Chapter 38: Zuma's Challenge.
"This should be a piece of cake", I said to myself as I walked across the sandy beach, all I have to do is face my biggest fears and I pass my challenge sounds simple enough. I'm not scared of anything after all so this challenge should be easy., I mean yeah I get scared but i'm not afraid of anything on this earth.
"Ah Zuma", I turned around to see Miss Destiny standing behind me, "what am I going to do with you?"
"What do you mean?" I asked her, Destiny slowly walked closer to me.
"You see Zuma while we are in this void of mine I can tell what your greatest fears are the second you walk, I also so know your past, knowing all of these things me and brothers, sister, and daughter put together your challenge. But you see the problem I currently have is that we don't know how to do your challenge", Destiny told me.
"That's because i'm not scawed of anything Miss Destiny", I said with confidence.
"Yes you are you are just really good at hiding it and honestly if we do this challenge you might not be able to complete this challenge", I looked at her funny.
"What do you mean, why wouldn't I be able to complete my challenge and why awe you having twouble making it?" I watched as Miss Destiny sighed and sat down on the ground.
"Because I have never done a challenge with a pup who has attempted to kill himself 20 times", I my eyes widened and my heart began to beat faster and faster, I could feel sweat began to run down my face.
"What awe you talking about Miss Destiny why would I want to kill myself!" I said quickly.
"Don't know, why would you want to kill yourself Zuma?" I watched as her eyes turned blue with a green star, at that moment I could feel her eyes staring straight into my soul.
"I don't know what you awe talking about", Miss Destiny stood back up and slowly walked towards me.
"Zuma you can't deny this anymore not in my void, this is one of my 3 personal voids, this is the void of truth, you cannot hide anything while in this void so just admit it", I could my body shaking to it's core I couldn't move, my heart was racing.
"Fine I admit it I've tried to kill myself 20 times!" I shouted.
"Why did you try to kill yourself", I took a deep breath to try and calm myself down.
"Back in my home town pups used to tease me a lot be cause I couldn't pwonoun cewtain lettews?"
"I've notice that you can't say the letter R".
"It was weally weally hawd dealing with them", I looked out towards the water, "they towmented me all because I had twouble speaking like them".
"So are you going to tell the rest of the story or not", I looked at her surprised.
"That is everything Miss Destiny ", I told her.
"Fine Zuma then let's hope you are strong enough to face off against your past, all of your past!" The moment she said that the whole environment change, I was back at a beach house, I almost gasped I remember this beach house this where I used to live with my family!
"Well well well if it isn't the retard!" I felt my blood boil in fury I turned around to see my long time bully, Randy he was a golden retriever pup and he was horrible Randy and his gang always made fun of me every chance he got.
"What do you want Wandy?" Maybe my challenge was to stand up to these guys.
"What do want Wandy?" He said in a poor imitation of my voice but his friends still laughed with him.
"Leave me alone Wandy i'm not scawed of you!" I shouted at him.
"Zuma buddy old pal of mine if you aren't scared of me than why did you try to kill yourself just to avoid me?" Randy took a couple steps towards me.
"That was in the past i'm not afwaid of you any mowe", I yelled, Randy only smirked at me.
"If you're not scared of me than tell me what are you afraid of?" I raised my eyebrow at him.
"What awe you talking about?" Suddenly I felt a darkness over me unlike anything I have ever felt before.
"What are you doing back here?" I knew that voice I hated that voice, and most of all I feared that voice more than anything in the world. I slowly turned around, "answer me when I talk to you!" With one powerful slap I was knocked to ground, "what part of answer me don't you understand retard!"
"Dad please stop!" I cried out in pain as he stepped on my head forcing me into the sand.
"Shut up!" He lifted me up by my collar, "look at you pathetic!" He throw me back down onto the ground, when he did that I took off running. Suddenly he appeared in front of me, "where the hell do you think your going".
"Please leave me alone you awen't suppost to be hewe!" I backed up in fear I felt myself bump into someone I turned around to see Randy standing behind me with a smirk on his face.
"Calm down bro dad isn't going to kill you", I pushed Randy away from me, I was almost hyperventilating at this point. I screamed in pain as my dad hit me across the head knocking me down.
"Don't hit your brother!" What! No it wasn't possible Randy was always my bully he wasn't my brother.
"Dad don't be to hard on the retard you know it runs in his family", Randy walked over and pushed me to the ground. "Sorry about that retard I accidently slipped!"
"You awen't my bwothew leave me alone!" I screamed earning myself a slap from someone else.
"Shut up! Honestly I don't understand why they would send such a retard to our family!" I turned around to see another golden retriever. She was looking down on me with stern glare, it was my mother this was my foster family.
"Please just let m-".
"Let you want! Honestly you foster brats ask for too much!" I stood to my feet by my dad knocked me back down, he slammed his paw down on my neck
"If you want to stand up retard you say master please let me up!" I felt tears rushing to my eyes, I couldn't breath, my chest was on fire I couldn't move.
My mother lowered herself down to the ground she looked me straight in my eyes "just say it little bitch!"
"Please master let me up", I watched as a sick and twisted smile spread across my mom's face.
"That is much better", she patted my cheek, "we will soon make an obedient dog very soon".
Suddenly everything faded back to white and standing there was Miss Destiny, I reached up to wipe my tears away, "tell me Zuma what is your fear".
"I'm scawed of my adoptive pawents, i'm swared of people making fun of my speech pwoblems", I admitted.
"No Zuma I know what you really are afraid of!" I looked up at Destiny but she disappeared I looked around and I was back at the beach house, I was inside the house where I lived with my adoptive parents, brother and my new owners. I was alone in the kitchen with only a lite candle with me, I looked to my left and screamed laying on the floor beside me was me! My throat had been cut and open and I was bleeding heavily, I couldn't stand to look I turned to my right and screamed again. Another me only there was a knife sticking inside my head, I turned around to run away, behind me was another me only I was hanging from what seemed to be a belt. Everywhere I turned it showed all the different ways I had tried to kill myself, drowning in the sink, drowning in the bathtub, razor blades here, my owner's gun there, every single time I had tried to kill myself.
"Stop it! Stop showing me this!" I screamed as the life bodies of myself got up and started walking closer to me.
"Kill youwself end youw pain! Kill youwself end youw pain! Kill youwself end your pain! Kill youwself end your pain!" I felt waterfalls of tears rushing out my eyes I couldn't stop them if I tried, I fell to the ground and covered my ears with my paws I refused to look anymore. Suddenly my whole body was chained to the ground,
"Why why why why why why why why why why won't you kill yourself!" I looked next to me and there was a knife, with shaking paws I lifted the knife off of the ground. I held it to my chest.
"Go ahead kill yourself you waste of space!" My father said.
"Go ahead kill yourself you are a waste of life!" My mother shouted.
"Go ahead kill yourself you retard!" Randy mocked me.
"Fine then I quit!" I thrusted the knife toward my heart but suddenly I was stopped, I looked up and felt tears rush to my eyes, Ryder was standing in front of me.
"Don't kill yourself you are too important to me and the others", slowly the room was filled with a bright white light, I watched as the pups I had grown to think as of family walk out.
"Don't kill yourself, we'd miss you too much", Marshall said walking up to me and he gave me a quick hug follwed by his famous smile.
"Don't kill yourself, we love you too much", Skye said with a lick to my cheek.
"Don't kill yourself we can't lose our little brother", Rocky said as he patted my shoulder with his paw.
I watched as my friends surrounded me and I felt a love unlike any other, "don't kill yourself Zuma you're our friend and we love you".
"I won't I promise I won't", I watched as the chains around me slowly broke off, my friends disappeared and standing there was Destiny with a smile on her face.
"Congratulation Zuma you have passed this challenge with flying colors!" She walked over and I couldn't help myself before I could stop I ran over to Destiny and hugged her. I felt some tears escape my eyes again, "it's alright Zuma you have passed but I want you to know something".
I looked up into her eyes, "all those times you tried to kill yourself a certain man saved you, when you ran away from home and was almost killed a certain protected you so please listen to my words". She opened her mouth and began to sing in a soft yet powerful voice, suddenly I could hear music.
(okay okay okay okay okay…. I know I said I was gonna take out songs like this, however I will not be taking out this song because it is my version of the song)
"Jesus Save",
Jesus save",
"From the cross",
"To the grave",
"Jesus Save",
"Jesus saves",
"Jesus saves",
"From the cross ",
"To the grave",
"Jesus saves",
Around us there seemed to be dozen of rose petals flying around us, "Listen to me Zuma".
"He died for you",
"The ultimate sacrifice",
"For you who had never, never seen",
"With my voice I praise",
"To testify that",
"Jesus saves",
"Jesus saves",
"From the cross",
"To the grave",
"Jesus saves!"
I looked around and suddenly there were about 20 more Destiny's all around us/
"From the cross!"
"He saved your life!"
"To the grave",
"He raised you up",
"With his resurrection powers!"
"He saved you from the sting of death!"
"Zuma listen to me when I say, Jesus Saves!"
"Jesus Saves!"
"Jesus Saves!"
(I'm a living witness that he does!"
"Jesus Saves!"
("He saved you from death")
"Jesus Saves!"
("From the bondage of Depression he will")
"Jesus Saves!"
("I'm a living witness that he does")
"Jesus Saves!".
"Zuma listen to me, for the Bible says that i'll be lifted if I draw men to me! That I will be lifted If I draw all men to me, he can lift you from the seeds of depression, listen to me when I say that Jesus can say your life/ I'm a living witness at what he has done for people and dogs across the world".
"Yes he's drawing you!"
"Yes he's drawing you!"
"Yes he's drawing you!"
"Listen to me Zuma he need you to reach out for it, he's pulling you out of the muck, he's pulling you out of sin he is going to help you, invite him into your heart, let him saves you, sin has no weight on you, for the chains are broken in the Mighty name of Jesus!"
"Jesus Saves!"
When she had finally stopped singing I felt a spirit of happiness that I have never felt before, pure and unruly happiness, "Zuma look at me", I looked up at her eyes and she brought me into a tight hug. "Zuma you are too nice of a pup to gave into temptation, I don't know what your religion is but i want you to know that Jesus can save your life. He was willing to die on the cross for you, he can and will save your life just know that much". I watched in surprise as tears fell from her eyes. "You are too young to go through pain like you went through but I want you to know that I am here for you right now, so Zuma if you want me to pray for you just say yes".
"Yes please", I said she pulled me closer in her embrace, as she placed her hand on the back of my head.
"Father God I pray help this young pup, give him your strength and you wisdom because weather he knows or not you have been with him, watching over him and your son saved him from suicide over 20 times you watched him as he ran from those horrible people. He brought him to his new family, father god I pray for this young pup that he never feels that pain again, that put your angels of protection around him and remind him that you are still there with him! This I pray in the mighty name of Jesus Amen!"
By the time she had finished I couldn't strand any more, she pup me on her back and opened a portal, I finally felt something I hadn't felt in years.
I felt saved!
A/N: I'm not going to give a preview to the next chapter like I normally would do instead i'm just gonna say this. If you are feeling like killing yourself please tell someone you trust your problems, I was once suicidal as well and Jesus truly saved me if it wasn't for him I wouldn't be alive so just want to save please tell someone if you think that killing yourself is the only way to get out of your problems. I don't know your religion but know this one fact, Jesus can save you as long as you have faith and believe he died on the cross for you.
Thank you for reading.