thanks for still reading guys i was expecting abuse and only got a little bit! glad u guys trust me to get us where we need to be :)

this is shorter than i wanted but i didnt want to rush this next chapter so as much as you hate me and my cliffhangers you've got another to deal with *winces and ducks*

That night Jane spent soaked in alcohol and tears just as the last time Casey was on the scene. During the night her thoughts flitted back to that night that Maura came over to talk about Casey and they ended up... she put her head in her hands. What the fuck am I doing? When was the last time Casey came over just to see if I was ok? But even as the thoughts crossed her mind the guilt slapped her across the face. He doesn't feel like a real man...and I've cheated on him. The two conflicting sides of her waged a battle that lasted well into the morning. As her alarm sounded she frowned at the time and couldn't help but smile as she noted that a certain medical examiner had adjusted her alarm to an hour earlier. Her smile faded as yesterday came back into her memory and tears filled her eyes. For what must be the countless time now Jane climbed out of bed determined to clear the air with Maura and set things right between them.

The door flung open with no warning and Korsak looked up with a jump.

"What the hell are you doing here?!"

The man looked at the detective guiltily as he petted the animal next to him. "Doctor Isles said it would be okay...I couldn't take any more holiday..."

Jane took a moment to process the scene in front of her. She had arrived at Maura's and psyched herself up for a fight and so hadn't bothered knocking. The last thing she expected to see, however, was her old partner in the medical examiner's living room. As Jane stared at the big soulful eyes staring back at her all the guilt, fear and dread from yesterday and last night sprang back into her throat and sat there like a heavy lump. "Where is he?"

Korsak looked down at Elsie and began to panic. He had promised Casey not to tell her that he had found a surgeon willing to perform the highly risky surgery, but how could he explain away why he was looking after Elsie yet again after only giving her back the day before?

Jane reached into her pocket and called the only person she could think of in that moment.

"Hello. This is Doctor Isles Chief Medical Examiner for the state of Massachusetts. I cannot take your call at the present moment. Please leave your message and a contact number and I shall endeavour to get back to you."

Jane usually laughed or made some joke about the highly formal message but now it just upset and infuriated her. She rushed out of the medical examiner's home without so much as a second look at Korsak. She sped to the BPD and raced into the cafe yelling frantically. "MA! Where's Maur?"

Angela blinked at her screaming daughter momentarily and tried to comprehend what she was yelling about "What?"

Jane scowled at her mother. "Where is Maura?" she growled the question at her flummoxed Ma.

Angela frowned at her flustered daughter with concern "I don't know Janie, she told me last night that she was taking a couple of days." Angela went to walk around the counter when Jane stormed off angrily "Janie?!"

Jane flew down to the morgue and slammed her fist against the door when she found it locked. She momentarily lost control of her emotions and booted her foot into the office door creating a dent in the veneer. She heard a quiet cough behind her and spun on her heel to face Susie.

"D-Doctor Isles has taken some leave Detective." Susie nervously eyed the furious detective.

Jane ground her teeth and tried to reign in her temper "How exactly did she manage to swing leave overnight?!"

Susie was taken aback by the brunette's vicious tone and she frowned "Overnight? We received the memo last week Detective."

Jane wandered back up to the bull pen in a stupor. She booked leave last week? Jane suddenly felt guilt rain down on her like hail. Maybe that's why she wanted to talk. She shook her head as she stalked out through the bull pen. She could hear Frost calling her over her shoulder, she waved him off dismissively "Tell Cavanaugh it's an emergency." She yelled as she made her way outside. Jane sat in her car for a moment, thoughts swirling around her brain unsure of what her next move should be. She had no idea where Casey or Maura were. Her eyes caught a bundle of papers on her back seat and she grabbed them; the stuff Maura brought her that night about Casey's surgery. She flicked through them until she saw a name of a surgeon and the hospital; Mass General. She flicked on the sirens and followed the only lead she had at that moment.

Jane burst through the doors of Massachusetts General Hospital and threw her weight around along with flashing her badge at various staff members until finally somebody relented and confirmed that yes Lieutenant Colonel Charles Jones was indeed a patient in their hospital. It took a bit more shouting and threatening to find out that he was currently in surgery at that very moment. Jane took a couple of steps back and felt very faint all of a sudden. She bumped into someone behind her and barely registered it until person addressed her.

"Jane? Uh, Detective Rizzoli?"

Jane turned and blinked at the vision in front of her she frowned and felt herself swaying and the threat of unconsciousness clung to her. "M-Maur?"