-1Disclaimer: I do not own Beyblade. Wednesday and Michelle and the plot.
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Not to Fade Away
Chapter 38: Max, V
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5/17
2:21pm
Weight: 94lbs
Finished my first exam. I do not know if I did well, but I hope so. According to the doctor, I am gaining weight, "okayish". Hello! I have gained 6lbs in a week. Isn't that good enough? Well, the English exam went… okay. I finished early and then I kind of zoned out. Hils took me to McDonalds, which was hard but I did eat a salad. The doctor wants me to put on 9lbs by the time my next check-up comes up which is in three days. I don't know if I can put on three more pounds…
5/18
5:20am
Weight: 94lbs
Two exams today. Biology and Studies of the environment. ARGH! I am so nervous that I woke up twenty minutes ago. I am going to freak in a second.
9:31pm
Over and done with my exams and my psych therapist session. Ugh, I hate it so bad. Let's just talk about our feelings why don't we? Well, I don't want to. I don't want to be fat and I want my father back. Who isn't home, yet again. Usually I would call Wednesday, but now… we don't even talk anymore. I saw her today. Wearing the sliver heals I gave to her for Christmas. She was with Michelle. I barely talk to any of those people now. Kai and Tala are always with the girls. Ray still gives me dirty looks. Like this morning when I was walking towards the biology exam room, he gave me one, so I gave him the finger.
I hardly have any friends anymore because I broke it off with Wednesday. I guess… I don't even know why I did that. I was in hospital, mad at my father, the entire world and I and I just took it out on Wednesday. Which is bad. I see her, alone in the hall and she looks away, like I'm going to bite her head off. Now we have our exams, which are almost identical, so I am like going to see her every day.
Argh, fuck it. I am calling her.
5/19
5:08pm
Maths and French are over. Wednesday and I….
Well, we talked. A lot. About this year that is almost over. How she moved here, became a part of our group, Ray and Michelle, Michelle, Tala and Mariah, Kai and Hilary, Ray being an asshole to everyone, Christmas, Hilary running away, my problem, Kai and Hilary breaking up… everything which was good. Then, we talked about the break up. Wednesday cried again, which made me feel even more guiltier. I told her, I need her back in my life. So, she cried even more. And attacked me with her hair as she seemed to suck my air out of my body as she hugged me.
So, it's Wednesday and Max again. I'm not regretting getting back together.
Which is a good thing.
5/20
10pm
Weight: 95lbs
Ow. My body hurts. Gym exam… wow… ugh, body is in extreme pain mode. And I've gained a pound in two days. Wednesday came over this afternoon, with a chocolate cake. According to what she said, she said that I ate a piece for a week, I'll feel great and put on weight. I ate one in front of her face to prove it before she kicked my ass on Mario kart64. Tomorrow is the final day of exams. And I only have one exam left, chemistry. Dad came home an hour ago. He's shut up in the study, while I'm in my room.
I just found a stack of photos. A lot have Wednesday and me, and a lot are blurry, most likely taken by a drunk somebody or a sober Michelle, who can't take photo's for shit. Oh well, the chick is cool. I'm so tired, I'm going to sleep.
5/22
3:49pm
Weight: 95lbs
My head feels like it weighs that much. Yes, last night resulted in a party- held by Travis, or craze as he likes. Maybe because he is crazy… but anyways. The last exam, chemistry was so hard. I thought I was going to faint as I wrote my name on the exam. Michelle turned up, pale as, with a green face. I think I at least passed.
I walked home. Dad was still at work. So, I was alone. But it's not as if I don't feel alone when he is home which is maybe six hours the most, a day. So, the party rocked. It's the first one that I have been to in like… 5 weeks. I left a message for dad, but when I got home this morning, it was still flashing one new message.
Oh well. I've got my cake.
5/23
11:08am
Weight: 98lbs
I have putted on 3lbs in two days. I didn't eat just one piece, I ate three and I just ate another. Which is good in my books. Though I had a pretty… medium sized breakfast. Dad is still asleep. Soon he'll wake up, have a coffee, shower and leave. Which is okay with me. I don't really care.
I do not care.
At all.
5/24
12:42pm
Study hall is useless now. Exams are over. For us grade ten, eleven and twelve's anyway. 12 days left of school. And guess what? I am scared. Of what?
- My friends leaving.
- My friends failing.
-myself failing.
-myself becoming sick again.
Just because year ten is over.
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A/n: Yes, twelve days peoples! Lol. Hope you guys enjoy! Review!
Ms. Hiwatari