"So what is it?" She asked bouncing up on the bed by me.
"Just a movie," I muttered. She finally starts getting curious about something and I don't wanna share, wasn't the world just that fucking awesome...
"What kind?" she scooched closer and I eyed her. She just tilted her head as in 'just answer me'.
"Dunno." I grinned at her, "But would love for you to watch with me." Hell, there was at least a possiblity it could change her attitude.
She grinned, "No, you wouldn't." She tilted her head up, sniffing the air in a way I wouldn't miss. "Seems like your trying to hide something, and perhaps your a little nervous."
I shrugged. Fuck, she was just like me and if the look on her face was any indication she was enjoying the fuck out of my current state. Hell, wasn't that the plan though letting her watch it with me? Who the hell actually watched this shit anyway? Hell, I'd rather have the real thing any day...
I threw my arm around her, pulling her up into my side. "Stick it in and we'll watch together then." She held the handheld television in her lap and we settle back to watch together. Damn, if it wasn't flat out porn. There was nothing leading up to it, no half ass plot, nothing.
She and I both stiffened, but I don't think either of us could move from shock. She from the shock of what it actually was, me from the shock of two naked women actually going to town with each other. They kissed, and fondled each other. What the hell did Logan think I needed this for? I was a fucking man! I had more equipment than these frails, wasn't like this would teach me anything. My anger started rising and she didn't help. She was stiff, her eyes everywhere, but me or the screen. Her scent was pure humiliation.
"I take it, you didn't know thats what this was?" she whispered. I growled, but then the scene caught my eye.
The woman actually flipped around and after a close up I discovered them both giving each other oral stimulation. Well, hell, I'd never actually seen or done that. " 'S that something you might like?" I asked. I was serious, they seemed to be enjoying it.
She tried to move, but I held her to me as I watched. Then it switched scenes to a man and woman and my attention lapsed. I took it from her lap and turned it off. So they kissed, and touched pretty much everywhere... Couldn't be that damn hard?
"Victor, I'd like to get up now." she stated quietly. I shut my eyes, my thoughts were pretty much scrambled, but I wouldn't force her. She smelled of fear, embarassment, and there was a hint of arousal that I might be able to work with.
"Answer me and I'll let you up." I demanded, caressing her cheek with my free hand. I was careful of my claws remembering Logan had said she wouldn't appreciate the blood.
"I don't know." she growled. She lashed out catching my arm with her claws and I loosened with surprise. "Are you happy now?" she practically screamed before running from the room. Well, she had no aversions to bleeding me I thought looking at the healing wound.
I chuckled quietly to myself, like when was I ever happy. I watched the sun go down from her bed waiting for her to get over her snit and come back. I turned her words over and over in my head. 'Are you happy now?' When had I ever been happy? I mean I got my rocks off on several things, but happiness wasn't a state of mind that I really had ever experienced.
Hell, until I met her I only knew anger, pain, and satisfaction in the moments life gave me. Since I'd met her, I sure as hell didn't want to put labels to everything I had felt. Hell, I wasn't stupid, I didn't mind her as a kid, even knew how to handle that. Wasn't like I could deal with it full time or anything, but I had dealt with her pretty good from my perspective. Why couldn't I just be like that now?
I growled and came up on the side of the bed rubbing my face in my hands. The answer was obvious I was a fucking animal and I'd had her raised to be something more. I'd wanted her to be something more and I'd gotten it. Yeah, be careful what you wished for.
"Mr. Creed?" Xavier's voice startled me. I looked over at him sitting at the door and growled.
"What?" I managed to growl out, angry at myself for letting my guard down enough he could sneak up.
"I wanted to make sure you knew she'd left the grounds." he cocked a brow at me. It wasn't hard to mistake his message, she'd probably gone hunting. Hell, the mood she'd been in I didn't doubt it. I'd love to have gone too.
"I'll go get her." I muttered, getting up to retrieve some boots. I figured she'd provied a real hunt, might as well not mess my good shoes up.
"Would you rather I have someone else go?" he asked. He looked away, "From the way she dashed out, I assumed something happened."
I gruffly informed him, "Nothing I can't handle."
"Perhaps, this needs a softer hand than your used too."
Still growling I made my way over to stand in front of him, I bent looking him eye to eye. "Everyone keeps saying that," I paused. "She wanted me, now she's got me." I moved away to tie my hair back and get my keys. "Wasn't like I ever lied to her about what I am."
He nodded, "Perhaps, she's not sure what she is." I looked at him, I mean really looked. He'd lived with her all these years, probably studied her, and he wasn't a complete moron. "I hate to keep reminding you, but she lost something when she lost Kally. Maybe she's not sure of herself anymore."
I shrugged, but his words rang in my ears. It had been so long ago when I'd accepted my beast, so long ago that Logan had tamed his that I couldn't remember much of it. Was that what was going on? Was she trying to pick sides rather than learning to live with both? "I hadn't really considered that." I admitted.
He looked away, moving down the hall to the front foyer. "If there is anything I can do, do not hesitate to let me know." He stopped at the doors, finally looking at me again. "Perhaps you can find out what kind of future she wants, what her plans are. It's something I've never pushed her with, knowing what was to come and all, but it would give you something to talk to her about. Let her know she's welcome here as long as she wants, but that there are other options out there." He sighed, "Let her know that even if she doesn't feel it, there are many people here that care for her."
I shrugged, I wasn't much for this kind of shit. Even if he was trying to help, I had other things on my mind. "That all? I gotta go find her." He nodded, his eyes almost saddened as I walked away. He knew what she was, even if he hadn't probed her mind. She was like me. I just couldn't let her get to where I was. Just because I was unreachable, unforgiving, and unrepentable didn't mean she had to be. She still had a chance. She still had a chance to escape the nightmares, the chance to live somewhat normal. She still had a chance at living.