Chapter 38

Adrianna POV

It had been a few days since I found out Jeremy had cheated on me and I still hadn't spoken to him, I didn't want to either but I knew James was right and I had to at some point. It just after dinner and I was sitting in my room away from my friends, they were still annoyed at Jeremy for what he did but they weren't going to let it ruin their friendship. The fight between us was just that, Stefan punched him and Emily abused him for what he did and that was it. They didn't say another word about what happened and when they spent time together I spent time in my room away from Jeremy.

Even though Jeremy and I were in Moroi Culture 3 together and since it was assigned seating I had no choice but to sit next to him. Our first lesson after the breakup he tried to talk to me but I ignored him, only speaking to him when it was needed for class.

There was a knock at the door, I went and opened it shocked at finding Jeremy to on the other side.

"Please don't slam the door in my face" he spoke softly. I looked at him and noticed just how terrible he looked, in class I always avoided looking at him and this look on his was why. He looked troubled and hurt but he shouldn't, I should be the one that was hurt not him.

"Give me one good reason" he didn't say anything but pulled out a bag of lollies from behind his back, they weren't a generic bag either. It was mixed bag filled with all my favourites.

"I asked mum to get the bag made up and sent to me" he handed the bag over and I took it and then stepped aside so he could come in. I walked over and took a seat on my bed and he went to my desk, neither of us said anything.

"Why did you do it?" I finally said after not being able to take the silence any longer

"I was drunk and did something stupid"

"Why though? There must have been some reason behind it, what you gave up waiting for me to finally agree to have sex with you?"

"Not at all"

"Then why did you get drunk and have sex with Taylor? Hell why did you go to a party without our friends. Emily said none of them went to the party"

"I don't know Dri, why do we always go to parties? It was an accident and I didn't mean for it to happen"

"Don't you dare say it was an accident! because there was no way you accidently had sex with Taylor. Wait let me guess your clothes got wet so you both got naked and then you tripped and your dick ended up in her vagina? Wow imagine the luck"

"Don't be like that"

"Be like what, the heartbroken girl whose boyfriend cheated on them with some slut?"

"I really am sorry if it means anything"

"Were you planning on telling me if James hadn't of seen the memory and forced you to tell me?"

"I was, just not a day after you came home from Michael's trial. I was just going to wait a couple of days"

"So that's what the lollies were for, you were hoping it would soften the blow when you told me?"

"No of course not, I asked mum for them to give to you when you got back from the trial. I know how much lollies make everything better for you"

"I think you should leave" I had been trying so hard to keep the tears back, I wasn't going to let him see me cry. I didn't want him to know just how upset I was by this.

"Dri..." he came over and knelt by my bed so he was looking directly at me

"Please don't do this" my voice was breaking as I spoke

"I really am sorry, please don't let this ruin our friendship. Even though Emily and Stefan are your best friends, you were mine and I can't believe I did something to lose you" he placed his hands on my cheeks and leaned closer to me. Some tears broke through and he wiped them away with his thumbs.

"Exactly, you broke my heart Jer. I opened it up to you and trusted you with everything, all you did was break it and hand it back. I just need time and you need to stop pushing"

"I just hope we can be friends again one day" he had to wipe my tears away again before he softly kissed my forehead. At this point in time I couldn't handle being friends, it was bad enough having to sit next to him in class

Once he did that he stood up and headed for the door. "I mean it Dri, I really am sorry I hurt you this badly" he didn't smile, didn't say anything else but I looked at him once last time before he left and I could see how hurt he was over this as well and I swear I saw him tear up.

Once the door was shut I curled up in my bed and I didn't have to hold the tears back any longer I just let them come out as they pleased.

I wasn't alone for long when my door opened revealing Emily and Stefan. They both came and joined me on my bed and didn't say anything while I cried.

It had been a few days since I had my conversation with Jeremy and Emily and Stefan sat in my room while I cried, I hated that I did that but I was glad to know those two would always stay by my side. Jeremy had done what I requested and gave me space, he didn't even speak to me in Moroi Culture unless I spoke first.

It was lunch and I was trying to ignore the stares I was getting from everyone except James.

"What?" I gave up and looked up at them.

"It's Jeremy, he's miserable over there. You can sit next to him in class and ignore him why can't you let him sit with us and you ignore him" Belle spoke while looking over at him, I followed her eye line and I could tell he was miserable.

"Fine, go get him then" but no one moved. "Seriously I'm not going over there"

"He won't come over here unless you say its fine. He's only staying away because you said you needed time and space if it was possible in class he would move to another seat" this time it was Carter that spoke.

I almost wanted to bang my head on the table but I didn't because I said almost. I didn't want to get up and go over there. I didn't want to let everyone know I had forgiven what he did but I still cared about him enough that I didn't want him to miserable over there and I couldn't keep making my friends pick between us, this didn't involve them.

"Alright fine" I let out a sigh as I pulled out my phone.

Jeremy you can sit with us, just wait till one of them comes and gets you.

"There I sent him a message, now one of you can go get him" I didn't care who went I just went back to my lunch. It was Belle that got up and James moved into her seat beside me.

Ever since James had been included in our group he had been spending his time with us, he said it helped with his Spirit having friends who didn't care if he was constantly reading their emotions. He explained that that was the one ability he couldn't completely shut off and they were fine with it, just as long as he kept quiet about what he felt from them and he did. We all understand the stress he was going through having so many secrets in his head.

"You're doing the right thing" James spoke softly

"I just wish it didn't hurt anymore, I hate going to Moroi Culture" I quickly wiped away the tear that snuck out before Jeremy sat down with Belle at the other end of the table. My phone beeped and it was a message from Jeremy.

Thank you

"So did you all hear that one of the senior novices failed their field experiment?" I didn't want to speak to Jeremy but I couldn't help it, I want to know who and why they failed field experiment.

It was rare when someone failed their field experiment and when they did it was kept quiet until the end of the year and normally they repeated senior year at a different academy, normally by choice. They didn't want the ridicule that came with having to repeat senior year, I know I didn't want it so I was trying my hardest to catch up enough to be allowed to be a part of senior field experience.

"Who was it?"

"Stephanie Collins" everyone at the table was silent, we all knew who she was. She was the novice at the top of the senior class, we all expected a ton of Moroi to flock to her in hopes of her being their Guardian. She would have been at the very bottom of the list to fail field experience.

"How?" James said what everyone was obviously thinking, he would have been the one who didn't care about the seniors. He hadn't been here that long and hadn't gotten to know many seniors.

"No idea, the only thing that got out was the fact that she failed. One of the royals' relative over heard the Guardians at Court talking about it and passed it on to them. They were talking about it yesterday"

After that I tuned out the conversation, it changed not long after from Stephanie to random things we normally talked about.

I was picking at my lunch when James whispered in my ear. "Stopped thinking about it" I turned to him and frowned.

There were times like right now that I hated he was able to read my emotions and the memories when I was concentrating hard enough about them, he said it was like I was shouting them at him. This time I had been thinking about my relationship with Jeremy and my friendship with Jeremy before we even started dating. We were extremely close and I still couldn't believe something happened that ruined it all, I had convinced myself we would be fine and the only reason we would stop dating was because the feelings disappeared and not something like this.

A/N: Melbourne is currently in the middle of a bad thunder storm and it makes for good writing so I'm updating a couple of chapters tonight, I will place a note at the end of all the chapters I'm uploading just so you know what has been uploaded tonight.