2 WEEKS OLD

FRIDAY FEBRUARY 23 2024

12:08 Pm

The first two weeks home with the twins have been pretty rough. I'm basically sleep deprive because if one isn't crying the other is, or they are both crying. It just seems like the crying never stops and it is driving me crazy.

"Teddy, Hun, Let's get out of the house today. You haven't been out of the house since we brought the babies home."

"Spencer… I'm just not in the mood to leave the house." I said as I held both sleeping babies on the couch.

"Teddy, it's not healthy staying cooped up in the house." He said sitting next to grabbing my hand. "It's a gorgeous day for my beautiful wife."

"Spencer please, I don't want to go anywhere or have anyone see me."

Spencer picked his sleeping daughter up out of my arms. "Well don't you think it would be great if the babies got out of the house for once?"

"If you want to take them, go ahead, but I just want to stay home."

"Teddy is something wrong Hun?" Spencer asked getting worried. "You've just haven't been in a great mood lately."

"What do you think Spencer? It's just too much, I can't handle it."

"Handle what Hun?"

"This... being a mom to four, having two newborns, getting no sleep, all of this." I looked down at the babies. "Don't get me wrong, I love them it's just too much for me to handle."

"Is there anything I can do to make you feel any better Teddy? I just hate seeing you like this."

I didn't answer him. What I really need is just a break from everything… from life. I want to have no responsibilities, or at least very little.

"Teddy… please talk to me Baby, tell me what is on your mind."

"Fine you want to know? I don't want this life, I just want to take a break from everything and have no responsibilities, or very little at the very least. I'm just too over whelmed and can't handle this." I said starting to cry.

"I know you don't mean this Hun. You are just tired just like I am."

"Spencer I probably am but what you don't understand is that I do mean it. I absolutely hate my life ever since Heather was a baby. My life wasn't supposed to end up like this."

"Maybe it wasn't but I know you don't mean it when you say you hate it. You are just… You are just over whelmed with everything Hun." Spencer said hugging me and trying to comfort me. "I feel the same way as you do, overwhelmed, sleep deprived, and more. I'm just not showing it because I have to be strong for the kids and you and hold this family together."

I looked up at him when he said that. "I never knew you felt like that Spence."

"Well our children don't need two parents acting all stressed and stuff… they shouldn't even have one parent acting like that."

Landon and Ariella started to make cute little noises waking up from their nap. I saw Landon open his big brown eyes and I smiled down at him and gave him a kiss. "You're right Spencer. The kids don't need this and certainly not the babies so I'll just try to pull myself together for the sake of them…"

Spencer smiled and gave me a kiss. "So how about we get you and the twins out of the house today? The day is still young and gorgeous just like you certainly are."

I nodded handing Spencer his son and walked up to our room to get dressed.

After thirty minutes of getting ready, Spencer, the twins, and I left and went to a park and walked around.

"See Teddy, aren't you happy you got out of the house?" Spencer asked wrapping his arm around me as we sat on a park bench.

I laid my head on his shoulder. "I don't know… I guess."

"Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. Waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa." Ariella went screaming.

I sighed and picked her up out of her car seat. "Aw, why are you crying Ella?" I put a binky in her mouth and rocked her. She grabbed a hold of my finger staring up at the sky, seeing birds flying around looking so amazed.

Spencer smiled at us. "It looks like our daughter is happy she got out, well both our kids."

I smiled up at Spencer and he snuck a kiss and smirked at me.

"We should go Spencer; it's time to pick up Luke." I said as I placed my daughter back in her car set carrier.

He nodded and we walked back to our car holding hands while carrying the twins in their car seat carrier.

I APOLOGIZE FOR SUCH A SHORT CHAPTER AND... I DON'T KNOW WHAT ELSE TO SAY BUT REVIEW?

OH AND THE GUEST REVIEWER WHO REVIEWED TODAY WHO SAID CHAPTER NINE DIDN'T MAKE SENSE… DID YOU READ THE TWO CHAPTERS BEFORE THAT? LIKE I DON'T KNOW HOW IT DOESN'T MAKE SENSE IF YOU DID… LIKE TEDDY SHOULDN'T HAVE FORGIVEN HIM OR HE SHOULDN'T HAVE CHEATED? EITHER WAY I THOUGHT IT MADE SENSE SO…. UNLESS YOU MEANT CHAPTER 29 SINCE YOU REVIEWED FOR THAT CHAPTER WHICH WAS A DREAM... I JUST GUESS YOU DIDN'T REALIZE IT OR SOMETHING...