Chapter 38

A few weeks went by before Jenna heard from Cody again. He had called late one night, after Mandy had gone to bed. Randy was in St. Louis for a few days and the couple was sitting on the couch, catching up and flipping through the channels on the TV when the phone rang. Randy picked up the phone without thinking, or any protest from Jenna. She was slowly letting herself become comfortable with him; and the scary part to Jenna was that she didn't even realize it had been happening.

"Hello," Randy said gruffly into the phone.

Cody held back a sigh. Of course Randy would there with Jenna tonight; he was always with her whenever he got a chance to be in St. Louis for a couple of days. "Can I talk to Jenna, please," he said quietly as he fought like hell to resist the urge to jump through the phone and beat the hell out of Randy for even thinking of putting his hands on his beautiful Jenna. He hadn't spoken to her since Mandy's birthday party, except for the few seconds when he asked if Mandy was available to speak to him.

Cody heard Randy cover the receiver with his hand; he could hear him asking Jenna if she wanted to talk to him. After a few seconds of arguing back and forth, Jenna finally came on the phone.

"Hello?"

"Jenna it's Cody," he said lamely. Of course she knew it was him; what was it about her that turned him in a nervous high school kid trying to ask the pretty girl to the Homecoming dance? Hell, he used to be the nervous high school kid trying to score a date with the Homecoming Queen.

"Yeah, it's kind of late, Cody. Is everything all right," she asked quietly as she braced herself for some horrible news; like him and Layla had decided to get married or something along those lines.

"Well, no. I was calling to let Mandy know that she's a big sister."

Silence. Jenna could feel her heart literally breaking in two right now. "Oh," she whispered.

"Um, yeah, Layla had a little girl...seven pounds, five ounces, twenty inches long."

"What...what did you two name her," Jenna said quietly as she swallowed the lump in her throat and didn't bother to wipe away the tears that were streaming down her face. Randy watched his girlfriend break down and went to put a reassuring arm around her shoulders, but she shrugged him off and continued to listen to Cody on the phone.

"McKenzie Elise," he said softly. "I know, its late, but I wasn't sure when I would get another chance to call. Could you please sit down with Mandy and let her know tomorrow?" he asked nervously. I'll try to call later this week and set up a time for her to meet her little sister."

Jenna nodded, "Yeah, I'll do that," she whispered before she hung up the phone and tossed it on the floor. She took one look at the concerned look on Randy's face and then promptly burst into tears. Another sign from Cody that it was truly over between them.

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An hour later, Jenna was sitting on the edge of her bed, knees pulled up to her chest, still bawling her eyes out, while Randy sat next to her and felt completely helpless. How was he supposed to make her stop crying when she wouldn't listen to anything he had to say. He tried rubbing her back and whispering that it was all right, she just cried harder. He tried pulling her close to him and kissing the top of her head, she gently slapped him away. So there he sat; and watched his girlfriend of almost five months cry over her ex-husband.

She finally stopped sobbing long enough to lift her head and look at Randy. "I'm sorry..." she mumbled. "You just got back from the road and you're spending your time off watching me cry..." she whispered as she leaned her head on his broad shoulder and let him put his arm around her shaking shoulders.

"It's all right, Jenna. There's no where I'd rather be than right here with you..." he mumbled as he held her close. "Are you done crying?" Jenna nodded. "You knew this day was coming eventually. It's just another sign that he doesn't love you anymore and that he's moved on, Jenna." Randy reached out and lifted her chin with his fingers, making her look at him. "I don't like to see you cry, especially over someone as worthless as Cody. Let me make you happy..." he whispered as he leaned in and kissed her gently on the mouth, his fingers wandered to the back of her head, running through her soft hair, pulling her closer to him. "I can help you forget him for good. Just let me. Look how far we've come already, don't give up on being happy. I can help you get there," he whispered as he shifted his weight so she laid down on the bed. Very slowly and carefully he climbed on top of her and settled in between her legs. "Just let me," he whispered again as his fingers started unbuttoning her shirt and he slipped his large hands inside her shirt and smiled slightly when he felt how warm and soft her skin was.

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"Jenna," Randy whispered in her ear as he slid his boxer shorts off and hovered above her. He leaned down and kissed her sweet mouth. "Are you sure you want to do this?" he asked softly as he pushed some hair out of her eyes. She nodded and motioned over to the nightstand. He opened the top drawer and pulled out a condom. Slipping it on, he looked down at her; she never looked more beautiful than she did right now. His persistence had paid off, he had gotten what he wanted from her. With a few more gentle kisses on her neck, he pushed his way inside her. She let out a muffled cry as she felt him slide into her, stretching her to the limits. "Shit..." she mumbled as he started moving in and out. Jenna closed her eyes and tried to think of anything but Cody. And Layla. And their new perfect baby girl.

Randy brought her back to him with a gentle bite to her ear lobe. She opened her eyes and smiled as he smirked at her and quickened his pace. She could feel it coming; it felt so damn good. It had been so long since she had been touched and loved like this.

He must have turned the radio on when she was sobbing earlier, because her ears picked up the faint sound of an old song. She closed her eyes and tried to get lost in the moment while she listened to the lyrics.

I would have given you all of my heart But there's someone who's torn it apart And he's taken just all that I have But if you want I'll try to love again Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

Randy picked up his pace, alternating between attacking her breasts and her neck with his mouth. "Jenna..." he murmured in her ear. "Fuck...Jenna. You feel so damn good," he growled in her ear as he moved in and out of her even faster. Jenna closed her eyes and enjoyed the immense pleasure that Randy was giving her right now. She started whispering his name as she pulled him closer to her and brought his mouth down to hers.

The first cut is the deepest Baby I know The first cut is the deepest But when it comes to bein' lucky, he's cursed When it comes to lovin' me, he's worst...
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"Are you still thinking about him,"Randy asked as Jenna rested her head on his broad chest, closing her eyes at the sensation of his fingers running through her dark hair.

She shook her head, but inside she could still see Cody's face. She saw him on their first date, the homecoming dance, the prom, their first wedding night. She saw his proud face when the nurse handed him Amanda for the first time in the delivery room. She saw his smiling face when she promised to love him forever. She ached for him; but he had moved on and left her behind.

I still want you by my side just to help me dry the tears that I've cried And I'm sure gonna give you a try If you want I'll try to love again, (try) Baby, I'll try to love again, but I know...

"Tell me the truth, Jenna," he asked softly as he shifted so she was sitting up and looking at him. Jenna took a deep breath and decided to let herself go and try to love someone again. It was going to be hell trying to stop loving Cody, she had no idea how she was going to get over him. He had been part of her life for so long. Randy reached out and touched her cheek. Looking into his sincere blue eyes, Jenna knew what she had to do. She had to let Cody go and let herself learn to love someone else. No matter how much it hurt. This was for the best. Cody had moved on; it was time for her to do the same.