I don't own the song: The man – by Aloe Blacc
Here is chapter 38, thankyou everyone for the lovely reviews and all the following and favourites I have got recently. Would like to say hi to all the new readers you guys are great along with the all my since-the-beginning readers! Anyway happy reading and please leave a review! :)
CH38 – An Escape
Katniss POV
I scatter through the trees and the tears pour down my cheeks. I just wanted to make things right. I never wanted to loose Gale. I stop at the very edge of the tree lining, hiding myself from the eyes of the people hanging around camp grounds. I take a few deep breaths and quickly wipe my tears. If Gale doesn't think it is worth fighting for our friendship and working something out then neither do I. I'm going to find Annie and tell her everything and hopefully she will help me sort things out.
I compose myself and remerge from the tree line and back onto the camp grounds. I walk to our tent hoping that Annie will still be there so I can talk things over with her.
"Thank god you're still here, Annie!" I say when I walk through the tent door. Annie was packing a small brown bag and looked up to me when I spoke.
"Oh, yeah, I'm meeting Finnick soon though" she says. She leaves what she is doing and walks over to me, a look of worry showing on her face "have you been crying? Katniss, what happened?" she asks before pulling me into a comforting hug. I try and stop the tears that are prickling in my eyes but it's no use; within seconds I'm sobbing into her shoulder and she is rubbing my back calmingly.
"I'm sick of crying" I tell her truthfully. I swear I have done way more crying in the last 6 days than I have in a whole year. Annie laughs and pulls me down to her bed.
"Okay, so explain" she says and I position myself so one leg is tucked under me and the other is still off the bed.
"I went to the waterfall, the one behind the camp grounds and gale was there, I talked to him about us… but it didn't go well and he brought up me losing my dad and that I know what it is like to not be able to have the one you love… he was pretty much saying that I should stop acting like a bitch to him… so I ended up storming off crying. Doesn't exactly sound like me, but you know" I explain and Annie nods her head.
"so, to solve this, you let Gale calm down, you go hang out with Peeta, maybe tomorrow or the day after you try talking to Gale again and tell him exactly how you feel" Annie says and I can't be more happy that she is so good at giving advice, it seems strange though, for someone so quiet and unnoticed like Annie to be able to give such great advice. I guess she been able to watch people closer because they never noticed her.
"Okay" I say, pulling her into a tight hug. I'm not much of a hugger and Annie knows this, but over these past 6 days and I felt like I need to express how grateful I am to have Annie than I use to.
"Now you go have fun" I tell her as I pull away giving her a small smile. The blush on her cheeks is noticeable even with her dark tan.
"I'll see you later, Katniss" Annie says, grabbing her bag then giving me a quick hug, she then rushes through the tent door and leaves me standing in the quietness of the tent. The evening sun is shining through the window lighting up the small floating particles that dance through the air like ballerinas. I sit down on the canvas flooring of the tent with my knees to my chin and my arms wrapped around them. I want some time just to escape everything that is happing in my social life at the moment. I check my phone for the time; it is only 4:00pm. I get up with a plan to escape reality just for a little while. I grab my backpack and place my phone, earphones, a blanket and my wallet in. I get changed into a comfy pair of cotton shorts with floral print and a tight singlet with I tuck into the shorts. I walk out the tent and head in the direction of the small deli thing to get some food. I buy a packet of chips, a bottle of coke, a few chocolate bars and some red liquorish. I thank the lady at the counter and put the food into my bag.
I begin to walk, to where… I don't exactly know. I just plan to walk until I find somewhere I like and sit down and forget about everything that happened today. I head in the direction of the camp gate; I know that I will never be able to escape if I'm stuck in the camp grounds. I head towards the forest that sits far back off the shore of the beach. The darkness of the canopy of trees engulfs me and I let out a sigh of relief. I know that anywhere in here is good. I wonder through the maze of trees and overgrowth. The quiet scattering of small animals running from my presence, the high chirps of flying birds up above, the soothing sound of water flowing in the distance all helps me relax, it feels like home. I begin to hum quietly as I watch my footing on the bumpy ground. The birds begin to join in with the hum of my melody and I can't help but smile at the sound of the different pitches echoing through the trees of the forest. I'm not completely sure what song I'm humming to until the words begin to leave my mouth.
Girl you can tell everybody
Yeah you can tell everybody
Go ahead and tell everybody
I'm the man, I'm the man, I'm the man
Yes I am, yes I am, yes I am
I'm the man, I'm the man, I'm the man
I begin to laugh. I'm happy that it wasn't some depressing song that came to mind as I walked through the forest but one that was about confidence and not caring what people say.
I believe every lie that I ever told
Paid for every heart that I ever stole
I paid my cause and I didn't fold
Well it ain't that hard when you got soul
Somewhere I heard that life is a test
I been though the worst but still I give my best
God made my mold different from the rest
Then he broke that mold so I know I'm blessed
I continue to sing and the birds continue to chirp out the melody of the song. This is the escape I need and I'm so happy I found it here. After a few more moments of singing and walking through the soothing forest, the trees begin to thin out and the light seeping through the leaves becomes brighter. Before I know it I'm standing in a large meadow filled with blooming flowers of blue, purple, pink and a patch of yellow in the very middle. The sight is breathtaking, a little hidden getaway in the middle of the forest. The sight looks contradicting in a way, the brightness of the open, flowering meadow makes the forest surrounding it looks like a dark, dangerous place when really, the meadow is probably the more dangerous place to be, out in the open for any predator to attack. It just seems to show that looks can be deceiving. I'm not scared of the wild animals though, if I don't bother them, they won't bother me. I pull out the blanket and lay it out in the meadow, I pull out the food and place it next to me and stick in my earphones and listen to music on my phone. The escape I needed.
