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Garcia felt numb as she faced the elevator doors. After contacting Hotch and telling him she was at work, he had ordered her to go back to the apartment to get some rest. She had stayed for a while and given Kevin a new program she had developed to help with the searches. Exhaustion ran through her but she knew she it wasn't from a lack of sleep. She was starting to lose the happiness inside of her, the part of herself that kept her going every day. Reid was her baby boy, the youngest of the team and the one she worried about the most. Since his accident they had grown closer to each other but the attack by Barry had broken something in their connection. She closed her eyes as she remembered all the bite marks. So many of them along his arms all because he didn't want her to hear him scream. She had failed him, her promise to keep him safe nothing but a lie. The doors opened and she opened her eyes. She stepped back as she saw Daniel and Reid in the elevator. Daniel stepped out with Reid quickly following.
"What are you doing here?" she said as looked at Daniel's face and saw a bruise on his cheek.
"We are all going to sit down and talk," Daniel answered before stepping closer. "Trust me, he is ready to talk honestly now. I put some sense into him. We'll talk in the BAU room."
Garcia nodded slowly before walking to the BAU room and taking a seat. Daniel walked into the room and placed Reid in the seat next to her before sitting across the table to face them both.
"Spencer, talk to her. Tell her everything we talked about in the car."
Reid leaned his cane against the table and took a deep breath. "I'm so sorry for all the pain I've caused you, Garcia. I never meant to make you feel the way that you are feeling. I only kept the screams hidden and hid the pain because I thought I was protecting you. I let myself fall into a dark place and I let the darkness from that place overwhelm me. I don't think I'll ever truly get over what Barry did to me. Since that night, I've felt unworthy of the team, unworthy of you all."
"Why?" she said gently, taking his hand and holding it.
"I felt wonderful before Barry attacked me," Reid explained. "Our day in the park, when we had the picnic, was amazing. I felt nothing but love, but when he came for me in the night, he ripped away the love you had all given me and replaced it with evil and disgust. Disgust with my body and at myself for not fighting hard enough and since that night, I have constantly felt him. I feel his hands on my body and I remember the pain as he hurt me. He was an evil man and I always feel that evil on me and inside me. I haven't felt worthy of you all since then. Why would you all want someone broken?"
Reid squeezed her hand and continued to talk.
"I've been numb to the world since then and they only thing I've felt is anger. I didn't mean for that anger to hurt you that way that it has. I never meant to make you cry or feel like you had failed me. You could never fail, at anything. You are the wonder woman of the world. Daniel woke me up to everything with some tough love tonight. I thought I was protecting you. I didn't want you to get tainted with the hell inside my head and I don't want you tainted with my weakness. I was wrong to hide from you. The marks of my arms are not your failures, they are mine. I failed you. I'm pleading for forgiveness and for your help. I need you now to help me but I need you to understand that I don't know how long it will be that I need help from you. I know I can fight this but I need someone to help me."
Garcia felt relief come across her body. He was opening up to her and asking for help. He was admitting to hiding his pain when he knew it was dangerous. She placed her hand on his cheek and stroked it with her thumb.
"The reason I felt like a failure to you is because I promised to keep you safe and watching you hurt yourself, I broke that promise. Never plead for forgiveness, never plead for anything again," she began to talk. "What Barry did to you was horrific and I know that the kind of pain he inflicted on you isn't something that will go away. I can't stand to see you in pain and seeing those bite marks, it makes me feel like I wasn't there for you. As you said, I'm the wonder woman of the world. I'm strong Spencer Reid and I can help you shoulder the pain. Don't you dare think of ever keeping secrets from me again. You are not weak, you are just vulnerable. You have a wonderful spirit and it needs to repaired, you're not broken. There is nothing but good inside that heart of yours. I will help you and I always will. You never have to ask. You have to promise me that you will never lie to me again and that you will bring that fight from inside you. I want to see Spencer Reid turn into Superman."
Her heart rushed with joy as he let out a small gentle laugh. She leaned forward and kissed his forehead. "We all love you and don't you ever forget that."
"I love you all too," he said back. Garcia turned to Daniel.
"What type of tough love?"
"The kind that got me punched in the face," Daniel smiled at her. "The kind he needed."
"Let's all go home," she sighed happily.
Two hours later
Garcia placed the book she had read to Reid on the bedside table and gently put an extra blanket over him. She walked out of the bedroom and made her way to her room to see Daniel putting on his jacket, ready to leave. He went to talk but she didn't let him. Stepping forward, she kissed him passionately. He kissed her back and stroked his hand through her hair. She came away from the kiss and looked to see his eyes were closed. He brought his hands away and opened his eyes.
"Thank you," she smiled at him. "Thank you for everything. Please, stay here with me."
He smiled at her and she saw a loving look enter his eyes. "I'll stay as long as you want me."
He leaned down and kissed her again.
"I may want you for a long time," she smiled.
"Then you have me."
The next morning
Garcia moaned gently as she awoke in Daniel's arms. They had spent most of the night talking and kissing. The last thing she remembered was falling asleep in his strong arms. She grinned as she felt his lips kiss her cheek.
"Morning," he said to her. She sat up and looked down at him.
"Morning to you too," she smiled.
"I would love to make you breakfast."
"Breakfast sounds nice," she sighed happily before kissing him gently. He climbed off the bed and pulled her up into his arms.
"Then breakfast you shall have, wonder woman," he chuckled gently.
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