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Edge made his way downstairs and everyone was still in the pool room. Kane was working on the grill cooking up some steaks, Taker was near by enjoying a beer while John & Christian was relaxing on a couple lounge chairs where there was still sun.

"You gonna become a lobster." Edge called over heading over to join them.
"No I was inside for a bit…had to talk to Taker bout something." Christian told him.
"Oh...ok."

Christian looked towards his raising an eye brow. "What's up bro?" Edge just shook his head. "Private time didn't go well?" John looked puzzled but then remembered the brothers seem to sometime communicate without saying everything or sometimes nothing at all.

"You should of let me finish last night." Edge sighed. "Know what…never mind…" He turned heading back inside. Christian quickly excused himself chasing as Edge. He caught up with him in the living room.

"What is it? I don't tell me it was nothing. You & Randy were gone a few hours so something happened."
"Yeah it did…but I didn't think everything through."
"What you mean?"

Edge turned to face him. "He took to the role too well. He needed to give up control as much as I needed to take it…but…but well…he really turned everything over to me."
"Um…ok…"
"You don't get what I am saying do you?"
"So he let go & allowed you to take the reins…how was it?" Christian asked a faint smirk the thought of the cocky Orton being put into place.

Edge gave a growl of frustration running his hand through his hair almost pulling at the long locks. "FUCKING PAY ATTENTION!" Edge closed his eyes lowering his head to try to calm himself. "He…turned…EVERYTHING over to me…" Edge took a deep breath. "Without a thought he started referring to me as Master."

"You did warn him…"
"Of course…but you still are not getting the point…" He opened his eyes looking at Christian. "He flat out said he was mine…He wanted me to have him mind body & soul…"
"Shit."
Edge lowered his head. "And I did too…"
"What?"
"I took everything he offered me…even after we were done I asked if he meant it…he said yes. I got so wrapped in the feeling of fully control…fully owning him…that he was mine…I...I kissed him."

Edge closed his eyes shaking his head. "It wasn't anything long or rough…it was brief, soft….I was so swept in the fact he trusted me so completely that I let me guard down."

"Well if it felt the right thing what is the big deal?"
Edge growled in frustration flexing his hands slowly open & close. He eyes still closed "Love was not suppose to factor into it…at least not the type of love I know he is feeling."
"Just him or both of you?" Christian quietly asked.
"Honestly…I don't know what I feel right now. It pained me to see him hurt. I don't know if I can really give him what he wants & deserves."

"Well bro you introduced him into our family…you better figure it out."
Edge opened his eyes looking at Christian. "You don't think I already know that…shit would have been easier if you had just left me alone or helped me suppresses those god damned feelings."
"Saying you didn't enjoy it?"
"That's besides the point!"
"NO the is EXACTLY the point!" Christian's eyes narrowed looking at Edge.

"You liked it, you craved it…you feed it & deep down you want more! You loved the feeling of having someone's body & mind as your disposal…controlling them, manipulating them to feed your carnal needs & wants. You just have one problem."
"Just one?"

Christian smirks. "Well in this case…you went into it planning to be almost like how Taker used to be…or Kane when we were first given to him. Cold, controlling, selfish, used us for what they wanted or needed only to toss us aside till they wanted us again. You have too much of heart for that…even if you did not love Randy as you do me or Kane…you can not deny the fact a love is there…something more then the love you have for John or Taker, but still different from Kane & me. You may of wanted it to be just sexual…you may of wanted it to be just an experiment to see if you had a dominate bone on your body. Deep down you love him…only you can say what kind, how strong & if it is the kind he wants, needs & deserves."

"I care about & for him…I don't even know if I would call it a love."
"What if he walked out of your life tomorrow?"
Edge closed his eyes thinking a moment. He finally sighs. "I guess I would need to deal." He opens his eyes looking at Christian. "It would not be as it you or Kane left me. A part of me felt empty when you left…shit come on it took six months for us to work a time for us to be together. What will it be Christmas before I see you again?"
"Who knows…but we did it though."
"I hate it though…I need you as does Kane."

"HOLD ON! When this shit turn into being about me…we are talking about you & Randy. Don't try to change the fucking subject."
"I wasn't really, honestly if Randy no longer wanted to be with me…yeah it would hurt…but I would deal."
They heard Kane calling about food. Christian looked at Edge shaking his head. "You don't see your own eyes bro…keep lying to yourself & maybe in time you will buy it." Christian turned heading back to the pool room where food was placed on a counter for people to help themselves.

Edge stood there before turning to head back up stairs. He saw the bathroom door open so he headed down to Randy's room knocking. He waited a moment before knocking again.
"Come in."

Edge opened the door walking in seeing Randy on the edge of the bed his back to the door & his head lowered "Foods ready."
"I don't know if I have much of an appetite."
Edge walked around the bed to face him. "You shutting me out Randy?"
"I do-don't know…I feel a fool…I know you can't return the same feelings I want to give you."
"I'm sorry…"
"Yeah…well that's the life of someone that falls for a taken guy I guess."

Edge stand offer a hand to Randy. "Stand up please…let me look at you." Randy doesn't take his hand but still stand slowly moving his eyes to meet Edge's "I won't lie…I don't feel the same way I do about Kane & Christian…that doesn't mean I don't feel something Randy. I just can't place it into words right now."

Edge reached over lightly brushing Randy's cheek. "You gave me something no one else ever has…something I never wished from anyone else. When you thought you were delusional…" Edge gave a faint smile. Sliding his hand slowly behind Randy's neck & the base of his skull. "Is this what you thought was a dream?" He leans in softly kissing Randy. He then pulls back seeing Randy blink a couple times then nod.

"It wasn't a dream then…you gave your whole being to me…it was the only way I felt to thank you for that." Edge then kissed his cheek before letting go of Randy stepping back. "We will work this out some how. Now lets go get some grub ok?"

Randy lightly nodded. "OK…sorry I tried to complicate things."
"Forget it for now." Edge turned walking from the room Randy followed after him wondering if her really could forget it as easily as Edge hoped.