a somewhat ex about a new guy. I told him that me and Emmett sext and do/did phone sex before, which is further than Edward and I have ever gone. He seemed fine with it on the phone, which I thought was kind of strange and made me think hmm, has he moved on?

Then he asked if I wanted to text for a while and called me sweetie.

Later when we were texting he asked more about the Emmett situation and said he was jealous of him. (It made me feel good to see he did have feelings after all.)

Bellbs123: Is it wrong to say I'm glad you're jealous?

Edboy92: No, I guess not.

Bellbs123: You shouldn't be. Emmett and I don't have anything close to what you and I once had. You will always have a special place in my heart.

Edboy92: He has you.

Bellbs123: No one has me, we just sext each other that's it; it's just me and my cat. Lol

Edboy92: He has more than I do, we aren't sexting are we or emailing each other dirty pics or having phone sex.

Bellbs123: There are no dirty pics involved. I don't even know where Emmett and I stand at the moment. He is sometimes nice and other times a jerk.

Edboy92: That's because he just wants his sexual release and that's it probably. I mean it could be true but what do I know right?

Bellbs123: Emmett calls me disrespectful names and gets pissy when we can't sext each other/ do phone sex and the guy has a huge ego.

Edboy92: See, I told you. Just leave him alone or something .He is a dick, but let me go. I gotta get up early. Good night, I love you.

Bellbs123: You are the only one that ever made me smile, if that means anything. (I was being honest maybe to honest but that's just me.)

Edboy92: It means the world baby.

I haven't gotten off since we last sext together. (Roll eyes.) (I 'm not so sure I believe that. Considering it's been 3 months and people have needs.)

Bellbs123: Oh why?

Edboy92: you're the only person and reason I could cum. (it was sweet and awkward to say the least.)

Bellbs123: I'm sure you could get yourself off just fine without my input maybe you just feel guilty or maybe Moby did. (Moby is a name I gave his dick back when we used to talk. Edward claims he is big and I thought the biggest dick belongs to a whale and thought of the story Moby Dick. He liked the name for his body part and it stuck. So we started calling his…Moby.)

Edboy92: Maybe, well Ima go now. I'm getting pretty sleepy, night.

About fifteen mins later he sends me a pic of his dick.

Edboy92: This is Moby, say hi.

I'm thinking to myself really? Really? We were having a normal, sweet conversation and you send me a pic of your dick? (I was confused to say the least and turned off.)

He wanted to know what I thought of his dick. (Boys.) (Roll eyes) Maybe because he felt threaten of Emmett?)

Bellbs123: why would you send me that and what am I to you?

Edboy92: Ok, well what did you think, can you at least tell me that?

Bellbs123: umm you're big and obviously aroused in that pic and I'm wondering how many people you sent that pic to and what you think of me to send me that pic? I mean, do you think I'm easy or something? why would you send me that? What were your intentions Edward ?

Edboy92: I only sent it to you and just wanted to.

Bellbs123: Well, I rather see your face than Moby.

I thought maybe I hurt his feelings considering how attach guys are to their dick emotional (which I may never understand.)

Bellbs123: I don't want you to think there is something wrong with Moby. He looks fine. It's just not my thing. You know?

Edboy92: I understand but you see why he is name's Moby now right? (In case you're wondering I named his dick Moby after the story Moby Dick because it was a story about a huge whale and whales supposedly have the biggest dick, one species does anyway. Edward was supposedly big or so he said. So the name stuck.)

Bellbs123: Ha-ha, yes. He seems happy. Lol. (I had no clue what to say, lol.)

Bellbs123: So, do you think less of me now Edward, Knowing I have had sex talks with another guy? (I just wanted his thoughts.)

Edboy92: Nope I still love u the same baby and lol yea he does huh? (Meaning his dick looks happy.) Does that pic arouse u at all?

Bellbs123: Honestly no. Sweet words arouse me. A guy telling me he wants me, calling me sweet names of affection, asking things about me, wanting to get to know me, not for sex reasons but just because makes me feel special and loved and wanted and that's one of the most happiest, arousing, experiences a girl can ask for. It's all about the words and the reason behind them and the effort that person makes to show they are true. (Maybe he will learn something, lol.)

Edboy92: True, true. So if a guy is like that and this is totally hypothetical has a 2 or 3inch penis you wouldn't mind and you would make love to him honestly and this is hypothetical. (Hmm, now I'm wondering if it is.)

Bellbs123: Yeah, if I loved him and was comfortable around him and things were good with us, then yes. Size means nothing to me. It's all about his heart. How much he cares and the effort in showing it.

Bellbs123: Great answer, well it's late. Goodnight, love you.

Bellbs123: Goodnight.

Note: Tell me, tell me, tell me, what are your thoughts people? Surely someone has opinion/thoughts on this chapter. Love to hear what you think.