AN: Oprah won! So I don't watch that much talk show's so this chapter isn't great. But I love Haley in this chapter and there's one line in the interview that I really love and I think you guys will too. It's totally about Nathan. And also we finally get to know when the first time he took her breath away was.

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Chapter 38

Feels Like Home

"You can still back out."

Haley's eyes connected with Brooke's. Brooke flashed her million dollar smile and pointed towards the door. Haley actually thought about it for a second. Thought about running as fast as she could to get away. She was about to pour her heart out to millions of people. The thought alone had her wanting to be locked up in the closet just a few feet away. Then looking down she noticed her hand on her stomach. It had been there a lot the last few days.

It was then that she knew she had to do this.

Things had been a little uncertain since she and Brooke had left the hospital three days ago. Before at night she would wake up because Damien haunted her dreams, now she woke up because Nathan wasn't home. But still she wasn't afraid which was a good thing.

Then there was the whole Brooke and Lucas situation. She really felt like the whole thing was her fault. Brooke had hesitantly filled her in on their conversation at the hospital. From Lucas apologizing for what he had done and for lying to her but Brooke had been the one that ended it. She was beyond pissed about the lying but what sent her to her breaking point was that Lucas put his life in danger. He could have gotten himself killed by digging in Haley's past. Damien had tried killing before and it was the second time that Brooke could have lost someone she loved because of him.

Brooke could deal with a lot of things but lying wasn't one of them.

So Brooke and Lucas were over.

It pained Brooke and Haley could tell. The girls had been staying at Haley's place since they got home. It was actually hard getting anywhere once news of their hospital trip to see Nathan. And still somehow someone in the media found out about the fire. The news of Haley's childhood loss of her parents was on every cover of everything. It was all anyone was talking about. A picture of Brooke holding a crying Haley in front of the burnt down house was everywhere. So many years of this being hidden and now just like that the whole world knew.

That had to be the hardest part.

This was something that she had trouble sharing with Nathan. Now suddenly the whole world knew. Things were never going to be the same again. But she knew she had to set the record straight. So here they were. Brooke had pulled a few strings and landed them on this show. It was short notice but she was Haley James. Anyone would kill for a world exclusive interview. Brooke had jumped for joy when Haley finally agreed to come on the Oprah Show. Brooke had actually been trying for the past two years now to get her on this very show.

"We both know I can't run from this, Tigger," Haley stated while taking one last look in the mirror.

Brooke placed both her hands on Haley's shoulders. "Just remember what I told you. You don't have to answer any questions that you don't want to."

"Got it," Haley said smiling. "So have you called Lucas yet?"

"Haley –"

"I just think you should call him," Haley said bringing her hand over to Brooke's. Brooke had been there for everything with her. She wanted so much to help Brooke with this. Brooke loved Lucas, Haley knew that. It was only the matter of convincing her to talk to him. Haley was more than determined to make this happen for both Brooke and Lucas. She loved them both very much and owed them a lot. It was time to put her 'Brucas' plan in motion. Brooke and Lucas would get back together. She would make sure of it.

"Please!" Haley whined.

Being Brooke's bestfriend had its perks. Like the fact that Brooke couldn't ever tell her no. Brooke said no to a lot of people but never to her. She watched Brooke struggle with her thoughts and she had to stop herself from smiling.

"Come on," Haley continued.

"Fine," Brooke said in defeat. "I'll think about it."

"That's all I ask," Haley said as her voice turned back to normal. She wondered how many people would be watching. She knew that Jake and Peyton had both missed work to see her. But what about Nathan? She had casually mentioned it to Kristen on the phone two days ago. The only question was, was the little girl smart enough to tell her brother about it? Knowing Kristen as well as she did then she was sure that the whole Scott family would be watching. But then again maybe they had better things to do.

"Its time, Mrs. Scott."

Haley nodded her head and stood up. She hugged Brooke quickly before following the lady towards the front stage. The whispers of the crew members weren't helping with the giant butterflies flying around in her stomach. She didn't think that she had ever been this nervous in her life.

"Now the time has come for the record breaking, Oscar winning actress and Grammy award winner."

Haley listened as the audience cheered loudly as she was being introduced. Her heart was pounding in her chest and for some reason her hands began to shake. This usually wasn't like her but somehow she was just too nervous.

"Here's America's Sweetheart, Haley James." The lady with the clip board moved aside so that she could walk on stage. She put on her best smile and took off. Here goes nothing, she thought. She smiled and waved as the audience cheered. Seconds later she approached a standing Oprah holding out her arms. Without a second thought the two ladies embraced each other before they both took a seat.

"Wow," Haley said looking out into the large crowd. She waved one more time as the crowd started cheering again. It was then that she heard one of the women screaming I love you to her. "I love you too."

"I have got to tell you how excited I am to have you on the show," Oprah said smiling at her as the audience got quite.

"I'm glad to be here," Haley responded.

"So first things first, how are you?"

"I'm good," Haley answered which technically wasn't the truth but the world didn't need to know everything.

"Okay," Oprah smiled. Reaching in her lap she pulled out one of the many magazines about her. "Let's talk about your childhood. This is a picture of you and Brooke Davis correct?"

"Yes," Haley said shaking her head.

"How was it for you losing everything at such a young age?" Oprah asked.

The whole place was quite and Haley could hear her heart pounding in her chest. It hadn't stopped since she walked on stage. She looked around at the waiting audience then back at Oprah. There was just no getting out of this.

She felt her eyes brimming with tears. "It was hard. It's still hard. I was only six years old at the time but for me personally it just feels like yesterday when it happened. I wake up every morning and the first thing that I think of is why I'm the only one still here."

"And you've always felt this way?"

"Yeah," Haley said nodding her head. "I guess I just don't understand why my father came for me first, you know? I find myself wondering what would have happened if he tried to save my mother and brother. Would they be here? It's just something I guess I have to live with."

"Well it's always better to talk about things," Oprah said with a smile.

"I'm just learning that," Haley said relaxing. "My whole life I've been so private about everything but it does feel good to talk about these things after all this time. I realize now that I was just bottling everything up for so long. It feels really good to get this off my chest."

"I'm happy to help," Oprah said as everyone started to laugh.

"Why thank you," Haley said smiling. Finally she wasn't nervous anymore. It was actually good talking about these things. It was good to stop hiding from her past. Maybe now she could actually start living. She felt free.

"Is it too soon to talk about Nathan?" Oprah asked pointing to the big screen behind them in which a sexy picture of Nathan appeared on the screen. The audience cheered loudly and Haley started blushing just by looking at him. The huge smile on her face wouldn't go away. "Is he watching at home?"

Haley just nodded her head. "Yep." Or at least she hoped he was.

"So let's talk about that husband of yours," Oprah said smiling at her. "I think the world was in shock when they found out about your Vegas wedding. You had never been known to do something like that before. But let's start from the beginning, how did you two meet?"

"That's a funny story actually," Haley said smiling.

"Tell the world how you two met."

"Well, as you all know I had started working for his company. My friend and I had gone to this club to meet Lucas Scott, his brother," Haley smiled as the women started cheering for Lucas. "So anyways I was dancing with my friend and I noticed this guy sitting at the bar."

"It was him?"

"Yeah," Haley said nodding her head. She never told anyone this story before. "My heart started pounding in my chest and I couldn't breathe. He took my breath away. My stomach was in knots and I was just looking at him. And I was thinking how I never, ever felt that way before."

"And all this just by looking at him?"

"I knew I had to talk to him," Haley said smiling. "I thought if this man can make me feel all these things just by looking at him then I have to meet him. This had never happened to me before. I'm such a loser. You wouldn't believe what I did."

"Did you go talk to him?"

"It's more like how I approached him," Haley said laughing as she remembered. "I was set to perform that night with my friend Chris Keller and I had a dressing room in back. I had only been out of it because my friend wanted to dance. So it was almost time for me to go on stage but I was just being drawn to this guy. This is the embarrassing part…I walked over to the bar next to him and ordered a drink. Now, I know what you are thinking, that's not embarrassing but you should know that I had a dressing room with everything I could want in it."

"That's so cute," Oprah said laughing.

"I felt like such a loser," Haley said laughing. "But I ordered the drink anyway. I realized that after we started talking that he didn't know who I was, like not at all. So we're talking and then Chris is yelling for me on stage so, I have to leave. I got on stage and looked back over at this guy staring at me and his eyes were huge. I'm like talking about popping out of his head."

"So he didn't know Haley James," Oprah said laughing. "How did that feel? Him not knowing you."

"I felt really good actually," Haley said with a soft smile. "It was nice to have someone actually like me for me and not for all the fame."

"That's a way to meet someone," Oprah said looking out into the crowd. "How are things now?"

This is the part were you lie, Haley thought.

"There good," Haley said with a fake smile. "Everything happened really fast for us but I love him." There she said it. She declared her love for him to the world. It was the whole point of coming here.

"Okay so on to the goodies," Oprah said reaching for the CD. "Here's your upcoming album, Feels Like Home, and everyone in the audience gets a copy." The audience cheered. "How did you come up with the name for the album?"

"It's actually the first track on the CD which is funny because it's the last one I recorded," Haley said smiling. "But it's my favorite song on the whole CD and I loved writing it so I named the whole album after it."

"Let's have a world premiere sneak listen at it," Oprah said.

"Go ahead," Haley said smiling. Seconds later her voice could be heard on the speakers.

Somethin' in your eyes, makes me wanna lose myself
Makes me wanna lose myself, in your arms
There's somethin' in your voice, makes my heart beat fast
Hope this feeling lasts, the rest of my life

If you knew how lonely my life has been
And how long I've been so alone
And if you knew how I wanted someone to come along
And change my life the way you've done

It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I come from
It feels like home to me, it feels like home to me
It feels like I'm all the way back where I belong

"That was beautiful," Oprah said smiling.

"Thank you," Haley said smiling. "This album was all about me letting everything out that I had been holding in. Some people write what they can't say and I guess I'm one of those people." Haley watched as Oprah opened the CD and took the little side book out.

"So the dedication reads," Oprah started. "To the boy who made my heart whole again."

"Yep," Haley said smiling. "This one's for Nathan."

"Check out her new CD that hits stores in five weeks," Oprah said standing up. "It was good having you." They hugged and the crowd cheered.

"It was good for me too," Haley said before waving bye and walking off stage. She made it to her dressing room where Brooke was waiting for her. She opened the door and Brooke jumped in her arms.

"That was amazing, Hales," Brooke said overjoyed.

"Tigger," Haley said smiling. "Are you crying?"

"No," Brooke said wiping away her tears.

"Yes you are," Haley said smiling.

"Enough about the tears," Brooke said quickly. "Let's talk about the fact that the whores in the crowd all cheered for my man!"

"Your man?"

"Yes," Brooke said turning quickly. "I get like a two week courtesy hold on him because we like dated. So technically he's still my man until I'm ready to take his ass back."

"Oh you do," Haley said smiling as she gathered her things.

"Yes," Brooke said putting her hands on her hips. "It's says so."

"Where?"

"In…in the Brooke Davis courtesy hold manual," Brooke stated.

"Uh-huh," Haley said smiling. "I think I need to read one of those."

"You already know everything," Brooke said winking at her. "Well, except for my courtesy hold policy but we can work on it. The car's waiting for us. And I'm hungry for cake. Peyton makes the best cakes. I can't wait to get there."

"One sugar coma coming right up," Haley said laughing.

"We're going to have so much fun tonight," Brooke said clapping her hands. "I love it when one of us has a birthday, well mostly just me but yours is fun too."

"Gee thanks," Haley said sarcastically. "Plus, I'm not staying that long. My bags are packed and I'm ready for my vacation. I'm getting on that plane tonight."

"Don't remind me," Brooke said sadly. "Lets just party before you leave me."

"I'll be back in two weeks," Haley said hugging her friend.

"Let's just go," Brooke said pulling Haley along with Shane leading the way out of the building. They quickly got into the limo. It took off and started for Jake and Peyton's. Haley's birthday was tomorrow so tonight they were going to party. Haley looked at the phone in her hands. When nothing happened she looked over at Brooke.

"He's going to call, right?" Haley pleaded.

"Of course he will," Brooke said smiling at her. Or she hoped he would. Whatever he was planning on she hoped that he did it fast. Haley would be leaving tonight for two whole weeks.

AN: Did Nathan watch the show? Will he find Haley before she leaves? I guess we will find out in good time. Oh and the sweet line was of course the "to the boy who made my heart whole again." It's the point of the whole story really. I just loved it!

Now I personally think this chapter sucked but whatever! The whole point in having Haley on the Oprah Show was so that she could talk about Nathan. We finally learned the first time he took her breath away. I just wanted her to talk about Nathan to everyone so that he could see and hear it. The song "Feels Like Home" by Chantal Kreviazuk was used. If you haven't heard it you should. It's great. I love it and I think it fits with the story.