Dear Readers,

Sorry it has been so long! But you are now reading the words of a college graduate * cheers *! I am now going to work my buttocks of trying to get this story finished. I have great plans for this story for it's ending, and sorry to inform you but it won't be a happy one… dun, dun, dunnnnnn. But there may or may not be a sequel… I don't know it's possible. But Shhhhh you didn't hear it from me! Enjoy this chapter because shit is about to go down. GOOD LUCK!

BellaLaila87

Chapter 38- Ten Seconds Left

EPOV- April 13th, 2009

"You did what?!" Jasper screamed at me.

I had my face covered so I couldn't see his face. "I slept with Tanya."

"What the fuck is the matter with you Edward? Are you trying to destroy Bella in every possible way right now?" He was fuming pacing back and forth tugging on his hair. He paused to stare at me well more like glare at me. "You have to tell her Edward."

I stared at him with eyes wide open. "No. I can't do that she'll break up with me! I can't, no she can't know."

Jasper looked at me like I was a psycho. "Edward you have to tell her. And frankly you deserve to be dumped Edward you cheated on her!" He was shaking his head at me, "Even worse you slept with the one person she hates more in the world and who also happens to be your ex girlfriend. You deserve it. You do not deserve her Edward." I felt the anger rise up in me with every word he said. "If you don't tell her I will."

He walked out then. I felt the anger boiling up. God how could I royally screw this up? Why did I have to go to Tanya? If I wasn't high when I had approached Bella I never in a million years. But no I had to make the worst possible decision to go running back to Tanya for more pot, and then when I was high as a kit hanging out with her she went for it and kissed me and then we ended up in bed together. How could I do this to Bella?

Here I told her that I would never hurt her; that I wouldn't let my past get a hold of me and I am back at square one. But as I look at the magazine that is sitting on my counter of her and James, I feel the anger explode inside of me once more. I needed a drink or something. Now that she was gone away, I didn't know where we stood. Are we still together? I mean she didn't say we were broken up but she was pretty pissed. I wouldn't be surprised if she broke up with me without knowing about the whole Tanya situation. But for all I know we would be fine when she got back. Maybe we could talk it out. I don't know if she has already contacted her therapist about what happened between us, but then again from that phone call it seems she has bigger things to worry about. Ugh.

When did my life go to hell?

CPOV

Esme and I had just dropped Emmett and Bella off at the airport. God those children just can't catch a break with this grief. I pray to God that this ends here. That there is no more poison put into their lives.

Between the paparazzi finding Bella, the girls trying to find out what's going on and now this I don't know what I can do anymore. I feel like I am just failing both of them constantly. Charlie must regret making me one of the guardians of his children. Because their world just keeps on falling apart every step of the way and there is nothing I can do to save them.

I have never felt so helpless as a parent. Our children are keeping secrets from us left and right. I have never seen Alice so spiteful. But of course she won't share anything with us so I can't advise her against of what she is doing. She would just roll her eyes and pretend she took the advice. And Edward. God, that boy was spiraling. I could see it he was doing drugs again. Esme and I had been talking over taking him to a therapist in Bella's office. It would be an ultimatum that he would have no choice but to take because the other alternative was rehab.

Bella's eyes looked like they were empty when she told us the news. It wasn't as bad as when her father past away, but it was just as bad. But this time she held herself together solely for Emmett and her I knew. She wouldn't go back into that depression. She had told me she was talking to her therapist and she was helping her so much. Bella felt she could really trust her.

I was grateful for her therapist. She was someone that was helping to bring together the old Bella and the new. I was starting to she the little girl that I once knew who was filled with life and curiosity. Always wanting to be apart of something big and a part of the next adventure.

Seeing her and Emmett get along once more was what truly made me happy. Knowing that they would always be there once more to take care of one another. They had each other through thick and thin.

I turned to Esme as Bella and Emmett disappeared through security. Esme had been crying. It had been a rough few days with all the commotion.

I kissed her on the forehead and wrapped my arm around her shoulder. "Come on dear. Let's go make sure our children aren't reeking havoc all over the place."

She laughed bitterly through her tears and nodded.

Whatever there was that was coming at us, I knew that Esme and I would face it together. No matter what.

APOV- April 15th, 2009

I felt my heart pounding. I couldn't breathe as Jasper told me what Edward had just told him.

Edward slept with Tanya.

Jasper begged me not to say anything to anyone. I swore I wouldn't. Even though I was apart of operation get rid of Bella, it was never my intention for my brother to get hurt in the mix of it all. And for him to be able to cheat on Bella? He must be hurting so much from what those tabloids are saying. I can't believe I was so blindsided that I let it get this far. That I let it hurt Edward in the process. And now he is probably eating himself up with guilt of what he did to Bella.

How could I be such a horrible sister? How could I let him fall so hard and be continuously kicked down when he was at his worst? Jasper told me that he was doing drugs again. Hell that's how Tanya got him to sleep with him! I could kill her. I am in a place where I don't care that she hurt Bella. But I do care that she hurt my brother. Again.

I wanted to run to Rose and call it all off. Because if this was going to continue hurting my family then I couldn't go through with it. I groaned internally though because I remembered the next plan was set in motion. Prom night.

Rose had gotten a hold of James… and well… we had invited him to prom night. He booked a room at the hotel where the prom is being held. He doesn't know that Bella, Rose and I aren't speaking because Bella hasn't spoken to him since the incident with the whole miscarriage thing. I felt a pang in my heart when I heard that. She never called him. So then who has she been contacting? And here we made Edward believe that Bella was cheating on him. Maybe that's why he slept with Tanya.

Jasper held me as I rubbed my face shaking my head. I whispered, "How did this get to be such a mess."

Jasper shook his had against mine, "I don't know Ali. I just don't know."

He held me like that for a good five minutes, soothing my crying. I didn't even know I had started to cry until he told me not to. After a while he pulled me out of his arms. "Ali, this has to stop. You can't go on hating Bella like this it isn't heathly baby. And I don't want you getting hurt and mixed in the cross fire. You and Rose are throwing fire trying to hit Bella but you are just hitting your family in the process."

I knew he was right, what he was saying made complete sense. I didn't want to do this anymore. I may still be angry with Bella and maybe even resent her for a lot of what has happened, but I don't want to live like this anymore. I don't want to be waiting in fear that another shoe is going to drop. I didn't want Edward getting hurt anymore. I didn't want this. I will never want this.

"Okay Jazz. You're right. I don't want this. I want out." He smiled at me and pulled me back into a hug.

I was going to have to tell Rose and Tanya. Boy was that going to blow up in my face. But I was done. I didn't need this anymore. I needed peace to move on to the next chapter of my life. Jasper and I were going to be going to college in New York. I was going to Fashion Institute of Technology and Jasper was going to Columbia University. We were going to have a fresh start.

"You're what?!" Rose screamed at me, her face turning red. Tanya looked at me in shock.

"I don't want to do this anymore. Don't get me wrong I am pissed still with Bella, but I am so done with this. It's not only hurting Bella anymore Rose it's hurting all of us. What happens when this all gets out huh? People will know it's us Rose! Bella is not the only one who will look bad, but so will we. I am tired of hurting everyone that is in our lives. Look at Edward, Rose! He is doing drugs!" I shouted at her. Tanya flinched, I glared at her and her eyes grew wide. "I am done hurting my brother and my family. I'm sorry but I'm done."

I walked out of there while Rose was still yelling out to me. I felt a weight lift off my shoulders. Jasper was waiting for me in their living room. He smiled at me and got up off the couch to kiss me on the lips, "I'm so proud of you Ali."

Sighed, "Thanks Jazz, but you really shouldn't be. This is something that I should have done the moment it all started. I really fucked up this time, but I want to change. I don't want this."

We walked out of the house and to Jasper's car. "You have time to fix this love. It doesn't have to end in tragedy." I nodded trying to figure out how that was possible. "You want to go to the diner? Get some food?"

I smiled at him, he always knew how to make me feel better, "With a double chocolate milk shake with extra whip cream?"

He scoffed jokingly, "How else to you go to eat food at the diner?"

I laughed and leaned over from where I was sitting to get to Jasper and kissed him on the check.

No matter what I did or what I say, I knew that Jasper would always be there for me. He would always bring me back to reality. I thank my lucky stars every day that I have someone as good as him to bring me down to earth when my head gets too inflated and I can't see past the clouds. He knocks sense into me. And I can't imagine a life without this magnificent human being.

What Bella and Rose never knew was that Jasper and I secretly dated when we moved to Los Angles. Jasper called me as soon as we left Seattle to say that he didn't want anyone else, and he didn't want me to meet anyone else while I was in California. He wanted me to be his and his only even if we were apart for a while. He knows me, he has known me my entire life. And even though things change and people change, I know that we will always change together. I know that I always have him by my side.

Forever.

April 20th, 2009

It had been a week since Bella and Emmett were gone. They were arriving on Friday. Jasper said that he thinks I should apologize to Bella. We had quite the fight about that. After what was a two hour long fight Jasper clarified that he thought that Bella sort of owed me an apology as well, and when he said sort of what he meant was all Bella had done was keep secrets, I on the other had was trying to destroy her life and reputation so he thought that my apology to her was most needed.

I couldn't argue with him there.

But to tell the truth, was very frightening. I didn't know if I had the guts or the courage to tell Bella the truth. To tell her that I am sorry and that everything that has happened and that will sadly continue to happen was partially my fault. I told Jasper that I would agree to tell her after prom. Our prom night was this Saturday. I needed some time to collect my thought on how I was going to tell her everything without losing my shit. Because whether or not that I am officially out of the whole mess that Rose and I made, I was still mad at Bella.

She really hurt me. The three of us were all very close that's true, but Bella and I and the closest relationship out of all of us. We joked saying how I was the Monica to her Rachel, the Will to her Charlton, the Cory to her Shawn, the Rory to her Lorelei. We told each other everything even when we felt we couldn't tell Rose. Rose tends to judge. And we knew then that she meant well but we knew that she wouldn't keep her opinion to herself. She wouldn't just listen to what was going on she would tell us the solution to the problem without letting us have a breath in.

I love Rose to death, but Bella and I were a tad bit closer and it killed me when she kept all this stuff from me. She miscarried. How could she not tell me? How could she not come to me? I wouldn't have been mad. I wouldn't have been angry. I would have taken care of her and told Rose for her so that Rose would let all the frustration out on and then give all the love and care to Bella.

There are so many what if's and things that could have gone differently in the last four years. But there was nothing we could do to change it. I know I needed to move on, and by talking to Bella that was the way to do it.

No matter how terrified I am.

RPOV- Friday night April 23rd

I still was fuming.

It had been almost a week since Alice told Tanya and I that she was out.

And I was still so beyond pissed at her. She did not know what she just did. I was going to ruin her.

As soon as I thought those words I felt a pang in my heart. But how could I hurt her like that? It was the same pang that I had felt when we first started this craziness with Bella. How could I hurt my best friend like this?

I thought back to this last year. How could I let us get so out of control? Sure, Bella definitely was the more levelheaded one out the three of us, but I was the sensible one. I was the one that had logic, and facts to back me up before I tried to do anything. And yet here I was hurting my family and anyone that stood in the way of finding out the truth about Bella and her secrets.

What kind of monster had I become?

And when Tanya told me that she had slept with Edward when Bella had left with Emmett to go to Arizona I felt my heart break. That's why Alice had wanted out. That's why she didn't want to be apart of this anymore. Because she had pushed her brother to break his morals and cheat on someone he cared about.

It made sense. But I was still mad. Because we were so close to breaking the truth.

And I wasn't going to let anything stop me. What's done has been done. I can't worry about that now, what I needed to do was find out why Bella is hiding so much from us and what the big secret is.

Not even Emmett could stop me.

BPOV (A rare treat)

I sprinted to the bathroom and lifted up the toilet and began throwing up. I don't know what is wrong with me lately. I have been getting sick every god damn second. I must be getting a virus someone might have given it to me while on the plane.

No that can't be it, because I was throwing up a few days before we left when I was suppose to get…

Oh no…

ESPOV

We had just picked everyone up from the airport. Bella had the flight come in late so that they wouldn't run into anyone because they'd already be asleep.

Bella didn't look to well. She was very pale and she looked very nauseated. We had gotten dinner and she ran into the bathroom to throw up because the smell of the hamburgers made her feel sick. No one else thought anything of it. But I remember how that felt…when I had been pregnant with Edward and Alice.

I shook the thought out of my head though. I knew for a fact that Bella was on birth control and we had taught Edward to be safe when having sex even if the woman already had protection. If Bella had concerns I would let her come to me. But I am sure she just caught something on the plane.

We got to the Swan's house as Emmett carried her in with Bella in tow with her bag. Carlisle and I grabbed Bella and Emmett's bags so that they wouldn't have to worry about it.

I whispered to Bella, "Where is she going to be sleeping?"

She smiled at me, "She's going to be staying in my parents old room." I nodded in approval that was right in between hers and Emmett's room god forbid anything happened.

"When will all of you be heading to New York dear?" I asked with sadness. Bella had told me on the phone while they were in Arizona that she was planning on moving to New York so that they could be together with Emmett.

"We are planning on for after graduation. I want to get her settled in right away. Luckily in Arizona the school year ends early." I nodded in agreement. Though classes didn't end until next week that school agreed to let her leave early considering the circumstances.

Bella hesitated but turned, "Esme, I need to ask a favor without any judgment."

I looked at her in surprise, "Well of course dear, you can ask anything." I placed my hand on her shoulder as Bella lead us in the leaving room where Carlisle and Emmett were out of ear shot.

Bella fidgeted with her hands for a moment before she looked at me with fearful eyes, "Would you be able to purchase me a pregnancy test?" She whispered, leaning into to me otherwise I wouldn't have heard her.

My eyes grew wide, so my suspicion was right.

She rushed to speak when I didn't say anything right away, "I am not sure if I am, well you know, but I am going through very similar symptoms as I did when I last got pregnant. And on top of that I missed my period. I thought I missed it what with everything going on. But then I started getting sick during our stay in Arizona." Then she began to look scared, "And I don't want to go to store and buy one myself in case the paps see and then it ends up in the magazine and then Edward finds out." She looked at me with the most fearful eyes.

I took Bella's hands in mine so it would sooth her. "Of course Bella. I actually have one at home I can run and get it for you right now if you would like."

She sighed in relief and nodded. I got up and let Carlisle know that I had to grab something for Bella. When he asked what I said tampons which shut him right up. Both him and Emmett had gapping mouths will turning away. I laughed to myself. It was so easy to make men uncomfortable.

While walking over there I ran into Alice who was sitting in the kitchen looking lost.

I stopped for a moment, "Alice, dear, are you alright?" She jumped apparently not even realizing that I was there.

She sighed loudly, "No, mom, I'm not." She started getting teary eyed and began crying.

I ran over to her and hugged her as she cried into my arms. She turned her head from her hands and into my chest as I soothed her telling her not to cry.

That's when she told me everything. About what her and Rose were doing about how it all ended up hurting everyone around them and how she couldn't do it anymore and how she wanted to Bella she was sorry but she didn't know how because she was still angry with her.

I watched as my little girl was handed a major conflict in life. I wiped her tears off her cheek as she told me how she was scared and didn't know what to do when it came to apologizing to Bella when she was still so angry with her.

I had her go in the bathroom to wash her face, and when she came back I finally spoke. "I'm not going to lie Alice, I am a bit disappointed in you that you both went to all this trouble to hurt your friend." She looked down at her hands in shame, I lifted her chin up so that she would look at me, "But I am proud of you that you were strong enough to get yourself out of this mess. And that you are being brave enough to go to Bella and apologize even though you still are hurt." I pushed her hair out of her eyes, "It's not going to be easy sweetheart. I can tell you that much, but it's something that needs to be done. You need to be the bigger person in this fight and tell Bella the truth. And who knows maybe in the end she will tell you the truth of what has been going on in her life."

She looked at me surprised; she sniffled and said, "Do you really think so? Do you think Bella will trust me again to tell me the truth?"

I smiled at her with sympathy, "I'm not sure dear, but I know that she will appreciate your apology. I know that she will see it as you trying to make amends to the whole situation. I know that Bella has a big heart, and with your apology she will start to begin to forgive you."

She smiled slightly, "I don't know if Bella and I will ever be friends again. But I know that I will feel better once I apologize." I nodded with her. My little girl was growing up, and I couldn't be more proud of her that she was being an adult and owning her mistakes. That took a lot of guts for sure.

Remembering Bella, I hopped out of my seat and told her I would be back, that Bella needed tampons. She nodded and then her eyebrows furrowed, "Wow. Her period is really late. She was supposed to get that two weeks ago."

Alice laughed at my expression, "Sorry mom, we lived together for two years, I know Bella's cycle. Whatever was happening in Arizona must have been really stressful since it pushed her period back so far." I gave her a small smile and ran upstairs to empty out the tampon box and put the pregnancy test box in there. I made sure that the test hadn't expired.

I saw Bella pacing anxiously in the living when I got back. I apologized telling her that Alice had needed to talk to me. She nodded and grabbed the box from me and asked me if I would come upstairs with her. Of course I told her that I would.

We paced anxiously waiting for the results. God I forgot what it was like waiting for the results on one of these things!

When the timer went off on Bella's phone we both looked at one another with wide eyes and I motioned for Bella to look at the stick.

She hesitated but picked it up and began to cry and showed me the stick.

Well looks like I'm going to be a grandmother.

A/N: Well that was a rollercoaster. Hope you guys enjoy this chapter! Please review your thoughts and dreams and angry screams. ;). I know it is a lot to take in. And a terrible cliffhanger but I couldn't resist!

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BellaLaila87