Chapter 36: Nothingness.
Zero's POV
Yuuki gasped, "I-I'm sorry, Zero! I didn't mean that... I-I should go back to my dorm," she stammered as she started walking away.
I grabbed her wrist to stop her, "Yuuki, it's fine," I said, "I know you didn't mean it."
Tears started welling up in her eyes, "Zero," she whispered.
At that moment, it felt like some invisible force was pulling me towards Yuuki. It was the sound of a snapping twig that made me stop.
I instantly looked in the direction of the sound, and I saw Akane just standing there with tears in her eyes.
"Akane," I said under my breath.
As soon as I looked at her, she started running back in the direction of the Moon Dormitory.
Damn it...
"Akane," I shouted, running after her.
Soon enough, we were in the dormitory, and she was quickly walking up the stairs.
I sighed heavily as I followed behind her.
Kaname stopped me the moment I approached him. He grabbed me by my arm and glared at me, "What did you do?"
"None of your damn business," I huffed as I jerked my arm away from him, and continued walking down the hallway. As soon as I got to Akane's door, I tried to open it.
It's locked...
"Akane, let me in," I said as I started knocking on the door.
"Why," she asked, clearly upset.
After that, we got into an argument, and I sighed heavily, "I don't want to argue anymore." With that, I walked away and went back to the Sun Dormitory.
The moment I left, I felt like my heart had dropped.
Is this really how things are going to be?
I looked up at the ceiling as I laid on my bed. "Damn it," I cursed under my breath.
I wasn't about to kiss Yuuki... was I? No... That's stupid. I'd never do that to Akane...
A knock on the door interrupted me from my thoughts.
I sighed heavily as I got up and opened the door.
Yuuki stood there, looking down at the ground, "I-I'm sorry, Zero... You and Akane got into an argument because of me, didn't you?"
I leaned against the door frame and sighed, "No, Yuuki, it's not your fault."
"So you did get into an argument," she said quietly.
"Yeah," I mumbled.
She looked up at me with determination in her eyes, "I'll make it up to you!"
I furrowed my brows, "How?"
"I'll help you think of a way to get Akane to forgive you," she huffed.
I simply sighed and shook my head, "It's fine, Yuuki."
She pouted her lip, "Are you sure?"
I nodded, "Yeah, I'm sure. I just need time to think about this by myself."
She sighed, "Alright... I'll see you later."
"Later," I said as I shut the door. I walked back over to my bed and sat down. I looked down at the ground as I held my head in my hands.
Akane... I can't even imagine how you must feel right now...
"I am so sorry," I whispered.
Akane's POV
I twirled around the ring on my left hand as I expressionlessly stared at the wall.
In that moment, I felt like absolutely nothing. I felt as if everything around me was just an illusion. A fake reality... made just to taunt me.
"What should I do," I asked myself absently.
Just then, there was a knock on my door.
I slowly looked over at the door.
"Akane," Kaname said from the other side of the door, "Can I come in?"
I didn't respond, I just sat there and looked back over at the wall.
The door opened and Kaname walked in. He quietly shut the door and walked over to me. He sat beside me on the bed and stared at me worriedly, "Akane."
Again, I didn't respond.
He sighed and wrapped his arms around me, "I'm so sorry, Akane."
Sorry? For what? Oh, that's right... This isn't an illusion, it's all real... Everything that happened last night was real...
Without even noticing it, tears began rolling down my face.
Kaname wiped away one of the tears with his thumb, "It's fine if you don't want to talk about it. If you want to cry, just... go ahead. I'm here for you."
The tears just wouldn't stop coming. I buried my face in his chest as I wrapped my arms around his waist, "I-I don't know w-what to do..."
He gently stroked my hair as he spoke, "You don't have to do anything. It's all going to be alright."
"A-Alright," I asked, "H-How can you be s-so sure? He almost k-kissed Y-Yuuki... It's n-not going to be alright..."
He rested his head on top of mine as he continued to run his fingers through my hair, "Trust me, Akane. He loves you more than anything in the world, and nothing can replace that," it sounded as if he were speaking for himself, "He wants to be with you more than anything, and he's willing to give up anything and everything just to see you smile. You need to understand, Akane."
I sniffled, "T-That seems too hard to believe."
"Why is that," he asked.
I pulled away from him and wiped my eyes, "Because it hurts... it seriously hurts to see him even look at another girl with such amorous eyes. The worst part about it is that I know he used to have feelings for that girl. And what he did, it... it makes me feel like I'm not good enough... like I'm absolutely nothing... He can never care for me the way he cared about her..."
Kaname put his hand on my shoulder as he looked at me intently, "You're right, he can't. You want to know why? It's because he didn't love her. That's why he can't care for you the way he cared for her. He simply liked her, yet he loves you. People make mistakes, Akane. I'm almost certain that he regrets what he did."
I looked down at the ground as tears fell from my eyes, "C-Can I just be a-alone?"
He hesitantly stood up and started walking towards the door. He paused as he stepped in the doorway, "Just know that I'm always here for you," with that, he left and shut the door behind him.
I hugged my knees as I hung my head lowly, "I just want to go back to feeling like absolute nothingness... because then, I wouldn't have to feel anything..."