A/N: So sorry for the cliffhanger but I think this one makes up for it. It's very sexy, so you maybe need a shower yourself afterward. Thank you all again for all the messages. I try to respond to every PM I'm getting, but working with one hand is still not something I'm good at. It means the world to see how many of you are thinking of me. I'm getting better every day, and I soon hope to be back at my normal posting schedule. Friday I have an appointment in the hospital, and I'm hoping the cast can go off my wrist then, so then I will be able to type easier! Much love and enjoy! Xx

Chapter 38: Making it rain.

I can't believe how bold I feel at this moment. It is like my body is taking over control, completely ignoring the shy girl that I know I am deep down. I feel this huge tingle throughout my entire body and ever since I saw Christian return from his run, all sweaty and rough, the ache in between my legs is burning.

My hands try to touch as much of his skin at once, his chest and back, his face and his hair. I want to pull his hair and let my nails run over his back before I let my hands go over his chest, lower and lower until I reach his member. As a result, my hands are all over the place and our kisses get messier by the second. I have no idea what I am doing, I just know that I want him.

"Baby..." I feel him say against my lips. I know he wants to say something, but I don't want to stop kissing him. I want him to feel how much I have been missing him and how many times I have thought about this.

"Ana,"

I ignore him again, completely lost in focussing on him. His lips on mine, his skin under my hands, it feels so good. I don't know if it's because we had a horrible morning at my parents, or because I haven't seen him in so long, but my whole body is on fire. It actually hurts.

"Ana, baby, stop." This time he pulls away determinedly, his head resting against the tiles behind him while he catches his breath. His hooded eyes are focussed on me, almost black with lust and want. Why the hell does he want me to stop when he is looking at me like that?

"What? What's wrong?" I sound equally out of breath. I'm also still trying to pull his mouth back on mine, but Christian is too big so I can't reach him.

"Nothing. Fuck Ana, nothing. You drive me crazy." He says while his hands grab my hips and pull me against him a little more, letting me feel how much his words are true. "But we have time, baby. I want to take my time with you."

He leans down to capture my mouth again, this time slowly nipping my lips before he gently pushes his tongue inside. It feels amazing, sweet and soft, but it is not what I need right now.

"Christian," I start when I have pulled away from him. "I love you and it is very sweet that you want to take it slow, but I can't right now. I feel this thing, and it almost hurts." I feel my cheeks get redder with every word I speak, but he needs to know.

A smirk appears on his face, eyes bright, and I can instantly tell he is going to tease me.

"Really? What kind of thing are we talking about here?"

I should have known that he would react this way, it was an easy one. If I wasn't feeling as worked up as I do, I would've hidden my face in his chest and mumble something completely inaudible.

"I don't know," my blush is spreading, I can tell. "I feel it, you know, there. It's burning. It feels like my whole body is shaking and my muscles can't seem to relax."

His smirk is even bigger now, and he pushes me back just a little bit making sure that there is a small distance in between us.

"Here?" His hand moves down in between my legs and lightly touches me once, making me jump. "Are you trying to tell me that you are horny, Ana?" He has a full smile on now and it is making me shy. "Do you mean to tell me that your tight pussy is warm and wet, waiting, begging for me to give you what you need?"

Holy hell. Oh my God. I'm pretty sure that my complexion will never be normal again. I just can't look at him after what he just said, it is too much. Too sexy. And I am too warm. This can't be normal.

"Hey, look at me, baby." I feel his hand under my chin, moving my face, forcing me to look at him. "Don't look away, I love this." He pecks my lips, making my need for him even bigger. "Do you want me to take care of you?"

I can only nod my head. I want him.

He kisses my lips again before his hand drops in between my legs, this time touching me properly. His eyes never leave my face while he touches me slowly, in little circles over my nub. It feels amazing and in no time I feel it building, it happens so fast that I have trouble standing up.

Just as I am about to come, Christian stops. How dare he.

"Don't stop. Please don't stop." I manage to say. My voice is so breathy and different that I don't even recognize it.

"I won't." He growls while moving down so he sits on his knees in front of me. "Put your leg over my shoulder."

I do what he says immediately, holding the glass wall for balance. The moment my leg touches his shoulder, his hands grab my behind and his face is buried in between my legs, licking me rapidly.

"Fucking fuck, Ana. So good. Your taste is so fucking good." He speaks against me while his hands move to my back before he drags them down again, his nails moving over my skin.

The sensation is almost making me come. I feel all my muscles contract and my legs are ready to give out.

His tongue picks up speed, and he also starts sucking on my flesh. The sounds that come from him are so sexy an raw, he is completely into this. When I look down, I see that he is already looking at me. I can tell that he enjoys looking at me. His eyes are dark and his pupils wide. His mouth is working on me and he looks amazing. It does something to me, him on his knees in front of me, pleasuring me like it is the best thing he has ever done.

The moment one of his hands moves to my breast and pinch my nipple, I come. I feel Christian's arms holding me up while I moan his name, my whole body shaking. The relief is so big, I'm almost passing out.

"Oh God, enough." I push his head away from me, feeling way too sensitive to be touched right now. The aftershocks keep on coming full force.

"Jesus baby, I'll never get enough of this." Christian breathes while he moves to stand, still making sure he keeps me up.

We stand under the shower stream for a few minutes, me trying to calm down while Christian rubs my back. I can feel him throbbing against my belly, and I am amazed by how steady and relaxed he looks right now. His complete focus is on me, even though it can't be comfortable for him to be this hard.

When I have calmed down enough, I move my hands over his chest down until I can grab him in my hands. Christian's breathing instantly changes and I swear he hisses the moment I begin moving my hands up and down, making sure that every inch of him is covered with my hands.

"Can I do the same to you?" I am very nervous about doing this, but I also really want to. I have heard José and Mandy talk about doing it, and even though I pretended not to listen, I secretly paid attention so I'd know what to do a bit if the situation ever occurred.

Christian looks at me with a shy smile on his face, but his eyes are daring and bold.

"Do you want to?" His thumb moves over my lower lip, his tongue moving over his own. He looks amazing like this. Wet hair, droplets on his face, the water flowing perfectly over his chest and his eyes glued to me like I am the only thing in this world that matters.

I nod my head. "I do. I've never done it obviously, but I want to. I just need a little bit of guidance."

"Fuck, I love that you don't know what to do. I can tell you just how I like it, only me." His eyes ooze lust and he actually looks a little high on it. "Just give me two more minutes. The thought of finally having those lips around my dick almost makes me come."

It is almost comical, the way he looks right now, eyes closed and trying really hard to control his breathing, it makes me giggle.

"Are you laughing at me, Miss Steele?"

I shake my head. "No, I've just missed you."

He smiles before he kisses me once. "You have no idea how many times I've thought about you in front of me, on your knees and eyes on me while you have me in your mouth. You can't blame me for needing a minute when you tell me that you want to now."

Just as I thought that my blush had somewhat disappeared, he says this and I'm instantly beet red again. And even though it makes me very shy, it also turns me on when he talks like this.

"So, should I start with getting on my knees then?" I'm surprised by how eager I sound. I want to see his reaction when I do it and I need him to talk me through it.

He takes a deep breath and then nods, grabbing my hands to support me when I get on my knees and level with his very, very big erection. Now that I see it this close, I'm almost certain that it is bigger than ten years ago, even though I have no idea if that is possible. It is very intimidating and I suddenly am not sure if I can do this.

Christian moves my hands to his belly and then guides them down over his wet skin so they reach his member.

"Do you know what this does to me, Ana?" His voice is raspy and I can feel the grip he has on my hands tighten.

"I'm not doing anything yet."

"Fuck, baby. Keep telling yourself that." He chuckles while moving one of my hands to grab him. He holds his own hand over mine and starts moving slowly, up and down. He also moves slightly forward, so his tip is closer to my mouth.

"Can you wet your lips a little bit?" He asks me. His eyes are focussed on my lips.

I do what he asks me and make a show of letting my tongue run over my lips, making him groan.

He pushes forward a little more so that his tip touches my lips. He doesn't ask me to do anything though, he just rubs himself from left to right. I can feel the pre-cum coating my lips a bit.

"Please, kiss me." His voice is low and sexy and his eyes are so dark I almost can't see his pupils.

I pucker my lips and kiss the tip, my mouth opening a little to give him just a little more.

"Start here," he says while he guides my head to his shaft.

I give him little nipping kisses, working my way back to the tip. After that, I do the exact same thing on the other side. In the meantime, he lets go of my hand which is still wrapped around him.

"Use your tongue, baby."

I look up at him and let my tongue take the same path as my lips did moments ago, making Christian groan once again. His hands are both behind his head, and he is watching me.

When I'm back to the tip again, I open my mouth and take him in. I try to take in as much as possible, pushing him further and further into my mouth, but I just know that I can't fit him in completely without gagging.

I obviously take Christian by surprise with my action, because he jerks slightly before his hands move into my hair, preventing me from taking him in deeper.

"Easy, baby. Take your time. Just use your tongue and maybe suck a little. You don't need to take in all of me to make me feel good." He tells me, obviously seeing that it is causing some trouble. I love the way he talks to me to let me know what to do. He is so sweet and gentle yet so very sexy.

I do what he says and start sucking on him, moving up and down. I also try to let my tongue come into play from time to time which he obviously appreciates because his legs buckle every time I do it.

"Just like that. A little harder, Ana." He growls while his hips start to move with me, picking up speed.

It is amazing to watch him from my spot on the floor. He is wet and all his muscles are tense. I make him feel like this, and it gives me a feeling of power and control like I never experienced before. Seeing how much pleasure this gives him, is giving me pleasure as well.

After a few minutes of sucking and licking him, I can feel him grow and his moans get more intense as well. I think he is close, and I can't wait to see how he comes. But just when I think he is ready to come, he pulls himself out of my mouth and moves his member upward.

"Use your mouth on my balls, baby. Please."

One hand is pumping himself, and the other hand moves my head to where he wants me. I waste no time in sticking out my tongue, running it over his balls. I have no idea if this is what he wants, but by the sounds that he makes, I think he is enjoying it.

"Fuck yes. Suck on me. Fuck, I'm almost there." The words leave his mouth in a plea and he grip on my hair gets even stronger.

I start sucking on him and grab his upper legs for support. The hand on his member is moving up and down faster and faster, chasing his orgasm. I stop the suction and let my tongue run in circles over his balls while my nails dig in his skin.

"Yesss. Fuck, I'm coming." He grunts and then pushes me backward. For a moment I look at him confused, but then I feel warm spurts hitting my breasts. His hand is still moving up and down slowly while he comes down from his high, and all I can do is look at him. He looks amazing, absolutely breathtaking.

"Wow." Is all I can say when he leans back against the tiles, looking completely spent.

"Fuck, wow is an understatement." He chuckles. "That was fucking amazing, Ana. It was even better than my fantasies and those helped me through these ten years."

He grabs me by my arms and pulls me up and against him. We take a small step back so we can both stand under the water, my head on his chest where I still feel his heartbeat go fast. His hands move up and down my back. It feels so intimate and safe, it makes me realize again how lost I actually was without him.

"You have no idea how special you are, Ana. How much you mean to me. The way you manage to make me feel, not just like this, but when you are close to me, it is like everything is finally making sense. I feel alive again."

I just nod my head and move into his chest even more. I can feel tears forming my eyes, and I want to tell him the same but I know that if I reply to his sweet words, I will cry. I hate it that every time it comes back to those years we've missed.

"I know you feel the same, you don't have to tell me. Just stay close, just like this." He mumbles, his arms moving around me in a vice grip.

Once again he surprises me by responding to what I feel. He can read me like a book, it's like everything is on display for him.

Only for him.

"Do you want to watch a movie?" Christian asks me after we've had lunch. He is sitting on the couch wearing sweatpants and a tank top and I just want to crawl into him.

"Sure" I walk over and take a seat next to him on the couch, immediately getting as close as possible. Just like a reflex, his arm moves around me instantly. I don't care what we do really, I just want to be close.

Christian is scrolling through Netflix while we bicker over what movie we are going to watch when I hear my phone, that is on the table in front of us, go off. When I look at the caller ID, I see José's name.

"Hi, Josy."

"Yeah, not to be a complete bitch or something, but it is almost four o'clock and I am blowing balloons all by myself right now. I get that you rediscovered the D and that you are probably very, very into it, but this was not the deal, Anastasia."

Shit, I completely forgot. Mandy's surprise party.

"Oh God, I completely forgot." I sign.

"No shit," José responds immediately.

I look at Christian, who is still scrolling through Netflix, not really paying attention to my conversation with José. I really don't want to go home and leave Christian, but I know that I have to. José and I have been planning this party for weeks, and he and Mandy will never forgive me if I don't attend because I'd rather spend the day in bed with Christian.

"I'll be there soon," I tell José while standing from the couch, catching the attention of Christian.

"Good. Can you pick up the cupcakes as well? I was planning on getting them but I'm busy here with decorating everything on my own. It is a lot of work you know. And I'm scared shitless that Mandy suddenly decides to come home early."

"Jesus, don't be a drama queen. I'm sorry, okay?" I groan. "Look, Mandy is out with her mom, she won't be back until after dinner. I'll get the cupcakes, don't worry. See you soon."

"Alright, hurry. Don't think about doing a quicky." José bitches before I disconnect the call.

"You need to go?" Christian asks the moment he realizes I disconnected the call. He looks like a sad, little boy which makes it even harder for me to leave.

"Yeah, José and I have been planning a surprise party for Mandy for weeks, and tonight is the night. I completely forgot. I'm sorry, I wish I could stay here with you, but José is almost having a mental breakdown."

He stands from the couch as well and wraps me in his arms like he has done it for ages. I love how he can wrap himself around me and makes me feel like he shields me from everything.

"I can help? I mean, if you need help and want me there, of course." He sounds unsure and it is very cute. Why would he think I wouldn't want him there?

"That would be great!" I say enthusiastically. "Are you sure though? I mean, José is going to go crazy when he sees you and he will ask you all kinds of embarrassing questions. Not to mention Mandy when she comes home tonight. And I am sure they will both be drunk within an hour and then the questions will probably be even worse."

Christian chuckles and kisses my forehead. "I can handle that as long as you are with me." His arms pull me against him a little more. "I'm just not ready to let you get away from me. I need to be able to talk to you, kiss you and touch you."

My blush is back again and although I hate it when I blush, I also love it when he talks to me like this. It makes me feel loved and I am really happy that he wants to join me. Outside of José and Mandy, I don't really know a lot of the people that are coming tonight. José invited everybody and while I'm sure I've seen them all before, I'm still not very good at making contact with them.

"Okay, but I've warned you."

"It'll be fun. And maybe I get to see you drunk as well. I'm sure you'll be a little nymph when you've had a drink. Fuck, I want to see that." His warm breath caresses my neck while he whispers in my ear, making me shiver.

"I don't drink," I pant, completely worked up already just because he said something to me. It is insane.

"What? You had wine yesterday."

"I know. But I only had a few sips. I needed to calm the nerves. Usually, I don't drink. I'm always the one who stays sober and keeps José and Mandy in check. It never really appealed to me to get drunk."

The thought of giving up control like that scares me. I've seen Mandy do crazy things when she was wasted, and the next day she didn't remember anything. I would go insane if that happened to me.

"So, you've never been drunk?" Christian's eyes are wide like he can't believe that I've never had a shot too many.

"No, not even felt the tingle." I simply tell him. I have no idea why he is so shocked. He acts like it is a big accomplishment to get drunk.

"Damn," he mumbles, a grin on his face. "I'm definitely going to get you drunk sometime when it is just you and me. Just thinking about drunk sex with you gets me hard as rock."

He is looking so excited right now, I just can't help but giggle. "We'll see. Come on, we need to pick up some cupcakes on our way back."

We walk to the bedroom to change and since I have nothing else to wear, I have no choice to put on the black dress I wore yesterday. José will have a field with that one.

Suddenly I am nervous. Christian will meet José and all the other people that will come tonight. I just know a lot of girls will be completely in awe of him and I don't like the idea.

"That dress is truly stunning, baby. You look gorgeous." Christian interrupts my thoughts.

I smile and turn around to face him, and when I do, I see him looking at me in awe. His eyes burn with love, endearment, and want and immediately I feel better about attending the party with him. This man is completely devoted to me, just like I am to him.

I have nothing to worry about.