Hello, lovely readers!
Holy crap! I can't believe we actually hit 600 reviews! You guys amaze me, thank you so much for all the support and feedback you've given me. I really appreciate it
Magikat – It sure is!
KaylsDaughterOfHades – I don't mind you stalking the story lol. We've hit a big moment in it. And if you think it's bad now, just wait till Dean finds out.
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Mandy – She has certainly grown. Not the relationship is something much deeper and loving, she has no choice but to admit the truth
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Raquel the writer – Agreed. But he thought she was alone
Ambroserollinsgirl – It was a chapter of two halves, both good and bad
Rkosgirl1 – I think the first half was the calm before the storm. Shit hit the fan in the second half for sure
MizzHellKat – They were bound to get discovered at some point. It was just a hell of a shame Roman was the one to find them
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Saintsrow10 – No he is not!
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Dawnie-7 – This is the part where the drama will be kicking off. The fluff is long gone as reality has set in.
Guest – This will not go as she planned. The cat is out of the bag in the worst way possible
NudeFitsLipsandPumps – I think as a couple they just want a bit of normality. But now Roman knows, a date will be the last thing on their minds
EvilDreams101 – Yes it is!
Rashauchiha89 – He did. The drama begins
MsConCon - They last two chapters could not have been any different from each other lol. But as you said, nothing is going to break these two apart. Its love, and as much as Lydia is committed and loyal to Seth, the architect would do anything for his girl. He'll fight anyone, even Dean Ambrose to keep her. This is where the drama starts
This chapter is named after 'Truth' by Bloc Party
Lydia Ambrose's Point Of View
I felt as if the world around us had stopped spinning, I felt as if the room we were in was frozen in time, the three of us standing there as still as statues, none of us knowing what to do or what to say. You could hear a pin drop, the tension in the room thick and gripping. My face was one of fear, Seth's was one of realisation, and Roman's was one of pure confusion.
He simply stood there in the doorway, his hand gripping the door handle tightly, his eyes flicking between Seth and I, the cogs in his head whirling to life in order to figure out what he was seeing.
I swallowed nervously, a river of anxiety, worry and pure fear running through my veins.
He'd found us.
It was out in the open.
We'd finally been caught.
"R-Roman," I said, being the first one to break the horrible and heavy silence. "I… I just… I can explain…"
"What's going on?" he asked calmly, his voice laced with complete puzzlement.
"This isn't what it looks like," I tried, my hands trembling as Seth held them tightly.
"Really?" he asked, realisation dawning on him. "Because to me it looks like this bastard has got you in his arms and he was…" He couldn't finish his sentence as anger began to seep into his voice. His jaw became tense, his hands balling into fists as he fully entered the room and closed the door behind him. It slammed shut, the rough noise causing me to jump.
"Roman," Seth began. "You need to-"
"You can shut the fuck up," Roman said, pointing to Seth before his eyes returned to me. "Lydia, you need to explain what's happening right now, because what I just saw… What the fuck is going on?"
I sighed, gathering all the courage I had, stepping away from Seth and slowly walking towards Roman, needing to calm the large Samoan down. This wasn't going to work whilst he was angry.
"This isn't how I wanted this to happen," I whimpered, my steps tentative, testing the waters. "I didn't want you to find out in this way. This is-"
"What's happening, Lydia?" he asked firmly. He was getting more and more irritated and I understood why. We'd been caught and found out. We'd been spotted in a rather compromising position, and now Roman wanted answers to the questions he was asking. "What didn't you want me to find out?"
"I love him, Roman," I finally said. "I love him."
He just looked at me in shock, his mouth agape, unable to believe what I'd just said, his eyes as wide as saucers.
But it was the truth, I loved Seth Rollins. I loved him with all my heart and nothing in the world would ever change that. He had change my life, shown me love, and made me genuinely more happy than I'd ever been in my life before. And even though the world needed to know, I never wanted it to be like this.
"You… you what?" he asked incredulously, his face showing he had definitely not expected me to say that.
"And I love her, Roman," said Seth, stepping forward. "This isn't just some fling or some-"
"I thought I told you to shut the fuck up," he growled at Seth.
"Roman, please don't be like that," I tried but the Samoan simply closed his eyes and pinched the bridge of his nose, his head assessing everything that he'd seen and everything that he'd heard, his mind working overtime in order for him to understand all this.
This was pretty big news, especially considering his relationship with Seth and his relationship with me. I was his friend, his best friends little cousin, a girl who he treated as a younger sister. We saw each other every day, we traveled together, and we were close.
Seth was his enemy, a former friend who broke him, hurt him, and betrayed him. He was a man he once trusted and considered a brother, but now he was a traitor and someone he hated.
And he'd just spotted those two people kissing. It was a hell of a lot for him to take in.
"Can I speak to you alone," he finally said, opening his eyes and looking at me. "Without him in the room?"
"Him? Him has a name," Seth fought back. "And there's no way I'm leaving her."
"Seth, it's fine," I said calmly, knowing having him here right now probably wasn't helping the situation. There was enough bad blood between these two men to tar and blur any opinions they had of one another. This was a delicate situation that needed to be explained calmly and efficiently, and having Seth present wasn't going to help the situation. "It might be best if you leave. Just for now."
He looked down at me, blinking. "Lydia, no. This is between all of us."
"Please, Seth," I said softly, taking his hand in mine and squeezing it softly. The movement did not go unnoticed by Roman, a gruff grunt leaving his mouth. "I think I need to talk to Roman alone. Please."
He sighed, running a hand through his hair. He looked at Roman through narrowed eyes then back to me as he eventually nodded.
"Fine. But if anything kicks off I'll be straight back in."
"Nothing will kick off," I assured him. "I just think Roman and I need a chat."
"Alright," he said, letting go of my hand and walking to the door, Roman glaring at him the entire time. He didn't kiss me or say anything to me as he left the room and I was rather grateful for this. Roman seemed wound up enough, a simple squeeze of the hand pissing him off. Had Seth done anything more intimate, he would have no doubt been on the receiving end of a spear.
Once the door clicked closed, leaving both of us in the silent room, Roman turned to look at me, an accusing glint in his eye.
"Seth fucking Rollins?!" he asked. "Seriously, Lydia? Of all the men in all the world, you chose Seth Rollins?"
He seemed angry, confused, but mostly hurt, the tone of his voice critical and condemning. I knew this wave of hate would come, but nothing could have prepared me for it now it was actually happening. And this was just Roman; I dreaded to think about when Dean found out.
"I know it looks bad," I tried.
"Bad?" he asked letting out a single laugh. "Bad? Lydia, this is fucking catastrophic! This is so wrong… This is completely and utterly fucked up."
"I know," I said, fighting back the tears as I felt that familiar sting behind my eyes.
"Do you know how this looks? What this could all mean?"
"I've considered all that. I really have. But I can't help how I feel."
"After everything he's done to us. To me, to Dean… Oh shit, Dean is gonna hit the goddamn roof." He placed his hands on his hips.
"I know he is," I said sadly.
"Did you even think about him when all of this happened? How he'd react? How he'd feel?"
"Of course I did!" I exclaimed. "I thought about him through it all. Whatever is happening between Seth and I would have happened a lot sooner if I hadn't been stopping myself over what Dean would think."
"How long has this been going on?" he asked me.
I shrugged. "I'm not wholly sure. It started a month or so before I left."
"Oh my god…" he said running a hand over his face, his feet beginning to move, pacing the room in front of me.
I felt like a naughty school girl whose parents had just been informed she'd been given a week's worth of detention. All I could do was stand there and let him vent his anger. I watched him carefully, his body tense, his body not knowing where to move, his eyes not knowing where to look. He was agitated, clearly holding back the wave of raging anger he wanted to release. His fingers were flexing at his side as his nostrils flared heavily.
My heart had already sunk to my stomach as I realised the honeymoon was over. All the happiness we'd felt by sneaking around was done now and everything would change. Our privacy was gone, our relationship would be different and nothing would ever be the same. We'd always be watched as everyone would know the truth now. And it had been in the cruelest way imaginable.
"And you love him?" he asked finally looking at me and I could sense a hint of disgust in his voice.
"Yes," I said firmly, nodding. "I love him."
"Fucking hell, Lydia," he said, shaking his head, his feet finally stopping their pacing. He put his hands back on his hips, his eyes now looking anywhere but at me. I could see this was affecting him, and the guilt hit me hard. But I couldn't feel guilty for falling in love. I would never feel guilty over my feelings for Seth Rollins.
He was my world, my rock, the best thing to ever happen to me. And no matter how it made others feel, I would never feel guilt or shame for loving that man.
A heavy silence filled the room that felt like it lasted an eternity. In reality it probably only lasted a matter of seconds, but I felt as if I stood there for a life time. My lungs could barely breathe, my heart threatened to burst from my chest, and my nerves were shot to shit. I felt as if I'd aged 50 years and I wanted this horrible feeling to go away.
"You need to tell Dean," he eventually said, his steely grey eyes meeting my brown ones.
"I know I do," I said. "And I will."
"When?" he asked.
"I'll tell him tomorrow," I said. "I don't want to drop this on him before the show and I need to figure out exactly what I need to say first."
He nodded, exhaling deeply a breath I didn't even know he was holding.
"Make sure you do," he stated.
"I will," I replied. "I promise."
"I won't say anything to him in the meantime," he said. "It's not my story to tell. But if he doesn't know by tomorrow, Lydia, I'll have to say something. He's my best friend, I can't keep this from him."
I nodded in affirmation. "Thank you."
He looked at me closely. "He's gonna hit the roof. You know that right?"
"I know," I said sadly.
"Just be prepared for everything that's gonna come with that."
I lowered my gaze, looking at the grey carpet that covered the floor, swallowing down the lump in my throat. I appreciated the room Roman was giving me in order to tell Dean, but the fear that hit me over exposing the truth was paralysing. The cat was out of the bag. The truth was exposed.
And Dean would know by the end of tomorrow.
xXx
Lying in Seth's arms that night didn't offer the same comfort it usually did. I barely felt his warmth, I hardly noticed when he squeezed me tighter, and I was only brought from my thoughts when I felt his lips kiss my forehead.
He knew I was distracted, we both were, but lying there with him almost felt as if I was doing something wrong, like I was betraying Dean and Roman's trust. The truth had been exposed and one of my closest and dearest friends knew about my relationship.
And it had not gone down well.
Not well in the slightest.
He did not approve, he was unhappy, and I knew Dean would be a thousand times worse than Roman could ever have been. And I knew I would have to talk to him about it tomorrow.
I felt like I shouldn't be here with Seth, doing this whilst Roman knew and Dean didn't. A part of me felt like I shouldn't be here, not until Dean knew at least. And Seth could feel something was off. He always knew when there was something the matter with me.
"What's wrong, baby?" he eventually asked me, leaning up onto his elbow so he could look fully at my face.
"After today, I think it's pretty obvious," I sighed.
"It was a tough one, I agree with that," he said.
"And tomorrow is going to be so much worse," I added.
"But it's a day we knew was coming," he told me. "It's unavoidable, Lydia. But as long as we stick together then we'll be okay."
"Maybe I should sleep in a different room tonight," I suggested. "Kind of avoid each other until I've told him."
"And what will that achieve?" he asked me, softly stroking the sensitive skin on my arms.
"I don't know," I shrugged. "It might make me feel less bad about all this."
"All that's going to do is bring up your anxiety and make you more nervous," he said. "At least with me I can calm you and relax you. I can look after you, sweetheart. We've spent practically every night together since we got together. I don't think one more is going to affect us."
He had a point. We'd already done enough behind Dean's back, surely one more night wasn't going to hurt. He was going to be upset regardless of whether I was here or not, so why make myself worse my taking myself away from Seth? I needed him now more than ever, so getting another room and being alone was not going to be beneficial to either of us.
"I guess…"
He smiled and softly pressed his lips to mine.
"I understand you're scared," he said once he pulled away. "But you aren't in this alone. I'm here, Lydia. We got into this together and we'll get through it together. You've always got me."
"I know I have," I said. "I'm just terrified of how he'll react and what he'll do. This is going to destroy him."
"Listen, you love me right?"
"Of course I do," I told him in earnest. "With all my heart."
"And I love you too, Lydia Ambrose," he said. "With every ounce of my soul and being. It's taken me this long to get you, so there is no way in hell I'm ever letting you go. No one is taking you away from me. So we're going to be alright. And Dean will be too."
I nodded, not fully believing his words. But they were all I had to hold onto right now.
I needed any kind of hope I could get in order to get through tomorrow.
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