"Truth is… he asked me about it a few times… It was partially because he felt a bit pressured about heirs from his grandfather, but… I didn't feel ready at the time… I didn't think I'd make a good mother…"
Kagami knew that Nishiki was thinking really hard about something. It was obvious in the way his shoulders were stiff and how his lips were tugged downwards in a thoughtful frown rather than his usual cheeky smile. It made her a bit worried, because he'd been acting this way for several days.
So when he sat her down to discuss the subject of children, she felt both relieved and uncomfortable at the same time. She knew that as the clan leader, heirs were expected of him, but they'd only been married for six months.
"… Is it Ojii-sama that wants you to..?" she asked him softly, receiving a grimace as a reply.
"Well… he definitely wouldn't mind, but… I was asking more so because I wanted…" he trailed off uncertainly. She let out a small sigh, shaking her head.
"Don't… don't misunderstand, Nishiki. I… I would love to have kids with you someday… just… just not now."
He accepted her answer easily, but she could tell by the way his eyes seemed to darken that he was upset.
I'm sorry, Nishiki… I just… don't feel ready.
She made sure to cuddle him a bit tighter that night, well-aware it wouldn't make things better, but perhaps it could reassure him of the future.