Homeward Bound
I Was Born To Be Somebody
Demi's p o v
Day after day I sat and talked to her prayed she would wake up If it was up to me I would never leave but it wasn't of course when is my life ever my own?
Mom was on the war path scared that I was going to be sacred for life..gee imagine that? Being in a Fatal Car accident that claimed the life of one best friend left my other in critical condition and left 10 other dead, 16 others injured oh and millions of heartbroken fans..yea no worries mom I was fine. She refused to let me stay night after night the way I had for the first 6 weeks she made me go home to my empty house. Which she thought would be good for me you know have some Independence she had no idea that Selena and I had been planning to sell her house so she could move in with me..she had no idea how many times we stayed up planning and talking ..she had no way of knowing that every time I stepped inside I was hit in the face but one flashback or another. Tears poured down my face as I went room to room each lined with pictures of us from award shows to school photo's to set shoots..to just us in our pj's acting goofy. Mom was determined that I come out of this and still have a career. What she didn't realize was that I just didn't care anymore. All I wanted was impossible I wanted to change back time and pay attention instead of texting Tiffany . I should have been paying attention to Lena she wasn't the most experienced driver she only had her license for a few months, she was careful but nervous at best plus she was fighting with Miles..why did I let her take the keys even though she begged me pleading saying she just needed to let off steam. Why did I give in?
Laying down on my bed I closed my eyes clutching a picture of her and I at the Kids Pick Awards KPA's as we call them. She was grinning ear to ear her arm over my shoulders as we held up our statues she had won best actress in TV Comedy. I had won for best breakout star..it was 2 years ago...we were so happy so proud. Her arm was held up high her eyes shining bright, my head was close to her shoulder. Tears fell as I thought back to how young we were how many dreams we had..I remember Nick watching her as he escorted miles to a interview how Lena had looked at him longingly..he winked at her. She had turned to me whispering that she was going to make Nick her future husband..she was so close to that dream..so close...
Mom wanted me to go back to work my dad tried to tell her I wasn't ready..Disney wanted to make me a poster child for kids everywhere to over come adversity. I wanted to crawl in a hole and never come out. Everyone kept telling me how sorry they were I was so sick of hearing that damn word..sorry didn't bring back Miley or Wake Lena up did it?
I went back to the set I dealt with the the interviews camera's shoved in my face personal questions asked over and over.. I couldn't take it I always hated this part of the spotlight Selena was always the strong one...at 18 they push you to work longer hours from 5 in the morning till 10 at night I use to dread it thinking I would never get any sleep now I dreaded going home to the nightmares...after work I went by to see Lena till visiting hours ended at 12pm then I went to the clubs. That's where I met Ana she helped me in so many ways..I didn't even know I needed Ana till I was dependent on her she was tall and slender she always looked perfect she was a regular at The Roxy everyone knew her so I started hanging with her..she was sweet and she didn't judge me she didn't care who I was...we had plenty to laugh about..I had my first drink with her she promised it would take the edge off..she was right..Soon I was drinking every night..4 or 6 , 10...20 we would get so stinking drunk we would just laugh our butts off, then we would dance so hard and so fast we would be drowning in sweat..when I was done I would sneak into the hospital and see Lena it hurt to see her like that..I started drinking more and more as the guilt ate at me. I was alive I was healthy ..Selena was trapped fighting to get out...Miley she was trapped in death...
Ana gave me another way out..she showed me how she dealt with pain. Her name was sliver and she slide across my wrist nicely.
I wasn't proud of who I was becoming but how else did anyone expect me to deal? Disney held me to this higher power the fans all looked up to me my cast mates depended on me..
" Lena what should I do?
I need you baby..please wake up
I know I should keep going
For you for miles for our fans
I know this is what I use to love
But now I just feel so empty...
You Shouldn't Dems
This is what you were born to do
Your a natural babe don't let the haters scare you
[Me]-Lena? Oh my god Lena your...
I looked up expecting to see her eyes open and to hear my best friends voice...instead I was met with her eyes shut and only the hiss of the bi-pass machine. I felt the tears slide down damn it I was just imagining her saying it...
Wiping the tears away I stood up squeezing her hands...
I meant it Demi it's your dreams
It's reality it's what we were born to be
Were all born to be somebody
Some of us are just meant for Greatness
You one of them..
I spun..
[me]-Justin!
My blood boiled he stood there with that cocky grin eyes shining...as he shrugged...he couldn't be stupid enough to show up here could he?