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Chapter 35: Guelph, Canada

BPOV

I was trying to reign in my giddy nervousness, but judging by the smirk on Jasper's face, I wasn't doing a very good job. Today was my first day of college, something he and the rest of the family had experienced dozens of times before, so he was amused at my anxiousness and insecurity of being a freshman.

He was carying the boxes with stuff to decorate my dorm room. All freshman students in Guelph stayed in dorms and I ended up in Johnston Hall in the North Rez, as people called it. It reminded me of home in Forks and I found it oddly reassuring. We were walking down the wide hallways, trying to locate the assigned room. At least I didn't need to worry about who my room mate was going to be, since Rosalie and I were going to share a room. If you had told me that a year ago, I would've laughed my ass off. But during the summer, we had grown closer. Not that we were BFF's now, but we could be around each other without her throwing a bitch fit and me being intimidated and/or irritated by her behavior. In any case, she said she wasn't going to be around much since Emmett's room was across the hall from us.

Emmett and Jasper were sharing a dorm room as well, very conveniently located right on the other side of the hallway. I wondered what kind of bribe had made sure of that. There was a silent agreement between the four of us that Jasper was staying over with me and Rose would be found in Emmett's room. It would almost be like living together. Not that that would be any different from what we had been doing all summer. At one point Emmett started joking we were attached at the hip.

"Room 204, here it is," I exclaimed and at the same time the door on the opposite side of the hall flew open, showing a beaming Emmett.

"Hey little sis, you're finally here. Did you get lost or something?"

I felt a slight blush creeping up my cheeks, because we actually did get lost. I had insisted on driving from the new Cullen home to the dorm, so I could take in the surroundings and to make sure I knew my way around the place. I had even forbidden Jasper to help me, hence the getting lost. Annoyed by the fact that Emmett made me blush again, I huffed and flipped him off, earning me a chuckle from Jasper.

Giving my big vamp brother the finger wouldn't have crossed my mind a couple of months ago, but being with Jasper had really given my self esteem a boost. I had come into my own, one could say, both sexually and as a person. I finally felt worth it to be with Jasper, to be a Cullen. It also meant I wasn't as easily embarrassed around Emmett anymore and we had lots of fun teasing the other during the summer. There was only one thing left to get me to blush frequently and that was my absent sense of orientation. I hated it when I resembled a stereotypical girl and he used that often to drive me up the walls.

I unlocked the room, while Jasper and Emmett were conversing silently. Rose had done a fabulous job getting the room ready for me. The two single beds that were in the room were pushed together to create one giant bed I could share with Jasper. It was directly across from the door, beneath a large window that overlooked the back yard of the building. The walls were freshly painted in a warm redbrown and red curtains were lining the window. On the left side was a large desk, with on it two picture frames, one showing a picture of me and Charlie at graduation; the other was a picture of the entire Cullen family posing in front of their house in Forks. I had never seen that photograph before and suddenly I realized they had taken this especially for me to remember them and the house by; me not having a perfect memory and all.

Jasper had followed me into the room and put the boxes with the last of my things down next to the door. Emmett was standing in the doorway, but I decided to ignore him for the time being. I walked up to Jasper and he pulled me into his arms. I sighed my little happy sigh I had let out more than I could count over the last few months and Emmett chuckled.

"I think that's my cue to leave," he said and pulled the door closed behind him.

"Tell Rose I love the room," I said in a normal tone.

"She says you're welcome," Jasper whispered into my hair. "Now what do you want to do first? Unpack or go on a tour of the place?"

"Well, I was thinking of doing something else first."

"And what would that be, darling?" Japser asked, while his eyes were rapidly turning darker. There was no surprising him with my intentions, since I had promised to give him full access to my feelings, but he liked it when I spoke them out loud.

"I was thinking we could baptize our new room first," I said in my most innocent tone.

"And annoy Emmett a little?" he asked, while he started kissing my neck and ear, his hands slowly unbuttoning his shirt.

I mock gasped, "that thought hadn't even crossed my mind, Jasper."

"Yeah right," he said between kisses and lifted my t-shirt over my head. "Desk or bed?" he added while picking me up.

"Desk."

He sat me down on the edge of the desk and with a flick of his fingers, my bra was gone. I leaned back on my elbows, as he started sucking on my nipple. Most of the time, I loved it when he took it slow and took his time to make me come first. Now though, my desire for him was getting the better of me. He was so in tune with my emotions, he knew what I needed immediately. He unbuttoned my jeans and slid it off me along with my panties, only to be naked himself not one second later. We stilled for one second, looking in each other eyes, seeing our love and naked want mirrored in the other's faces. There was no need to talk, but I did anyway.

"Fuck me, Jess," I moaned as he grabbed my hips to position me in front of his dick. I wrapped my legs around him as he thrusted deep inside of me. He took hold of my knees for leverage and I leaned back again, giving me a good look of my vampire sex god. His black eyes were locked onto mine, amplifying our lust between us until I could take no more. I tried to hold back my screams, something there was never any need for before. Jasper leaned forward and offered his hand for me to bite on, which I gladly accepted. Just as a bit down, Jasper thrust harder and seconds later, he growled my name, almost too quiet for me to hear, shooting his load inside of me. I loved it when my orgasm made him come.

In my post-coïtal bliss, I suddenly realized, I had nothing to clean myself up with. I had no paper towels yet in the room and there was no ensuite bathroom. When Jasper felt my emotion and saw the look on my face, we both burst into laughter.

"So far for the baptism," I giggled. "Do you have any idea how to get cleaned up, without spreading you sperm all over my room?"

"Why did you have to say that out loud, Ellie?" Jasper said in a pained voice. "Now we're never going to hear the end of it from Emmett."

"Woopsie," I said, my giggles getting louder. He rolled his eyes at me, but I knew he was just as amused as I was. In the end I used his boxers to clean up, got dressed and made my way over to the bathroom. Jasper would have to go commando for the rest of the day, something he didn't mind. If we could survive Emmett's remarks, this first college day would be perfect.

That first week rushed by so fast, I had a hard time remembering everything that happened. Classes turned out to take way more of my time than I had anticipated. Why did I have to major in sciences? We had about 40 hours of class and labs, luckily the labs started only the third week of the semester, giving us all the time to get settled in.

My first class was so overwhelming I was glad I had Jasper by my side to send me some serious calming vibes. There were about 800 people in that class, Basic Biology, and we were given so much information I had to resort to Jasper's perfect memory, because I couldn't keep track with my notes. I managed to struggle through it without having a full on panic attack and it felt like a little victory to me. For the next classes, I knew what to expect, so I came better prepared and when I survived the one class I had without Jasper, I realized I could do this.

What I wasn't prepared for were the parties. There seemed to be a party in my building every night that first week. Determined to have the full college experience, I wanted to attend every single one of them. After the first one, the three vampires decided to stay away; too many drunk people. I understood and suggested to stay in as well, but they wouldn't hear of it. They were backing me all the way with the whole college experience. Although it seemed like Jasper was regretting that decision, when I had my first hang-over and I didn't make it to the bathroom in time to go and throw up. Only three days in and Emmett was calling me 'college girl gone wild'. After that, Jasper and I had a long talk about drinking opposed to having fun and I promised to reign it in a little. That didn't stop me from having the time of my life though. I felt liberated and happy and that influenced Jasper greatly.

Eventually routine with classes and labs set in and there wasn't much time left to party anymore. Me and my newly made friends would go out on Friday evening, celebrating the end of the week and the rest of my evenings were equally divided between Jasper and school work. And with him being in a lot of my classes, lines between them weren't very clear. In the weekends, the four of us, Rosalie, Emmett, Jasper and I would hang out or visit something in the area, sometimes joined by Carlisle and Esme. Edward had decided to go study in London for a year, but he came by sometimes to visit. The awkwardness between us was slowly fading and I was confident he would be joining us the next year.

All in all, life was good and I was happy, beit very tired from time to time. There was something missing though, only I couldn't quite put my finger on it... It was just a feeling, hidden deep inside, a fleeting thought in the back of my mind. Until one day I realized what it was. I had been biting my lip absently while working through my notes, when I tasted blood. I looked up to Jasper and saw his eyes darken instantly. He closed them almost immediately, not wanting me to see it, but he was too late. When he opened them, his normal honey colored eyes were staring back at me, but I knew. He was still tempted by my blood and I was slowly torturing him. Feeling my feelings, he sighed deeply and motioned for me to come sit next to him on the bed. It was time for 'the talk'.

"I don't want you to feel pressured, Ellie," he said taking my hands in his.

"I know, Jess. And I want you to know I'm not ready yet. But we've postponed this conversation for too long."

He sighed in relief at my words.

"But I also want you to know," I continued, "that I haven't changed my mind. I want to become a vampire."

"I know," he simply said and with those words he sent me all the love and acceptance for my decision he had. "It won't take long anymore though and there are some decisions that need to be made. We have to fake your death, get you new papers and find a place to live while you are a newborn."

I knew all those things were necessary, so I had looked up a lot of stuff, when I was procrastinating from my school work. A car crash, although quite a cliché to fake a death, was easiest. The trouble was making sure the authorities didn't perform an autopsy on whichever body ended up in the car. Jasper assured me Carlisle could handle everything concerning the accident and the body involved. Papers were easier to come by, since Jasper had a contact who could arrange it quickly for the right sum of money. I had asked Carlisle whether I could take his name and he had agreed. I would become Isabella Cullen for the time being. Later on, if Jasper and I decided to get married, I could always take his name. As for the place to live in, I wanted to go to Alaska. I had heard so many stories about the Denali clan, I couldn't wait to meat them actually.

When all the decisions were made, I felt like a weight was lifted from my shoulders. The only thing left was the actual change. But there was no hurry in that now.

"Do you have any idea when you want to change?" Jasper asked later that evening, when we were cuddled up on the bed.

"I'm so happy here like this, I'm not quite ready yet. I'd like to finish this year for certain. But after that, I don't know. I don't want to wait too long once I decide I'm ready."

"What do you suggest?"

"I'd like you to bite me the moment I tell you I'm ready. I believe at one point, I will just know, and there will be no reason to wait anymore."

I didn't know if that explanation even made sense, but he nodded and hugged me tightly. We were all set to start the next phase in our lives. In the mean time, I was going to savour the last months of my humanity to the limit.

AN: She's come a long way since that first chapter, hopefully you're still enjoying it.