"Dream as if you'll live forever, Live as if you'll die today." – James Dean
Alright, everyone… now I know that maybe last chapter some of you saw it coming and maybe you didn't but please don't hate me! Anyways I'd like to dictate this chapter to world renowned actor James Dean. He was a great actor.
Chapter Thirty-four
I woke up feeling slightly disoriented. I heard this strange beeping sound. I wondered if the alarm was set for some strange reason. I sat up and looked around. I looked down and there was and IV in my arm. I realized I was in the hospital. I tried to recall what happened last night.
I just keep remembering glimpse, not the whole picture.
"Bella just relax…" I leaned back against my pillow.
"Bells…" Just wanted him to go away. I remembered… Keenan was here for me… I was dying. My nagging headache was back. it hurt so bad I needed to do something.
"Head…" I muttered. I opened my eyes and saw a bed pan under my nose, in good timing too. I vomited.
I heard someone come running into the room.
"You call?" Said a voice, which only made me vomit again. I fell back against the bed as I opened my eyes and saw a doctor.
"Hello Bella." The doctor said. It was the same doctor who had been with me while we were here for Izzy.
"So, I hear you've got terrible headaches?" He asked. I nodded. "Do they hurt so bad that you have too…" He said.
"Vomit?" I asked soundly unlike me. I was more cynical.
"Yes." He said. I nodded.
"We're going to run some tests… but before we do that you're friends would like see you." He said and smiled and backed out of the room. I laid there enjoying my silence.
"Bella… come on now…"
"Just shut up." I snapped. Everyone came in and Keenan stood on my left side.
"Hey Bella!" Jasper said as he came in and hugged me. "How are you feeling?" He asked. I shrugged.
"Alright." I muttered. Everyone fussed over me. I just stared at Keenan who was leaning against the back wall staring at me. Looking solemn and scared. I wanted to make him feel better but I was the only one who could see him so… there I was stuck wanting to help but not sure how too.
I went to get tested. Nobody was in my room expect Keenan.
"Alright, would you like me to send your friends in?" asked the nurse.
"No… I'd actually like to sleep a little… I've got a terrible headache." I said. She nodded and headed out and closed the door.
"Keenan… why do you look so scared?" I whispered feeling scared myself. I wanted to know why I was dying… but I wanted to know why now.
"Because Bells… this is tough watching you go through this… knowing you'll be in pain." He whispered.
"Keenan… I'm fine." I whispered.
"I know you are… Bella… I know." He whispered as the door opened.
"Bella… I got the results back… I thought you'd like to know." He said as he shut the door. He looked sat. I waited.
"You've got stage four brain cancer." He said slowly. He kept speaking but I didn't understand what he was saying. I have brain cancer.
"That's what's causing the headaches?" I asked.
"Yes… and you may be having hallucinations. Which would better explain this." He said. I nodded.
"So, what do we do?" I asked.
"Radiation… it'll be rougher stage two radiation but I think it'll help… you'll be tired and groggy. But it should terminate the cancer with out brain surgery." He said. I nodded.
"Should I send your friends in?" he asked. I shook my head, "I need a minute." I said. he nodded and left the room.
"Keenan…" I whispered, he'd disappeared. "I'm scared now." I said. I'd finally fallen asleep waiting for him to show up.
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Movie I'd like to recommend:
Watchmen
Defiance