A.N: Here you go! The next one! I hope everyone will like it, and thanks so so much for the reviews!
Disclaimer: I don't own anything, the Vampire Diaries belongs to the CW and LJ Smith, and any resemblance between my OC's and real persons, dead or undead is purely coincidental!
AMY'S POV
ONE MONTH LATER
I was almost sure that it was what a vampire felt.
I mean, during my stay in Michigan..Time flew, and I watched. Hours turned into days, days into weeks….
It was like everything around me changed while I stood still. On the outside, I was still the same, but inside…I could practically feel the changing as days went by. My uncle and aunt had left me alone with myself –as I wanted them to- and I tried to enjoy the peace I was in.
But of course, with each step I took, I could still feel the urge in me to go back. Ever since I had that phone call, he was in my mind every hour, every minute of the day. The tone of his voice, his words… I knew I wanted to go back, but I also knew I couldn't.. No matter how much I wanted to.
"Ehm-excuse me?"
I snapped out of my thoughts when I heard the hesitating voice and turned my head to look at the waitress
"Yeah?"
"Would you like a refill?" she asked and I tried to smile
"Yes please."
She poured coffee into my cup and walked away, her heels clicking on the floor and maybe for the fifteenth time, I checked my watch. If I were in Mystic Falls now, I would've been-
Stop thinking that! I commanded to myself and sipped my coffee. My phone vibrated on the table, but I ignored it when I saw the name. Luke.
He hadn't given up calling. Not even after a month of not getting an answer.
I tried to ignore the guilty, uncomfortable feeling appeared in my stomach and sighed, dropping my gaze to the notebook which was open on the table. I tapped the pencil against my lips, then bit the inside of my lip and started to write.
I couldn't even face them.
None of them. Not Damon not my brothers, not Luke…
I didn't even say 'Goodbye.' Just two phone calls, that's it.
Maybe this is that infamous threshold. When you take one step, that's it. You're a grown up. Congratulations.
And everyone has someone or something to push them through that threshold. Something to pull that trigger. Something to force them into that different world.
And once you take that step, everything changes. No looking back. Nowhere to hide. Even when you're hurt, you know you're really on your own. All alone. With no one there to help you.
And it's alright. After all, I wanted it. I wanted those answers. I wanted to take that step.
Or at least so I thought.
But you know what? What they say is true. We run away all the time to avoid coming face to face with ourselves.
I'm-
My phone beeped again and I jolted up, then saw the alarm, reminding me to take Rachel from the school. I shut my notebook, stuffed it into my bag and paid for the coffee, then walked out of the cafe. I gripped the straps of my bag and approached the big building that wasn't far from there. The children were already running and squealing happily,some trying to catch each other and some telling their parents what they'd done today. Rachel looked around and smiled, marching towards me.
"Hey Amy.." she chirped happily and I flashed a smile
"Hey you. How was the school?"
She shrugged and we started walking
"I don't think I like math."
"Welcome to the club." I said and she looked up at me
"You don't like it either?"
"Let's say the feeling is mutual between me and math."
She giggled and suddenly I stopped dead on my tracks when that alarming panic crashed down on me, pulling me inside of a deepless, blinding hole of fear.
I felt it.
Who the hell was watching me?
A car pulled over and honked the horn
"Mommy!" Rachel ran towards the car and my aunt rolled down the window
"Hey girls." She smiled as Rachel climbed into the car "I was thinking we could go shopping or something."
My eyes searched through the crowd as my heart started pounding against my chest, and my fingernails dug into my palms, my hands balling up into fists
"Amy?" I heard my aunt's voice and turned my head
"Oh..um…" I stuttered, trying to look normal "I think I forgot my notebook in somewhere. Can I join you later?"
She looked confused but I tried to smile assuringly and she nodded
"Call me when you find it, and I can tell you where to meet us."
"Yeah, sure."
Just go!
She started the engine and drove off. I watched them going away, then turned around, unzipping my bag. My hand went inside and found the little bottle I was searching for. I pulled my hand back and put the bottle filled with vervain into my pocket, then touched the stake in my bag, ready to pull it. I made my way through the crowd and turned a corner, looking around.
Goosebumps rose on my skin and I clenched my teeth, holding the stake in my bag tighter, forcing myself to take another step and turn another corner.
Dead end.
I shut my eyes, letting out a long breath.
Calm down, it doesn't mean it is what you think it is…
I brushed my hair off my face and turned around, walking out of the street with fast steps.
I knocked my uncle's door and waited. When I heard his saying come in, I opened the door a little
"Hey, are you busy?"
He took a one last glance at the papers in his hand and put them on the big wooden table, leaning back in his chair
"Of course not, come in." He said and I stepped into the room, closing the door behind me. I sat down on the lather couch, smiling at him.
"Auntie told me you two were going to dinner tonight?"
He flashed a smile "It's okay if Rachel stays with you, right?"
"Sure.." I said and cleared my throat
"Uncle, there's something I want to talk with you.."
He gave me a questioning glare and I bit my lip, clearing my throat again
"I want to see the records."
He frowned slightly "Records, Amy?"
"My hospital records." I said calmly, crossing my arms over my stomach. His expression went from puzzled to tired.
"Amy.."
"Do you have them?"
He sighed "No, they keep it in the hospital."
"Speaking of which, what's the name of the hospital?"
He shook his head, shutting his eyes for a second. For that second he looked old, much older than he actually was and I felt a pang of guilt, but it was gone as quickly as it came.
"What do you think it's going to achieve?"
"Nothing." I shrugged "I know I will never be able to remember. I just want to know."
He shook his head again "Give up, Amy, that road will lead you to nowhere."
"You don't get it." I said "Look, no matter how hard you try to hide it, I'll find out. Just like last time."
He looked me in the eye "Why can't you forget it?"
I let out a dark chuckle "I did, remember? You made sure of it."
I managed to hold back an apology trying to escape from my lips and clenched my teeth, then forced myself to form the next sentence
"You owe me at least this much, Uncle." I said "You know that I won't be able to remember. I just want to see the records."
"They won't show them to you." He said and I shrugged again
"You might as well tell me where the hospital is, then." I said "After all, it won't even help me."
There was a silence and I took a deep breath
"If it were Rachel, I would've helped her, and you do know that."
He rubbed his face tiredly and rose from his chair, walking towards the safe on the wall. He opened it and took out a brochure, handed it to me. I dropped my gaze, my eyes searching the lines.
"Missouri?"
He nodded "Your files in the hospital are under a fake surname. Parker."
The name didn't ring any bells and I bit inside of my cheek, sighing, and wrapped my arms around his neck
"Thank you."
"Consider it as my apology, Amy." He muttered "What we did-"
"I know." I said, pulling back "I know." I pushed the brochure into my pocket and gulped, than tried to flash a smile.
"Thanks." I said quietly "I won't forget this."
With that, I left the room, closing the door behind me.
That night, after spending half an hour to convince Rachel to go to sleep, I was finally alone. As I lay on my stomach on the soft carpet, my eyes focused on the screen of my lap top, I tried my hardest. To remember something. Anything. A face, a scent, an image..
Missouri…
I looked at the brochure lay on the floor beside my arm and rested my chin on my arm, still glancing through the pages, and pictures of the hospital. The wind outside was making whistle sounds, and shaking the trees. The heat coming from the fireplace felt like it warmed me to my core, making me close my eyes, and open them again.
Don't fall asleep… I remember telling to myself Don't fall asleep, you still have to do the research..
My eyes closed and opened again. And again..
And then-
"Do you know why you're here, Amy?"
I nodded slowly, pulling my knees to my chest, rocking back and forth.
White.
Every where was white.
"Can you tell me why you're here?"
I shook my head this time, whimpering. The doctor sighed, and cleared his throat
"It's safe, Amy…It's all safe here."
I shook my head again "No…" I whispered "No..it's not. They'll come here."
"Who?"
"Them!" I screeched "The vampires! They'll come, and take me, and there's nothing you can do!"
"Why are they after you?"
"I don't know!" I sobbed, scratching at my wrists "They just are…"
"Can you tell me what they look like?"
Silence.
"Amy?"
"GO AWAY!"
I jolted up out of sleep and my eyes opened, my body giving a jerk of shock and I sat up straight, panting. My shaking hands rubbed my eyes, and I wiped the tears, trying to control my breathing.
Was it just a dream? Or was it a memory?
How couldn't I tell one from another anymore?
"Okay…" I whispered to myself "Okay…Calm down.."
I stood up and licked my dry lips, then went to the kitchen to fill myself a glass of water. I drank it in one gulp and took a deep breath, trying to stop my legs' shaking.
That was when someone knocked the door.
I frowned and walked towards the door, then stopped, reaching out to hold the doorknob. My heart started racing in my chest again, but I tried to think clear. I mean, if it were vampires, they probably wouldn't have bothered to knock the door... But still, my hands went to my pocket and I took the little bottle into my hand, uncapped it and ready for anything, I swung open the door.
And in that moment, I realized I actually wasn't ready for anything. The little bottle slipped from my hands and crashed to the ground, glass smashing to smithereens and liquid spilling to the floor, causing the nice scent hang on the air.
The face was almost as familiar as my own face to me, familiar, but still…different. My breath caught in my throat and I blinked dumbly, trying to fully grasp the sight before my eyes. I wasn't sure if I could move, and I definitely had no idea what I would do if I could move. Step back, or step forward?
He sneered at me when he saw my expression, mouth half open in awe and eyes wide. Was I still dreaming? What the hell was he doing here?
"D-Damon?"
"Hi Amy." he greeted me calmly, that beautiful smile playing on his lips "It's been a while."
A.N: So, what do you think?
I hope you liked it! Please review and tell me your opinions, constructive criticism, ideas, comments, anything!
Review Responses:
Snowberryxoxo: I have a feeling that Damon can convince her to go back *wink wink* :D
brandibuckeye: In fact, I had written something like that, having Amy tell her feelings to Damon, but then I deleted it=) because I have a better idea;) lol=)
belleslvtr1867: Oh, come onn, you can't let them discourage you! I mean that's the reason they're teachers, not authors, right?;) I say you try to write something, who cares what teachers think! =) And I did like your personal 'rant' as you call it, lol=)
KissWithAFistx: Omg, I definitely loved that damon/elena scene heheh=) yeah, she didn't talk with her brothers, and I also think she shouldn't, at least not yet=) and Damon…hmm…well, he has some practice with searching for the girls who don't want to be found, right? Lol=)
damonXelenaXforever: heheh, considering he had done it a lot of times…=) it could be fun, actually=)
BritanyJean: Yay, thanks! Now all we need to do is to get her open up to him=P lol=)
floraa: heheh, and it'll get more and more intense;) that's a promise:P
bellaa99: Aww, me too:D I wanted to hug him or something lol=)
chase83: And they'll get together soon;) heheh=) great to hear you liked the chapter!;)
Shilo-Shadow: Yayy, you're back!=) aww, come onnn, don't call yourself that, hun! *frowning and shaking my finger*lol =)
Egyptian Kiss:Yayyy, another long review! *starts dancing* =) Okay, I know that chapter was a bit short, but I tried to make this one a little longer=) Yeah, she slowly starts to raise her voice, you know, and she definitely won't forgive them easily. And what her uncle and aunt can't see is that she needed to cope with it herself, but they had given up on her a bit early, seeing her as a weak child. Glad you liked Rachel, I liked her too;) And Damon…well, he did follow Katherine with even less encouragement, so… and if there's one thing Damon can understand , it's being lied to, and being cheated so, we could say he didn't give up on her=) I definitely aggree with you on holding tongue thing, I was sent to the discipline committee in high school for something like that –thank god it didn't go down om my perminant record- =) thanks so so much for your awesome review again!
mixmatched9: Heheh, thanks so much! I'm really glad to hear that;) I hope you liked this one too!
aireagle92: here you go hun! ;)
kari10: Even I can't believe I ended this one like that lol=) They'll definitely spend some time together, if you know what I mean *wink wink* ;)
vampirelover14: And I'm torn between getting happy and feeling guilty=) lol=)
shaybay55: Okay, okay, I definitely have a reason for it=) kind of…sort of…anyways, on the bright side, Damon did waltz over there, right? Lol=)
Twilight016: I don't think it's too late ;) I have some plans, actually;)
Sage1993: Annnd here you go;) you ask, I write;)
Hailey-Stone: Okay then, now I'm feeling guilty… :P but, but come on, Damon is here, let's be happy again :P lol=)
ashley199935: very, very soon;) lol=) glad you liked the conversation ;)
TempranceCrepsley1812: Welcome to the club:p lol=)
LittleRock'n'Roll Queen167: Aww, those are great reactions=) And I'll make it happen really really soon;) Like…okay, no spoilers:P
Arianna15: Omg, thank you so so much=) it's amazing to hear you like that character progress =) Yeah, actually, in twilight, that disturbed me too, and it's great to hear that Amy is getting stronger=) Thank you so so much for the great review!
Marril96: Definitely, and what they did was really really wrong=) And yeah, he has feelings for her;) it's really awesome to hear that you can imagine it as a episode, it makes me feel really good!=)
tsukimonse: Yeap, Damon did go for her ;) lol;) I hope you liked this one too!=)
BrielleHalliwell1018: that coughing was really funny lol=) I'm really happy that you liked the line;) I actually planned to write something else, than decided on that, and it's great to hear it ended up good;) and they'll be together, no worries ;)
DJDvampgirlp227: What, so you're saying there are some people that think Damon doesn't have a heart? Omg! =) I'm really glad you liked it;)
VaMpiiRe. DiiAriiEs: here's your update;) hope you liked it=)
Nelle07: Aww,thank you hun! =) glad to hear that;)
en-elin: Hey! I happen to like your reviews, so don't you ever call yourself a bad reviewer! =) heheh, it's amazing to hear I could reflect those emotions;) and omg, you liked my music taste! Yayy! Maybe I should start doing that playlist thing again….anyways, thanks sooo much, and I updated as soon as I could..soo, you don't hate me, right? :P
dragonrain618: Yeapp, he does care for her;) Oh, I wanted to yell at her too, if it were me…*sigh*
mandi575: Aww,thank you so so much! Yay, someone is obsessed with my story, you have no idea how good it feels! I hope you liked this chapter too!=)
Nia Scarlet: Thank soooo much! I liked writing her leave, it really felt good;) you'll see more and more twists soon;)