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Inner Thoughts

Inner Yokai

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Chapter 38:

(Inuyasha POV)

"It feels...like your deep inside me."

It was hot…

Like midsummer- 108F hot. All that heat pulsating deep under his skin, burning so hot it was just waiting no- begging to burst out of him. His body was radiating with heat but on the inside, he was being filled with everything that made Sesshomaru powerful, everything that made him terrifying, and everything that made Inuyasha crave every inch of his tainted demonic flesh.

Inuyasha knew what those words meant. He knew that his brother could fix everything that was wrong with him, if he just let him. So he clung to him- digging his nails deep into his shoulder, begging for him to come closer.

But I don't beg. His mind was heavy his vision hazy but he knew who was in this room with him. He could smell it from the hair that fell all over his face or by the power that electrocuted off of his fingertips.

What? He wanted whatever it was Sesshomaru was so determined to keep from him. He wanted that part opened, bare, and buried deep inside of him.

A pair of glowing red eyes stared down at Inuyasha, and he knew the eyes that stared back at him were not his brother's. Was it bad that he craved him more because of it? Is it bad that his brain slipping into that mind-numbing nothingness gave him such pleasure? Is it bad that the fact that his brother no longer held back filled him with excitement?

The bright painful sun filtered through his room and once again he felt it's painful rays unapologetically burning through his rectennas. Inuyasha rose his arms to shield his eyes but just as he lifted his hand his fingers entangled in a dozen silky strings. They slipped right off of his fingers just in time for his newly opened eyes to witness the white strands fall back onto the pale- well toned- back of its owner. Inuyasha's breath caught in his throat as he quickly pulled his hands away and glazed upon the naked body beside him

What...the fuck. He cursed in his thoughts. His first instinct to run away. He began to move his body away from Sesshomaru but before any movements could be made a sharp stinging of his backside paralyzed him in place. As though seizing the opportunity Sesshomaru's arms snaked around his torso pulling him back- no even closer- into his arms. Inuyasha grunted in pain from the rough movement as a new wave of sickness washed over him- this time one less powerful and more controllable.

What is happening? He waited..waited to hear his yokai chime in with a nutty response but instead he was met with silence. Cold, empty silence, but still he could feel deep in his mind he was not alone, his yokai was simply...resting? Inuyasha shook his head. None of that mattered. What was more frightening than his yokai's silence was his brother who laid naked beside him...sleeping.

His brother who kept him close to his naked body like they were not enemies.

Inuyasha's body shivered with goosebumps as Sesshomaru's large palm rubbed up his back and down against his skin. He bit lips suppressing a small moan. His body was so sensitive and Sesshomaru's skin was so soft again his own. He froze his breath catching again his breath.

I'm not….without notice the cold air hit his back revealing to him the unwanted fact that he was just as bare naked as his brother. Without a moment's hesitation, Inuyasha jumped back- ignoring the blinding pain that came with the sudden movement- and pushed himself so far away from Sesshomaru he ended up toppling off his bed and rolling to the wall.

Inuyasha didn't let that stop him though. The first thing he did was make a bee-line for his room door. In an attempt to get as far away from His brother as possible. His hand grabbed the door handle and yanked the door open a millimeter before it was roughly slammed right back. Inuyasha looked at the pale hand in front of his face- planted firmly on the door, before slowly turning to face its owner.

"Where do you think you're going?" Sesshomaru hovered over Inuyasha like a god with flawlessly clean cut muscles and a menacing pair of blood red eyes. He was aiming to seem intimidating and it would have worked but Inuyasha wasn't scared of anyone, least of all Sesshomaru. He was filled with questions instead of answers but something about the crimson eyes that stared back at him told him that he was not speaking to his brother.

"Where the fuck do you think?" He responded but what he really wanted to say was, 'why are we naked in bed together? Why does the room smell like this? Why am I in so much pain?' all his questions stayed stuck in his throat not from fear of his brother but from fear of the answers. He didn't want to know, he did not need to know. All he needed and all he wanted was to leave.

"back to bed." Sesshomaru answered with a voice that was nothing like his brothers. No, this voice deep and filled with power. It instilled fear like a demon should, but it also carried a melodic sound to it like the demon before him was one not to be feared, but loved. Inuyasha turned his face away, his brother's eyes were too invasive for his comfort and his proximity was smothering.

"Fuck off, okay." Inuyasha pushed at Sesshomaru's chest but he barely moved. Instead, he stayed inches away from his face as if the command was an option. Inuyasha growled this time pushing with all of his might. Sesshomaru stumbled back.

"I said fuck off!" he heaved before he turned to reach for the door again. This time instead of it slamming in his face, his body was pushed against the door-his face slammed against the cool wood. He grunted trying to push off of the door with his hands but he was pinned. Stuck in place and helpless by the mercy of Sesshomaru.

"you are going back to bed. Why are you acting so disobedient? You wanted this too." Inuyasha's head swirled in confusion. Last he checked he didn't want anything to do with his brother. All he wanted was…

"Get the fuck off of me?" He yelled pushing against his brother's body as he struggled for freedom, but struggling against his brother was completely useless. He was suddenly so much stronger than usual and Inuyasha was weaker than he usually was.

"Fuck!..." He yelled before he stopped moving and laid his forehead on the door. "...let me go-ahh!" Inuyasha yelped when Sesshomaru wrapped his arm around Inuyasha's waist-lifting him off the ground before easily throwing him over his shoulder. Inuyasha froze with shock but it did not last long before he began thrashing about in his brother's arms. He punched, scratch, and even bit his brother's back before he was thrown back onto the bed.

Instantly his eyes looked up at his brother, who stood over him widen with shock and anger. "What the fuck!" he growled as he pulled himself up and stood on the bed before marched over to Sesshomaru, who waited with a smug overconfident look at the end.

"Is there a problem?" Sesshomaru question slowly raising a fine brow, a hint of his canines peeking through his lips as a smirk tugged on side of his mouth. Inuyasha could feel his face burning hot- his blood boiling over but not with the same heat that overcame him for the last few days but from complete and utter rage.

He was swinging before he even noticed. Throwing blow after blow at his brother. His punches were wild and chaotic even for him but he wasn't thinking he was just angry. Sesshomaru took some of the hits but the rest were successfully dodged before one landed on his brother's jaw. He couldn't help the triumph he felt when he watched his brother's head snap to the side but that quickly ended when Sesshomaru slowly turned his face to look back at Inuyasha His eyes were seething with pure rage and judging by the red bruise forming in his jaw Inuyasha wasn't that surprising.

Before Inuyasha could even think he was tackled down onto the bed, his hands pinned at the wrist by Sesshomaru's knees as he held him down. Inuyasha struggled against the hold but just like his previous circumstance, he wasn't going anywhere.

"What is the matter with you?" Sesshomaru growled. His teeth elongated long so his full set of canines were out to erect fear from his brother. Inuyasha turned his face not letting this show of power deter his anger.

"What is the matter with me? What the fuck is wrong with you? I'm naked in bed with you! Why the fuck am I naked in bed with you?" Sesshomaru's face seemed to soften and relax as realization struck him. He leaned back still pinning Inuyasha down before giving Inuyasha slow nod of understanding.

"Is my state of undress really so distressing to you?" He muttered watching Inuyasha carefully as if studying his prey or preparing for an unknown attack. Inuyasha couldn't stand that look. Especially not when he was vulnerable and naked. His brother was so casual about 'this' as though 'this' was a normal occasion.

"Well, what the fuck do you think." Sesshomaru frowned, letting his eyes stop trailing his brother's upper body and landing it on Inuyasha's own golden hues. For a moment he just stared, looking for something deep in Inuyasha's depths. It unnerved Inuyasha made his heart race and his body secrete sweat of nervousness. He tried to turn his head away but as soon as he did Sesshomaru's hand grabbed it tightly and turned it back to look at him. This time instead of staring Sesshomaru leaned down stopping just inches away from Inuyasha's face.

"Stop speaking, your worrying too much about little details that you already know. What your body is already telling you." Inuyasha could feel his ear flatten in confusion before his brother's lips were placed on his own. He struggled a little for a moment- eyes wide with shock. How did they get here? What had he missed? Why were Sesshomaru's lips so familiar on his own? And why did he want more?

That was when he felt it.

His yokai which up until now was so peaceful and asleep began to feel awake. His body which was already hot WITH sweat began to pulsate with a new found energy that was entirely his own but fused with everything that made Sesshomaru. He could feel it. The way their energies interacted- merging and splitting but still ever present in his body. It was refreshing. A feeling like none other. A connection that even he knew how powerful and important it was even without fully understanding.

This simple fact awoke something. Almost like a fog being cleared from his mind.

Sesshomaru didn't smell like he usually did-no something about him was mixed with a part of Inuyasha. A part of Inuyasha that had kept him alive for all these years.

Sesshomaru's teeth tugged on Inuyasha's lower lip, pulling him from his deepest thoughts and reminding him of his present condition. His brother pulled away stopping just inches from his face so their eyes made contact again.

"mine," he growled before laying his head back down beside Inuyasha's face. Inuyasha laid there still, letting his brother's body lay atop him and feeling the pressure on his wrist slowly release. This time he didn't move. Instead, he simply stared up at the ceiling above him through the strands of his brother's hair, numb from all the thoughts rushing through his head.

The day had turned over to night. The one thing that became painfully evident while sleeping in Sesshomaru's arms was that he and his brother were now…

Mated. It had taken him several hours to drill that thought into his brain and even now it felt unreal. How could that have happened? Even if he'd been completely out of it Sesshomaru would never willingly do that. For crying out loud his brother hated him.

A soft breath blew against his cheek. A reminder that his captor was still asleep beside him. Preventing him from escaping or running away. Every time Inuyasha moved even a little bit the larger demons arms would tighten around him to assure him that he wasn't going anywhere.

Inuyasha sighed a large breath of frustration before slamming his forearm on his head. How did things get so fucked up? He didn't even know how to respond to this situation. The only thing he kept thinking was that there was no way this was real. That maybe he had misread the situation. unfortunately, his inner-yokai would never let him have the luxury of being oblivious.

Sesshomaru was beautiful, almost unworldly so and beyond powerful-like another league of strength was needed to rate his brother. Plus, their kiss had been...extraterritorial- nothing like he had ever felt before and he had kissed other people. He had kissed Kagome and Kikyo, but Sesshomaru lips on his were like a hundred fireworks during Japanese festival or something.

Despite that, Inuyasha knew deep in his heart that the scars of his past were too deep to let go after one mating season. Though his body craved Sesshomaru, his mind couldn't help but remember every single reason he should stay as far away from him as possible. Inuyasha's body burned hot and Sesshomaru's cool one was the perfect cure for his seasonal heat but he couldn't bring himself to get closer to Sesshomaru. It just was not like him.

He hated Sesshomaru for this. Hated how someone he could hate so much could do so much damage to his life. It was never-ending. The amount of pain and suffering his brother could cause him and now it would be an eternity

Unless I could break it. He thought. His head turned to the side looking at his brother as the thought teased in his mind. If I could break it. There would no longer be this unwanted thing in our lives.

And no doubt his brother would hate it too. As soon as his brother returned from whatever prison his inner yokai had him trapped in. Inuyasha replaced his scowl with a neutral expression as a new found hope engulfed him. He reached over shoving at his brother's shoulder to awaken. To demand this be fixed as soon as possible.

Sesshomaru tilted his head slightly up before his eyes slowly opened to reveal the light golden color that Inuyasha Knew to be Sesshomaru He sat up pushing against Sesshomaru to detangle himself free from him before he quickly wrapped the white blanket around his nude body. Sesshomaru who was still reeling from his slumber rested his head back on his pillow- taking deep slow breaths.

"Sesshomaru…" Inuyasha began, waiting until his brother's undecided attention was on him before speaking. "I think it's pretty fucking obvious but we have a problem."

Sesshomaru's eyebrows furrowed for a moment before he released an annoyed sigh and almost too gracefully sat up from his spot in bed. "Honestly must you always be so vulgar." Sesshomaru complained before tiredly pushing his hair that fell around him back from his face to reveal his beautiful porcelain skin and stoic facial expression.

Inuyasha huffed, turning his face to the side in an uncaring manner before he muttered out his response. "Like you deserve anything less." Sesshomaru flashed him a deadly glare and for the first time that night he felt a chill go up to this spine. His yokai did not have a thing on Sesshomaru's icy-unfeeling glare.

"You're shivering. You must be cold get back in bed to stay warm." Sesshomaru spoke casually as though their state of undress or the fact that they were mated meant nothing.

Maybe he doesn't notice. Inuyasha thought as he watched his brother stand up from the bed. He waited a moment, he couldn't say the words so he hoped Sesshomaru would notice on his own. When Sesshomaru froze in his stance and his muscles tensed up Inuyasha knew.

He noticed. Sesshomaru turned very slowly as though he feared any sudden movement might prove his theory right, but no amount of care could change the unmistakable fact that they had done the unbelievable. Sesshomaru's eyes bore into Inuyasha's staring deep as if to uncover some secrete or perhaps to rewrite the truth. When none of the options happened Sesshomaru's lips shivered as he began to speak.

"you must be feeling better?" He started throwing Inuyasha off by the sudden question. Inuyasha almost punched his brother before he realized It must be hard for him to address it as Well.

"I was sick to my fucking stomach but now I'm not dying….why am I not dying?" the question came as an afterthought but it was a happy distraction that Sesshomaru gladly accepted.

"You had energy deficiency but I supplied you with some of my own to help ease your process into the mat-" Sesshomaru stopped. His jaw clenching from discomfort and disappointment. Inuyasha could relate to the anger. After all, he could barely remember anything. All he remembered was hearing forte say that he was gonna die and then the next thing he knew he felt his brother's demonic energy wash over him- leaving him renewed and rejuvenated.

Was this the price? Inuyasha's eyes hardened before he took a slow breath to steady his mind and ease his anger.

"why...are we mated, Sesshomaru?" Inuyasha spoke bluntly. He didn't have time for all the stalling and beating around the bush. All the waiting was driving him crazy and judging by the guilty look on Sesshomaru's face he knew that his brother was not as clueless as he was.

"It was the only way to save you." Inuyasha felt his shoulders slump against his side's. His eyes leaving his brother as he slowly sat himself down on the bed and pulled his knees to his chest. "I knew it was best I stay away from you during mating season but you needed my energy to give you the strength to survive you change. Apparently, you needed the demonic energy that was the most similar to your own and despite our differences, Inuyasha, I'm your brother. Therefore I was the best possible match." Sesshomaru's voice was devoid of any emotions relaying each sentence with the same factual tone of a reporter.

Inuyasha bit his bottom lip. Biting back his anger at himself for being so weak and his anger at his brother for coming to save him. It could have been anyone else but the universe had chosen him. Inuyasha tilted his head up to Sesshomaru and looked at him leaned up against the wall by his bed. He didn't seem the least bit affected by the information.

"It's fine." Sesshomaru's eyes widened and in them, Inuyasha could have sworn he saw a small bit of hope hidden in his golden depths. Inuyasha didn't know and to be honest he didn't really care. All he needed was for things to return to normal even if it meant Sesshomaru hating him. "We're not mates. We're barely brothers. It would be better for the both of us to get un-mated and forget this even happened."

A/N: Inuyasha is not the type to let something like this happen without a fight. Least in my opinion. Although this way of thinking may be more heartbreaking For the both of them in the long run. Anyways let me know what you guys think of this chapter. RR ~Love Nana.

P.s. I promise a steamy scene between the in brothers however not describing this one was to show how detached the two are to that moment and the little effect sex you can barely remember has on. In other words, I wanted to put you guys In the same shoes as the characters-waking up with almost no memory of the night before- confused and wanting answers