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Previously…

The rain got harder, throwing it down on us as Edward slumped against Jasper, defeated and utterly broken for the first time in his life.

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A Million More Mistakes- Chapter 37

Nothing's right, I'm torn.

I'm all out of fait, this is how I feel:

I'm cold and I am chained lying naked on the floor.

Illusion never changed into something real.

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn.

You're a little late, I'm already torn.

-Torn, Natalie Imbruglia

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Edward POV

"You broke my nose!" Tanya shrieked at me, breaking the silence.

"At least I gave you a reason to be even more fake- you can get a nose job now," I shot back.

"I'm less fake then that bitch," Tanya hissed and we all knew who she meant.

"Let me go, Jasper," I begged. "Let me finish what I started." I glowered at Tanya, struggling against Jasper's arms.

"Edward, Alice and I have already sorted her out," Jasper muttered in my ear.

I looked at him in confusion, but then I was distracted.

"Edward…" Tanya spoke up. "For what it's worth… I am sorry. I didn't mean to upset you but… surely you can see that me and Carmen are better for you than she ever was?"

"If that is what you truly believe, then you have one warped mind, Tanya," I snarled.

She shrugged and fought Alice off fairly violently. She let Tanya go, whether because she sensed that Tanya wouldn't run or whether because she was worried that she would turn violent and hurt her and her unborn children, I didn't know. Jasper followed his wife's lead and released me. I glowered at Tanya, though I didn't hit her; she hadn't yet got what she deserved, but Jasper's words had assured me that she would pay without me needing to wind up in jail.

"So…" Tanya started, but she was cut off by the pixie that came to my side.

"Tanya, I think it's best that you leave now," she said. "You should probably go home. You've got a lot of explaining to do."

Tanya's brow furrowed. "Explain what?"

"Well, Jasper made a very important phone call for me about…" She consulted her watch, "half an hour ago and social services should have already got to your house where I presume your daughter is… by herself?"

Tanya's eyes widened. "You wouldn't," she spat.

Alice faked an innocent expression. "Oh. I'm sorry, but I already did." She smirked at Tanya and then took a step closer to her. "Are you wearing perfume?" she asked, and Jasper and I exchanged a 'what the hell?' glance.

Tanya looked confused as well. "Yes…" she replied slowly.

"What a shame," Alice smiled sweetly. "Because I think that 'eau de duck crap' would suit you much better." And then, before any of us could realise what she was talking about, Alice's hands shot out in front of her and Tanya tripped and fell… right into the pond.

Despite myself, I started to laugh as Tanya came to the surface, spluttering.

"You bitch!" she screamed. "These were Prada shoes!"

"I hate to waste designer," Alice said, "but they were a waste on you anyway so…" she shrugged.

"My hair!" Tanya cried. "It's ruined!"

"Aw, what a shame," Alice said. "But that's what you get for messing with a Cullen. Oh, and I'd think very carefully about pressing charges if I were you; you haven't met Emmett." She smiled one last time at Tanya and then turned to Jasper and I. "And heaven help her if Rose gets close. Now, let's get out of here."

Jasper followed her without hesitation, but I stopped and turned to get one last glance at Tanya.

"Hey Tanya!" I shouted. "I'd say screw you, but too I think too many people have already!" And then I followed Alice and Jasper to the cars.

I headed for my beloved Volvo, but Alice grabbed my shoulder. "Uh, uh," she said. "You're coming in my car with us."

"Why?" I demanded.

"Edward, you are in no fit state to drive," Alice pointed out.

I reluctantly let myself be dragged to Alice's car, wondering if Bella would forgive me when I told her that I'd broken Tanya's nose… and Alice and Jasper had called the social on her. Alice was, without doubt, the best sister a guy could ask for.

To my surprise, I was pushed into the back seat with Alice and Jasper drove Alice's baby.

"Edward…" Alice started, her voice turning serious, but then something occurred to me that hadn't before.

"How did you know where I'd be?" I asked.

"Well, we went to the hospital to visit you guys and see how you were getting on and a doctor told us that he had overheard you asking Tanya to meet you for coffee. I don't know how I knew I just… did." She smiled. "I'm a psychic."

I sighed, turning to look out of the window as the landscape sped past.

"Edward…" Alice said again. "Bella is…" she trailed off, unable to word what she wanted to say. But it didn't matter, I knew what she was trying to say anyway.

"I know," I murmured. "She's falling apart. I don't know what to do Ali. She won't sleep, she won't eat, she won't move… she just sits there like a zombie. She won't talk or listen to me and she has this crazy idea that I… I don't care. I just… don't know what to do. I want to help her and I want to stay strong for her, but when I do she thinks I don't care. I'd do anything for her but she can't see it. I just want everything to be okay…" My voice broke at the end and I couldn't hold back the tears anymore. What I had said was true- I didn't know what to do about it; any of it.

"Oh, Edward…" Alice said. "I honestly… don't know what I can say. This must be beyond the hardest thing Bella's ever had to go through. Natty has been her sun for five years and now she's facing the concept of losing her. I can understand why Bella's like she is but I can't change it. If Natty doesn't get better… I just… I don't know." She pinched the bridge of her nose and squeezed her eyes shut.

There was silence for a while as we were all left to our own thoughts. Then Alice broke it. "She's sorry, Edward," she murmured.

I looked at her. "What do you mean?"

"When we got to the hospital, I went in and Bella was crying. She feels terrible for what she said to you. She knows that it's not true."

"I know. It's not the first time that it's happened." I sighed. "But it is understandable. It's not like Bella, but I know that it's the lack of sleep that's talking. I'd forgive her anyway."

Alice frowned. "I don't know how to say this but… I'm really worried about her. She said…" Alice's voice broke and she took a deep breath. "She said that she just wants to die."

I felt my heart break and not just because of Bella's words. It hurt that she had confided in Alice and not in me.

No one spoke again as we pulled into the hospital car park. I led the way to Natty's ward, but Alice stopped me outside.

"We're… gonna go home," she said. "Say hi to Bella from us."

I nodded. "Thanks Ali. For everything."

She smiled. "That bitch deserves everything she gets, 'eau de duck crap' included."

I forced a smile back and then watched as Alice and Jasper walked off down the corridor. Seeing them felt strange, as though I hadn't seen them in years. It was like they were a part of a different era; a good one.

I took a deep breath and opened the door, submerging myself back in the bad era.

Bella POV

Why? Natty didn't deserve to die. I did. I was just hurting everyone around me: Natty, Edward, Alice… everyone was hurting because of me. And now Edward had gone to get revenge on that bitch. I prayed that he wouldn't be too rash and get himself locked up. I couldn't deal any more.

But now my harsh words had made me realise something. My hand fluttered pitifully over my flat stomach and I whimpered, shaking like a leaf. Something told me that there was nothing there anymore. I don't know what told me that – a mother's instinct maybe? – but I had an awful gut feeling that my baby was gone. I tried as hard as I could to ignore it, but the guilt was consuming.

"Bella?" his voice made me jump and I felt a hand on my shoulder, comforting me.

I turned to look at him, now used to the constant teary film that covered my eyes. "Oh, Edward, I'm so sorry," I said immediately. "I… didn't think. I know you…"

"I know," he cut me off, probably not wanting to hear it. "I forgive you."

"I shouldn't have… I didn't mean… I should have…" I looked back down at the floor. "I'm sorry." I knew that those two words could never make up for what I said to him, but I said them anyway. If only life were so simple that a few words could make everything okay again. If only miracles were possible. If only.

"Bella," Edward murmured soothingly. "You shouldn't beat yourself up about this. I know that you didn't mean it- you've got far too much to deal with." He pulled his chair over and sat next to me.

"I wasn't just apologising for that. I've been… I don't know what I've been, but I've been strange for the last few days and I…"

"Which is completely understandable," Edward interrupted. "But she'll be fine Bella."

I stared at him sadly.

"We have to believe in her," he said, staring deep into my eyes. "If we don't believe in her, then who will? She will pull through because no one deserves to live more than she does. She will."

I looked at Natty. She looked like she was sleeping, even after all of this time. I wondered if she was dreaming and, if so, what she was dreaming about. I wondered if she could hear us after all. Or whether she was in a world all of her own. I wondered what she could see. I wondered what she was thinking. I wondered if she knew how much we loved her and how worried we were.

"Where did you go?" I asked softly, not looking away from Natty, but directing the question at Edward.

"I had to… thank Tanya," he replied, and I could hear the anger under his relatively calm tone.

"What did you do?"

He laughed humourlessly. "I broke her nose."

I gasped and turned to gape at him. "You didn't!"

"I did. She deserved it. Besides what's a plastic nose compared to the rest of her? It's just something else fake about her."

"Edward Cullen." I shook my head in disbelief. "I thought you would do worse than that."

"Oh I would've done," he promised, "if Alice hadn't stepped in."

"What did she do?"

He couldn't stop a small smile from creeping on to his face. "She called social services and then pushed Tanya in a pond. That bitch is going to have a lot of explaining to do."

I bit my lip. "But… what if she reports you for assault?"

"She won't. Alice reminded her that we had another brother."

I thought of Emmett and his huge muscles. No one would dare argue with him. And then I thought of Rose and her temper and evil schemes. "Heaven help her if Rose gets there first," I muttered.

"That's exactly what Alice said," Edward told me and we both smiled. One little smile. It wasn't much, but it was better than nothing.

I sighed and looked back at Natty, wondering whether to tell him about my suspicions. I decided that I should. No more secrets.

"Edward?" I whispered, completely broken.

"What is it?" he whispered back, putting an arm around me.

"I think…"

Suddenly, the door opened and Dr Ridgely came in. Edward and I looked up at him in unison and my head spun when I looked up. I blinked furiously, deciding to get some food as soon as I could.

"Can I have a word with you two?" he asked.

Edward nodded warily and Dr Ridgely took the final seat in the room. My head was still spinning and I felt a bit sick.

"Well… it's about Natalie. Do you remember me saying that the flu could destroy her immune system completely?"

We both nodded.

"My colleagues and I have examined her thoroughly and have discovered that her immune system has become extremely weak. This means that you will have to cease contact with her unless it is absolutely necessary."

"You mean, we can't stay in here?" I asked quietly.

Dr Ridgely shook his head. "I'm sorry, but Natalie could pick up even the simplest virus and that could kill her." He looked down at his clipboard and cleared his throat. "We have also found out that… well, that the odds are not in her favour and are slowly getting worse. It is highly unlikely that she will pull through and, after a long discussion, we have decided that, while we cannot make decisions for you, we can advise you. And our advice would be that – and I hate to be the one to tell you this – but we think that you should prepare yourselves for the worst and… perhaps the best thing for Natalie at this stage… would be to turn off her life support machine."

And just those few words made my heart break in two. Dr Ridgley had as good as confirmed that my daughter was going to die; that I was going to lose everything. With just those words, the light that brightened my world was abruptly switched off and I was left in a black abyss; broken, torn… destroyed.

"No," my denial came out in a whisper as my head continued to spin sickeningly and then my body went limp and the blackness took me.

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I am so sorry to end it like that. I know that you probably are getting sick of these over-dramatic chapters and such, but I promise that it will be over soon. Actually, that's the bad news…

THERE IS ONLY ONE MORE CHAPTER AND AN EPILOGUE. No sequel.

Please don't beg and plead with me to do more because I'd really love to but then I'd probably be dragging it out. I'm so sad that it's nearly done :(

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