Fracture of Lies

Evilous

Disclaimer: Usual disclaimer, I don't own Moonlight. I do however own my original characters, hehe so I guess I do own something.

Chapter 38: My Dearest Beth

After removing the tags from her new wardrobe and sending them down to be dry cleaned Beth ordered room service to be delivered. While she waited for her dinner Beth glanced at her purse then to the bathroom and decided to take a relaxing bath. She soaked her mind replaying Candice's words over and over in her mind until she heard room service at the door.

Getting out of her not so relaxing bath Beth slipped into a robe and let room service in. She tipped the nice man and then enjoyed her meal. Unable to stand it any longer Beth slipped into the dark blue Henley she had bought, her normal sleeping attire when she wore anything at all, but it wasn't the same, it didn't smell of Mick. She shrugged and grabbed the letter from her purse before crawling into bed.

After she was situated she took a few deep breathes and opened the letter. It was written in Mick's elegant hand her heart starting to speed up and she hadn't even started to read.

My Dearest Beth,

I know you're hurt and mad but please read this. I know I should be telling you this in person but I find myself tongue tied around you I can't seem to find the words. Please know I love you with all of my heart and knowing that I am the reason for your pain cuts deep into my soul. I have never and will never cheat on you my Beth.

I know there is no excuse for what happened, for lying to you, but please at least read my explanation. When I first meet with Coraline I had no idea it was her, she presented herself to me as Morgan Vincent, the photographer who turned in the incriminating photos. I thought I was seeing a ghost when she walked into my office but she was human Beth, human and alive. It couldn't have been Coraline, or at least that's what I told myself, I never dared hope there was a cure.

She stated her case, that someone had broken into her apartment and gone through her things and she felt she was being followed. I took the case, I know I should have turned her away but Candice had referred her to me and I knew you would be looking for her to interview her. You had just started getting over your nightmares and I didn't want you meeting the woman who looked so much like Coraline, sending you back to them.

I worked with her for a week, yes I lied to you for a week and I am gravely sorry for that but she really was being followed by a vampire and I needed to understand. I thought maybe someone like me thought she was Coraline, but they would have to see she wasn't she was human.

The night you came in, the night I would give anything to erase, I managed to get the plates of the man following her, and it was one of Josef's men watching her. I walked her up to her place I was going to check it out first make sure it was clear. The door was rigged with an explosive; I heard it and had enough time to get us out of the way. We were filthy and she was shaken up. We stayed to talk to the police and EMS cleared her.

On top of the mountain of things I did wrong I added another. She was afraid to be alone and I had no idea who had tried to kill her. I brought her back here so she could get cleaned up. I didn't think it through and I know that. She showered upstairs, I cleaned up downstairs. I needed to feed, I was feeling weak. I wanted to get that done while she was in the shower; I still thought it was Morgan.

I had a missed call from Josef I listened to the message while I drank it sounded urgent. When I called him back he told me about Coraline, he told me she was Morgan that there was a cure. I was so shocked by his words I hung up the phone replaying over all the time I had spent helping Morgan and all the times I thought she may have been Coraline, I wasn't crazy.

Then she was right behind me in a towel. I pushed her away and questioned her, and she said just what Josef had told me. She was Coraline and there is a cure. I was so excited Beth. All I could think of is you, what this could mean for us Beth. The next thing I know she is kissing me and glass is shattering. The look in your eyes…I would die a thousand deaths if I could erase your pain. I know there is no good excuse for my lies, I know we promised we would be honest with each other but I was trying to protect you. Seems insignificant now, how much pain I ended up causing you.

Beth, please read this letter and know that you are my heart and soul. I love you. Please come home baby.

Yours Forever,

Mick St. John

By the time she reached the end of the letter tears were making her vision blurry, she could see where he had cried writing it small tear drops making the ink smudge in a few places. Her heart ached for him, for the safety and love she felt in his arms. Beth knew after reading the letter, really she knew it all along; that Mick had not cheated on her there was an explanation. Had it been any other woman she would never have ran out but up to the slut in his arms and shown her whose man he was.

But it wasn't any other woman it was Coraline. His sire, his ex wife, the woman who drove him crazy with love so strong he married her in only a month. They were connected in a way she couldn't understand, that she may never let her understand. How could she compete with that? Coraline comes back into town, even just in looks and Mick starts lying to me. His need to protect me, his need to be a gentlemen even to that whore I understand its how he was raised, one of the things I love about him. But as much as he loves me she is still able to pull his strings, hold his love, they are connected.

He wanted her to come home, she thought about home, all the memories of them in the loft and a smile came to her face. Her mind playing over their times and conversations their declarations of love, only to be stomped away by images of Coraline in his arms. Yes she knew it meant nothing, probably her sneaky way to drive them apart, but the image was still there. She hated that she was too weak and she was giving that hooker just what she wanted. The image that lead the way for her imagination to play out their life, their wedding his passionate love, she had seen that love before.

She wanted desperately to go home, to go to Mick and tell him she loved him, that everything would be okay…but she couldn't. No matter how badly she wanted to hold him, irrational or not she couldn't. Knowing what she had to do Beth cleaned herself up and got dressed. She needed to speak to him in person, tell him she believes him and is sorry.

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To Be Continued…

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